#promia
someone needs to kill me now before I do it myself
Some of you proanas: “oh my parent(s) were a big part of my disorder! Oh my parent(s) were obviously anorexic and they kinda passed it on to me”
Some of the same proanas: “so I have a kid but that won’t stop me from getting to my UGW”
I’m not saying don’t have kids. And if you do have a kid and you’re still struggling with your ED then more power to you, I’m wishing you the beat cause that sounds hard.
BUT kids are not stupid, they notice things and they learn a lot from you. You know this, and I’m sure you’ve experienced this. If you are still actively engaging in your ED behaviors around your kid(s), they are more likely to develop an ED too. So please get off the proana train so you don’t pass this disease on to your children. Because if you are still actively engaging in your ED behaviors around your kid(s), they are more likely to develop an ED too.
Stay strong my lovelies, I know you’re doing the best you can. Just wanted to put this out there
I have a problem…
So I stopped exercising, restricting and purging for quite a while now. This past week has been really shitty and I’m kinda having a relapse and I’m kinda sorta very disgusting. I’m still the same weight as when I stopped all my bad behaviour, but I’ve gotten a lot bigger due to muscles shrinking and more fat taking over my body. I started fasting, exercising and writing in my journal and stuff and I hope to continue to do so in the future.
Right now I’m looking for effective exercises, foods, tips and tricks to melt all of this fat off fast. If you could leave a note it would be greatly appreciated :)
Purged again??
So I was in the shower pretending to be a singer as everyone does in the shower and I started making these gestures with my hands. There was this one part of the song I was singing that went “makes me wanna spill my guts out” and I stuck 2 fingers in my mouth. I went like…oh?? and it reminded me of when I used to purge. I didnt wanna do it again but I stuck my fingers back in anyway and barfed a lil in the shower. It felt so wrong but it felt so good. Had this moment where I held some of the food in my hand and just looked at it and it was so disgusting but I couldn’t stop looking at it.
Idk why but I thought I’d share this…
Anyone have a “To the Bone” workout game??
Please send it to me if you have one.
Nothing like some hot low cal coffee to warm up your cold, dead heart.
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Me going into my binge:
Gotta love constantly hating yourself ✌️
My dad just told me he’s gonna stop buying Diet Coke for me and I started crying in front of him….gotta love mental illness man✌️
Can someone please send me meanspo I swear to god I’m fucking desperate at this point I don’t know what to do
Passed out today cuz I’ve been drinking Diet Coke for the past two weeks and the first time I drank water was to purge ✌️ I’m such a health icon
If you guys want a really low cal dinner recipe try ratatouille, it’s honestly amazing and one of my favorite safe foods ☺️ this is the “stew” kind so if you want to make it all fancy you can, here’s the recipe
Veggies
-1 egg plant
-2 zucchini’s
-2 yellow squashes
-2 Roma tomatoes
Sauce
-olive oil
-4 cloves minced garlic
-1 diced onion
-salt, pepper, and thyme to taste
-2 oz can diced tomatoes
-2 oz can tomato sauce
-as much basil as you want, it’s 0 cal
Cooking
-preheat the oven to 375° Fahrenheit (190° Celsius)
-add the olive oil in a small pot and cook the onion and garlic until the onion is soft, then mix in the thyme. Add the diced tomatoes, tomato sauce, and basil, then stir. Take out a food processor (or blender, it doesn’t matter) and add the sauce to it. Blend until semi smooth, and put it back into the pot to let it simmer
-cut the vegetables into chunks and set them in a baking dish
-pour on the sauce and mix together
-cover the dish with foil and bake for 40 minutes, then uncover it and bake for another 20 minutes
144 cals per serving (makes 8)
I tried watching Starving In Suburbia and I honestly hated it so much I’m half tempted to like make a full on rant video about it
Please please please watch out for this man, it’s obvious that he preys on underaged anorexic girls, I just want everyone to stay safe and keep yourself away from these weirdos
Not feeling great again not feeling anything at all just feeling numb, numb to the whole world I can’t even cry about my pain and problems like I used to all my smiles just feel so fake but no one really realizes. I have no motivation to do anything at all and my body just feel tried, I feel so done with everything I don’t know what to do or say anymore. If I say what I want to say it comes out wrong and I hurt the people I care for. I want my space but I feel so lonely when I have it my body and mind just feels like it’s shutting down and it’s getting harder and harder to wake up if I’m lucky to get any sleep at all i truly don’t want to go on I’ve been told so many times in my life that I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life and I can’t help but believe it no one wants to be around me because I’m too weird or I’m too crazy or better yet I’m too hard to deal with cause I’m not happy all the time. I don’t want to be alone forever I’ve tried everything to change myself, to be better so everyone can like me but eventually everyone leaves. I don’t want to be alive.
Not feeling great again not feeling anything at all just feeling numb, numb to the whole world I can’t even cry about my pain and problems like I used to all my smiles just feel so fake but no one really realizes. I have no motivation to do anything at all and my body just feel tried, I feel so done with everything I don’t know what to do or say anymore. If I say what I want to say it comes out wrong and I hurt the people I care for. I want my space but I feel so lonely when I have it my body and mind just feels like it’s shutting down and it’s getting harder and harder to wake up if I’m lucky to get any sleep at all i truly don’t want to go on I’ve been told so many times in my life that I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life and I can’t help but believe it no one wants to be around me because I’m too weird or I’m too crazy or better yet I’m too hard to deal with cause I’m not happy all the time. I don’t want to be alone forever I’ve tried everything to change myself, to be better so everyone can like me but eventually everyone leaves. I don’t want to be alive.
Why bother try, we all die anyways, might as well end it
Just another day of me regretting being born
After everyone leaves the saddest part is getting used to being all alone again
I love my water bottle more than I have ever loved myself
