#soul path
Scorpio season is coming and we start feeling our roots - dark and powerful. The most entangled with our spirit fears and obsessions, weaknesses and sheer darkness, in all its forms. Singing inside. It seems we don’t care any more about light | love | compassion, spiritual candy floss, we wish one thing - to drink the blood of life and water of death. Every wound, every kiss, every journey, and go, go till the very end when there is nothing left, only complete destruction - to start again.
Scorpio season makes it obvious, our powers are here but we’re so scared, our way is right in front of us but we’re still asking.
I love immensely Song of Ice of Fire \ Game of Thrones (till it was turned into Hollywood zomby project) *** for me it’s the story of our journeys into the darkness of this world and the way we fell swept into the oblivion life after life, to raise once more and try again. It’s our karmic stories and that’s why Song \ Game of Thrones got so popular. We’re facing the answer on that simple question — why we’re here.
But we feel also the beauty all of that, touching our core. It makes us shiver, makes us so real that the dirt of earth turns into the sky and actually there is no difference any more.
Our karma becomes a dark mother, the darkness we were born in, the path we search, it’s an answer and way.
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I write this series for Scorpio season celebrating our darkness with all the powers \ answers \ light buried inside and transformation possible when we begin opening to that.
I’ll connect characters of Song of Ice and Fire and their stories with soul paths found in astrological natal chart - that’s a journey from the past shown in the position of South Node towards the new explorations and growth reflected in the position of North Node.
North Node in Aries - South Node in Libra
Arya Stark
Once you were a part of family and the entire universe existed inside Winterfell walls, even you always knew that you were something more. Your dream was never fitting in the pattern of the world weaved around. You wished to escaped and curves of the road made you shivering. Trying to put your dream into the words - you dreamed the entire world where you’d walk your unique path. And you couldn’t wait for that, you were ready to carry your shield while still living in the children room.
But when it happened and you faced the separation it was horrible, you realized that you were only a child and your sword was a needle, you wished to turn back and be again a part of the family, you hated the lonely road leading into the darkness. But you were chosen for that road and road for you.
The Death was the first you encountered on that road - this is how the roads work, on the certain point you meet Death there - and the Death asked you to be her child and as that time you were really just a child, you agreed easily. Your fascination with roads, travels and swords, your fire, your energy and determination, your never relying on other people’s words and opinions made you good daughter of Death.
You learnt how not to be yourself and enter the houses of people and their markets and squares so they would always consider you were someone familiar to them - a girl selling fish, an acrobat, a beggar, their daughter’s friend - but they never would know you. You tried so many roles that you started losing yourself. And one day you said to Death that you wanted to leave, that it was getting to overwhelming. Death disagreed, for sure and you had to escape, only moonlight witnessed.
Death followed and you were forced to disguise yourself and became a part of touring theater - that was happy time as if after the centuries of crumsy performing you stepped outside of arena and breathed in the purity of simple being. But Death found you there and you were again pushed to move.
You’re still somewhere on the road - fighting your fears to be your dark (as you think) self and make the dream you carry in your heart happened,
struggling with breaking from the comfort and security people’s homes and hearts ready to offer you,
serving other people’s dreams and being afraid to stand alone,
carrying the bunch of masks to wear as you’re still not sure what better protects you from Death,
curled in the darkness as you can’t go further any more and can’t trust yourself any more.
Yet you are and in the end of day after all the wandering and fighting are finished, you stop to rest, and you kiss her and for a moment it seems you’re at home again.
To continue…
A gem among tarot spreads I lay down these days, it gives the similar feeling as interpreting astrological natal chart - you’re going to uncover huge volumes of information - patterns, life themes, biggest challenges and soul mission,
it gives a shivering feeling of presence of your \ your querent higher aspect in the time you’re doing the reading, really - it feels like stars and planets are reflecting in the cards, and messages, no matter how difficult and uncomfortable on the surface, come from the level of calm and assuring energy - all is well, girl, this is why you’re here - to make that impossible real, and you’ll do that, just because you’re here means you will.
I like rearranging the cards to the end of reading to create the picture of my querent’s path - I place challenges and limiting patterns of past on one side, deep wishes and all the beauty which seems so unrealistic now on another side - and tools and ways to grow and explore in the middle. It’s nice to see the path!
The positions of Soul spread correspond with 12 astrological houses:
1 - House of Self: personality, ambitions, drives
2 - House of money and possessions: value system, material possessions, financial attitudes
3 - House of communication: the way you communicate and learn, siblings and neighbors
4 - House of home: your parents, your roots, your domestic life and family
5 - House of creativity and sex: creativity, your sexual nature, fun, social life
6 - House of service and health: job, responsibilities, work relationships, health
7 - House of partnership and marriage: work and romantic relationships, how you blend your personality with others
8 - House of death and regeneration: spiritual transformation, inheritance, psychic powers, occult knowledge
9 - House of mental exploration and long-distance travels: spirituality, religion, morals, higher education, long-distance travels
10 - House of career and public standing: public image and career, material success in life
11 - House of friend and hopes and wishes: friendships, hopes, goals and wishes
12 - House of secrets, sorrows and self-undoing: your inner self, dreams, the past, subconscious, karma
Better to pull the cards for this spread in the evening,
and don’t forget to supply yourself with favorite tea - it’s going to be rather long reading.
Recently I got really disappointed with the interpretation of natal chart for my querent - I kept struggling entire Sunday but still it looked like a mixture of personal traits and common places, there was no vibration of soul to it —
till the moment I was drawn to investigate North and South Nodes,
and wow, I was near to cry as the messages were so profound, resonating with the struggle my querent was going through, suddenly all the pieces of the birth chart created the pattern and I knew this was she.
North and South Nodes are the vein of the soul in your natal chart. Soul path, your inner dragon, they say.
Basically it’s the points where Sun and Moon orbit paths around the Earth intersect, forming profound energetic relationships (same way with Ascendant \ Descendant, Midhaven \ Imum Coeli).
Nodes have special names: North Node - Caput Draconis, dragon’s head and South Node - Cauda Draconis, dragon’s tail. Showing they are opposite and still - wholeness.
When is it a time to dive deep into the messages of the Nodes in your natal chart?
- you’re in spirituality and metaphysics
- you’re tuned into your Higher Self or open to that
- you look at your natal chart interpretation and realize that you can’t relate to that or you’ve already integrated a lot of that
- certain people, situations, challenges continue to come into your life as if repeated melody
- you’re more or less aware that there are certain behavior patterns which hold you back or push forward
Too deep but go for it…
The Nodes are your inner dragon, bringing you face to face with your limits and — opening to the realization of big soul journey - where do you come from? where do you go?
Nodes are usually viewed as opposition - personal traits you already have (South Node) and what you need to integrate in your journey (North Node).
But there are so much more to Nodes and how you can start exploring their messages:
- you can read South Node - North Node as your main theme, what you’re here to explore, what special lessons to learn or to rephrase - what karma to release
- what path will make you truly you, truly happy and fulfilled no matter how hard and impossible it might seem
- your calling, mission
- what are your gifts and inner knowledge you already have (South Node) and what you’re going to integrate by overcoming your limitations and letting go (North Node)
- what are your deepest wounds and pains you’re going to heal in your journey
- South Node as your unacknowledged self, dark side reflected in people and situations brought in front of you so you can start facing that aspects of own self
- South Node as a path of less resistance, North Node - harder but worth to try path
Check your Nodes tonight and nice journey back.
