#spiritual warrior

I’m not enough - uncomfortable though, stiffness in your body - and it starts again, you run, searching for a medicine, only not to feel that not-enoughness. Maybe it’s worth to try new meditation, do new asanas or energy work, maybe new clothes or just spending the evening on your phone can ease the tension. Only not to hear the voice inside telling that you’re not good enough as a parent, not that good in your work or that all your labor isn’t bringing the result you actually desire. To go for a search outside - supposing that outer things can save you, other people’s approval or additional cup of coffee, new retreat, new life. But that’s a myth.

You might try to find someone\something to blame in your feeling that there is something fundamentally wrong with you. Programs instilled by society, upbringing, ancestor wounds. But finding something to put a blame on isn’t a way.

The only medicine is inside of you, nothing outside can fix your not-enoughness. Staying inside, seeing where that feeling is coming from, you start raising your awareness of it. Possibly, it’s a wound that needs your attention. Or it’s a signal that you should return to your center where you can realize that the feeling of not-enoughness is your resistance to being yourself, to tell your unique story where there will be self-validation, self-care, acceptance and understanding of your own way.

Here, on the line with the feeling of not-enoughness there are questions - who lives your life if you run from yourself? Who learns the lessons your soul is here to master, if you prefer to learn other’s lessons and bring into your life what doesn’t really resonate with you? Where are you if today you are not enough?

Art by Alexandra Levasseur

Practicing Isa, practicing ice

In the area of Altay, Siberia, where I live nowadays, in the wilderness of mountains, on the banks of frozen river Katun, all has stopped for now. The frosts have come, long nights and silence woven from cracking sounds of wood burning in pechka, dog’s breath, wind blowing outside. Slowed down, stopped, quiet. But it’s not a blockage or challenge to overcome - like rune Isa, drawn as a simple vertical line, if you turn it horizontally becomes a way, a bridge between two sides, the space between two dogs sitting at night on your porch.

I descend in winter, I’ve no obligations to be creative, to prove myself or be ready for the next step. The winter teaches me to be fully present, listening, seeing, feeling to develop clarity, exploring the fullness of meaning. It’s an inner creativity, nature moving through me.

I put rune Isa in the foundation of my daily practice. Isa - translated as «ice» which is the most musical, powerfully rezonant structure you can find in nature - bears presence, stability and clearity.

Every moment, every day we become stronger and able to surrender so we open a way for a spring, new birth, metamorphosis hidden during winter in slow purification of elements.

Isa.

With Chiron turning today direct in Aries we’re open to new possibilities in our healing process, able to access deep memories, rising from fragmentation into wholeness.

This is a moment where our agreement to go further matters, where we decide if we’re ready to descend into darkness, to accept what we’re going to find there; if we’re ready for metamorphosis and expansion.

The darkness is visibly fearful and hard to be discovered, it needs time, quietness, calmness to open to you the secrets, path, new territory.

Fear is a bandage on your eyes, a mechanism to hold you from reaching wholeness, it’s compartments, rooms, ideas, expectations.

Healing is about saying yes to the darkness, unknown, bringing light to the abandoned places, a calmness of warrior and openness of the child.

Intention.

You can.

Discover.

Wholeness.

Manifest completely new.

This Solar eclipse in Sagittarius with all its strong, rebellious energies of a new beginning is a time:

*to re-examine your beliefs to see how much they are conditioned by society and how much do they express your personal truth,

*to understand your healing journey as a synonym to your spiritual journey, reconnecting with your demons and shadows,

*to set intentions for a big future and light a candle of your unique gifts,

so you’ll come out from this dark time into a new circle, new era as a spiritual warrior, mature and attuned to your own faith.

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Let this 7-cards tarot spread to help you at this time of huge transit, in the moment when the gateway is open.

1 - Examining your orientation to life - how do you see life?

2 - Where were you conditioned by society, tradition, spiritual teachers etc.?

3 - What are your inner demons, you should face before stepping in a new circle?

4 - What should you become aware of to look at life as it is, not creating fantasies and escape patterns?

5 - How can you put into form new paradigm of life?

6 - How can you attune to your highest purpose? What qualities and talents are in play? 

7 - How can you start a revolution in your own healing journey?

God does not mess with free will, if you want what he’s offering you have to change.✨ You see we’re at a turning point in consciousness… "Christ Consciousness" which is the "Great Awakening" “Spiritual Warfare” is real and it’s happening “NOW"