#ukulelemollie
Doubt
I doubt my head
But my paintbrush doesnt.
My paintbrush rejoices every time it parades across the page
My paintbrush loves what I create with him
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I dont feel creative
But my guitar doesnt know this
My guitar only knows the smiles it has brought to people
My guitar only knows the feeling of my fingers dancing across its fretboard
My guitar loves the sounds I create
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I hate my past
But my lover doesnt
She doesnt see the scars the way I do
And where I would hate the scars I left in myself she presses her lips agaisnt them
Where I would see pain and mistakes she sees the hand of God shapping me to who I am
My love doesnt see my past, only my future
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I doubt myself at the best of times
But what I create, those who love me
It has always been enough
For they dont see my doubt
They only see me
M.E.
You are either a hundred miles away
Or just within my arms
You’re either music on the radio,
Or my playlist in my headphones.
You’re either the laugh I have been needing all day,
Or holding me when i have nothing i could possibly say.
You’re not two things though,
You’re just home, and thats all I want you to be.
Good poetry is like good music
It doesn’t demand your attention
Instead it brings attention to your soul
Read me
Inside and outside.
Know my thesis as well as you know my cover.
To those who dont know me describe my font like only you know it;
To those who do, decypher the odd bits that they dont even understand.
Read me inbetween my stanzas,
Between the lines where even though im not saying anything directly.
You still understand me.
Let me be your author.
Read me.
5, 4, 3…
It was five, five before you would find your time had long run out at the end of the line, and with a rushed goodbye be wisked away with both of us wishing that you could stay.
Four, on the floor, as I searched once more, all my studio apartment, for your charging chord. To be the hero one last time; to see that awestruck look in your eyes, and make one last worry dissapear in time
Three, had to be, you and me and he, not allowed to get to close, but still wanting nothing but each others company. Sneaking hand holding in the back of the car, as we shot across distances, however far.
Two, me and you, black and blue, torn up from a day that hell had surely grew, but both of us knowing what yesterday knew. Just how to get through this, when it was just me and you
One. Second to none. A number infinately more than zero, but only by a small sum. The amount of days left together. We will spend it on the run. Or we’ll spend it in the sun. Thinking up all the things we should have done.
Zero, back to five, I wish you didnt have to go. But you’ll miss work and school, I know, I know… But I’ll still be tracing the outline of your silhouette, and I close my eyes as it grows quiet in my head. And I’ll dream of you, come on you stupid sheep. Five four three two one… Sleep.
Pause
A soft wind blows through the grass,
As soft as her fingers through my hair,
It rattles the chains of the nearby swingset,
Accompaniment to the quiet sounds of trafic on an empty street.
Her smile is cool and gentle,
I see its outline while squinting up at her,
The blue sky halos her head like a crown,
My head is resting on her lap.
I kiss her hands as she smooths my stubbly face,
The whole world erases itself, save this park on the side of the road
It’s a good afternoon….
(A)maze
I dont think I’m alone
I’m just alone in my thoughts
Behind these eyes
Is a maze in which I am lost
But behind your eyes
I see only you
So I’m clawing my way out
To get lost in you
Every night feels like an ocean ride
When i fall asleep next to you
Softly held by the tide
When you hold me like only you do
The welcoming warm of the sea breaze
Is the soft sound of your breathing
The lazy current that pulls me
Is knowing i have just what I am needing
Every night is a ocean ride
when i fall asleep next to you
Softly held in the moonlight
By the one i love, you
Dorky love poem 6/19/18
Most important meal of the day,
Last we share before I see you again
Every day with you felt unreal,
Like tea with cinimon
Come back soon my love
Let me hold you in my arms again
And tell you dorky poems
That will fill my heart within
Suddenly
Suddenly its one a.m.
I wake up in your arms again
The whole room is silent except the fan
And i know now,
I never want to leave again.
Half
My drink is half gone, and I’m half full.
And the sun’s half up, and my rooms half cold.
And my beds half empty, but my heart is full.
And the doors half open, and it stirs my soul.
As my eyes are half open, yours are staring at me.
“Sorry I had the night shift.” You say half apologetically.
And you climb half into to bed, just enough to give me a half kiss,
“my shift starts in an hour.” I say my lips half leaving your lips.
“Then hold me for half an hour?” You say with half a plea.
“okay, but then I have to shower.” I say half heartedly
And I lay there in the silence, your body half pressed to mine.
And I smile as you smile, knowing your completely mine.
And we lay in our apartment, with rent half past due.
And through half a breath we whisper. I love you
Only a little while longer
Only a little while longer
Then I am home where I belong
In the arms of one who knows me
As content as the night is long.
36 hours then your beside me
And I can hold you touch your face
My love only a little while longer
Till I am in the right place.
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You whispered
And my heart screamed
That is love