#why did this happen

“I must remind myself,

over and over again,

not to fight

and beg

for your attention.”

“You don’t notice when you hurt me,

because how could you know

that anything other

than your complete

and undivided attention

causes me pain.”

- my fault, not yours.

“And although I love you

So deeply and so desperately

And although I cannot stop myself

from clinging to the thought of you loving me too,

a part of me wants to run

wants to hold my middle finger up

and curse the day you were born

And leave you

Far behind.”

“I can be there for you

when you are sad and alone and desperate.

I can hold your hand and hold you together

through your darkest times.

I can come to you when no one else would

and care for you like no one else could.

But I cannot make you love me.”

“I don’t know how to write about how it feels

to see you look at her

like I look at you.”

“You will choose her

again and again,

and I will keep on choosing you.”