girls’ night

crow stimboard with shiny things, nature, calligraphy and food requested by @crowfonder

I need to stop looking at your eyes like they hold something for me.

unaiza n, as empty as my words

things i regret

not picking my mess up sooner/ not eating my breakfast/ my heart skipping a beat for you/ not listening to what my heart had to say/ working all day/ just to keep my mind from thinking about you/ breaking your heart/ still wishing to lean in your arms/ for you’re the only person/ who wouldn’t let me down/ loving you/ denying it/ your love for me/ mistaking it for nothing/ come home/ i need you.

- unaiza n, the list never ends. put it to an end, will you?

loving you was never pretty, it was a war zone. fighting to love you or to let you go.

- unaiza n,how did i think i’ll get out of this without bleeding?

and i’ve been trying to find excuses to kiss you at the places only the sun has touched.

- unaiza n, selling myself to stars just to spend more time with you.

something about you cutting me in so deep feels like home.

unaiza n, boy bye

i was the only thing you didn’t know how to do right.

unaiza n, you were never mine to begin with

for you, I created all of this art.

- unaiza n, my muse.

there are poems etched on the back of my throat. I can’t whisper them out, but they all scream your name.

- unaiza n, the center of every poem is that I love you.

I love you to the point of madness. you could burn me to keep yourself warm and I’d let you. you could wreck my soul and shatter my heart and I’d let you. the point of love that’s driving me insane. I want your corruption, the lavender glaze on your palms, your downfall, your violent slumber. my dear darling, my gentle surrender - destroy me.

unaiza n, I love you to the point of ruin

holding you is never enough. I want to bury myself , deep in your existence. crack you open, for our hearts to become one. for you to have all of me, every bit of me.

unaiza n, I want to be yours.

If the world will be falling apart, as long as I’d be in your arms, I’d be home.

- unaiza n, home was never four walls and a roof.

fill my heart with song, let me swing for evermore. you are all I long for, all I worship and adore - in other words, please be true. in other words, I love you.

fly me to the moon, let me play up there with those stars, let me see what life is like on a jupiter and mars - in other words, hold my hand.
in other words, darling, kiss me.

If love has never left you gasping for air, ripped you apart and stirred your soul - then you have not experienced love, my darling.

- unaiza n, love isn’t always red

I want to do bad things to you, so wild, so rough that I can’t seem to put them in words.

- unaiza n, until the sun begs us to stop

you’re just a knife twisting in my heart, the burning wounds on my skin. I’ve been trying to write about leaving through the rusted door of this never ending July. but I’m so blinded by the ember sunsets, the hazy lights in your eyes. exquisitely miserable for you – I can’t even move one foot out, or finish the empty verse.

- unaiza n, I can’t leave - I don’t want to.