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I’m sorry I’ve been gone. Here’s me trying to find my way back. In November I got an ADHD diagnosis that was 30 years overdue. I’ve been unpacking thoughts on ADHD, rejection sensitivity and friendship fails.

krissimae:

tis-i-bat-anon:

redpandaloki:

witch-without-gender:

behind-blue-eyes:

serialreblogger:

UGH there is NOTHING more frustrating than trying to research ADHD, it’s all “do you interrupt people a lot? do you find it hard to sit still?” and “boys are twice as likely to have ADHD than girls” and “here’s how to deal with your ADHD child” and there’s nothing about adults, nothing about underdiagnosis in women, nothing about RSD, dyscalculia, sensory processing, emotional regulation

i am not a little boy pretending to be an airplane in the back of the classroom. I was never allowed to be, because I was a little girl. i was a little girl who couldn’t sit still but i had to because ladies sit still while the boys shout and fidget in the background. i was a little girl who got left behind when recess ended because i was so engrossed in my small rock garden i didn’t hear the bell; i was a little girl who grew up smart enough to take precalculus, but couldn’t for the life of me remember my times tables; i was a little girl who got so angry and didn’t know how to stop it (“you can control your emotions!” my dad told me; “don’t bottle it up,” my mom said; “scream into a pillow, write it down, take deep breaths” everyone told me, and none of it helped); i was a little girl who lay awake every night terrified i’d forgotten to do something due tomorrow; i was a little girl who couldn’t make friends because socializing was hell because if i made one wrong move, received one negative response, i might as well have set myself on fire; i was a little girl who took pride in being the Weird Girl, because i had to; i was a little girl with adhd 

and now i’m an adult woman with adhd, and i know that because of people on tumblr, not because of the DSM-V. The DSM-V and the CDC tell me little boys have ADHD, not little girls. they tell me if i don’t interrupt people (don’t interrupt people, that’s rude, being rude means hurt hurt hurt because of RSD and nice young ladies aren’t rude anyway) and finish assigned tasks (don’t forget don’t forget don’t forget if you forget they’ll hate you) i don’t have the inattentive component; and they tell me if i can sit still (what kind of organs do snails have, anyway? let’s research that for four hours) and avoid butting into people’s space (don’t be rude, don’t be RUDE) i don’t have the hyperactive component; and they only ever mean to talk to parents of little ADHD boys, and there is nothing, nothing, nothing meant for me.

Wow. I relate to this so much and the thought of it possibly being ADHD never even crossed my mind.

Just from my personal experience, I’ve found it much easier to get a diagnosis and be treated for mine. More and more health professionals are recognizing ADHD in AFAB (assigned female assign birth) people and adults. I’d highly recommend seeing a mental health professional to get assessed if you think it’s impacting your daily life in massively negative ways; getting help can be a life saver.

They also don’t talk about how girls with ADHD are much more likely to develop anxiety or how girls tend to fixate on hyper control to prevent “unladylike” behavior.

It took until college for me to get a definitive diagnosis of ADHD, and even then I second guess it. I can focus on video games for 18+ hours, with no breaks, not even for food. That’s not inattentive! Doesn’t matter if I can only focus on a few very specific games or that what’s really happening is hyper fixation. I can focus therefore no ADHD. My classmates comment on how surprised they are that I didn’t make a lot of noise in class from fidgeting? Everyone fidgets, still not ADHD. Literally feel like my brain is being crushed in a voice whenever I try to study or work? I just don’t have the discipline to get my work done, not ADHD. Want to start crying cause you can’t focus and what your learning/working on just does not make sense? Suck it up, still not ADHD.

“Everyone experiences those things”

Actually, no, they don’t. I’m not hyper fixating because I’m obsessed or addicted to something. My brain just decided THAT’S SOMETHING WE CAN FOCUS ON. Normal people don’t fail to get any work done for weeks or months at a time because it physically hurts your brain and things just WONT WORK. Normal people can get comfortable when sitting.

I was tested for ADHD as a little girl but it was decided I didn’t have it, so I learned to sit still. I learned not to talk in school. I didn’t fidget and I didn’t speak unless spoken to. I hyper fixated on reading and expanding my vocabulary in third grade I was reading books at an 8th grade level because of this, but I didn’t have ADHD, I was just smart. I could not, for the life of me, figure out what the weird language of math was. it was a foreign language I couldn’t understand. but that was just me not trying hard enough. when I drove myself to tears trying to figure out one problem and being unable to move on to the next until k got this one right it wasn’t ADHD, it was me being childish and procrastinating my work. me not turning in half done work because it wasn’t finished so I couldn’t because it wasn’t done and it needed to be done to get turned in, was me being irresponsible and not caring about my grades when I cared so much it stressed me out in the fourth grade.

I got diagnosed with ADHD when I was seventeen years old. I was almost done with school by then. but that didn’t matter. we got me on meds, but they made me so sick I couldn’t eat anything and I was almost a zombie, no emotions to even struggle to regulate. (which when I had issues with that I was just “over emotional” and “a crybaby”) so we got me on new meds, and I think they worked. I couldn’t tell. I didn’t feel any different. I still hyper fixated on english and reading only now it’s fantasy and fiction because the world I see is too bleak and rattled with horrible things that my mind of anxiety, depression, and ADHD can barely handle.

now I’m twenty and off all medication and not being out back on because “it’s all in your head”. I’m twenty and just learning that the sinking feeling and tightness in my chest when I even THINK I’ve made someone close to my heart remotely upset is something that comes with ADHD that I wasn’t told about.

nobody tells you how much it actually sucks to deal with ADHD, and how its different for literally every single person with it. because while I may suffer from auditory processing (“huh?” “oh wait, *answers question/continues conversation in the middle of the person repeating*”/ “wait what? my brain said no to that-”), someone else may not, they may be able to process things perfectly but have some other issue with I don’t have.

WOW. I got my diagnosis a few months ago at age 32 and it seriously just boggles my mind. This entire post is so necessary. A diagnosis of ADD/ADHD as a late teen/early adult is just wild. You’ve lived your whole life feeling a certain way and then you get told you have ADD/ADHD. If I hadn’t worked up the courage and actually talked to my Doctor about my eating behavior and how it was making me feel, I wouldn’t have even known.

Doc decided to test me after 6 months when we talked about side effects of the med he had me on (Vyvanse) and there weren’t any negative. The positives prompted the test. 

People don’t realize you don’t need to be hyperactive to to have attention deficit disorder. 

 Don’t even get me started on the memories my #adhd brain forgets to file completely.

Don’t even get me started on the memories my #adhd brain forgets to file completely.


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ADHD makes being compassionate with others easier because we understand how it feels to be left out, hurt and as if nobody understands us, but it’s also important to be compassionate with ourselves. This is your reminder to check in with yourself! How are you doing?

We struggle, we get called out, we get negative messages from others, but let’s not forget what’s also good about us! Here’s some examples of good characteristics some of us #ADHD folk have!

Productivity is anything but linear with adhd, and boy is it hard to accept that not all our days will look the same after having a good, productive day

Neurodivergent mood ™:

Practising facial expressions in a mirror

Neurodivergent mood ™:

Being told that people can tell when your smile is fake because you’re not “smiling with your eyes” and doing the Eye Crinkle ™ so you just learned how to fake that

Do you think that they should allow adults to be diagnosed with ADHD? I’m not sure how it is everywhere but I’ve known people who tried to get diagnosed after they were 15 and weren’t able to because they were “too old” @noodlecat29

Sent 12th November~

Absolutely!

A lot of people have unfortunately been turned away because they’re “too old” for a diagnosis, but ADHD isn’t something that goes away with age. We don’t grow out of it, and we need just as much help in adulthood to cope with work as we need in childhood to cope with school.

A friend messaged today to ask my thoughts on her saying she has ADHD because she relates to tiktok videos about it, and I thought I should share my answer.

Some people in the ADHD community are against all forms of self diagnosis because they’re afraid that everyone who does it is someone who doesn’t understand it, or only relates to the “quirky” aspects that people show in posts. But as long as you do real research into ADHDand talk to people who have it, self diagnosis is completely valid.

It’s a natural stepping stone towards getting an official diagnosis—especially in places where waiting lists take years, or where a diagnosis costs money, or where someone is trapped in a family situation where theyaren’t able to see a doctor.

At the end of the day, if identifying with the ADHD communityand utilising posts that share tips and tricks for living with ADHD help you… screw what anyone else thinks. Making things easier for yourself is always the right option.

Do your research. But don’t be afraid to use the coping mechanisms we share. Do what’s best for your mental health. Include yourself as one of us if you properly understand what ADHD is—we’re all struggling, and having morepeople to talk about it with can help us feel less alone.

ndiecity:

niceferatu:

idk which person with adhd needs to hear this today but you do NOT need that extra shot of coffee. it will break you

this one will fix me

and if this one won’t then the next one will

thedastrash:

adhdfeelsandmemes:

y'all ever just get one (1) thing done then call it a day

Everyday is just me trying to get a single thing accomplished so I don’t feel like trash

Ahh I know this feeling well, my friend

When you move just right and your leg starts bouncing on its own:

It frequently bothers me that people with ADHD and Autism are expected to mask their symptoms—things that feel like part of our personality—just because they’re uncommon. 

Like I’m sorry Karen but I can’t stop fiddling AND focus on what you’re saying. I don’t demand that you get to the point when you’re boring me.

I’m different. I know. But that doesn’t make me rude. 

the-skys-rim:

adhdpie:

adhdpie:

–the Only Mood everyone else knows about: i  wanna do THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and–SQUIRREL

–galaxy brain: i was listening to the lecture but the prof said something that reminded me of something else and now i’m not sure how much time i was lost in thought

–the tutorial only comes in video format: i’m sorry, but you’ve thrown off the emperor’s groove *hurls product & its tutorial video into the sun*

–damn you hyperfocus: i went to bed intending to wake up and write but this morning i was possessed by a cleanliness spirit and spent the next 14 hours organizing the apartment

–i dont think u tried at all.jpg: did i seriously spend an entire free day refreshing twitter b/c i didn’t want to spend 10 minutes finishing my hw but wouldn’t let myself do anything else until i finished it???? (yes)

–patrick star: *unlocks phone* time to check the weather. *opens twitter* the weather. *opens messenger* the weather. *opens mobage game* theweather.*opens facebook* the weather. *opens twitter again* THE WEA–

–smells like depression: literally everything is too boring. i’m going back to sleep

#this is the post that made someone message me saying i was stereotyping adhders#when i have adhd and identity with all of this

cowards can come @ me, the OP, if they got a problem with this post b/c all of these are literally about me

I feel this but I’m not adhd maybe some of these cross over with autism

they do cross over with autism, yes! adhd and autism share many similar characteristics and symptoms, such as 

  • hypersensitivity to stimuli/becoming overstimulated
  • forms of stimming (generally to relieve hyperactivity in adhd ppl)
  • failure to comprehend social cues/the emotional state of people around us, and
  • periods of utter inward focus rendering us unaware of the world around us. 

also I can’t help noticing the similarity between adhd hyperfixations and autistic special interests, including the need to share about what we learn at G R E A T length! (I love this about us)

AND ALSO! autism and adhd are comorbid which means that people can have both autism and adhd! it’s actually not uncommon to have both!

adhd/autism spectrum solidarity yall 

> writes down task

> thinks task will be remembered because of writing it down

> forgets task & loses paper task was written on

From ADDitude Mag:

WOW this made me feel so much better knowing it’s an actually thing that happens and not just me thinking I’m the scum of the earth if I can’t do my laundry

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