#love you guys
It snowed again today; big, fluffy snowflakes. They fell for hours and are still falling now. But earlier, when the grass was still peeking through the white blanket accumulating on the ground, my mom and I went for a walk to get some fresh air.
As we were walking, we began chatting pleasantly about how easy it is to take each season for granted. Personally, I used to be very uneasy and displeased whenever summer approached, and for my mother that season was always winter. And honestly? I this past year has made me realize just how much I missed in life while thinking like that.
Because of the way I was thinking and the mindset I had chosen for myself, I was only seeing things how I wanted them to be and instead of for what they were. And when you look at anything through a lens of, “I wish things were this way,” you get stuck in an infinite loop of disappointment because obviously said thing isn’t going to fit in the perfect little box you’ve created in your mind.
This realization was why I’ve spent the last year being patient and observing things for what they are instead of what I want them to be. And what I found is that I became a lot more positive in response.
I wasn’t disappointed because I held no expectations to begin with. I wasn’t shocked and in distress when things suddenly changed because I wasn’t expecting anything to go as plan in the first place. I found myself more open, loving, and flexible than ever, and the only thing I actually changed about my life was that I changed one tiny aspect of my mindset.
It was a really cool experience to go through and was super beneficial in helping with a lot of the anxiety, depression, and other mental issues I’ve been dealing with for years.
If anyone would like me to make another post on exactly what steps I used to go about changing my mindset (because it’s not usually an easy-to-figure-out or immediate process), let me know!
For now, I love you all and wish you the best in each of your individual journeys and want to remind you that it is possible to heal from any wound. It just takes time, patience, and a little understanding. So be kind to yourselves, okay?
Blessed be, everyone!
holy shit what? I literally love you all wtf give me a hug
Hey friends! So you may have noticed my activity on here has slowed down a bit lately. I haven’t been able to to keep up with regular updates or make new gifs like I used to, and I’ve been behind on reacting to the latest news.
My love of Star Wars has in no way diminished, nor has my commitment to keeping up with all aspects of the saga. What has diminished is my time. I’ve gotten a new job that requires much more of my time than before, and some writing projects I’ve been working on are also coming together. A lot of good and big things are happening IRL, but I simply haven’t had time to keep up with tumblr as a result.
Furthermore, the pressure of this blog has in some ways diminished my ability to simply enjoy being a Star Wars fan. I need a break to just enjoy the story without any pressure to post or be on top of the latest news. I want Star Wars to be a respite from stress, not a source of it.
I’m putting this blog on official hiatus because I owe it to all of you to not leave you hanging. I will likely return in some form when my time gets more under control, but should I decide not to return, I will also let you know.
I will continue to be active in expressing my love of Star Wars daily on my twitter, so give me a follow there if you’d like to keep up. I’m gangstergish on twitter.
Love you all and thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, for your support. (Also how about that Rebels s4 trailer today? !!!!! I YELLED)
May the Force be with you,
Steph
hi everyone!! i wanted to make a post saying that i’m on twitter now!!
@ hojinxs !!!
i used to be active on instagram primary, but that site has drove me crazy and i just want a fresh new start. I’m gonna try to do art full time now, so any support is greatly appreciated!! Thanks!! <3
