I doubt this means anything to anyone but my parents finally threw me out officially barred me from their apartment told me I was not worth anything I’m now living with my best friend the love of my life. I’ve should’ve seen it a long time ago that he was the only one that loved me and now I’m sitting in his room well our room really in a panic attack because his psycho grandmother won’t leave me alone about two pairs of pants. If any of y’all know me y’all know I don’t react well to the stuff that I panic and cry because of past traumas with my abusive parents with my abusive grandfather and I have no clue what is going on. Everything has changed and I don’t know what type of simulation we are living in but I know for a fact this is not the life I want to live, with someone constantly on my back making me feel like shit. The other day she told me I couldn’t wear a long sleeve green plaid shirt because it is too hot. I’m about to turn 21 in three days I’m a grown ass woman I don’t need someone to pick my clothes for me I don’t need someone to tell me what I can and can’t do. And I know none of this will mean anything to anyone but right now I could really use some emotional support because I feel like I’m losing my mind. It’s all becoming a blur to me now. I’m a people pleaser, I please people so that I won’t have to feel this way anymore and so that they will like me. but it’s very clear that that’s not going to work anymore. Sure everyone is going to say why are you panicking and screaming over somebody losing two pairs of black jeans well it’s not the jeans that’s the problem with the fact that I’ve been blamed since day one since I was born for everybody else’s issues and I’m not going to take it anymore I’ve had enough I’ve already wanted to kill myself and I’ve gotten past that part of my life and now I realize that there’s nothing on the other side for me nothing that I want right now at least all I want now is to be a piece of myself and to have real friends in my goddamn life. I just cannot take it anymore I wish I had friends friends that could rely on but the only person I have in my life is my best friend and the love of my life he’s all I talk to he’s the only person I see and that is not healthy. So if anyone wishes to reach out to give me some emotional support to help me through these hard mental times please. Don’t consider this as begging. I just need a friend that’s all I want. Please. If you are willing. Dm me. Even if it is to comment about something. 

Boy friends needed

I need boy friendssss I promise I’ll be caring and pay attention to you

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I need grown adult friends who like shit like Homestuck, Steven Universe, She Ra, miscellaneous cartoons, video games or anime. Hit me up please.

I’m 27 and most people I encounter in these fandoms are really young and I feel uncomfortable. I need fandom friends at least 21 and over please!

squirrelshideout:

Yes please because I will also feel lonely and awful at Christmas.   I have three years running and its a nightmare each time.  Perhaps we can help each other.

i’m here and i’ll get to anyone who needs it as soon as i can

Do you ever just want to meet a person on tumblr and talk to them about your life story while they do the same? Like I wanna meet someone on here who isn’t afriad to tell me about the shit they’ve been through growing up or what their goin through right now. I wanna meet someone on here who isn’t afraid to tell me their deepest thoughts…..or even about how their day was…..someone who will listen to my stories, and what I gotta say about my own life too. I don’t know lol I probably sound so crazy and stupid…maybe I’m just lonley.