No matter how many times my husband reminds me that I’m looking good, I’m battling inside. I’m not loving my body like I used to. I feel so damn ugly. My postpartum body is hitting me hard as f*ck and I eat like a monster since I’m always hungry as hell! I want to control my diet but I can’t.
On the left is the morning I had surgery so not even at my highest weight, I was already about 30 pounds down. On the right is a couple weeks ago at 6.5 weeks postpartum .
It’s crazy because when I look in the mirror my brain still sees that girl on the left especially since having Ben. I just see all the flaws and imperfections. I see how far I still have to go. All the sacrifices I still have to make and all the workouts I’ve neglected.
But when I look at these side by side I see how far I have come and the distance to the finish line doesn’t seem so far! I’m SO CLOSE to my goal. I just have to keep going.
So I promise I weighed in yesterday I just forgot to post.
Highest Weight: 273
Surgery Weight: 246
Pre-pregnancy weight: 160
Current weight: 161.2
GW: 135
I did get down to 159.6 around 7 days postpartum but have been bouncing around 161-163 since then. In all honesty I haven’t been eating good at all. I’ve been eating whatever the hell I want and it’s showing . My goal is to get to 150 before I go back to work. But we shall see I guess. I bought some healthy snacks today when I went to target, doing a full grocery run Saturday. But my house is full of crap food because we’ve had family here for the last month. Going to go through it and see what Dustin will eat. And if he won’t eat it then we are going to get rid of it.
I’m ready to get this last 27 pounds off and finally be to goal weight!
Kai demonstrated #baddhakonasana in #babyyoga class ! This #free class is up on my #youtube so check it out <https://youtu.be/fkpV2ryh6YI> #yogababy #babyyogi #yogawithbaby #postnatalyoga #postpartum #babybouncebackchallenge
Today’s pose from #BabyBounceBackChallenge is #Malasana ! And this is a Rocking and Singing Malasana lol this is a great pose that helped my pelvis to open and get strong at the same time throughout my #pregnancy and #postpartum ! This is a super #prenatalyoga #PostnatalYoga #goto pose:) . More tips and #OnlineYoga classes available on my #yoga channel ! #checkitout #3monthspostpartum #3monthsold #babylove #BabyYogi #MiniYogiChallenge #Luv4MyMini #yogamom #yogaforeveryone #basicyogamix #LoveWithin #lovecarrieson #babywearingyoga #yogawithbaby
Reality of #lifewithbaby - Sometime babies demand that they need to be attached to your body all day. My son Kai is approaching 3 months soon and he is so much more aware of his surroundings and have more emotions than before. I had those days that I had to wear / carry him all day. I am guessing that I’m not alone here so I filmed the #PostnatalYoga #PostpartumYoga #OnlineYoga #YogaWithBaby Class that you can #practice while you #wearyourbaby ! Kai was being entertained too, so it was #winwin! Share this class with other #newmom #yogamom #babymama ! <http://youtu.be/aQNSkEB60-c> Also don’t forget to check out my #prenatalyoga and #postpartum classes on my @blackswanyoga.tv channel ! #womensupportingwomen #babylove #newborn #3monthsold #3monthspostpartum #PracticeYogaChangeYourWorld #Luv4MyMini #MiniYogiChallenge
It’s ok that your jeans don’t fit! If you just gave birth, gained weight or literally any reason and your jeans don’t fit that is 100% ok! An influencer I follow gave birth about a week after me and less than a week after she gave birth she was excitedly sharing that she fit into her jeans and looked like she hadn’t just carried a baby for 9 months. Right away I thought that maybe I could fit into mine. I tried on my jeans and they were not even close to fitting. I was so upset. I later saw an unposed picture of that influencer in her jeans and they weren’t perfect fitting as it had seemed in the original post. It took me a bit to realize that it’s OK that I don’t fit into my jeans or look perfect, I literally carried and birthed a child! So remember what you see on social media isn’t always the reality and to not compare yourself to the people you follow on social media. Trust me I know It’s hard to not compare yourself to others. Sometimes It takes me a while to recognize when I am comparing myself to others. But it’s important to recognize it and remind yourself that what you see isn’t always perfect behind the scenes! #beunstoppable
Feeling really good with my relationship with food right now I didn’t necessarily have a bad relationship with food during pregnancy but I was highly reliant on constantly eating food so that I didn’t get sick, I was too exhausted to make any sort of meal and cravings were strong! Now it feels so good to approach food with ease and not feel like I need to grab the closest thing out of urgency. Now I can nourish my body with the foods that make me feel good and also work with koko (black beans do not sit well with him) #beunstoppable
Back in the gym I’m still only 4 weeks pp and I’m not officially ‘working out’ but I have been trying to do some quick sessions of upper mobility (because my upper back is wreaked from holding koko) and some pelvic floor engaging! Buttttt today is an exciting day because I get to see my Physio therapist! which means I get to start recovery! Can you tell I’m excited
