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Because even when I’m in the worst pain of my life I’m a Queen
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I’m looking for more people to follow who post health, fitness, and all around positive things. I want to follow people on their own journey’s of weight loss, self discovery, or recovery of any kind.
So many people have shown me so much support, I want to follow other’s who I can show support for as well. If that’s you or you know of any people I should check out, like this post! Reply and tell me what you’re working on to improve your life! I’ll go through and check out everyone’s blogs.
maybe there is no best version of myself. just me, right now, vulnerable and tired and hopeful, willing to show up regardless of what it looks like.
From my poem “Secondly Finally” in my book The Only Worlds We Know. Grab a copy, 50% off all weekend in celebration of its first anniversary! Just head to the link in my bio!
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Hey y’all! All weekend in celebration of “The Only Worlds We Know” first birthday, @buttonpoetry is selling all copies at 50% off through the weekend! That’s paperback, e-book, audiobook! Plus, if you like, I’ll be signing books and personalizing some as well. Just head to Buttonpoetry.com. Link in bio!
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From my poem “Just Yesterday” in my book The Only Worlds We Know. 50% all weekend! Just head to the link in my bio and grab a copy!
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Two hours until show time! I can’t wait to read y’all ALL, literally, ALL the poems. This one is an excerpt from my poem “The Pill” in my book The Only Worlds We Know. See you 7pm CST/8pm Eastern. I’ll be reading my book from front to back, cover to cover, on @buttonpoetry YouTube channel live!
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#tbt to pub day 2019!! Here’s me out back my old spot in my garden. I put a lot of work and love into those plants and the process of finishing this book want so different from gardening, it felt as much the process of the stories themselves arising from the soil as it was me crafting them. It felt more like I was coaxing them out from the dark, feeding them, waiting, returning, and then suddenly after 8 years and countless drafts the book was in the world. I’m so grateful to everyone who has read the book so far, who has reached out to me in thanks or encouragement. I’m grateful for every reading I got to do, from DC to LA. From rehabs and prisons to colleges and coffee shops, book stores and bars. It feels so much longer than a year, my life is very different. My mustache is much larger, I picked up a brain injury, got a face scar I don’t much like, and my hairline continues it’s long drawn out Minnesota goodbye, but I feel so light have released this book, healed and creatively free. Writing the poems was freeing but even more so giving them out to the world for them to live their own lives is even more so. Thank you @buttonpoetry for believing in me and this book, thank you readers for keeping more words and giving them legs and wings and little propeller hats. Join me tonight and help me celebrate, I’ll be reading the book in its entirety, telling jokes and answering questions! See you all 7pm central time on the Button YouTube channel for a livestream reading
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An excerpt from my poem “Rain” in my book The Only Worlds We Know. Join me for lots of sad poems and one happy poem tomorrow at 7pm CST/8pm Eastern. I’ll be reading my book from front to back, cover to cover, on @buttonpoetry YouTube channel live. Link in bio!
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Join me! 48 hours from now we’ll have some good poetic fun and celebration! My little book turns one! Grab some snacks, stream YouTube to the TV and let’s have some fun! I’ll read ALL my poems, answer questions, sign books, tell jokes and introduce you to my dog ! see you live on the @buttonpoetry YouTube channel on Thursday!
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Hey y’all! Two more days until I’ll be celebrating my book’s first birthday! I’ll be reading my book from front to back, cover to cover, on @buttonpoetry YouTube channel live. 7pm CST/8pm EDT. This line is from one of my favorite poems to read “Leaving”. I can’t wait to read it for y’all on Thursday! Check out my book “The Only Worlds We Know”, link in bio! Also…there just might be a big sale this week and some signed and personalized copies, stay tuned ☺️
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In just three more days my little books has its first birthday! I can’t believe it’s been a whole year since my first book came out. Last year feels like an entirely different life, in many ways it was, an entirely different world entirely. Join me Thursday and let’s celebrate my books first birthday! I’ll be reading the whole damn thing! Grab some snacks, stream YouTube to the TV and let’s have some fun! I’ll answer questions, sign books, and introduce you to my dog !Mark your calendars and see you live on the @buttonpoetry YouTube channel!!
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Hey y’all! This Thursday 8/13 I’ll be celebrating my books first birthday! I’ll be reading my book from front to back, cover to cover, on @buttonpoetry YouTube channel live. 7pm CST/8pm EDT. If you like my work, or my voice, or maybe even both, tune in! This line is from my poem “Out There” which I can’t wait to read for y’all this Thursday! Check out my book “The Only Worlds We Know”, link in bio! Also…there just might be a big sale this week and some signed and personalized copies, stay tuned ☺️
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Hey y’all! Thursday 8/13 I’ll be celebrating my books first birthday! I’ll be reading my book from front to back, cover to cover, on @buttonpoetry YouTube channel live. 7pm CST/8pm EST. If you like my work, or my voice, or maybe even both, tune in! This line is from my poem “Leaving” which I’ll definitely be reading (maybe twice if I fuck it up real bad the first time). Check out my book “The Only Worlds We Know”, link in bio! Also…there just be a big sale next week and some signed copies, stay tuned ☺️
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Hey y’all! Next Thursday! 7pm CST I’ll be reading my book from front to back, cover to cover, on @buttonpoetry YouTube channel live. If you like my work, or my voice, or maybe even both, tune in! This line is from my poem “Law of Halves as Applied to the Blade” in my book “The Only Worlds We Know”, celebrating its first birthday this Thursday! link in bio!
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Taking much time for stillness and healing and reflection this week as I settle in the beginnings of this new chapter. This line is from my poem “The Middle Place”, If you like this line, check out more in my book The Only Worlds We Know, link in bio.
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When I need hope I always find it in nature, it’s resilience and wonder. Whiteness and capitalism makes us believe we are at odds with the natural world and not a part of it, that we must subdue it and not live in harmony. Our survival is tied to the survival of this world, down to the simplest, most resilient blade of grass. This line is from my poem Mikkels Plass in my my book The Only Worlds We Know, link in bio.
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It’s interesting for me to look at some of these excerpts from my poems and recontextualize the lines in our current moment—this is from my poem “Along the Spent Horizon”, a poem specifically about personal grief, but it is of course much more than that and when I isolate my own lines I am easily reminded of this. There are so many ends and beginnings, and every moment of history brings us to our present moment. Thinking about the new world we must make together, what we must leave behind, what we must take with us, what articulation of our pasts we require to give language to our present and future lives. There is no easy way… no, and that’s why we must do this work of documentation and articulation and interpretation, to hold the many truths for our many selves. I’m rambling now, but if we are to make a new beginning we must contend with our endings and know how and why we got there, here, by the roads we did. A new world is possible and it is owed. If you like this line, check out more in my book The Only Worlds We Know, link in bio.
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Another excerpt from my poem “Just Yesterday” in my book “The Only Worlds We Know”. I wrote this piece after someone commented on my fb page years ago “I love your work, but it’s so sad-why don’t you write happy poems”. There is much joy in the word and there is much ugliness,
In and around us all and we do no favors to shy from it, to speak softly about hard things. To pretend the world is soft so that your path through it feels easier requires that the path for others remains difficult, unjust, dangerous, violent until it becomes unimaginable, and when we can no longer imagine something we cant believe believe it, and all emotion and actions requires belief, requires imagination. That being said I do have a few happy poems in my book! At least one anyway. Lol. link in bio.
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No. 16 - ON A NEED TO KNOW BASIS
recovery | scars | aftermath
It was strange, living with Fao. No longer living at, or sofa surfing from house to house, but with. He got to spend the early mornings in someone’s arms. Loved. Late nights were spent under the covers and added the fire to their relationship. He wasn’t knocking it, it was the best he’d had, if he was being honest, but there were different ways to be intimate.
Laying with Fao was the best part of being off shift, but it was rare they both had the same days off. It just made it more special, and Harrison was determined not to waste it.
He rolled over, gently shifting Fao’s hand from his waist. His boyfriend was still asleep, his hair over his face slightly. He watched him for a little while, until he decided he was being far too creepy, and tucked himself in Fao’s arms. His hand rested across Fao’s chest, his fingers hovering over the scars there. The scars he’d made. He swallowed thickly. Of course, not all of them were his, he knew that, but knew the other scars had an even worse story behind them.
Fao stirred after a few moments, stretching out and humming at the sight of his boyfriend curled up next to him.
“Mornin’.” He said, voice rough with sleep.
“Sorry.” He pulled back. “I didn’t mean to wake you.”
“Mm, it’s ‘kay.”
“Did you want breakfast? I can go make something?” He offered.
“You mean burn something? Jus’ stay?” He murmured. “I like laying here wit’ you.”
He relaxed back down, easily persuaded by Fao. “Alright.”
“What’re you doin’ up?” Fao murmured. “Thought you wanted to sleep in.”
“Just needed to move. Had been in the same position too long.”
“Mmm. You’re warm.”
“So are you.”
Fao stretched out, getting comfortable beside his boyfriend.
“It’s nice.” Hars said softly. “Not having to get up.”
“Yeah.” Fao breathed. “Really is.”
Harrison traced patterns across Fao’s chest. “I wish we could stay like this all the time.”
Harrison’s fingers left goosebumps on Fao’s skin. “You’d miss work too much.”
“Nah. It would be worth it.”
“Mm? I dunno.”
“You prefer work to me?”
“You’re at work, to be fair.”
He hummed. “Good save.”
“‘m smart.”
“Sure you are.” He stretched to kiss Fao, balancing himself on his elbow.
Fao smiled into the kiss, tilting his head up to his boyfriend.
“It’s a good job you’re cute.” He breathed.
“Yeah?”
“You could get away with murder and I’d still be here.”
“Am not planning on murder.”
“Glad to hear it.” He laughed quietly.
“Not today, anyway.”
“I’m sorry.” Harrison said softly, almost to himself.
“What for?”
“All of these.” He murmured, his fingers finally tracing the scars.
“Why?”
“I made these.”
“Saved my life, Tomcat.”
He shook his head, swallowing against the lump in his throat. It was easier for Fao; he’d not had to hold his best friend’s heart in his hands.
“I know it’s hard.” He said gently. “But you went above and beyond for me, and I really appreciate it. The scar just reminds me of all that you did.”
“You don’t get it.”
“I can’t even imagine what you went through…”
He cleared his throat, sitting up and turning away. Fao didn’t need his emotions tied to his scars, he’d been through enough without Harrison adding to it.
Fao whined. “Hey, come back.” He reached out for his boyfriend, pushing the duvet back.
“I’m just going to get up, get dressed.” He said, his voice wavering.
Fao sat up, wrapping his arms around Harrison. “I’m sorry.”
He shrugged his way out of Fao’s grip. “It’s fine.”
“No, come on.”
“It’s fine.” He said firmly.
“If it’s fine, come back to bed.” He said. “I’m sorry about my scars.”
“They’re not your fault.”
“And they’re not yours either.”
He scoffed. “I made them.”
“You did what you had to do.” He murmured carefully. “The same way the ortho who fixed my hip did. The scar is a means to an end. Hell, it’s decently neat, too.”
He managed a tiny laugh. “Neat wasn’t exactly on my to-do list.”
“Managed it. Though you didn’t close, so you can’t take all the credit.”
“Guess they did all the hard work.”
“No, you did. I owe you my life, Hars. I know what you did was impossible, felt impossible, but that scar jus’ reminds me I have people who care.”
He shifted to face Fao. “It would have been impossible losing you.”
“And you didn’t.”
“Icouldn’t.”
“And I’m still here.”
“I’m glad.”
“Please don’t beat yourself up about my scars, Tomcat.”
“I’m always going to.”
Fao put his arm around Harrison again, shifting to move closer to him. His fingers brushed over his scars and he made a noise. “I know. And I hate that I wasn’t there to help you, but…” His voice caught. “But we’re both still here.”
He swallowed thickly, leaning into Fao. “I couldn’t lose you. I can’t.”
