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Austin
In Austin for a week for work, so I changed my location on SA, and added a disclaimer in my bio saying the dates I’d be here if anyone wants some company, figuring I could maybe just go on some dates while I’m here, get some fancy dinners, yummy drinks, see where it goes if the vibe is right. Who knows.
Anyways, I’ve been blowin tf up and after weeding thru a bunch of nasties and lame-o’s, I’ve got some nice dinner dates lined up with 3 guys for the week:)
Also, if anyone has any freestyle recommendations for this city, plz hit me with them. Or if any girls wanna hangout while I’m down here and be sugar sisters hmu haha
Why I entered the bowl
My first OC post! I am going to be talking to a wall here, but that’s okay with me. I just made this tumblr account a few weeks ago when I realized that this site is a goddamn gold mine for sugar content, and how HELPFUL it all is.
Anyways, I’ve been lurking in the background, but have felt inspired to share my own story of why I started sugaring. Or I suppose “trying” to start sugaring. It’s only been about a month and a half since I’ve been actively seeking.
It all started with my last relationship, really. I fell in love organically with an older man. Divorced with two kids. He was wealthy, although I didn’t find that out until after I had already caught feels for him. He was so attractive. & Fit. Funny. Smart. P H E N O M E N A L sex. fuck, it was the best sex I’ve ever had in my life. Ugh. RIP.
It was not a sugar relationship - he wouldn’t just hand me money. But I lived a comfortable life with him. Nice outings that he would pay for, and he let me move into his big beautiful multi-million dollar mansion with him.
But not everything gold can stay. He had anger issues and was manipulative, and his ex wife somehow got all his money (don’t ask me how, i do not understand (tbh we all should be getting advice from her, she a crazy lady but damn she a rich one now)). At this point in our relationship, I was still in love with him, so we move into a small apartment together. As time goes on, he starts getting in over his head financially and can’t keep up with bills. He couldn’t understand the concept of living below your means since he’d never had to. I started covering all the bills. He started drinking more. I won’t bore you with the rest, you know how it ends.
Next thing I know it’s the first weekend of me being single after our year long relationship and the signs could not be more clear to enter the bowl:
I randomly meet these two girls from Seattle who are passing through my town on a road trip. We hit it OFF. My girls tell me all about sugaring, and I am I N T R I G U E D.
They give me a run down of it all, and I feel like this is my life path. Two strangers just drop into my life one day, and tell me about this lifestyle, two days after my breakup? Whaaaa? We go out that night, and I run into an old friend at the bar. He OUT OF THE BLUE says how he has been seriously considering getting involved with a SUGAR MAMMA. No way does this conversation happen twice in a day coincidentally, not in my life atleast. It was a sign, I took it. Here I am.
I signed up for SA, which I know people hate, and I fucking hate it too. But where I live it’s definitely the best option. I live in a tiny ass town where I can’t just go out and freestyle cuz I know everyone. At every fucking restaurant & bar. I have worked at like 5 different restaurants in this town from dive bars to fine dining, I know all the local scum & rich men & all the restaurant/bar staff around here and the freestyling just ain’t gonna happen. Mostly because I don’t want my community to actively see my golddigging. Gossip spreads like goddamn wildire here.
My town is a tiny, BUT it is a HUGE tourist attraction. One of those expensive-ass bougie mountain towns that everyone and their frickin dead grandmas come to visit to ski or climb or hike etc. Average home prices are $1.2 mil. Golf club memberships are $20,000+ PER SUMMER. It’s crawling with wealthy elites. & your girl’s trynna p o u n c e.
(Not to mention there is NO DIVERSITY here and my Asian ass is a rarity.)
Unfortunately, haven’t been having much luck. SA guys so far have been trash. Have a couple POTs at the moment, but so far all the other POTs have revealed how stingy or flakey or downright gross they are, and I do not have time for that shit. blegh. Maybe I’ll make a post another day about my experience with the search, but spoiler alert, it’s the same struggle everyone goes thru while on the hunt for a new SD.
But I am putting in my work. Chatting w people every day. Getting inspired by everything I see here on tumblr. My daddy will find me soon enough & ya girl will be thriving (well I’m always thriving, but more than I am right now..)
:)
When to talk about allowance on dating sites?
This is what works for me. Allowance talk usually goes 1 of 2 ways.
1. IF they have shown themselves to be generous and a quality person from the jump (ie: picking a nice resteraunt, offering/agreeing to pay for travel, expensive house/nice job/etc. when screening, great conversationalist, etc. then, I will wait for the end of the first date or right after they ask for a second date to bring up an allowance. This strategy allows for me to charm a worthy man in person, who’s likely to give me more after meeting, then had I just asked online. (Note: I would say only about 10% of the men I talk to on these sites meet this criteria.)
2. (Majority of my interactions) I just straight up ask within a few messages. Somewhat along the lines of “Hey I think we’re looking for the same things, what were you thinking allowance wise” or “what would you need from me in an arrangement, and what are you able to offer.” Of course more eloquently, but you get the just.
Remember you have this!! Stay strong, don’t settle, take his offer and double it, & if he can’t meet your needs, decline. I know survival sex workers exist, BUT if you can have a vanilla job in your back pocket, DO IT. You’ll be more mentally, and eventually, financially happy, if you’re able to decline low ball offers. Happy sugaring!!
Xoxo
Meeting today
With the CEO of a tech firm who wants to pay me to accompany himself & his VIP clients when he takes them to dinners, strip clubs etc. I’d be required to sign an NDA and not expected to do anything except flirt, converse, and provide feminine energy to these outings.
Not sure what to wear..we are meeting for happy hour at a trendy fun spot in my city, but this isn’t a “POT date” because I’m not going to be his sugar baby, I’m not having sex or anything romantic with anyone here. He’s coming straight from a business meeting so I don’t want to look underdressed. I need something that says sexy, smart, and turns every head in the room!
Fake Sugar Daddies ***
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So you think you got what it takes to be my sugar daddy huh?
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So someone’s death threatening me because i owe money from their loan app company . They are loan sharks! Their interest is way to much .help meeee im gonna die. IM SELLING PICS AND FEET PICS JUST TO GET AWAY FROM THIS HELP
Little Raymond is going to scam you…
No further details about him other than his pictures and bad habits.
He’s not a good SD! He doesn’t look like the pictures. He’ll ask to hang out but doesn’t want to pay you and he likes to ghost you. Wants raw sex.
Scammer: ronaldosantosdaddy
NEVER SEND MONEY TO ANYONE
Scammer: Tom-and-life
These never cease to end.
Again…. these “daddies” are really lacking creativity in their scamming.
Swimmingshepherdpizzapony
This guy was elaborate and talked and sent pictures for weeks before pulling this scam.
Never send money or your account info. Do not give your name and address.
TUMBLR SCAM DADDY - Adrewjsmith
Will ask for your bank or cashapp login so he can “direct deposit” money into your account. Saying “it’s a trust thing”. DONT FALL FOR THAT
Another scam daddy looking for you to “verify” yourself by sending him money.
NEVER SEND MONEY
SALT SALT SALT. Fucked me and gave me no money!! Pressured and encouraged me to do cocaine! Lied about his age by over a decade and tricked me into sex because he spend the day with me on his “birthday” so he could get birthday sex. This was the first guy I met off SA or ever sugar related so I was clueless. Thought he would give me my allowance after the sex. But no. Never gave it to me. Has a drug and alcohol problem and has 3 DUI’s. Stay away from Jay Vanesa!!
Prepare yourself for the bullshit I went through. Said he was new to SA and lived in Sarasota which is two hours away from me. Told he he would cover my travel expenses and give me cash when I got there. My ass takes a $90 uber to Sarasota, meets him at Starbucks. He’s handsome and the conversation is good, and then he asks me about my allowance. I tell him what I am looking for and how many times a month. He offers me ¼ of that and wants overnights! I’m like I’m sorry I just can’t do that. So he looks at me, gets up, and walks out of Starbucks. I’m like WTH?!?! I follow after him quickly and I’m like “okay it’s too bad we’re not going to work out, can I have money so I can call my uber?” He’s like “no. You can stay the night with me and I’ll give you $400.” I was like “Fuck you HEL NO. Give me my uber money!!” He literally just turned around and walked away. I was screaming losing my mind and yelling all types of profanity then called my uber. All an all I was out $200 I uber fees that night and he propositioned me. Fuck this guy!!!
Went to dinner with him, had a fabulous time. Told me for our next date he was a fabulous cook and he had to show me! Invited me to his place were we had a great dinner and nice convo. Started to feel on me and I told him no, we need to discuss and agree on an arrangement before anything sexual happens. Became very violent. I started on oral because he was beside him self enraged but he tried AGAIN to have sex with me. I lost my shit on him and he pelted his phone across the kitchen breaking it and cussing me out. Telling me I’m only here for money and he’s sure I would sleep with him if he threw a wad of cash on the table. I got an uber to pick me up and got the fuck out of there! His name is Mike and he is in the St. Pete area
This guy is in the Columbus and Cleveland, Ohio area. We met two times and he seemed genuine the first time and we texted frequently. The second time he was completely pushy and only wanted sex. We agreed to $1000/week and he gave me $113 and told me to leave. Do not message or meet up with him! He is fake and a liar.
Psa:
YOUR COMPETITION IS NOT OTHER SUGAR BABIES.
I cannot stress this enough.
If you find yourself comparing your sugar journey to others, you can fall into the trap of frustration and anger.
I’ve received some private messages expressing feelings of inadequacy, asking how I as well as others who post about their SDs have been able to get where we are, when on their own side they haven’t had such luck…
PLEASE remember every single one of us have a different story, and a different starting point, so you simply cannot base your progress off of someone else’s experiences.
I personally have been in the bowl for 5 years now, so trust me when I say nothing happens over night. For every success story I share, trust and believe there’s just as many flops as well. For every SD trip I talk about, there’s just as many failed dates and awkward meetings I’ve sat through as well.
When I share pictures and updates about my time spent with my SDs, it’s never meant to put anyone else down, and certainly not to brag or make anyone feel bad about their own journey in the bowl. I share my experiences to remind other sugar babies that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and that staying focused will eventually pay off if you let it.
Your only competition as a sugar baby is the person you were yesterday.
Many of us when we started out in the bowl had to overcome feelings of anxiety, fear, and just general discomfort as we tackled a whole new way of life. If you have dealt with these feelings, you should be proud of yourself for just that! Many people cannot get past this step, so you’re already ahead of the game here!
If you took the time to make a profile on Seeking Arrangement, or any other sugar baby platform, and if you take the time to check your inbox regularly- you should be proud of yourself.
If you take the time to go free lance in hopes of connecting with a sugar daddy, you should be proud of yourself.
If you take the time to make an effort to get all dressed up, and to make yourself look fabulous for a SD date, you should be proud of yourself.
If a man hands you any amount of money just for being you, you should be proud of yourself.
All these things put you on a path to success, whether the results are immediate or not, you should be pretty damn proud of yourself- and I’m proud of you as well.
5 years ago I was 17 and living in my third foster home, separated from my only brother, recovering from the sexual abuse of my previous foster “father”.
I was happy to even receive a message on SA offering a free meal and a mere hundred dollars.
Today, I have several long terms SDs who are putting me through college, have supported me to where I actually have a savings account, and take me on trips around the world.
Looking back on where I have started, I have come a long way- and none of this would have been possible if I would have given up and gotten discouraged after all the failed meetings, and SD encounters that made me want to stop being in the bowl all together.
I am living proof that if you stick to it, and persevere through all the experiences, you will allow yourself to have the life you’ve always wanted.
If you look back on the person you were when you started your sugar baby experience, and if you’re doing even only slightly better then your previous self, hell even if you have $20 more dollars to your name- you’re living proof too.
And that’s pretty awesome if you ask me.
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Update: October 24, 2019
Exciting news! I officially now have a residence in New York. One of my SDs who lives full time up there leased an apartment for me in Manhattan, so I can come and go as I please without having to stay in a hotel every time.
The view is absolutely beautiful, and located right next to Central Park. (where I looove going on runs.)
While I won’t be living here full time, (since my college is in my home state), I will definitely be making more trips up there as my schedule allows. Do any of you SBs live or frequent NY as well? Would love to meet up if so for drinks and to just hang out if so! Shoot me a message babydolls. (I don’t know a lot of people up here, and my NY sugar daddy stays pretty busy. It gets lonely!)
I hope all of you have been enjoying this spooky season of October, and that your bank accounts are extra full this month!
xo
lex
September 30th 2019
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Last day in Hawaii with my SD Cal!
It’s been a wonderfully relaxing week, and even found the time to catch up on homework!
Cal had an all day convention two of the days we’ve been here, so I have had quite a bit a of time to relax in solidarity! But he and I had a great time at the bars, an exquisite spa, and even walked through a local’s market sale- beautiful handmade clothing and jewelry galore.
After chatting with some of you guys recently, I see a repeated theme of concern when it comes to traveling with a SD. Awhile back in June I created a post as to offer safety and other tips when it comes to meeting a new SD that requires long distance travel, but after the initial meeting there can sometimes be a variation of new expectations.
While I ALWAYS recommend having your own hotel/Airbnb while visiting your SD in his home state, I also recommend having your own room even when you guys travel together.
**Tip for maximizing your experience while traveling; always request a private room.** Let me explain, while I feel very comfortable with Cal after being in an arrangement for 2.5 years, when we are traveling out of his home state- I always ask that he books two rooms.
I am the kind of person who values their private time, and needs to have a quiet space to retreat to when necessary. Does this mean I don’t stay the night in his hotel room? No, not necessarily. Many nights I do! But I like my own space to get ready in, do yoga in, FaceTime/call friends, and honestly sometimes I just need a break from my SD in general. ♀️
I’m not withholding physical intimacy, or taking large periods of time away from being with him, simply asking for the respect of being recognized as an individual who expects certain things in order to feel most at peace while not in my own home. (The opportunity to have your own room will not always be an option, especially if your SD is renting a house/airbnb and there isn’t a room across the hall he can snag for you otherwise. Something to keep in mind as not having your own room shouldn’t always be a deal breaker when considering travel.)
I highly recommend making this request of your SD when you guys travel as well if possible! There’s nothing wrong for asking to be comfortable!
Anyway, before I board my plane back to the states I need to finish up smoking this weed , and head up from the beach bar to pack! (I’m including below on this thread a funny message I got on seeking today, a painfully accurate deduction of the climate of SA from a sugar daddy )
Hope you guys found time to both cash out, and relax this weekend!
xo
lex
Update: September 23rd, 2019
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Hey guys!
Happy Begining of Fall!
I’ve been meaning to make this post for a minute now, but I’ve been running around and staying busy these last few weeks- between my college courses, working, and back to back travels I’ve had little time to take a deep breath and relax.
But I’m in Hawaii this week, and I couldn’t be more excited for the opportunity to enjoy some quiet time and sun. (And hella weed went on a run first thing when we landed, and literally ran into my new plug for the week. ) “Cal” one of my SDs of 2.5 years decided it was time to escape out to his beach house in East Honolulu for the week instead of spending our usual time in California. I live on the other side of the country, so my arrangement with Cal is that as long as he continues to provide a monthly allowance, I visit him for a week once every other month. While I adore my visits out to California; I’m happy to spend time anywhere out of my home state even just for a little bit!
Anyway! A couple posts ago I mentioned that I was stuck at the airport on my way to meet my POT/SD “Jay”- I eventually made it down safely to Kentucky, and was there for three days a couple weeks ago. Officially moving his status from potential, to sugar daddy.
It was actually a really fun several days spent down there; but as Jay expressed more about the type of arrangement he was ideally seeking, I had to keep it real with him and explain my schedule isn’t exactly as open as he’d like. He was insisting that we shoot for me flying down to KY once a month, and he would provide financial compensation at that time. (I still always prefer a SD who hands out $$ regardless of time spent, but I think I can get him there. Already convinced him to send money a couple times for shopping and a massage appointment.) But as a full time student with a job, and a life for that matter, I can’t commit to anything out of state monthly. He was bummed about this, but understood.
Ultimately we agreed that playing things by ear was the best thing to do for now! We would find time for me to travel to him based upon availability as it happens, and if Jay had the time and desire- he could even pop over to see me, as he does business in a city often that’s only a couple hours from my current home.
Jay sent a lovely arrangement of flowers when I returned home from my visit with him, including some beautiful purple and pinks- my favorite colors. I love his thoughtfulness and genuinely kind personality. It’s a rarity these days to meet someone as charismatic and humorous as he. Happy I had the time to go back and see him after our first initial meeting in May! If only he didn’t repeat the same stories from his youth over and over
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I met both Cal and Jay on seeking arrangement. Which I know gets a lot of shit on here from many sugar babies frustrated with the experience- and I completely understand where you ladies are coming from. Often times logging on to SA means combing through many ignorant messages filled with inappropriate comments and private picture requests. It’s annoying and down right disappointing sometimes! But with patience and some finesse, there is still some hope on SA to find a real genuine SD, who will offer you much more than “drinks and $300 to meet up tonight”. ♀️
Seeking Arrangement tips/reminders:
1.)Make sure your profile is in its best condition.
- Do you have enough content on your profile? Not suprisingly, adding just a bit more information than the typical SB page shows that you’re serious, and genuine about the process. Doing so also helps make your profile stand out from a sea of other potential girls! Adding a bit more “fun” causal information about yourself- like mentioning a hobby, or maybe what you’re studying in school gives your page more personality and detail. This is the POT/SDs first impression of you, make it count!
- Many SBs fall into the trap of only mentioning what THEY are going to receive out of the deal on their profile, which can be a turn off for POT/SDs who can smell desperation and money grubbing a mile away. Add the phrase “mutually beneficial” somewhere in your profile, or a comparable equivalent, it puts the thought in a SDs mind that you are aware that they too will also be receiving something out of the arrangement. It’s a given that these men are going to help you financially, they’re supposed to be a SD after all, so take the time to mention things you can provide for them as well! Include more specifics to outweigh just the financial assistance aspect- like mentioning your favorite types of dates, or adventures you’re looking forward to pursuing with them. Someone who writes about how they like to try out new bars in the city, or touring art museums, will be immensely more appealing than someone who touches on how they’re a broke student in need of cash quick. - If you are willing to travel out of state to meet up with a POT/SD, make sure you say so on your profile! This casts a bigger net for potentials who don’t happen to be in your immediate area but are still interested in meeting.
2.) Be willing to send the first message.
- Waiting to receive a message from POTs can be time consuming and unpredictable. There’s nothing wrong with being the first one to reach out with a cute introductory message expressing interest in their profile, and inviting them to check yours out. Favoriting a member’s profile shows a little extra interest as well!
- When looking through profiles, add filters to your searches to find more serious candidates. Selecting things such as “Diamond members”, background check, and premium weeds out profiles that are poorly thrown together and run by in-genuine salt daddy’s.
- Be aware of the age displayed on the POTs profile. He’s in his twenties? Very seldom someone this young has the financial means to be a genuine sugar daddy. Honestly 35+ is a more reliable age group.
- “Hi” doesn’t quite catch the eye, especially in an inbox filled with messages from other people who might have taken the time to craft a real sentence. Put some thought into what you’re saying as to showcase yourself in the best way possible. Compliment their profile if they have a nice detailed bio filled out, or set of pictures uploaded- flattery goes a long way with the male mind.
- If you are comfortable with pursuing arrangements with out of state POTs, adjust the location settings in your search. Highlight cities you’d like to travel to, or would feel comfortable traveling to when it comes to meeting up with POT/SDs, doing so will expand your list of potentials!
3.) Make sure the photos on your profile are the best.
- Including clear photos of both your face and body will increase the chances of a POT expressing interest in you. Naturally, these are men we are dealing with, so the physical appearance is undoubtedly an important aspect for them.
- Low quality, or Snapchat filter filled photos should be avoided. You can do better then this if you take the time! And you should. Whether that means dedicating an entire afternoon of selfie taking, putting in the effort pays off when a POT comes across your profile and is simply compelled to reach out after viewing your high quality breathtaking photos.
4.) Be Patient!
- Finding a quality sugar daddy usually won’t happen over night, this can be a process of months for many, so don’t get discouraged if things aren’t happening as quickly as you’d like.
- Monitor your inbox regularly to stay on top of messages and responses, the faster the reply- the more likely to engage in a conversation that is truly going somewhere.
I hope all of you guys enjoyed the end of the summer, and are kicking ass in school so far if you’re currently studying!
May all of you have abundant blessings and luck this week! Talk soon.
xo
lex
There really are two kinds of guys on seeking
Hey Babydolls!
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Currently stuck at the airport, but making the most of this ridiculous delay with my second glass of pino
AND I do have exciting news, I’m finally flying down to spend more time with the POT/SD “Jay”, whom I wrote about in May.
(That was the gentlemen who brought me to the Kentucky derby that I met through SA.)
Last time Jay paid for travel expenses, 5k for me, and a split of the winnings from the derby. This time we agreed to a very similar arrangement, but there’s no derby events this time around, so fingers crossed for some successful shopping instead.
Stay tuned for a formal update on my trip with Jay coming up here! I’m excited ✈️
Until then..
I’m extremely bored over here stuck in this airport terminal! Send me some asks ladies and gentlemen!!They can pertain from anything sugar related or personal.
Hope you guys are starting this new week refreshed, rested, and ready to secure some serious bag.
xo
lex
Hey babydolls!
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Not an update- but I just found the coolest website ever.
Meet “Kitestring”.
It’s a personal safety service. This website will actually call or text your cell number to check in on you at a preset time you’ve programmed. Not exactly a new concept on the block, but this website is different! Most other apps/services currently available have to be triggered by the user performing some action, like pushing a big red button,shaking the phone, or submitting a codeword. Unfortunately, if caught in a bad situation- you usually do not have the opportunity to take such actions, and very seldom even get to your phone for that matter. That’s why Kitestring is a little different—it’s triggered by your inaction. If you don’t respond to the call or text, Kitestring alerts the emergency contacts that you set up ahead of time, (whether that be the police, friends or family) with your current location and pre-saved alert message.
The website is extremely user friendly, and you can of course always extend your ETA if things are going longer then planned but you’re safe, and you can always check in early.
Meeting up with a new POT/SD or client? It’s the perfect safety net. You can go into your dates more confident that your safety is ensured. Or maybe you know in advance you’re going to get stuck with an extremely talkative person and you’d like to have a scheduled “get out quick” plan, lol. Whatever the situation may be, how cool would it be to have a service on deck that will reach out to you no matter what!
The website offers a free plan, which gives you 3 opportunities a month to use their services- but to receive unlimited access it’s literally only $3 US dollars. 3 bucks to have a personal online security guard- um hell yeah!? Your safety is truly priceless ladies and gentlemen.
Just thought I would share this with you loves, there is value in having your own back!!
xo
lex
Sugaring as a Sexual Assault Survivor
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I will never forget the first time I gathered the courage to talk about my sugaring with a friend I had in real life. I was 17 years old at the time, and had been active for nearly 6 months. (Before proceeding let me clarify, I do not condone nor encourage underage sugar activity for ANYONE. But this is my story.)
The reaction was as expected, negative, and I watched a wave of confusion and disgust wash over her face. I was shaking.
“How could you be having sex with old men? Just surprises me after what HE did to you. Sounds fucking stupid to me, like you don’t know these guys, do you want it to happen again? Did you really learn nothing?”
He- the only word we used to describe the man who was sexually abusing me from ages 11 to 15. He was my foster father, but I use the word “father” very loosely. He was never a dad to me, nor any sense of that word.
I felt more shame, and anger in that moment with my friend then I had ever planned for. I began to second guess everything. Did I WANT it to happen again? That burned inside my mind for awhile. The situation in which you consent to having sex for money is very very VERY different then that of being assaulted as a child, and yet she had me feeling as though my experiences were discredited because I was allowing other men to use my body.
That was a dark time in my life, was I really saying what “he” had done to me was okay all because I chose to involve my self in sex work?
At the time I struggled viciously with those kinds of thoughts.
Here I am 22 now and free from the burden of that disgusting mindset.
YOU ARE NOT ANY LESS OF A SURVIVOR BECAUSE YOU ARE A SEX WORKER.
YOUR EXPERIENCES ARE VALID AND MATTER NO LESS THEN THOSE OF OTHER OCCUPATIONS.
Please don’t ever forget that. Your body is your body no matter what. No one can rob you of it’s ownership and value. With being a survivor comes strength, beauty, and endurance. What you choose to do with your powerful body will be amazing.
If, like me, your body brings wealth, prosperity, and success through life as a sex worker- then that is something to celebrate. Be joyous in your choices, set yourself free from any thoughts that tell yourself otherwise.
You are a survivor.
You are a sex worker.
You are a bad ass.
xo
lex
