#suffering
“All striving comes from lack, from a dissatisfaction with one’s condition, and is thus suffering as long as it is not satisfied; but no satisfaction is lasting; instead, it is only the beginning of a new striving. We see striving everywhere inhibited in many ways, struggling everywhere; and thus always suffering; there is no final goal of striving, and therefore no bounds or end to suffering.”— Arthur Schopenhauer, The World as Will and Representation
The Third Time Leo Cried on Christmas
TW: legalized slavery setting, the age-old ‘beaten with a belt’ scene, vague references to noncon, forced stripping, whiskey poured on fresh wounds
Notes:leo’s third christmas in the system, under contract with West Peterson. Can be skipped, is flashback scene, is nearly mindless/senseless suffering. I know I was like hey next up is a comfort prompt, and then now here we are with this. i wrote it it exists now it’s everyone else’s problem, as usual.
✥ The Third Time Leo Cried on Christmas ✥
“We both know that I can do whatever I want to you. I think it’s kind of interesting, really. He never gave a shit about hurting me, his own kid, in fact he even seemed to enjoy it. But the mere suggestion of hurting you?” Cooper Peterson sets his drink on the kitchen table and Leo takes a step back, regarding him.
“Mr. Peterson,” Leo says, keeping his voice calm and low, trying to shift the chill in the atmosphere.
I’m getting an iron infusion tomorrow then again a week later. Hopefully that will help with my constant need to nap. But the pressure in my head is getting worse. I can’t get an MRI until this Corona shit calms down. In the meantime I’m fucking dying. I don’t know what to do. I need something to help with the pressure and pain. And I’m told to “hang in there”. Fuck you and fuck everyone for punishing me and trying to make me feel bad for attempting suicide.