#thoughts
Getting told every detail of how someone is going to ruin you is hot as hell
Shy but will fuck you anywhere you want
I just want to matter to someone as much as they do to me…just once.
I want to stuff your panties in your pussy and play with your clit until they are soaking wet and then pull them out and shove them in your mouth while I fuck your ass hard ;)
libraries are suppose to be silent
but that’s where my eyes met you
where your smile was at center stage
and your eyes had more to say
they listened to the rules,
stood quiet with little moves
remaining as so as you put on the show
noiseless —
until they grazed passed mine
and suddenly everything screamed inside
do you see me?
let me hold on, let me follow.
into a universe unknown
one never to fully unfold
eternal gaze
stuck in my brain
is beginning to fade
because you’re away
in another space
trying to cement yourself
even when your soul,
will never be erased
eyes weary
heart shaking
i see through the glass ceiling you’ve placed me under,
a lie telling me i’m capable of being the sun —
there’s no chance i could compare
when i remain enclosed in fear
to loosen my grip on my mind
because i know it would lie too
and tell me it’s my time to go
somewhere some fascinate,
somewhere you may hibernate.
wash us away and
like your body we sway
in and out of earthly light
then into travesties of night
i only see you in sleep,
where nothing is real
and time doesn’t exists
i’ll push you back to sea
so you can float with ease,
and become one with the waves.
you’ll crash at my feet again,
and tear my soul to shreds,
reminding me of the tragic truth,
of your existence never to be met.
the worst manifestations of you come to me at times of peace
then i awake in a sweat chasing you through my dreams
you are a tease -
a bone and i am the dog
running, digging, wishing
mountain tops scream
urging to climb up to see the other side,
where Elsewhere may be -
where I may see the life you saw in me.
lights illuminating - blinding even,
I expect nothing less,
but you say more, a life worth dying for,
and now I feel like a deadly disease,
because you’re gone and no lights gleam.
- other side // c.c
“Light years away, yet you’re still stuck in my brain.”
- c.c
the rain you love washes the sorrows you left behind,
soaking the soil,
starting new life
- renewal // c.c
each detail once so defined seems to be falling out of mind,
breaking the image once prayed to in the silent ways of a blind heart
with a frail soul cracking like fault lines and the ruin holding silence that gravitates and pulls to recreate the mosaic of you
- my mechanism or your renewal // c.c
“The world tricks you into thinking there’s a limit to your existence, when in reality the world has no idea of the universes’ entirety.”
- c.c
“Your memory is linked to my soul, keeping it hung in chains and making it sway between fantasy and reality.”
- c.c
“Look down the bottles neck and you’ll see what your life has been.”
- c.c
“Madness swarmed my soul then turned it into gold.”
- c.c
You should not have to prove how badly you’re doing to receive empathy, compassion, and care. You deserve to be heard, even when you don’t appear to be falling apart.
