#poetscreed
With you
I am drowning
In despair
I breathe
Incurable sadness
Not air
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hate never fumed in me as much as it has since i last saw you
dead weeds ripped from my roots and the hate swooped through
transplanted and bloomed all ready to weave around like your noose
it attracts all toxic traits, greed and rage
consuming its prey, there is no dying light only a blinding one
i cannot go gentle, i cannot go at all
rage, rage, there is no good night
only hate eats
and love breathes steadily,
then falls asleep
on your chest
where nothing beats.
poison remains in my eyes
because you’re forever not in sight
but i cut hate’s stem now and again
hoping you’ll revisit and make your amneds
or that this revival will
somehow mend the wounds of hate,
so my soul could breathe again
we would talk about the rain
and wish it would pour on us for days
hope for long trips to sights
we’ve never seen before.
letting things slip,
the mind unravels what once was
right in front of us
but which now lays behind
with you beneath to only wish
on the possibility
of our dreams
being alive,
wherever you reside.
open wounds laid on the bed
safe for them to take their meds
open wounds make people cringe
too gruesome for them to understand
open wounds from a pen
bleed red
from delirious wolves who devoured the flesh
open wounds from your own head
written for all to live and say aloud instead
you wander through the waves
but your body lays buried
and your philosophy decays
each day you attempt to salvage our moments
where our lips met or cursed
where our hands gripped or stayed loose
and though the past is over and done with
you’ve created waves to crash through my brain
where these moments leak to my mind
giving your philosophy new life
and you remain through the salvaged kisses and moments
until i join you for what is left of our voyage
conjure up from my mind,
fall onto the paper
spill out of my mouth,
be the mess that was left behind.
i’ll clean it up
fix you up
into the pristine, undented figurine
that watches loose ends unravel further
creating endless spells of tragedy
for all to feel
and for you to see silently.
eternal gaze
stuck in my brain
is beginning to fade
because you’re away
in another space
trying to cement yourself
even when your soul,
will never be erased
i only see you in sleep,
where nothing is real
and time doesn’t exists
Endless escapades and
earnest midnight dreams
Haunt the world after dark,
beneath a sad moon’s gleam
A breath taken,
But not a second passes by
—You could bike to the stars
The once taut rope
Loosened and stretched far
There are spirits that come
To fill souls and liquor cups
Gold and flashing dresses
Solid to the touch
What wonders exist
In the corners of night
Oil lamps, candlelight,
Dewed eyes sparkling bright
They all conjure such rise,
These late hours
Swathed in shadow—
Amidst fantastical lies
Measure my dreams in grains of sand
A thousand nothing more than
The worth of a single pebble—
In the belly of a ravenous koi
The night is illuminated
By the blue light
Of my computer screen
Blazing into my brain
Wrenching out my fears
Grown hot in the dark
My hair is still damp,
The shampoo smell
Sinking into warm fabrics
Joining the evidence
Of other late nights—
Quiet nights—
By weakly typed poetry
My fingers feel old
Tired and worn
—And by four o’clock,
They await certain doom
Why must I always
feel like I am dying
The rusted cogs
Ceasing to breathe—
My conviction
Grinding to a halt?
Madness eats
My crime is life
A reflection
Mirrored
In bloody sheen
It’s all too sterile,
All too white gray
The marked path
Traveled by droves
of certain men
Without value
I continue on
Diminished by
My still-beating heart
For on the rooftop
There is a weed
Damned be its growth
In direct path
Of an unforgiving sun
Warmth emanates from
the singular chimney
Housed within the heart
Of a drafty mansion
It’s where the deer go
To lie upon rickety floorboard
As sparrows acquaint themselves
With the abandoned rocking chair
Preening their worries away
Serenity melded with serendipity
The course of the universe
Ivy stretching over bricks
Decomposition of matter
And the soul
An Internal Dispute From Sleep Deprivation
Blatant words befalling blue lips
Smeared the color of sadness
Tri-coated depression
What is art to sadness but apples to applesauce
thefortymillionsomethingpoems
Some statement minus punctuation and declarations of woeful broken love
Gorge upon the sales of music to public ears
I gave my blood, the likes which you’ve never seen and apparently do not want
Pages of fine ink multitudesofwordsmeaninglesswords
The alternative framework lost—
Eaten in the mainstream, some cherry picker we have to thank for this
Poets ought to rip the world to shreds with a pen
Splash ink onto pavement, blacken the world into a deep void
Gross schemes, where the fuck is reality?
I accidentally threw it down the garbage disposal
But the corporations forced my hand
The meaningless throb the echoes of time ticking sand
Mind wrenching melting numbness pain
Contradictory hell
What more is left to do? What more is to be achieved?
Light a metal garbage can,
Set all the books on fire
And all the art as well.
Deafened ears
Silent eyes
Rippled waters—
Reflecting murky skies
What remained
Laid in sullened tune
—With calla lilies
In godless demise
My organs wrung
Then clotheslined—
Like some
common rag
Discarded lungs—
Airbags for the worms
And my
once sharp tongue
Sits ’tween teeth
Delicately dead
This damp cavern
Punctured by
A singular watery tree
The branches splay
Beams of light
Where I lay—
Skin haloed
in mossy wreaths
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Some nights I crave release
In loosed muscles
Over the beaming lights—
Polluted city skyline
Standing atop a tightrope
Roaming like a minor god
My insides disemboweled—
Numbing immortality
I want to linger in apathy
No inhibitions,
without criminal feeling—
Lonely contentedness
Breathing with intention—
Aeolus, commanding wind
My soul is drunk
Filled to the brim—
With hopes and dreams
Peace with the worms,
Consciousless things
How I’d like to join them
In holy matrimony
With the earth
As the skies weep
Crank me
Jack-in-the-box
Cricks of rusty parts
As music tinkles
Softly
Through floorboards
Dusty as the attic
And the locked chest
From where it came
Your fingers could
Draw lines
Into the age
Of that wooden box,
The one
With a precarious lid
It delights in your touch
Waits for the skip
Of your heart
When anticipation
Is empty
And
P O P
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The spring dashes
Firmly into your eye
A lone thing
Without a clown’s company
Reinvention
Feels like a sin
i t’ s backpedaling
Don’t I deserve
To live
Without
A
Hi-polymer
Eraser
?
The Haunted Ceramic Figures of My Childhood
My ceiling is crusted with stars
It brings with hesitation, old memories
Chipped ceramic figurines
Cherub lips, empty gazes
Some were glazed matte,
Others shone glossy
There was a plastic
Glow-in-the-dark unicorn as well
The past hums
A soft lullabied tune
It creeps up your spine
And into your heart
Like ice
The old, dusty window ledge
Where those old figurines sat,
Ate cobwebs and glared out
At passerbys
The paint would stick to
Each small pedestal
Baked under the sun—
They would grow hot summertime come
I would touch them as a child,
Sometimes make them kiss
My fingers collided with their skin roughly
They were gritty, like fine-toothed sandpaper
Cross and unwelcoming they were
Like they had little spiteful souls
That looked at the first floor lawn
In contempt
Perhaps I should have known
It was how all things went
Visible and forgotten
Left for the next apartment owners
f(x)
I would like Math to love me—
Show me the world succinct
Truths and certainties
Laid upon numbers and variables
Only the white of paper
And the black of pen
The value of tangibility
The charted minimums
And maximums
Knowing where
The function of life
Curves and bends
—And whether
Pain and suffering
Ends.
I gathered people like dewdrops
Collect upon a lonely leaf
They were made in the clouds
Of pollution and acid rains
I beckoned and waved—
The wind forced my hand
Yet upon my lonely branch
Ne’er a hopeful bird did land
Only dewdrops grew
Little parasitical things
They burned and ate
And I turned yellow with grief
Pocked with holes
In sickly sheen
Death beckons
And I hesitate
But the solid form
Appeared
So comforting
A being
A rubber wristband
Encircling a
Pale arm
Extended graciously
A plain white
Sterile shirt
Hung loosely
’round their form
And bed hair,
Bright eyes,
A smile
Innocently wise
I would lay
In their embrace
Nestled wordlessly
Drifting
Into peace
If Life had not
Eaten my soul
Suffer blue skies
Dart games in the dark
Poison slipped
into white paper cups
Flowers spilled
Their petals splayed
Like droplets of blood
Cry a small stream
In a foggy shower
Hate inanimate things
For not having to feel
Despise cumulus clouds
Then cry some more,
This time with rain
Soaking your socks
Then you can
Be dramatic in the bathroom
Wet hair dripping
Eyeliner name:
Spooky clown
Because you love to
Wrap depression
In a romantic flurry
And
Your conscience
Becomes a blur
The Struggle for Originality
I found myself knee deep in poetry
Not knowing which direction to go
I settled, staying ’neath nonexistent leaves
Telling myself I’ll remain
Until the frost becomes much too cold—
Then, I could write of my
Fucking goddamn depression
Bass drop
It’s three o’clock in the morning
And I’ve been kissing individual framed photos
In my shrine of Poe Whitman Plath
I harbor such a pretentious heart
I could not bear to part with mediated prose
(Man these tumblr poets
And their penchant for simplistic thought)
—I’ve drunk so much irony in my tea
I can no longer taste its potent punch
I am so well-versed in the craft,
All my alliteration attempts are absolutely art
My words are like stars, night, dewdrops, love, eyes, the sunskyandmoon
I can write so fresh, I’ll write of farts
I’ve nothing to prove, nothing to lose
Whether I rhyme or not—
Conform or not—
There is nothing to gain
In being a contrarian.
lowercase
the utility
so poetic.
like i’m
merely speaking
words
words
words
bared meaning
the art
in the obvious
thanks rupi kaur
not sure
if i hate you
but boy,
do i love
red wheelbarrows