I honestly wish all the friends I had made in here and other sites the best. Like I don’t know what y'all are doing. I can’t really see much cuz I never had the chance to add y'all on any other social media… but hope y'all are doing well. I kinda miss talking to y'all

It’s hard loving something that’s not yours to love. Especially when that something made you love it. Made you dig deep into your emotions, tear down your walls, and open up your heart just for it. Only to tell you in the end that you were never even in the running for it’s love. You were just something to pass the time.

A break from life would be nice. Especially if it were a never ending one.

It was thanksgiving week! Yay! We love thanksgiving! I quit the gym on Wednesday, partially because they are open despite governor’s orders, and that just really irks me. Also, I’m not comfortable going to the gym during COVID anyway, so I just went ahead and quit.

 Thursday was thanksgiving of course, I had to work, but it wasn’t as crazy as we were scared it would be. On Friday I picked up a free treadmill that my friend’s mom gave me! I had originally looked it up and thought it was ok for up to 300 pounds, but I googled the other name after I got it and it says only 250, so I need to take it a little easy. 

Saturday, after a couple weeks of feeling weird about it, I broke it off with my boyfriend. We were only together 4 months, but it was long distance and we hadn’t seen each other in like 2 months. It was just hard and I was feeling really disconnected and I didn’t think that was fair to him. I’m sad, but mostly guilty. I really didn’t want to hurt him, but I felt like it had to be done. I spent most of the day crying and sleeping. 

Today I’m feeling a bit better and really used my treadmill for the first time. I don’t know if I’m super out of shape or what, but it was haaaaard! I only did 15 minutes at a slow pace and my heart was pumping and I was sweating! I’ll work my way back up to where I was. 

Oh I also got a new planner / journal that I’ve been tracking my food and daily habits in. I’m trying to track everything I eat, but not the specific calories, since that stresses me out. It’s a clever fox weekly planner if anyone wants to check it out, I love it! 

captainrexsoka:

I would like to apologize in advance for this. But it fits them so well imo I had to!!