#misery
the worst part the WORST part about the s4 decline of their relationship is that silver constantly has the most convenient excuse to avoid thinking too hard about every single one of flint’s fucked out of his mind in love with him behaviours – shooting dooley, forgiving him after silver literally tries to have him killed, practically begging him to get back together over and over – all of this happens right in front of silver’s face and silver is just like. this is about the war. you are obsessed with the war. you will do anything for it. you will kill anyone for it. you will forgive me for the war. you don’t care about me you have never cared about me all you care about is what you want. like he can just think and say these things and there’s no way for flint to deny it because he does care about the war. but its not all he cares about it is clearly not all he cares about.
@piratemadi this is so true madi literally does the same things. like i think if silver somehow heard about the fact that madi was prepared for him to die (for them all to die) if it meant the war could continue he would not have a crazy spiral thinking that madi is a selfish tyrant who doesn’t care about him or never cared about him or whatever. the only reason he’s able to think these things about flint is because they are comfortable thoughts – he needs flint to be that guy again so he can hate flint again because otherwise he can’t hate flint and if he can’t hate him he can’t kill him or unmake him or send him away or destroy him or never see him again. the inside of his brain is a hellscape.
and i think. im sorry about this but i think by the end of 410 he needs flint to be someone different again – he needs flint to be mcgraw (as if the division b/w flint and mcgraw was a clear cut, true division in the first place) not only that but if he’s telling the truth then he is saying that he needs it to be possible for someone to be “unmade” the way he thinks he did to flint. if he’s not lying then he is repeating again and again the thing he needs to believe is true but i think on some level he knows it is not. whoever was with him on the ship to savannah was flint and mcgraw and everything else the person who loved him was a combination of every version of flint and he knew and loved every version of flint. saying “he was no longer the man i knew” does not make that true and it doesn’t mean the man he was obsessed with is dead and gone or that they are not not in love with each other anymore
“Little birdie, sing me a song.
Reflect upon me what goes on;
In such misery do I decree
That a mind as cluttered as mine
Shall soon struggle to breathe.”