#not happy
I don‘t know where my head is anymore and I‘m so tired of it
Because one day I‘m completely happy and then the next day, I feel completely broken
I just wanna be happy and live my life but it seems like that can never happen
Because something always goes wrong..
I’m not going to talk about basketball. Nothing’s happened with our team in the last six hours. We’re going to start the same way tonight. Any basketball questions don’t matter. Since we left shootaround, 14 children were killed 400 miles from here. And a teacher. In the last 10 days, we’ve had elderly Black people killed in a supermarket in Buffalo, we’ve had Asian churchgoers killed in Southern California. Now we have children murdered at school. When are we going to do something? I’m tired. I’m so tired of getting up here and offering condolences to the devastated families that are out there. I’m so tired. Excuse me. I’m sorry. I’m tired of the moments of silence. Enough! There’s 50 senators right now who refuse to vote on HR8, which is a background check rule that the House passed a couple years ago. It’s been sitting there for two years. And there’s a reason they won’t vote on it: to hold onto power. So I ask you, Mitch McConnell, I ask all of you senators who refuse to do anything about the violence and school shootings and supermarket shootings. I ask you: Are you going to put your own desire for power ahead of the lives of our children and our elderly and our churchgoers? Because that’s what it looks like. It’s what we do every week. So I’m fed up. I’ve had enough. We’re going to play the game tonight. But I want every person here, every person listening to this, to think about your own child or grandchild, or mother or father, sister, brother. How would you feel if this happened to you today? We can’t get numb to this. We can’t sit here and just read about it and go, well, let’s have a moment of silence – yea, Go Dubs. C'mon, Mavs, let’s go. That’s what we’re going to do. We’re going to go play a basketball game. Fifty senators in Washington are going to hold us hostage. Do you realize that 90 percent of Americans, regardless of political party, want background checks – universal background checks? Ninety percent of us. We are being held hostage by 50 senators in Washington who refuse to even put it to a vote, despite what we, the American people, want. They won’t vote on it because they want to hold onto their own power. It’s pathetic! I’ve had enough!
I just want to be happy. Not to have this feeling of emptiness inside or feeling like I’m always wrong. Feeling of depression and I always want to cry. (And I do) I’m not strong anymore I’m broken.
I hate all the drama in my life that happens one after another. From big to small. I used to not let the little things bothered me like ( little pity or boys that don’t mean that much to me) but now I have really problems happening in my life and I don’t know if I can handle it.
just because someone looks happy
doesn’t mean they are
because even a white rose
has a black shadow.
Just had one of my blogs terminated…
Whoever it was who thought it would be funny to take away my safe space - it was not cool.
To whoever thought my content was triggering - don’t look at it then!
If you followed me on Slimmer-me-Happier-me, I’ll be back up and running again soon. I don’t encourage this life style, yes I post a lot of thinspo, but that is for my
My use only!
The problem only started to arise when I started to use the #notprojustusingtags tag. Why shut down a blog that has been going for nearly three years when there are still porn and NSFW blogs out there?! Especially as when I did get asks I pointed them towards a healthier side than to what I am doing!!
Getting my blog terminated will not stop me from starving myself and will not stop me from looking at thinspo, meanspo, sweetspo etc. It just makes me more determined to look a certain way. So what have you achieved? Nothing. Oh and my following was only about 50 people, so you haven’t stopped many people from seeing my content either!
It took me too long to realize that I shouldn’t stay friends with people who never ask how I’m doing or with people who don’t care about me
Keine Ahnung …
Ich wünschte du wärst so offen wie ich. Ich weiß zwar nicht wieso, aber ich hab den Drang andere zu beglücken. Leuten bei denen ich weiß, dass sie niemand haben, denen dieses schöne Gefühl zu bieten.
Aber du wirst es niemals zulassen.. weil du Angst hast, dass wir uns verlieren könnten.
Ich weiß nicht wieso, aber ich wünschte, du würdest wollen, wenn ich andere beglücke, während ich dir danach erzähle was war… keine Ahnung wieso
Ich fühle mich so unausgefüllt…
