More cuts on the arm thats so scarred

Just adding to the collection I guess.

I was clean

I relapsed……. I took a blade to my skin and cut it open… I’m a failure….. it would be better if I was dead.

Why

Why is it that when hes here he makes me so happy but so sad at the same time. But when hes gone I almost kill myself.

I’ve stopped eating. And no one has even noticed….

Jonathan

I want to message him but I’m not sure if I should. I want to talk to him but I’m not sure if he wants too. The last thing I said to him was that he’d never hear about from me. Or about me every again. I was upset. I was mad at what he did. I didn’t mean it. I still dont. I wish I never meet him. I wish he was never in my life. I want to die. And hes the reason why. Yet hes the reason I’m here. I dont know what to do.

Why does everyone leave? Why does no one want to stay? Im here crying alone and i have no one. Everyone left. And sometimes I see if people would care if i leave, and all they say is bye. What if that one time I said I was going i killed myself. What would they do then. Maybe people would like me more if i was dead. I just wish i was dead. I can’t do this shit anymore.

I took so many pills.

I’m tired. I think im going to go to sleep. Goodbye

Fuck you…

I hate to say

But i regret you

I regret giving you something

That was so important to me

But you just took it in a second

And act like it’s nothing

But to me it’s everything..

I’m exhausted…

totally having a quarter life crisis

why am i still alive?

because im really tired of living

What I really want:

Someone to stab my foot.

It’d be nice to feel fully wanted by someone I want. But I can never get that. It’s just a fantasy.

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No more Rocket League :/ I had to pawn my playstation . FML

Aaaaand my phone still needs be paid DX

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