#anoreeexia

i’m back and definetly not doing better than ever

last few days have been on my period and been having a hard few days

i feel numb.

i wish i can go back and to tell myself to stop eating.

day 4: felt so drained today, woke up at 6 cause i had a class at 8 and then my first meal was at 1 and testerday i had dinner around 8pm, so that means i technically did a 17 hour fast¿?¿

wow i didn’t know it was that long until now and ngl i feel pretty great about that. haven’t done a fast in ages, let alone one that lasted that long

oh ya and today was the first time that i had a single-serve meal and i was full after it!! like full to the point that when i was asked if i wanted seconds i said no right away!! like usually i would say yes, then realize taht i shouldn’t and then decline later. but today’s reaction was so quick i felt so good!!!

so today was a very good day

not sure if this will help anyone, but a small little trick that i use to help me go to sleep faster when i’m hungry: i drink so much water til the point that my stomach hurts and then i fall asleep faster cause u sleep faster on a full stomach.

idrk is that made any sense but ya

day 3: had a peanut butter sandwich, an apple and apple sauce and a granola bar

weighed myself and i’m 165 about 2-3 pounds to go before monday

day two: not so bad but don’t feel as great about it as i did yesterday. and it’s only day two fml. gotta keep going.

two months of work will be so rewarding at the end

Me after a binge

Shit. Summer is coming and I’m N O T R E A D Y

Weight loss/gain seems to always be noticable in my hands first before the rest of my body, which is kinda bittersweet because on one hand it’s shown my progress but on the other hand I literally don’t care if my hands get skinny or not ‍♀️

I got mega triggered today because my friend (who’s thinner than me) pointed out how I ate an apple in one sitting and how she was shocked… I mean it was a pretty big apple, BUT COME ON ITS FUCKIN FRUIT JUST LET ME HAVE THIS

That moment when all you’ve eaten today is straight up garbage, but you’re ok with it because it’s under your calorie limit