So Karen Nielsen, the writer of Nothing Lasts Forever, gave a thumbs up to my tweet in which I mentioned the parallels between what Mulder said to Scully in the church and what he said in Requiem. I asked if this was coincidence or a deliberate allusion. Because it if is an allusion, it is significant because Requiem was the episode where Scully learned she was pregnant. However, she did not respond to the question, and I cannot assume the thumbs up meant a confirmation that it was an allusion. She might have been giving a thumbs up to me saying that I loved the episode. However, if the similarities in the dialogue were merely a coincidence, it would be easy enough to say so. But to not respond makes me wonder if she’s dodging an answer because of how it points to the pregnancy spoiler. If she didn’t know how similar it was to Requiem, she might not want to admit to being unaware of the similarities to a very significant episode. But also I know she got feedback from long timers, so I cannot imagine no one mentioned it. (Although somehow long timers failed to tell Ben Van Allen, who wrote Familiar, that Emily was the name of name of Scully’s daughter and to suggest another name). Thoughts?

Nothing lasts forever,

Neither the innocence of a child,

Nor the love you fed.

Diamonds degrade and fade,

Love burns, lust remains.

-my diary

Today, October 10, we celebrate #WorldMentalHealthDay! Yes. It’s okay to admit that you’re not doing alright. It’s important to acknowledge those feelings than push them aside.

But let’s be more hopeful that this period of not being okay doesn’t last forever. And one day, all shall be well.

cherry blossoms

a short piece of prose about…

an analogy way too expendable often falls on tired, jaded ears, but resonates deepest within the heart.

when cherry blossom season comes, people flock to see the pink little cotton buds. they rush to catch that short window of opportunity, lest wait another arduous year they’re made to do. what a beautiful thing they’d want to see, amidst too many months of seeing everything else bleak, to be reminded of the wonders of the natural world, or perhaps the blessings from someone higher above. yet it is not beauty that awes the heart; beauty is what they seek. it is rarity for which they run towards the cherry blossoms when nature’s clock strikes, for they know as quickly as it appears, so will it fade.

and with every anticipation to witness splendour, comes every worry to lose it.

will life ever cease to feel this way? in every situation, with every person, trying to balance “living in the moment” and “knowing it will end” on both of our shoulders, much like how little schoolgirls once were trained to walk straight with books on their heads. but one exception exists: while she will eventually learn, we will never. either one will fall without fail, or perhaps both. for no one truly knows where the line in between exists, much less how to get there. learning how to walk the tightrope is the least of our worries.

with every beginning comes an end. yet while we know when the cherry blossoms wilt, the end to everything else is unknown. while i bask in the fact that i love you and you love me, i will always grapple with the dread that that sentence will not be said the same again, and that will always detract from the feeling of beauty in my heart as i gaze at the cherry blossoms.

and for which i don’t know how to fix, but hope time will graciously keep a step behind until i do, i am sorry.

“nothing lasts forever” [edit]

“nothing lasts forever”

Exclusive lyrics from new Madonna’s demo!

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER (DEMO) - MADONNA

VERSE 1
Come, come into my arms
don’t refuse me, world will fall apart
if you could see, see into my eyes
you’ll be with me,in this paradise

PRE-CHORUS
Don’t wanna leave for tomorrow
let’s live tonight like it is the last

CHORUS
Can you love me, like the world is ending
hold me, like it’s some getting
don’t stop ‘cause nothing lasts forever
You can save me, never let me go
and make me
indestructible
nothing lasts forever

VERSE 2
Take, take me to the stars
universe oh, love is what we are
trust me, put your hand in mine
I’ll be with you,till the end of time

PRE-CHORUS
Don’t wanna leave for tomorrow
let’s live tonight like it is the last

CHORUS
Can you love me, like the world is ending
hold me, like it’s some getting
don’t stop cause nothing lasts forever
You can save me, never let me go
and make me
indestructible
nothing lasts forever

[INTRUMENTAL]

CHORUS
Can you love me, like the world is ending
hold me, like it’s some getting
don’t stop cause nothing lasts forever
You can save me, never let me go
and make me
indestructible
nothing lasts forever