Not in a good place today. But at least my hair is.

Mackin. Hangin.

Hey y’all. Been a little m.i.a. During this quarantine. Really just trying to re-examine what’s important to me and what I should give my energy to. Hope you guys are also able to find the motivation to reflect and also strategize your next moves. Which is the perfect segue into my next move . I’m dropping my first music video this WEDNESDAY for my new music project Yung Kobra. The group is comprised of me and Simonne Jones (artist and producer) and we’re really just trying to girl power the world. Stay tuned for more updates coming soon and don’t forget to save the date THIS WEDNESDAY

HELLO. I’ve been having a pretty shitty 2020 so far, and then Kobe died, so….yeah. I was feeling kinda cute tho so here ya go

Happy New Year/Decade y’all. I hope we all get rich!!

I had another music video shoot with my cousin Jared for my new music project called Yung Kobra!! I’m so excited for it to come out. Here’s some stills from the day :) To listen just search ‘Yung Kobra Relax’ on spotify or really any streaming serrvice 

Channeling my inner angel before I do my first performance as the deliciously evil Wicked With of the West tonight!! It’s to keep me grounded, I can’t get so entrenched that I start wanting to kill dogs in real life. Lol just kidding but I do like the contrast of the pics next to each other. I’m so excited I’ve always wanted to act and this is my first big role!! If you’re in Houston come see it at The Art Factory.

I’m shooting a music video tomorrow so I wanted to find a unique hairstyle but one that’s kinda Afro centric. So I was heavily inspired by a girl I follow on instagram to create these bubble box braids. I’m so excited to see how they look on camera. In the meantime enjoy this selfie of me and my new hairdo ‍♀️

I’ve been off the internet all week due to a cold I caught from my son. Self care?? What is that?! Lol. It’s so hard to get sick when you’re somebody’s mama like foreal I just don’t have the time. So I’ve not touched my hair and I don’t care cause I love it so much in its natural state. I love me in my most natural state. Boom

Happy Halloween!!

I literally had no idea what I was gonna dress up as this morning. It’s always safe to do vampire or witch. Those are pretty straightforward. But then I saw this old unitard I never sold and voila! 80s jazzercise/aerobics instructor. Boom! Lol and of course the video. Here you go I had an awesome night trick or treating with my son and husband. My kid dressed as One Punch Man - it’s unfair how adorable he is

Happy Halloween ghouls!! Such a magical time of year when all the freaks come out to play - it’s me, I am freaks. For my last horror movie recommendation for this month, I rewatched one of my absolute favorites - 2009’s ‘The Triangle’.

This is more in the thriller genre but the storyline is interesting and also, shall I say, scary. Im doing my own plot synopsis today because I just adore this film. It opens with a group of friends (including a very sexy, young Liam Hemsworth) preparing to go sailing in the Atlantic on a yacht.  Our main character, Jess seems a little dazed and confused from the very beginning even having trouble remembering where her son is, who, we gather, she was supposed to bring on the sailing trip. She’s disoriented and we’re not sure why, but even her new friends think she’s acting more than a little bit weird.

All of sudden, in open water, they lose all wind in their sail and essentially get stuck in the middle of the ocean with an eerie storm brewing not too far off. It’s a strange scene watching the sail go completely limp and their boat become enveloped in the violent storm.  They get some strange interference on the radio when calling for help - also, according to the coast guard, there is no storm on the radar. Something is definitely amiss.

The yacht their sailing does not withstand the storm and capsizes forcing the group to board a mysterious ship that seemingly appears out of nowhere. However, after boarding they soon realize that the ship is abandoned, but that’s the least of their worries.

Fun fact: the ship is called the Aeolus, who was the god of wind. There’s a Sysiphus reference here - in Greek mythology, Sysiphus was condemned by the gods to push a rock up a mountain only to see it roll down again for all eternity. This is an important reference for the plot, so keep that in mind.

We soon start to feel that perhaps they aren’t alone. Perhaps their being stalked. They discover weird cryptic messages and always seem to be one step behind whoever is watching them.

The first time I saw this it really messed with my head and I was so blown away by the creative story. I really didn’t want to give too much away with my recap because there’s a pretty good twist here that I would hate to ruin. But this movie is exciting and keeps a fast pace from the very beginning. It’s kind of a mental mind fuck and I absolutely love it.  And rewatching after all these years, I think it still holds up and is really the type of film that’s going to keep you on your toes, start to finish.

Fair warning it can get pretty violent, so if you don’t like that, just move right along.  This is a thrilling adventure and it does not slow down. Enjoy! Happy trick or treating. And Happy Halloween!!!

Life Update and Huge Thanks To You All

Hi my friends! I hope you’re still there. It’s been definitely over a year since I’ve posted regularly to tumblr. If you’re new here then welcome if you’ve been rocking with me for a while then thank you so much for sticking around.

For literal years I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety. I’ve been hospitalized twice for attempted suicide. I hate that I did that. I’ve struggled with loss so great that it felt unbearable. My grandmothers both died within a year of each other and my very good friend committed suicide. I lost my sense of self and all desire to live. I forgot what happy felt like and cursed the feeling. I still kinda hate the word “happy”. These days I prefer to use the term contentment. That’s what I’m after now. Contentment with wherever I am in life.

I used to chase and chase something that continued to elude me. Money, fame/clout - they used to be so important to me, and now I still have desire to achieve both but it isn’t the only thing that matters anymore.

God blessed me so much right after my last grandma died. He gave me hope and purpose by way of my son. I’m forever grateful for him. He is my reason to get up and keep going. It’s so cliche but it’s the god honest truth. Looking at his little cherub face I can’t help but smile. 3 years ago it pained me too much to try to force a smile. These days it pains me to try not to smile. I’m smiling in my heart now and it makes me cry tears of joy when I think about it.

I still want more for my life, my family, and my career. But now I don’t qualify my worth by how much money I make or how many people know my name. I’m just happy to be loved and seen by my angel sweetie.

Still working on finding the joy in dressing up that I used to have. When my friend killed herself, I felt like that part of me died too. I just didn’t want to draw attention to myself anymore. I was in a dark place and didn’t want to see any light or color. I just wanted to sleep. I’m so much better now and am playing in my clothes more and more like I used to. I still feel guilt about making purchases but I allow myself a treat every now and then.

Thank you so much for being here and for being you and for listening when I needed it. I appreciate you all so much more than you’ll ever know even without meeting. You continue to bless me by just being.

Just a little melanin for your feed

Fallin into Fall

Happy to feel this fall weather change. I can actually wear a long sleeved top again lol. Hey remember American Apparel? I totally forgot I still had this skirt. It’s still cute - wish they didn’t dissolve.

About last night….I was clearly very excited to be at the Waffle House

Hey friends. I made a really chill playlist to relax to. If you like it please hit the follow button on Spotify. Every follow helps my numbers grow in streaming. So I totally appreciate any support. This playlist slaps btw. Hope you enjoy and share it.

Hey guys! I’m in LA this week for a slew of songwriting sessions. I’m really excited to get to work. Here’s a pic I took of myself last week in this awesome African print shirt that I ironically bought in Germany. To my credit, it was at a flea market - they have the BEST outdoor markets in Berlin!! If you’re ever that way please go check them out.

So today was pretty chill, I actually got to relax a bit (haha get it? If not just go follow my Spotify pages —— but like actually click follow. pretty please )

https://open.spotify.com/track/3ry7d1UYZ0AGLhHZlb6Ojy?si=qHxOK8hOQYazq-BPPSx76A

And also OG Robyn The Bank

https://open.spotify.com/track/4tgbrMyEreXk04cDyOXs30?si=PaajxH8OSSGVnViN5IwVNA

I’m a lil wacky

I’ve been binging on Pose on Netflix this week and I am livingggg. So this look was inspired by the 80s. Follow me on instagram @robynthebank