It’s a milestone which made me stop and take a look back at my life. I assessed where I wanted to be by this age and where I am currently. I looked at everything I accomplished and all the things that are still left for me to do. And most importantly I thought about all the things that I learnt.
I’ve been thinking a lot about naming this post. I would call it Butterfly syndrome, but it doesn’t quiet exist, so let’s just pretend this is something I made up.
It is a feeling of being stuck at one point of your life, as if you feel like you are not going anywhere.
I’m sure a lot of you have felt this before, but I decided to give it a name. I chose those name since butterflies go through…
happy halloween week all my beautiful little pumpkins. I had this pierrot bodysuit/bunnysuit custom made for the occasion!
I treasure Halloween and take it very seriously, however this was the first year I had a costume custom designed and tailor made for my body- and I have to say I’ve truly never felt better.
Last year i created a pumpkin poncho that covered everything but my legs, this year I wore a skin tight, curve hugging garment. Talk about a Halloween glow up !
I did end up ordering myself some lunch yesterday- Vietnamese vermicelli bowl with BBQ pork. I did really enjoy this, I didn’t feel ill after eating it and the sauce was enjoyable. The only heavy part of this meal was the meat.
I wish they had a vegetarian or at least a tofu option. I am not a vegetarian, however meatless meals are a preference of mine 90% of the time. I find meals without meat are much more gentle on my guts and digestion!
I’ve been awake since 4am and tossing and turning all night before that…
Sleep and I have always had a hard time getting along. I adore sleep. The vivid dreams, the horrid nightmares, I love it all. For me however, it’s always been a delicate balance of medication, temperature, pillows, proper positioning, lights (I wear a sleep mask) and sounds (I have a fish tank in my room which has a filter running at all times).
It’s always been hard for me to get up in the mornings. I greatly dislike getting up before I’m ready to wake up naturally, and I love sleeping for as long as possible, which used to be a problem but isn’t as much of one anymore. I feel like sometimes I’m addicted to sleep, always chasing that perfect, restful night, which comes so so rarely…
Monday I wasn’t feeling the greatest emotionally so I decided to slip into something comfortable and easy to prepare, which ended up being chicken noodle soup ( yes the Liptons kind from a package, we all have our weird food loves ) and two small grilled cheese sandwiches. I enjoyed this meal and it ended up being the only thing I ate Monday, I really truly was so emotionally checked out that this was all I could handle.
The other forgotten meal is actually last Friday’s lunch!
Yogurt, berries, bran and granola with a homegrown toasted tomato sandwich!
I slept super well last night which was nice, I can’t remember the last time I slept that well. The cool breeze through my windows and the smell of damp fall leaves was so comforting it was almost hypnotizing.
I love fall, I love Halloween, I can’t wait for more fall things in my life!
Barely sleeping, barely eating, general unwellness.
I made this lunch for myself yesterday and didn’t end up touching much of it due to feeling so unwell so that is both yesterday’s lunch and today’s.
Please note this is not a good example of proper eating and this is not a frequent pattern for me, but being honest about food here is important to me. People should be eating everyday and I stand behind that, but illness and sickness will impact that for sure.
