Greetings, dear readers!
 To those good Ladies and Gentlemen of impeccable taste who find much to appreciate in the images presented here, I extend my apologies for the prolonged and uncharacteristic absence of late. Let down by the sudden and near-total failure of my modern technology I was forced to take a much longer than anticipated break from sharing this collection. In fact, I thought much of it lost, but oh, what fortune! What delight! That they could be saved and restored to my clutches at last!
 I must also express a warm and somewhat startled welcome to those two hundred who have joined us here since my last post - I was not expecting doing precisely nothing for over a month would draw in such a crowd!  

I do not know if there is a right way to wear a poncho, but whatever calix has going on here is definitely wrong

Hi… Anyone remember me?

I feel so bad about all the time that’s gone by since I posted here. 2019 was a difficult year for me and unfortunately I just wasn’t able to dedicate time to be here and do the sort of good work I’d want to on the uploads. I’ve been having a very hard time finding a job and time got away from me way too fast here until I thought about you all today and realized I need to do my best to get back in it again. That and I’ve got a upcoming plan I’d like to present here!

I’ve been thinking a lot about starting up a YouTube channel with short videos about multiple subjects. I really love scary real life stories, history, architecture and just interesting people and places and was considering doing short “documentaries” on some Victorian-era homes, people like Evelyn Nesbit, etc. I don’t know of any audience to share this with except here though.

It’s going to take me a while to gather information and resources to do these videos but I really hope I can be successful. I plan on doing a very good job with accuracy and appealing presentation. Would you be interested in me sharing links here and there on this blog when I get it off the ground?

Hope you all are well; again, I’ll try to get back to posting on a hopefully weekly basis! For those of you who stuck with me all this time later, thank you!!

Hello,

So midterm week is now upon me which is why I disappeared last week, between classes and a barrage of assignments, and one particularly long take home exam, I haven’t been able to blog. But luckily, spring break is just a week plus a couple days away! Hopefully I will take the day to do nothing but schedule blog posts that way we stop running into this issue. Sorry about this mess of mine guys.

Ich habe das Verlangen mich zu schneiden, ich kann es nicht mehr lange vermeiden.

Es tut mir leid falls es passiert, aber die Gedanken in meinem Kopf, haben sich gehäuft.

Ich weiß, ihr seid enttäuscht…

Sorry I haven’t been active This new job kicking my but put hey im getting paid

I’m very sorry

I know I was gone for months while my sister was only here for one. I have been dealing with a lot of news that certain people passed away. Is a bit hard for me to move on from the deaths of these people so I owe y'all a huge apology. I’m back and I’ll try to not skip a weekly post. The story is already up. So please post Epilepsy Awareness!

I’ve had a bit of time to reflect I’ve decided that I will be back, but I do need a break. And thank you for those who reached out and offered some kind words :)

The full story…

In a nutshell, Saturday I was erratic and tired and not in a good place, and I was off of my medication. 

Here’s how it happened: I’ve been working six days a week, 10+ hour days for the past 5 weeks.  I was eating crap, not doing dishes, letting my laundry overflow, letting my spaces get messier and messier. Basically, just ignoring my needs. Over the weeks, I simply wore down. I had a frustrating encounter with a coworker on Friday, on Saturday I was running around in between jobs trying to get ready for my trip to be in my sister’s wedding, my friends cancelled on me for Saturday night and then when I got home, frustrated and tired and overextended, I was rejected by fandom too. I was not in a good place when I posted on Saturday that I was leaving.

On Sunday, after letting myself sleep in, my reminder alarm went off on my watch to take my medication. I’d forgotten to take it on Saturday, but when I opened the bottle, I realized I’d forgotten to take my medication for the past five days. It’s funny, but before I saw those five extra pills in the bottle, I couldn’t see that my I that my behavior was erratic and that my anxiety was out of control.

My point in writing all of this is simply to say– make time for yourself. This is the lesson I learned. 

I know I’m supposed to take my medication everyday, and I know why I didn’t. My routine was altered, and I wasn’t doing things for me. It’s easy to say no to yourself. I was too busy trying to squeeze too many things into a day. I was cutting corners everywhere to give more to my job.   

Sorry for being an alarmist. All I can say is that I’m tired and I need a break, but I love being a part of fandom. I’ve had great times here, so I decided I will be back once I figure out what I want to do, and do those things for me. 

hey guys, I’m sorry i haven’t post in a while… i just finished my exams and i have a recording session for a competition.. last week was kinda rough for me, so I’m trying my best to go back to writing.. ANYWAYS- i hope u have a great day and take care

JUST XIAO SMILING-

honeymoon-cc2:

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I’m sorry, it’s bad that I delay this hair. But now I have study and work. + I decided to change this hair (new alpha and I need to correct the detail) coming soon ….

taste-of-ink:

caledoniaseries:

blackkatmagic:

the sheer offensiveness of rereading something you wrote, discovering that, hey, it’s actually pretty good, and then reaching the end, wherein you realize that if you want more you actually have to write it

fuck’s sake 

writers will look at their own WIPs and be like “is anyone gonna finish that” and then close the tab

hide-and-seekrets:

apologies to anyone who ever thought i was cool and reached out to me only to discover i am just a weird little hermit who can’t carry on a conversation to save my life

crazynoisybizarretoon:

Okay, so this is probably THE LAST thing I’d want to do right now, but…

…I think I’m going to have to take a hiatus from writing. Maybe just for 2 weeks. I don’t want to push myself too much as to get myself burnt out, but I’ve felt incredibly de-motivated and unable to do any kind of writing for any fics. I don’t want to get burnt out when I’m so close to finishing everything, so, yeah.

I’m so sorry, but I’ve realised this is just something I need to do for my own health. Hopefully I should have something out in 4 weeks, at the most.

So, uh. If you’re here for any writing, I’ll see you all then, and I really appreciate your patience. It really, really helps.