fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says “actually works” does actually work.
hate exercising and realizing i’ve let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i’ve overturned my fight-or-flight response.
hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i’m less anxious and i have more energy
hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i’ve actually started healing about something once i’m able to externalize it
hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently
hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love
horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i’m gonna do it tho
último dia do ano, eu não apareci muito aqui em 2020 por conta da minha saúde mental e também o desanimo absurdo por conta da quarentena. pretendo voltar em 2021 porque eu sinto MUITA saudade de editar e postar aqui nesse cantinho. se cuidem, usem máscara e álcool em gel! feliz ano novo pra vocês!
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last day of the year, i didn’t show up here much in 2020 because of my mental health and also the absurd discouragement because of the quarantine. i intend to return in 2021 because i really miss editing and posting here in this little place. take care, wear a mask and gel alcohol! happy new year to you! ❤
Summary: Just (Y/N) and Sapnap having a cute Minecraft date then falling asleep under the stars.
Genre: SoulmateAU! Part two to oh, it’s you!but it could be read on its own. Fluff!
Pronouns: They/them
Warnings: Cursing.
[a/n: I decided to combine two requests since one anon wanted a cute Minecraft date with Sapnap and another wanted a part two to ‘oh, it’s you!’, so I went “¿Por qué no los dos? ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯” I hope you both enjoy even though this is a bit short! Thank you for requesting and your patience. I’ve been busy with class, so updates will be slow. Edit: Sapnap expressed discomfort of his first name being used, so there will be changes on every Sapnap fic!]
(Y/N) and Sapnap had such a good time at the meet-up (with Dream hardcore third-wheeling), but soon (Y/N) had to go back home, much to Sapnap’s dismay.
The goodbye was full of tight hugs and promises to text and call. The two soulmates knew that their relationship would be long-distance for now, but that did not stop longing to begin building up inside them.
Currently the two were having a study date through Facetime, until Sapnap had an idea. “Hey, wanna take this date to the next level?”, Sapnap’s voice made (Y/N)’s head perk up from their notes with their eyebrows raised. “W-what?! Are you suggesting what I think your suggesting?”, (Y/N) laughs in disbelief at the sudden proposal. “Oh yeah.”, Sapnap smirked, “We going to have a Minecraft date!”. (Y/N) rolls their eyes with a smile, “I hate you.”
“Love ya too babe. Now log on and let’s get this party started!”
The two started up a new world. They spawned in a woodland biome and there was a meadow nearby, which was perfect for them to setup a picnic and a quaint house. (Y/N) goes to get wood and stone while Sapnap gets some food and wool. “How the hell do you build so fast? It’s borderline witchcraft.”, Sapnap remarks while placing some mutton into the smoker. “Maybe I’m just a better gamer.”, (Y/N) shrugs. “Maybe you can suck this- OH GOD A CREEPER!”, Sapnap shrieks and barely sprints away before it explodes. “Oh shit…Um, (Y/N)?”, Sapnap crouches his character in front of (Y/N)’s, who hums in response, “The creeper blew up the chest with all the stuff.”
“Goddamit. This little maneuver is gonna cost us the rest of the day!”, (Y/N) moves their character so it looks like it’s slamming their head against the wall. Sapnap snickers at their antics.
Soon they were able to get back the lost materials and put down a picnic blanket made out of red and white wool carpet. They ate berries and steak in-game, snacked in real life, and just talked and joked around.
A few minutes after sunset, Sapnap pipes up, “I wanna show you something I found earlier. Follow me.” (Y/N) does and the two make their way through the woods until they stop at a hill top illuminated with torches.
“I figured it would have a nice view.”, Sapnap stops and looks at the star-studded sky. “Well, you were right.”, (Y/N) smiles softly at Sapnap’s face on the video call before turning to look at the night Minecraft sky. “I miss you.”, the words fall from (Y/N)’s lips before they can stop it. Sapnap looks at (Y/N) through the call, “I miss you too.”
During the Christmas holidays I bought this beauty mask kit with the hair band as a gift so as to keep the face uncovered during the application of the masks: very comfortable! There are 4 masks:
“Peel off” exfoliating mask with green tea extract Anti-wrinkle illuminating gel mask with chlorella extract Scrub mask with bamboo charcoal powder Purifying detoxifying mask with white clay and organic willow extract.
I have already tried two and if you have followed the stories, you already know what I think: with the golden chlorella mask I felt good, while the purifying clay mask releases a very strong smell of alcohol and does not remove homogeneously , but in small pieces. Have you tried them? What do you think?
Did you know that today is @temarihime birthday? It is funny cause her bday is 5 days away from Temari´s.
Bby! I hope you wake up with a huge smile and that you will like my little gift. i know it is not much but I send you a virtual hug from here. Congrats for achieving another year in your life, live at your fullest, spoil yourself today if you can! Listen to your fave music, buy that icecream that you like, treat yourself like the gorgeous queen that you are <3
Please go to her profile and celebrate her! Lots of love
1.Not everything is black and white, most things are gray.
it isn’t all or nothing, it isn’t this or that. life is made of grays, in betweens, unfinished and unknowns. you have to accept that, embrace that, then you can move forward.
2.Worrying hasn’t gotten you anywhere either do something about it or move on.
you wasted too much time worrying about the future. you wasted too much time worrying about “what ifs”. those things don’t matter. live in the present. handle the present. the future is for-just that- the future.
3.You can not control everything.
i know you like to feel control of every aspect of your life, because once, you felt like you couldn’t control anything, but that time was in the past. some things are up to other people and other chances. you cannot force anything to happen. things come ang go, the earth still spins without your control. learn to let it go.
4.You are not God, you are fragile, weak, sensitive and prone to crumble, but that is okay.
stop acting like you can do a million things at ones. stop acting like you never tired. take a break, it is okay.
5.Not everybody wants to be a pop star.
people have different dreams, different definitions of “success”. you have to respect that, support that, and learn to understand their perspective. some people want to settle down, have kids, work in cubicles, and come home to a dancing family. have your dreams, pursue them till your bones ache and your voice breaks, but respect others as well.
6.Be kind to everyone, whenever you can.
when you having s*itty day, you would want the same.
7.Nobody is out to get you.
stop being so dang defensive. you are safe. you are loved. remember that most people only want to help you on this very strenuous journey of life.
8.Sometimes you have to be selfish.
do things for yourself. take care of yourself. forgive them not for them, but for you.
9.You’re dumb as heck!
there is so much you are still learning, so much you still don’t understand! the important thing is to just keep learning.
10.Don’t let your past depict your future.
learn from your past hardships instead of letting them hold you back.
11.Ingest more art.
time and time again art has healed your soul. don’t deprive yourself of that.
12.Go more places.
there is nothing better than travelling to remind you just how big the world is and just how small you are.
13.You need people.
you don’t like being too alone. make sure you always have somebody to go to.
14.Do everything with full heart.
giving every task your best effort pays off, and you know it.
15.Welcome change with open arms.
in every aspect of your life.
16.Do not be afraid to fall madly in love.
If you break your heart it can be mended if you discover a new beautiful soul. you’ll be grateful. you don’t have to be so cautious anymore.
17.Learn to forgive the ones who hurt you.
18.Take a step back every once in a while.
observe your life from the out side. just like a painting, you lose sight of what is important when you’re so caught up in the intricacies. when you observe your life as an outsider, you will realize just how blessed you are to have made it to the place that you are. tell those who helped you that you love them, laugh at how unlikely and silly your live has been, then step back into your life with the knowledge of just how much you have yet to live.
“If you’re not making mistakes you aren’t learning”
“Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today: You matter. You’re important. You’re loved. And your presence on this earth makes a difference whether you see it or not.”
(181218) shiny90408 translation: (text: hello~ this is director kim sodam. to those who attended the shiny arts festival thank you. thank you for participating through your words, art and videos, and even those who gave their support from outside the venue! it’s wonderful to be able to share our memories of jonghyun and remember him together~ hopefully the shiny arts festival will continue to connect “physical” and “psychological spaces”~^^ i also hope we can pile our memories one by one through the “encore” stages of many cultural artists and youth.. and our various stories!
because we’ll do it together not alone, because i won’t leave you alone, because i’ll accompany you, because i’m next to you, - always there (honesty)
*since this is something i really want to convey, i hope someone skilful can translate it )
