Why did I plan to finish my final essay of the school year on the same day as my booster vaccine. I decided to book it for first thing in the morning. I didn’t consider that that might mean I’d feel for the rest of the day. This is uhhhh not gonna reach anywhere near the minimum word count, I can’t move lmao
Shit. I’m bored again… why do I get bored in relationships so easily? Maybe because every guy I’ve ever dated was a complete dumb shit. They really act as if they’ve never had girlfriends before. For instance today my boyfriend and I were out, well he asked me to drive him to CVS. Before we left I jokingly said “You need to learn how to drive, I’m sick of driving us around.” He took it the wrong way and had a fucking attitude the whole entire day. Why are you mad at me because you’re a 23 year old man who doesn’t know how to drive? Even when I offer to teach him he declines my offers. Does he really think that he’ll be driven around by me his entire life? I think not.. But that’s besides the point, I went to go get gas when we were out he didn’t even offer to pump my gas.. he didn’t even offer to pay for it.. he just sat his ass in the car. I thought boyfriends were suppose to do things for you like pump your gas or open doors for you. Atleast sometimes! Yeah mines doesn’t do those things. And it has gotten to a point now where I think I’m the man in our relationship. He’s MY GIRLFRIEND! Lmao that’s freaking CRAZY! Anyway him having an attitude all day led to me having a good day. I finished watching a anime called Toradora (it was amazing btw), and I started learning Japanese. Well I’ve been trying to learn but today I took it serious, mostly because I trying out the 14 day free trail on Duolingo. I think if I stick to it everyday I’ll be fluent in a year. So basically I have a better days when we aren’t talking. I’m always way more productive when he isn’t around. I’m starting to feel like we aren’t good together. Not in a relationship anyway. We just don’t get each other in that way you know? I just want someone who understand me, all of me and he’s not that sadly.. Anyway よる (night)
How can you feel so lonely laying next to someone you love. How is your mind going 100 miles per second while they are sleeping so soundly. Have we come to our end? I hope not. My problem is whenever there is a problem I just think it’s the end of everything. I guess being in a past toxic relationship can do that to a person. I won’t make up excuses. I’ve grown so much since my ex (my longest relationship to date) and I broke up 2 years ago. But I still think about him sometimes. Why did we end again? 5 years is a long time to spend with someone. To put up with someone. My new boyfriend now was also in a 5 year long relationship. It literally took me a year and half to get over my ex. So how is he just over her like that? It doesn’t make sense to me. He loved her right? Is he just lying to himself. That’s besides the point. I promised myself I wouldn’t talk about her, or being her up again. That why I unfollowed her from my fake account on Instagram. Ahaha.. that’s embarrassing I know. I just wanted to keep tabs on her. For what reason? I don’t know.. maybe to be sure they weren’t speaking to each other. But how could I tell that just by a follow. Sometimes I think I dig so deep only because I like being hurt. Well it’s not that I enjoy being hurt. It’s just, fuck I don’t know! I’m a fucking weirdo. I guess I got so use to being hurt by my ex I just expect it from everyone. I just expect everyone to put me second. I expect someone to cheat on me. I expect not to be loved the way I love. I don’t think I’m fully healed. So why am I in a relationship were either of us have healed. I guess I expect us to heal together, to understand each other like no one else ever would. But that’s impossible. We barely know eat other and we argue once a week. He doesn’t think that we do but we do. We do. And our communication skills aren’t very great either. We’ve known each other for a year now maybe we should’ve stayed friends this whole year then grew into something more. But everything happens for a reason, I guess we’ll see. Night.
In the next week and a half, I need to make my family’s yearly photo slideshow and finish up three Christmas presents. Yet, I just downloaded SimCity2000, one of the games that I logged multiple 100’s of hours on growing up.
“But everybody thinks that everybody knows about everybody else, nobody knows anything about themselves cause they’re all worried about everybody else”
Just because the days are repetitive at the moment, it does not mean you are not still making progress. You are not wasting your life. You still have time.
and NOBODY needed to see a single solitary chromosome before they knew who to rape, who to legally allow to own property, who to forcibly impregnate and keep pregnant for the rest of their lives, who to classify as property, who to educate at the expense of others, who to treat as human, who to treat as subhuman.
stop playing coy and hiding behind “teehee silly terves think that u need CHROMOSOMES to know sex.” it was never complicated until it became beneficial to a select few to pretend that the global understanding of biological sex & the use of it to enact violence against women is ‘imprecise.’ our experiences are not a passing thought exercise.
biological denialism
Isnt it interesting that no men in the west were rushing to be LEGALLY (of course there were autogynephiles as many males are probe to misogynistic paraphilias) recognized as women when women COULDNT VOTE, OWN ANYTHING, DIVORCE, WERE THE HUSBAND PROPERTY HOUSEKEEPERS, had countless children, couldnt even show tgeir knees or go to the beach with appropriate clothong not even wear pants etc?
porn really is turning males into something else, the studies 100 years from now on the porn edpidemic, rise in futa and trap porn, rise in rape porn, and rise in transwomen will really be something
Interesting statistic, rape porn is searched for and consumed at a higher rate by women than men.
As well, the rise in transwomen is attributable to the level of privilege that women experience in the west and the social acceptance of transgenderism. Notice that women are not jumping to become men at nearly the same rate.
Futa porn is essentially depictions of women with strapons, carrying on the idea that women don’t need a man, and best reflect modern attitudes on the sexual objectification of men (reducing men to their phallus).
And the rise of porn can be attributed to the dismantling of the family structure, the division between males and females due to ideological influence, the devaluation and increasing inaccessibility of heterosexual relationships, and a devaluation of chastity and marriage. All contribute to an atmosphere where men (and increasingly women) turn to artificial substitutions to healthy sexual interaction. Women’s standards are to high to allow access to sex, and men have been systematically shamed for wanting access to sex. Porn is the only other legal option.
“Women’s standards are to high to allow access to sex, and men have been systematically shamed for wanting access to sex. Porn is the only other legal option.”
Since when in any culture are men shamed for wanting sex? Men in the past used to have mistresses and there was no outcasting of such men in society. Women’s standards are too high? Oh boo fucking hoo. You sound like an incel.
And you sound like the kind of woman I was refering to.
You ask when in any culture are men shaned for wanting sex, and then you accuse me of sounding like an “incel”, a term that is used to shame men who want access sex but can’t get it, because women’s standards are too high to allow them said access.
But, let’s put it this way, if women’s standards were not too high, then incels would likely not be a thing because almost every guy would have reproductive access to at least one. In a situation where there are more women then men, there should be no reason a man could not find a woman willing to provide him sexual access unless the man is significantly substandard in all respects. The only rational reason that an average man wpuld not be able to gain sexual access to a woman then is because there are not enough women for each man and the women do not want to provide access to multiple men.
Really, in any scenario that does not involve forcefully taking sex from a woman, women hold all of the power as sexual, and thus reproductive, access is based on a man meetin her standards for access. And, since incels are really a thing and increasing in number, it is obvious that women’s standards have increased to a point that disqualifies even average/standard men. Those men who no longer qualify are then shamed and disparaged by the women who reject them for trying to pursue them, and even penalized if they persist in said pursuit.
That’s just reality as things currently stand. It doesn’t have to be that way, but it’s all in women’s hands to fix it.
Okay since appealing to ethics won’t go anywhere with you based on your woman-hate filled essay, I’ll appeal to biology.
Women, as in the female sex, do all the reproductive labor. Women menstruate, women get pregnant, women go through the ordeal of childbirth (which could kill you if it goes wrong or if you hemorrhage after) and women breastfeed for many months, sometimes up to 2 years. Men, as in males, ejaculate and impregnate women. They can choose to walk away at this point and never deal with the woman they impregnated giving birth or the infant if she keeps the baby. This is why women are choosy. Women will never not be choosy. Our bodies have to deal with the aftermath. My vagina. My uterus. My breasts making milk. Not men’s. Never men’s. This is a scientific fact. The sex that does all the labor ultimately chooses because they’re the ones doing all the work. If you got a problem with that, take it up with God or biology or planet earth or whatever.
Also you said so yourself. Women deny access if they think men are substandard. Guess what! Incels ARE substandard. They are entitled to women’s bodies and think they somehow deserve “reproductive access” to them. They are woman-hating misogynists who think women shouldn’t get to have a say who accesses their bodies, aftermath and repercussions be damned. Incels and men like them will never get any woman because women can smell the misogyny and hatred coming off of them from a 20 ft radius.
Spoken like a person suffering from massive penis envy and a major chip on their shoulder, you know, someone with internalized misogyny.
And, I say this because your arguments are not based on anything that I have said or any attitudes that I have presented towards women, but are an absolute projection of your own negative feelings about the lot women were dealt by nature.
See, I absolutely agree with and acknowledge the “reproductive labor” , though I wouldn’t really use those words, of women. It most certainly is an important responsibility and burden that women hold when it comes to perpetiating himan existence and I certainly do beleive women should be discerning when choosing a reproductive partner. However, my coment was not ditracting from that idea. There is a point at which standards for partner selection exceed the reasonable threshold into the absurd.
You want to talk about biological facts, I wonder if you acknowledge the effects of hypergamy in women on reproductive selection. Incase you have not heard of it, and for those reading who have not, hypergamy is a mechanism which drives women to seek put male partners that are of higher status than they are. That means, generally speaking and under most circumstances, that the majority of females allow reproductive access only to males they percieve to be of a higher status than them with exceptions to males of almost equal but yil higher status than them, be it: physical (height, strength, health) intelligence (education, skills) social standing (politics, networking, reputation, desirability), or the most valued qualities being related to resource acquisition (financial stability, gainful employment, material worth). Do to the effects of social engineering, affirmative action, and welfare programs designed to project women to the top of everything, women now out perform most males in education, socio-political stature, employment (and this material worth and financial stability).
Where males who may not have been acceptable on the physical and inteligence qualities may have had a chance by accelling in resource acquisition, they have now been shut out. Even average men who were acceptable on a physical, intellectual, or education/skill level are finding it difficult to find acceptance. Women, on average, are seeking mates from a decreasing pool of increasingly rare, above average super men, who exceed them in almost every category. This is one onthe leadin contributors to rapidly declining birthrates in most first world countries, increases in divorce rates (primarily initiated by women), and increases in single parent, matriarchial households (subsidized by the state usurping the role of the patriarchal resource provider).
Yes, those men you call “incels” are entitled, not to access to women’s bodies but to reproductive opportunity, becuase they are participants in a rigged system that says “if you follow these rules kas laid out by women), you will be rewarded”, but the reward for their efforts never materialize. And, this is because women DO have control over access to their bodies AND reproduction (which is seperate) AND the aftermath of conception, and the women have overwhelmingly said “repercussions be damned” as long as they get their resources. The social contract between men and women is almost all but completely invalidated. The average man, who is doing his best, can not compete in a system that insists on handicapping and punishing him for his success while pushing women forward beyond his reach, and women don’t care as long as they think their winning (which they actually are not). The roles and purposes of most male partners has been reduced to that of temporary, commercially provided services, which seems great to most women as they go through their lives carefree on contraceptives as their best eggs go to waste while collecting cats to fill the void of their missing children.
In this rigged system: Men who play by the rules and succeed are disparaged as evil patriarchs. Men who still try to play by the rules yet fail are insulted as incels, simps, and betas. Men who give up and “go their own way” are denegrated as weak losers. Men who succeed by gaming the system are branded sleazy PUAs. Men who submit to the matriarchal power structures are emasculated as soybois, sissies, and cucks. And men who bring to light the unfair dysfunction of the system are written off as salty MRA’s. But, it doesn’t matter where a man stands in modern society, he will always be considered a misogynist by women who hate themselves more than any man ever could.
Women are not denying or withholding anything from men by not dating them or having sex with them. Dating preferences are not bigoted. I haven’t dated any men because so far the ones I have met have spoken very poorly of women. Do you think I am obligated to have sex with them so they don’t feel deprived? Do you think that women should be forced to have sex with men they don’t want to date simply to be fair to men? How is that not misogynistic?
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Women are not denying or withholding anything from men by not dating them or having sex with them.
It never ceases to amazing how many people use words and don’t know what they mean. To “withhold” something is to “refuse to provide” or “deny” something. As such, “not dating” and not “having sex with” men is denying them both dates and sex. Take that at face value. People have a right to deny people dates and sex. I never said they didn’t.
Dating preferences are not bigoted.
Nobody said dating preferneces were bigoted. Your strawman failes to hold up.
I haven’t dated any men because so far the ones I have met have spoken very poorly of women. Do you think I am obligated to have sex with them so they don’t feel deprived?
No. I nver said women were obligated to have sex with men they did not like. I said women’s collective standards have become so absurd that normally qualified men are being denied a chance. That is far from saying bad men or women deserve anything, only saying good men are also not being given a fair chance. It’s becoming clear that you did not comprehend what was written before.
Do you think that women should be forced to have sex with men they don’t want to date simply to be fair to men? How is that not misogynistic?
That’s an absurd, borderline retarded, assertion. Ofcourse women should not be forced to have sex with anyone. Nor should men. Even if there were a case where women were forced to have sex with men they didn’t want to date, whether that is “misogynistic” is a matter of situation: why are the women being forced to do that? Are the men also being forced? then it’s definitely not misogyny. But, that reminds me of somethig I heard once:
If there were only two fertile people left in the world, one man and one woman, with humanity depending on them reproducing to save the species but, they both fell below each others standards for a partner:
The man would grit his teeth and give it a try to save the species
The woman would refuse and doom the species to extinction
I’m sure many will consider that misogynistic but, you also believe women don’t have ANY reproductive obligations to anyone or anything. You can’t believe that and also believe that a woman would have sex/children with a man she sees as unfit just to save the species.
