I realized my best friend and I are not talking / seeing other like we used to. I used to know everything about her and she used to know everything about me. We used to spend all our time together. I used to go at her house every weekend. She used to come to my house every day. We used to call each other during hours. Whenever I had something to say, I knew I could tell her. I knew I could count on her, day and night.
But now, she’s never available to see me. Now, whenever I call her, she never answers. Now, whenever I text her, it always seems like she’s busy.She’s barely replying to me. She basically just answers “yes” , “no”, “ok” , “idk”, or “nothing new”, while I’m trying so hard to make a conversation. I swear, I’m really trying to preserve our friendshipbutshe is not.
I remember the time i didn’t need to do that. We didn’t need to make effort. We didn’t need to “try”. We were just friends. We didn’t need that shit.
But today, I learnt she was engaged with her boyfriend for MONTHS. Months and she hasn’t told me anything! And she wouldn’t have, if I hadn’t texted her and asked her multiple questions…
I used to be her best friend. Her best friend. Our friendship meant so much to me and now it’s just fading away and there’s nothing I can do to stop that. It’s already happening. We used to share everything in this world. We used to be like sisters. And it changed. And it made me feel so sad.
Another fantasy of mine…being exposed to some of my best friends… All this effort I go through to keep this part of my life secret, and then through some (un)intentional mix-up by my wife, having my best friends find out that despite my ‘alpha’ persona, I’m really just a cuckold who’s into watching my wife being satisfied by bigger, stronger men… I wonder if some of them would ‘openly’ be a bit more flirtatious with my wife if they did find out…?
Best friends since we were babies. Probably the greatest musician I’ve ever known. The man can cut a keyboard like you’ve never seen. Go check out his music, he’s brilliant!
