I think poetry is a way of carrying grief, but it’s also a way of putting it somewhere so I don’t always have to heave it onto my back or in my body. The more I put grief in a poem, the more l am able to move freely through the world because I have named it, spoken it, and thrown it out into the sky.

Everyone has grief that they carry and sometimes we have anxiety and depression about anticipatory grief. The thing that I’ve found that helps is knowing we are all in this, someone has gone or is going through the same thing.

Poetry helps us with that too. Writing. Reading. As James Baldwin said, “You think your pain and heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, and then you read.”

Ada Limón interviewed by Lauren Leblanc

I think poetry is a way of carrying grief, but it’s also a way of putting it somewhere so I don’t always have to heave it onto my back or in my body. The more I put grief in a poem, the more l am able to move freely through the world because I have named it, spoken it, and thrown it out into the sky.

Everyone has grief that they carry and sometimes we have anxiety and depression about anticipatory grief.

The thing that I’ve found that helps is knowing we are all in this, someone has gone or is going through the same thing.

Poetry helps us with that too. Writing. Reading. As James Baldwin said, “You think your pain and heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, and then you read.”

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— Ada Limón interviewed by Lauren Leblanc

— Movie: Patterson (2016)

I am nothing. I’ll never be anything. I couldn’t want to be something. Apart from that, I have in me all the dreams in the world.

~ Fernando Pessoa

idk who needs to hear this today, but…you don’t have to go to university/college. you don’t have to attend higher education. it’s a privilege to be able to do so, thus not everybody can, but even if you have such a privilege, it’s not necessary. education does not equal knowledge or intellect. 

ever since i was young (like eight years old) my family would say that if i went to university, i would have better job prospects, and i always went along with it, and it was not until recently that i realised how distorted our view of higher education has become. i do still want to attend university, but for a completely different reason: the endless pursuit of knowledge. i want to go to university because i am utterly confounded and in complete adoration of literature, thus i would like to attend higher education to better understand such a topic. but this isn’t the case for everybody. higher education can be damning to the mental health, can be overly expensive and thus financially damning, can be too stressful, and is most definitely portrayed as a necessity. 

the dark academia community is so, so, so guilty of portraying higher education as something everybody has to do!! this is rooted in people saying that they are better than others who chose not to go to university/college. it’s not a human necessity and if you want to go, that’s great! but if you don’t, that’s great too!

you should attend university/college because you want to, not because you feel like you have to. 

when they might be giants said “everybody wants a rock” god weren’t they so right

hands. 

/ michaelangelo / carvaggio / da vinci / cara thayer & louie van patten /

image of richard papen after murdering bunny corcoran (1992) (colourised) 

my therapist: so can you tell me why you have cut yourself off from everybody?

me, nodding: the mortifying ordeal of being known

my therapist: no-

we’re 8 months into 2020 and. i want to dress like a pirate

or did the gods just curse me with low self-esteem because otherwise i would be too powerful?

what is life if not an amalgamation of homoeroticism, the arts, unsolved mysteries, and the never-ending desire to occasionally stop existing? 

visionsofhelios:

i want to feel like how the oh hello’s make me feel but on a daily basis. 

returning to this account two years later and i can safely say i feel like this a lot more now, even if i don’t listen to the oh hellos anymore and even if it’s not permanent

i lost almost all my friends but i’ve got a best friend who i love infinitely and the guy i liked liked me back and now we’re together; i’m not great academically but i have a university to work towards now; i have hopes and dreams and i can look to the future with not just romanticism but with fondness that i know i will get to live in it

it gets better even if the betterness is not present every single day

Beethoven, my viola, and I || 02.04.2020

eve || 12.31.19

edgar.allan.poe

say no thank you to modern day clown culture, however, pierrot culture… yes please

my aesthetic is black, unsweetened coffee

An All Hallows’ Snow || 10.31.19

I just bought these Edgar Allan Poe poetry-book earrings from the Etsy shop just1morechapter* and I can’t wait for their arrival!

the college town of madison, wi || 10.17.19

We are the Lost Boys of America. But don’t let our name deceive you. We are more found than you know. Away from a home that we once knew. We are the Lost Boys that were never lost. 

Anyone have books suggestions?

I have a free book coupon on ThriftBooks and there are so many choices I would love to read, but I feel as if my options are really for me to buy with what I earn

so, any recommendations on what book I should get?