#richard papen

times of my life i associate with tsh moments

- september 2020 (the first time i read tsh)

the time richard spent in plano before moving to hampden; hot, dry, waiting for something you crave, utterly alone and fed up

- winter 2021

the winter richard spent alone in the hippie’s warehouse, freezing to death, alone and sinking slowly into the dark

meditationinanemergency:

i can’t judge richard papen for his decisions because i myself would absolutely derail my entire life after a single glance at francis abernathy

Accurate.

What your farovourite “The Secret History” hacracter says about you

1. Richard - you need acceptation and friends. You underestimate yourself and probably listen to hozier or the neighbourhood
2. Francis - you are probably the “Heather” & you can pull off ony outfit. You also kinda need emotional support
3. Camila - kinda basic choice but i mean, you are not wrong. You are definifley the cool kind of person, no one hates you, you are probably mom of the group & you have strong opinions
4. Charles - you holdin up? You need some emotional support? Also, you are probably toxic
5. Henry - you are little bit pretentious but you are liked by everyone, althrough you don’t like everyone. You like having everything planned ale you are probably more intelligent than you think. I like u
6. Julian - you need more friends or just miss your dad. It is probably not your fault, but you tend to procatinate despite being ambitious.
7. Bunny - you eighter don’t exist or just can’t get over something traumatic

image of richard papen after murdering bunny corcoran (1992) (colourised) 

Henry smiled. “Why, looking for new ferns.”

Donna Tartt, The Secret History

dionysus-and-the-bacchantes:

when richard papen said “i felt my existence was tainted, in some subtle but essential way” i felt that

what do you mean, i can’t just daydream until the end of my days about highly aesthetic and perfectly detailed written stories and be the mysterious forgotten character who secretly becomes part of the story?

vanwssa:

In the first week of April the weather turned suddenly unseasonably, insistently lovely. The sky was blue, the air warm and windless, and the sun beamed on the muddy ground with all the sweet impatience of June.

Donna Tartt, The Secret History(1992).

THE SECRET HISTORY

What always amazed me is how Richard always said what a great friend Bunny was after his death despite everything that happened during the story.

Bunny was a shitty friend not only towards Richard, but also towards the rest of the group and Camilla who Richard was supposably in love with.

I’m not saying any of them were good people, all in saying is Bunny was not great either.

He was a misogynistic homophobe who took advantage of everyone around him without the ounce of gratitude and was ready to expose any little secret when he pleased.

He treated Francis badly. He treated Camilla terribly. He bullied Richard with presumptions about him and California. Richard was scared of him.

And then Bunny died (with a little help) and Richard spent the rest of the book saying I miss my good friend Bunny, my non-horrible, non-problematic friend who was deep down a good person.

What a load of flying crap.

I know that in most cultures people are not supposed to talk ill of the dead but dying doesn’t make nobody a saint. If he was a misogynistic homophobe, now he’s just a deceased misogynistic homophobe.

GOOD OMENS (and others to make a point)

A conclusive proof that the “ineffable husbands” are asexual.

In most allosexual parings you can clearly spot who is the top or who’s the bottom. Examples:

• Tsoa: Patroclus has the top energy, Achilles is a bottom
• Tsh: Francis is a top with Richard and a bottom with Charles
• Merlin: Arthur thinks he’s a top but is a bottom
• Hp: Sirius is a bottom, Remus is a top (although he feels like he shouldn’t)
• GO: Anathema is a top, Newton is a bottom

You can’t tell who is which in case of Anthony Walking Anxiety Crowley and mr. Aziraphale Zira Fall. They are neither top nor bottom, their energy don’t match with it. Why? Because they are asexual.

“To me. The tale of my madness.”

a dream cut short

“I suppose at one time in my life I might have had any number of stories, but now there is no other. This is the only story I will ever be able to tell.” –‘The Secret History’byDonna Tartt

“Sometimes these vivid flashes of memory seemed like pieces of a bad dream, as if none of it had ever happened. Yet in many ways it seemed the only real thing that had happened in Charlotte’s life.” –‘The Little Friend’byDonna Tartt

“Her death the dividing mark: Before and After.” –‘The Goldfinch’ by Donna Tartt

the death of Bunny

a messy display of mementoes that remind me of camilla macaulay

Our philosophy professor asking us if we like Heraclitus, and then proceeding to tell us how he lovesHeraclitus is the equivalent of Henry Winter asking Richard Papen if he likes Homer..

I too would be petrified by Bunny singing “The farmer in the Dell”; honestly that whole scenario sounds quite creepy.

Wednesday, 27th October

the death of beauty as we know it

“Cracking open a ginger ale in the harsh cold of October with brown rimmed glasses sliding down my nose bridge ever so often, I tried to find warmth in the layers of my coat. To a random passer-by I certainly looked mad as I gathered up small, yellow leaves to mark the quotes in my book-but I’d like to think that the characters adorning those pages would have been infatuated by me.                  Franz Gordon’s “The French Library” was blasting through my ears, and yet it was unsuccessful when it came to taming down the noise of the outside world. Cars were racing left and right, their engines roaring and klaxons honking repeatedly. In some ways the noise had been appropriate, it matched Richard’s state of mind whilst he was in Plano. Oh, but the headlights were horrific, they made my eyes hurt terribly, and even words blurred up from time to time.            The ginger ale wasn’t sitting right with me, more so, it was actually making me sick; yet, I continued to drink it. Was that a form of self-torture as well? Probably, I didn’t care that much.                                    I was so absorbed in the book, that finally, the world had turned silent. Recently, I had learnt that there is no stillness in big cities. There is no time for rest, silence and peace. The world of men appears too never be silent. Even the nights are noisy. I had craved silence and solitude for so long and rereading “The Secret History” has finally brought them to me.”                                                                  -an excerpt from my journal entry

charles??

Me: I can’t talk right now, I’m doing hot girl shit.

Me: *Accidentally killing a farmer while in the midst of Dionysian revelry with my friends because our charismatic classics teacher told us that Bacchanals are fun and cool*

starreef:

what i think i am: henry winter

what i am at most: richard papen

The dark academia community is just a bunch of reluctant Richard Papen kinnies and that’s a fact.

Judy Poovey be like “I know a spot” then take you to a Burger King parking lot to do cocaine with her.

If I saw a group of pretentious-looking but very attractive nerds wrongly conjugating Greek verbs, I would simply not join their Dionysian murder cult. RIP to Richard Papen but I’m different.

Took me a long time to make up my mind what they look like but here’s a lineup

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMNRh8tem/?k=1

new video about the two playlists I made inspired by dark academia and The Secret History. you can listen to these songs while writing, reading or at any other time <3

“There are such things as ghosts. People everywhere have always known that. And we believe in them every bit as much as Homer did. Only now, we call them by different names. Memory. The unconscious.”

-Donna Tartt; The Secret History

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMNdGA9ge/?k=1

and I’m back here with another video about The Secret History, because my obsession with this book doesn’t seem to want to go away.

it would make me really happy if you looked at it, I’m new to this type of video <3 love u

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMLoPo317/?k=1

I made this video to pay tribute to my favorite character from this book. I would be very happy if you looked at it <3 love u

! this is the Italian version of “The Secret History” by Donna Tartt !