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Rising Houston-based rapper Guapo has mastered a new flow full of punchlines, quotables and Instagram captions that is just simply above par. He recently shared his new single “SRT” feat. OTB Fastlane. Listen to “SRT,” produced by 100Keyz, HERE and watch the video, directed by SpxrkStudios, HERE.

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I wrote the following six years ago when I was 15, my dad was abusive and my mom ignored it I just found it in an old notebook. A child should never feel this much pain and fear. Someday I hope I can make this little girl proud.

Yellow Oak Tree:

The sun is hot and burning

The earth is cruel and harming

Fear surrounds the innocent

Can nothing be saved?

But as I lay beneath you shade a cloak of serenity cascades around me

I am safe

Under the yellow oak tree

Free from judgement

Protected from ridicule

Safe from death

Under the yellow oak tree.

I keep wanting to live my life in the past while everyone else is heading towards the future.

All the while I miss out on the goods things I have right in front of me in the present.

For This is Engineering Day the Royal Academy of Engineering (RAEng) released a video where they highlight all the ways different types of engineers make a difference to the world. Watch the video below. 

By Idha Valeur

The second This is Engineering Day will this year happen on Wednesday 4 November 2020 as part of Tomorrow’s Engineers Week 2020 – with this year’s theme being ‘Be the difference’.

With the main aim to inspire and give more young people the opportunity to pursue a career in engineering, regardless of their background, the RAEng is now encouraging engineers, companies and organisations to get involved with the imitative to contribute ideas and ways to present how they make a difference. This could be via social media, events or other activities. 

‘As young people prepare to take their key exams and think about career choices, it’s vital that they don’t miss out on opportunities to ‘Be the Difference’ though engineering just because they don’t realise what engineering careers really offer,’ the Royal Academy of Engineering Chief Executive, Dr Hayaatun Sillem CBE, said. 

Sillem added that so far, more than 150 companies and organisations have already agreed to help the academy in showcasing how different and diverse the profession is. ‘We continue our work to transform the image of engineering so that many more talented young people from all backgrounds can see a future for themselves in this vital and rewarding profession.’  

The letter on the kitchen table hit me like a rock. 

I knew immediately what it was because I had been receiving letters like this one for the last two months. But this one was different, because I knew that this particular letter would influence my decision the most. To an observer, the moment I looked at the letter would have been as irrelevant as the color painted on the walls. It would pass by without them ever noticing my heart tighten or the knot forming inside my throat. It was one of life’s big waves washing me from shore, and no one was there to pull me back. For everyone else, the water didn’t even touch their toes. 

A few days before, I had told my mom that I was toying with the idea of moving out of Minnesota if I wasn’t offered the job. The more I thought about the concept of leaving the more excited I became, and the more comfortable I was about the possibility of not getting the job. I have always wanted to move away after graduation and there was nothing holding me back finally… except for this potential job opportunity. But it wasn’t until I saw the letter sitting on the table - the letter informing me they offered the job to someone else - that suddenly, I didn’t feel socomfortable anymore. Instead, I felt overwhelmed by fear and disappointment. I felt sick. I had no idea these feelings would take hold of me as strong as they did. It was like someone was breaking up with me after a wonderful day together. I felt a deep sadness from losing something that I never even had. And I felt scared. I felt very, very scared

My reasons for wanting to leave have slowly changed over the years. Growing up, I watched each of my siblings move away. It was an idea in the back of my head, and it was coupled with a profound thirst for exploration and a yearning to make new discoveries about the world and myself. Then, over time, I wanted to leave because I felt too settled here. I felt settled in a way that I wasn’t going after opportunities to expand my horizons or to meet new people. By moving away, I thought being in an unfamiliar place would be enough to push me to follow my passions. However, hours after opening the letter, I was sitting in a theater watching the main character in the movie Joy face obstacle after obstacle as she tried to sell her invention. I don’t believe David O. Russell intended to make the audience cry, but it took all my willpower to keep myself from bawling. Because during this movie, I experienced a moment of sudden revelation: I realized I feel settled because I don’t believe in myself. Namely, I don’t have the confidence to go outside my comfort zone. And the comfort zone I do have, is very small. For a long time I’ve pushed these thoughts away and out of my head. When people told me they were proud of me, I discredited them. I’ve always thanked my mom and dad for getting me this far in life, but I’ve never thanked myself. Namely, when I opened the letter that day, and fear settled inside me, I didn’t want to come to terms with how much my low self-esteem controlled my life. This letter opened a wound I was trying to keep shut, and I didn’t know if leaving Minnesota was going to heal it. 

It’s taken me a week to fully gain consciousness of everything I have been feeling. I’m a 23-year-old recent college graduate still trying to figure herself out. I realize people my age go through struggles, but that isn’t a reason to dismiss how I feel. I have obstacles to overcome that I have worked so hard to avoid. The combination of low self-esteem and my inability to love myself is making it hard to find a job, maintain friendships, and most importantly, to love myself. I don’t want to look back ten years form now and wish I had tried to get better. I know that if I continue down the path I am going down, I won’t get better. For the majority of my life, I have been able to measure my progress as I graduated from one grade into another. Now that I’ve graduated college, I can’t tell if i’m progressing anymore. I can’t keep living life this way because it isn’t a way to live. I can and I will change. 

Peace and love. 

I am mine. 

before I am anyone else’s.