#i wanted you

Is it stupid to think

That our history fucked us up

Before we had the chance to breathe

To think

For ourselves

Before “you” was just you

And “we” was just me

“You looked at me

and your eyes widened

Hungry.

But I looked away

because I know

the pain waiting for me

if I let myself fall.”

- and I don’t think I could take it

“Maybe I’ll be okay.

Without your smile

Your easy company.

Maybe I’ll be okay,

without your little laugh

and the warmth of your affection

blanketing me.

Maybe I’ll be okay

without your name on my phone

Day After Day.

Maybe I’ll be okay

Without you.”

- Hold tight.

“It is a strange thing; to know that I loved you, so completely, so absolutely.

That I carried the weight of my love for you like a boulder in my chest.

That I longed for you, every day and every night.

And yet, it just wasn’t enough.”

I needed you like I needed to breathe.