At school, Peter was Remus’ closest friend. Peter was his study partner most years, as neither Sirius nor James could behave for an hour straight in the library. They’d squander their afternoons together too, when they couldn’t find their friends soon enough to make the time before dinner useful. Sirius and James—they were exuberant. They would conquer the ground they walked on, mouths wide and cackling, as if they could swallow the world. Remus was ever grateful for their friendship—their acceptance had saved him and he would never speak a bad word about it—but he couldn’t say that Sirius and James truly understood like Peter did. Walking in their friends’ shadow together, taunted by the ease a few feet ahead. The envy of it. Sirius and James could swallow the world, but Remus could never swallow the moon and keep it dark forever. He could never wield that brightness with how it stirred his blood and how he craved for the nights when the moon was skinny. Peter knew the hopelessness of it, griping along instead of offering false encouragement, and they’d revel in their cynicism until the dinner bell tolled. Remus was just as grateful for that.
Falling in love with Remus Lupin has been by far the scariest, yet the easiest thing Sirius Black has done in his entire years of existence.
It is both expected and unexpected, crystal clear and dark tinted.
James was the first to bring it up, late at night when it’s just him and Sirius in the common room. Remus and Peter had just come up to bed, when James casts a muffliato,even though there was no one else around.
“Everything alright, Prongs?” Sirius’ eyes find James’ as he registers the situation. James had never casted a muffliato since fifth year when Sirius had cried in his bed that first night back in Hogwarts after the summer.
“You know you can always talk to me about anything, right?” James starts. “I’m saying there’s nothing you could ever tell me that would ever change us, unless maybe if you sneak around with Evans behind my back.” Sirius laughs at that
“I know,” Sirius snorts and tilts his head to the side in confusion, the light from the fireplace casting a warm glow on his features. “But I have no idea what you’re on to right now.”
Sirius is lying.
He knows exactly what James is about, of course James would pick up on it by now. James had been a constant presence in Sirius’ life, it was about time that James sees Sirius’ feelings showing through, but for merlin’s sake, Sirius wished he had more time.
But, he supposes, it would be a relief to talk about this to someone. Sirius thinks he’d explode any day now if he has to keep walking around with a carefully wrapped package inside his brain, complete with a bow and a tag that says feelings for moony.
“Six years, Padfoot.” James laughs, “I’ve spent almost every waking moment with you for that long. Think I wouldn’t be able to tell when you’re lying?”
As we know James , Sirius and Peter found out Remus’ secret around their second year at Hogwarts. I imagined that they caught Remus out going to the whomping willow and told him everything. Remus was so shocked and terrified that his secret was reveled and he might lose his friends,so he ran away hopeless without saying nothing. James, Peter and Sirius decided to wait for him (at the right distance from whomping willow) and they would help him as soon as he returned. Needless to say, that night for Remus was probably one of the worst he ever lived, he was absolutely certain that the next morning his friends, frightened by his nature, would abandon him. This scene takes place after that night. - - - - this comic took me ages to do it( something like three weeks?) because I’m not recovered at all by my elbow tendinitis and I can’t draw so much. I worked on this a little bit at time, this was so demoralizing for me, I wanted to draw but my arm did hurt so so so so much. I hope to recover soon because I can’t stand it anymore! I really need Madam Pomfrey’s care right now!
• Sirius works as a mechanic. He initially had been going to school for law but had to drop out when his parents disowned him.
• He and Remus ran away together at 19. It’s been a struggle for them since but they’ve managed okay.
• Remus comes home to Sirius having just bought them a fancy new espresso machine (£273.04)
• Remus was just laid off from his company. They’re downsizing. And he’s asking where the fuck they got the extra money to buy this machine.
• Sirius explains it’s an early Xmas gift for the two of them and he charged it on his card “It’s not big deal Re”
• Remus kind of loses his temper. Because he’s had a shitty day. Being fired and worrying about money.
• “We can’t just splurge like this Sirius!” They argue.
• Sirius just shakes his head and walks out. He doesn’t know the whole story and he was trying to do something nice. He knows their strapped for money, but he wanted to do this for Remus.
• Sirius finds a large fountain and makes a wish that things were different.
• He talks to Remus on the phone explaining that he’s going to the Potters house for the night. Even though Remus begs him to come home. But Sirius says no. He needs the night alone.
• Sirius wakes up to Regulus shaking him.
• Regulus, whom he hasn’t spoken to since his family disowned him.
• Sirius is in a penthouse he doesn’t recognize. Pics of him and politicians and celebrities on the walls. Nothing personal. Everything chrome and modern.
• Sirius who’s mother greets him upon his arrival to breakfast with Regulus in tow.
• He has breakfast with his family. He forgot how much he loved them. Despite their disagreements. Despite the fact that Sirius chose to stay with Remus and living in poverty.
• But he needs to find Remus.
• Remus is a teacher. Living in a larger flat that’s quite nice. And it makes Sirius realize what Remus sacrificed to be with him.
• Remus is surprised to see him and isn’t kind. Until Sirius says he can’t get ahold of James. James Potter died in a crash several years ago, he never got with Lily Snape. Whose Harry?
• When Sirius breaks down Remus let’s him in, thinking he’s high on something or other.
• So Sirius explains. Tells their whole life story to Remus.
• Remus shakes his head. Explains that James and Peter died in the same crash and Remus and Sirius fell apart.
• Remus then states that his boyfriend was about to come over and that it’s been weird to see Sirius again and please don’t come back.
• Sirius wanders. James and Peter are dead. Harry was never born. Remus didn’t love him. This isn’t what he wanted when he made that wish.
• He finds the bench by the fountain and stares at nothing.
• “This is why you should always be careful with what you wish for.”
• Sitting next to Sirius is his uncle Alphard. A man who died three years ago.
• “Please tell me this is a dream.”
“It is, but it’s the only way I could speak with you. You need to find my solicitor. His name is Horace Slughorn and he has my will.”
Alphard hands him a card with the information before leaning forward and giving Sirius a hug.
• Sirius wakes up to the sound of 4 year old Harry giggling and the smell of burnt toast. The card in his hand.
• He kisses Harry all over his baby face and gives James and Lily crushing hugs.
• His phone is dead so he uses James’ to call his boss and take a sick day before finding the lawyer.
• This is when he finds out what his mother had done. Slughorn had just managed to get Sirius’ inheritance freed from her. He looks shocked when he sees Sirius as his next step had been to find him. He explains to Sirius that he was his uncles sole heir. Leaving Sirius the family law firm, a villa in France, his apartment in London, his cars, and £20 million.
• Sirius begins to hyper ventilate.
• They spend the day going over paperwork and preparing for a legal fight for the firm.
• He leaves Slughorn and goes to Peter’s. Treating his friend out to dinner and making sure Peter’s aware how much Sirius loved and appreciated him as a friend.
• It’s nearly 1am when he finally stumbles back home.
• “Where the fuck have you been?!” Remus had been pacing in the dark. Hair a mess from tugging on it and dark circles under his eyes. “I called your job and you weren’t there, I called James and you weren’t there, I’ve tried your phone but it went to voice mail. I only knew you were alive because Peter told me!”
“My phone died.”
• Sirius stares at Remus. Drinks him in and asks.
“Do you love me? Do you regret running away with me? Do you want to go back to school? To be a teacher? Would you be better off without me?”
“If this is your way of breaking up with me-”
“I adore you. I need you. I love you and am entirely selfish about you. I know things are hard, but everything will be okay.”
• Remus doesnt fight it when Sirius hugs and holds him.
• They win the lawsuit. Sirius didn’t care for the firm but it was the principle of things.
• He forces Remus to go back to school.
• They move into Alphard’s London apartment.
• Every night Sirius thanks his uncle for taking care of them. And sometimes he swears he could feel himself enveloped in a warm hug.
