Keeping sanity is now a tough thing!

. “There were times when John Wade wanted to open up Kathy’s belly and crawl inside and stay there forever. He wanted to swim through her blood and climb up and down her spine and drink from her ovaries and press his guns against the firm red muscle of her heart.”

- Tim O'Brien, In The Lake Of The Woods

We shall never return to social sanity til we begin at the beginning. We must start where all history starts, with a man and a woman, and a child.

As it is, we begin where history ends, or, rather, where disjointed journalism ends. We stop suddenly with the accidental truncation of today’s news; and judge everything by the particular muddle of the moment. Ours is a sociology of snapshots; and snapshots always fix human figures in postures not only silly but stiff.

- G.K. Chesterton, May 3, 1919, Illustrated London News

“… we cannot take it, in the case of insane persons, that their actions do in fact manifest settled dispositions, character traits, in any real sense, or at least anything like the sense we take non-insane persons’ actions to do so. The link between disposition and action seems to be severed by insanity, not because it alters the capacities of the insane person, but because it involves disordered thought and behaviour which is not patterned by the structure of thought (both in terms of reason and emotion) by which we normally communicate and interpret each other’s actions.”

— Lacey, State Punishment(1988)

Should I be concerned by how often my inner monologue is a dialogue?

When they don’t include Nikki Cross in Sanity on SmackDown Live

Don McClean’s Vincent is what kept me alive today.

Granny stared at him. She hadn’t faced anything like this before. The man was clearly mad, but at the heart of this madness was a dreadful cold sanity, a core of pure interstellar ice in the center of the furnace. She’d thought him weak under a thin shell of strength, but it went a lot further than that. Somewhere deep inside his mind, somewhere beyond the event horizon of rationality, the sheer pressure of insanity had hammered his madness into something harder than diamond.

Terry Pratchett, Wyrd Sisters

WithWrestleMania here, one of the things every year that fans have come to expect from the WWE is the eventual call up of NXT talent to join the main WWE rosters on RAWandSmackDown, and now 205 Live. The dates and shows after WrestleMania are sometimes just as exciting and shocking as the main event itself and the people called up to the main roster are usually some of the fan favorites from NXT. And this year I am super excited to see which NXT Superstars will be called up to the roster. I have my suspicions about who may be called up to the main roster but I also have some personal favorites that I would like to see called up as well. And while I would love to see Aleister Black, I still think that he has a lot of potential down in NXT and I think that he could carry that brand for quite a while. So, the following six entries are the most likely that I believe will get called up and as well as the ones that I would like to see.

Caution!!! Spoilers Ahead!!! You Have Been Warned!!!

Andrade“Cien”Almas

Now that Andrade“Cien”Almas has lost the NXT Championship, I believe that he is going to get called up to the main roster and become a new and exciting addition to either RAWorSmackDown. He has the charisma, he has the talent, and he will also be bringing with him his business manager Zelina Vega with him to complete the package.

Authors of Pain

Akam&Rezar have dominated the tag team division down in NXT for a long while now and I would like to see them come up and start messing with the other tag teams on the main roster. To have them come up and immediately run like hell through the tag teams on RAWandSmackDown is something I have been looking forward to for a long time now.

The Iconic Duo

Billie Kay&Peyton Royce have been ready for the main roster for some time now. And with their return as imminent as can be, I think it would be wiser for them to return to the WWE on RAWorSmackDown than head back down to NXT. They’re both capable wrestlers, beautiful women, and fun on the microphone… pretty much everything they need to rise up to the occasion.

Drew McIntyre

I thought it was a mistake when Drew McIntyre was released from the WWE back in 2014. But then I saw what he did on the independents and on TNA and watching him grow as a performer was amazing. Then he returned to the WWE on NXT and showed off even more talent before getting hurt… oh man, now I just want to see him return to the main roster once again.

Ember Moon

With her recent loss of the NXT Women’s ChampionshipatNXT TakeOver: New Orleans,Ember Moon is ready to move up to the main roster. She’s been ready for a while, but she was there to carry the women’s division after Asuka was called up to the main roster. Now it’s time for her to move up to RAWorSmackDown and show the whole WWE Universe what she is capable of.

SAnitY

Eric Young,Killian Dain,Alexander Wolfe&Nikki Cross are the kind of stable that the WWE main roster needs to bring some added excitement and variety to RAWandSmackDown. For that reason alone, I would like to see them come up to the main roster. But their unique look and talent in the ring and on the mic are the main reasons why these four competitors need to get called up and need to get called up now.

6 NXT Call Ups I Want to See After WrestleMania

With WrestleMania here, one of the things every year that fans have come to expect from the…

i just don’t know if i can do it anymore-

The reason we feel alienated is because the society is infantile, trivial, and stupid. So the cost of sanity in this society is a certain level of alienation. I grapple with this because I’m a parent. And I think anybody who has children, you come to this realization, you know—what’ll it be? Alienated, cynical intellectual? Or slack-jawed, half-wit consumer of the horseshit being handed down from on high? There is not much choice in there, you see. And we all want our children to be well adjusted; unfortunately, there’s nothing to be well adjusted to!

— Terence McKenna

Education and Science in the DID/OSDD-1 Community - A Titanic Rant

Why the fuck do people obsess over false dichotomy and often devastate themselves because of it? It seems like in the DID/OSDD-1 community (like in much of well….. civilization right now), people [on average] have totally lost the ability to be discriminating. No, not as in being prejudiced; as in being able to tell the difference between things. And on the other hand it’s also (somehow simultaneously)as though they cannot comprehend the concept of moderation/mediation-of-principles/equilibrium. Nothing [as presented or addressed by those holding the status quo of this community] can ever be dynamic, everything must be static, nothing can ever be complex or in motion or relevant only by its appropriate relationship with something else. And the second someone tries to embrace the ability to comprehend complexity-of-interrelated-information, to acknowledge that facts (be they scientific or about the emotional reality of your own trauma and experiences) are not ever something that can be correctly interpreted in small numbers -let alone in isolation from every other fact in creation…..

They are then told (by a terrifyingly staggeringly large number of people, most of them completely unsolicited, and some quite violently)that no one can have a monopoly on the truth, that everyone must define (but create,they mean CREATE, as though it is optional or they can get one from Build-a-Fact) the Truth for themselves. That the cost of possessing the ability as a human being of being the one to define, describe, and develop the qualities of your psyche is the Faustian deal to accept [and then proceed to act upon that acceptance] that every single other thing in existence can only be said to be real by mutual CONSENT. And they refuse to consent, so you better shut up and fuck off, or bow down and get in life-ending-LINE. This is insanity. This is what your abusers wanted to turn you into. Don’t fucking LET them.

We do NOT have the right to deliniate reality. Human beings have no right whatsoever to change the fabric of space-time [even just —maybe ESPECIALLY just— within the confines of what they will and will not acknowledge about it] whenever something is uncomfortable to them. It is NOT our “freedom of interpretation” that makes us unique. It is our perspective. Do you know what freedom of interpretation means [rather than inclination toward specializing in specific emphases]? It means “when we are wrong, because the tool [our minds] that goes about evaluating facts and rendering best hypotheses for the implications those facts have when taken as a bigger picture is unique, so are our mistakes.” Never EVER tell someone to be quiet because they speak a fact you do not like or have not heard yet or wish they hadn’t told you. Tell someone to be quiet only when they speak a postulation (as though it were a fact) that you have already tested and obtained results that strongly indicate its falsehood. Then explain to them what you learned. They will then be able to investigate it for themselves if they like, which if you are correct will yield similar results.

The mass-indoctrination of idea that the mental sciences are not just as concrete as any other is ridiculous and an attempt to do what people have ALWAYS done to the mentally ill— shut them up and write them off. Your emotions are chemically and electrically measurable as events and physical states in your brain. It is possible for a scientist to measure and diagram for you PRECISELY which parts of the activity of your brain indicate something about your humanity and which indicate something about your individuality as a specific human being. When science says “theory” it means “this may not be finished yet”, not “this might be totally wrong and we can’t know for sure, ever, no matter what, so feel free to ignore it when you want!”

•The theory of evolution is a theory and not a fact not because scientists have not obtained sufficient data to confirm or deny that evolution is occuring, or that its basic fundamental relationships are not readily testable and reliably consistent. It is still a theory because nobody has finished mapping it yet.

•The theory of gravity is a theory and not a fact notbecause scientists cannot confirm gravity exists and affects absolutely all matter according to a set of consistent [math] functions…… It’s a theory because despite having a quantity of data about the phenomenon sufficiently large to fall into the category of “larger than the human brain can calculate” [due to being able to, unlike for the process of evolution] make direct physical observation of it and its rules for affecting matter unassisted and in fact continue doing so nearly constantly throughout our physical existence]… nobody has yet figured out why the fuck it works, given what the rest of Physics is doing. But it does. Anytime you’re uncertain about that, just close your eyes and ask your body “are you sure gravity is real, and also non-subjective/unaffected in its definition by my perception or consideration of it?” It will give you a reliable answer.

•And finally structural dissociation is a theory and not a fact NOT because there might be some totally unrelated and undiscovered alternative explanation [“or even MANY! varying from person to person!” As some people love to suggest], NOTbecause nobody can know for sure how things work in the brain (no the mind is not separate from the brain, anymore than your life [the biological qualities-process-fact] can be said to exist independently of your body as a whole) and thus can only ever make guesses about shadows on a wall…………… But just literally because the scientists that put it forth as their contribution to the body of knowledge known as the Definition of Humanity knew damn well that it’s not even remotely DONE YET. That there is so much more complexity it can grow to include the explanations for all of the nuances of.

If it is the key to the beginnings to a mathematics for the phenomenon of identity development [of identity itself, one day] in humanity then think of it this way: How dare you try to obstruct anybody else from believing they have a right to utilize it when it is offered— and what does it make you in the epic saga of the human quest for self-understanding, if you’re the one getting in the face the person who first offered humanity fire and threatening them with torment and exile if they complete their attempt to bestow it. Ask yourself too, what would have happened to the very notion of sanity itself if when the ancestors of Homo sapiens first began communicating their shared experiences, no one had been cooperative enough to create a standardized set of sounds-for-thoughts [which came to be called language]? Where would this planet be? Where would we be? …..Would we still be here? Would we ever have been here at all?

What if when the first people to ever describe who they were and what experiences of their life shaped them into that explained that there is this thing called emotion that despite our differences is a shared experience across our species…… people had told them that it was ridiculous, rude, or unfair or even evil to try to force people to admit that we all can experience the same emotions and that a given emotion can be said to exist and have definite qualities and consistently describable observable impacts. That you were persecuting and oppressing them by telling them it was unfair, deceptive, and harmful for them to use the word heartbreak when they meant resentment, or the word disappointment when they meant jealousy, or the words ‘deal with’ when they meant ‘agree never to deal with’, or the word love when they meant fear……..

And then realize that that’s EXACTLY what gaslighting is. And stop. Fucking. Doing it. To anyone. EVER again. Even to yourselves.

-River (15)