#sober thoughts

Ya know what the shittiest thing about being clean is lately? That I work a very physically laborious job so my body constantly hurts and the only thing I wanna do is percs about it even tho I’m almost 4 yrs clean from opiates. And now that I’m CLEAN clean I can’t even smoke a blunt about it and I feel like a baby bc normal people do this all the time which seems impossible to me.

You stay because you love them.

And they tell you they love you.

Because you want to believe it’s somewhere deep in there— and maybe it is.

But not enough.

Not in the way you need.

-MK Ireland #271 : 12/24/2019

I found a person who’s able to carry my love, without it spilling over. I found someone who can hold me.

- MK Ireland #270 : i found you