Kinktober Day 14 - breeding x Seungmin (m!reader)

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Seungmin shakily breathed out, trying to control himself as your hands wrapped around his waist from the back, your boyfriend on all fours in front of you, a puppy-ear headband and light blue collar adorned on his otherwise bare body.

“D-daddy-” Seungmin started, letting a whimper escape as he felt your cock prod against his entrance

“What is it, puppy?” You smirked, tightening your grip on his waist, and leaning forward more, beginning to rub yourself against Seungmin

“Please- please-” He continued, whimpering with every word “Please put your cock in me- I need it so bad- want daddy to fill me up with his cum-”

“Yeah?” You asked, and, very slowly, you pushed just the tip inside of Seungmin’s hole

“Yeah- hah- breed me-” He gulped

You licked your lips, smirk only growing before you pushed inside the boy underneath you all at once. Seungmin moaned, and despite him having had immediately buried his face into the sheets to muffle it, you were sure that if anyone else were in the apartment, they’d hear it loud and clear.

“P-please-” He whispered after a couple seconds of heavy breathing

Without replying, you began to move in and out of the boy, grunting lowly every time you went back inside him.

“You’re so fucking tight every time, puppy,” You growled, and began to speed up

Seungmin whined, hips automatically beginning to move back in time with you, but you quickly raised your hand, bringing it down with a harsh spank, and Seungmin moaned again, practically drooling.

Soon enough you were thrusting into the boy at full force, and somewhere along the lines, you’d leaned forward, hand going to the front of his neck and pulling back, choking the boy just enough for it to inhibit his breathing, especially with you fucking him so fast.

“Fuck-” You groaned, closing your eyes briefly

“Daddy- I’m gonna cum-” He moaned

“Gonna cum without your pathetic little cock even being touched?” You smiled, and Seungmin whined before nodding, whispering out a ‘please’ that you couldn’t refuse “Go on puppy, cum for daddy,”

He moaned a ‘thank you’, before, after a couple seconds, he came, spurts of white decorating the sheets beneath him. You didn’t stop, though, and Seungmin’s whines only became louder, but the boy didn’t complain- now that he’d orgasmed, all that was on his mind was you cumming inside him.

“I’m gonna cum,” You grunted again, speed increasing ever so slightly

“Please- please breed me daddy- want your fucking- ah- want your cum so bad,”

“Such a good puppy,” You breathed, trying to control your own breathing, voice uneven from how you were thrusting into Seungmin “Since you said it so nicely, I’ll give it to you,”

It was a couple more moments before you came, moaning throatily and making sure to be as deep inside Seungmin as you could get. Seungmin whined, trying to utter out what you assumed to be a thank you, but he couldn’t quite get the words together.

Slowly, you pulled out, and put your hands on either side of Seungmin’s ass, spreading him slightly as white cum began to drip out of him.

“What a good little pet,” You mused, and smacked him slightly, causing the boy to jolt, and then whine

“Thank you, daddy,” He whimpered, burying his face into the covers once again

“Anything for my pretty puppy,”

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STRAY KIDS 『CHRISTMAS EVEL』

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Anon asked: Hi I was wondering if you could do a nct dream or stray kids (if you write for them yet I totally understand if you don’t) to you getting really clingy and your not usually clingy then find out later that you were really tired and stressed and you just wanted some love. Also I love your writing and think you are one of the best kpop writers out there!!

I hope this isn’t too repetitive. I tried as best as I could to make it a bit different to the dream one.

This is also my first Stray Kids request I’ve done, so I really hope its good

-Admin Lionheart

Chan:

Chan would be a bit awkward whenever you were being clingy. He would just kind of laugh awkwardly as you wrapped yourself around him and would only be able to handle it fro short periods of time. He would try his best to keep you unstressed as much as possible.

Woojin:

I feel like woojin would also get very awkward whenever you got clingy. So much so, that he would try and help you avoid anything that stressed you out because he didn’t know how well he would be able to help you if you got past a certain point. 

Minho:

Honestly, it would be a major ego boost for Minho whenever you needed him like that. He would love that he was one of, if not the, only things that could calm you down and destress you. Your clinginess would be accepted with wide arms.

Changbin:

Changbin would become so soft for his s/o whenever they got clingy. His tough rapper appearence would melt instantly as soon as he felt your arms wrapp around his waist. It didn’t matter where you were or who you were with; if you needed him, he was there.

Hyunjin: 

This boy would just take it. He would be so used to it that he didn’t even really let it affect him that much. He would continue to do whatever it was that he needed to, but just with you attached to his side, which was never a bad thing in his eyes. *You’re Chan*

Jisung:

Jisung would love, love, love his s/o being a little clingy. He would find it adorable and would just take it as an excuse to keep you by his side no matter where he went. Needs to practice? His s/o goes with. Has to run a couple errands? His s/o is there, too. He would love the attention, so much it hurt.

Felix:

Felix would PANIC. He would be fine as long as you were just holding onto his arm, or pressed to his side, but as soon as his s/o began to do anything else, he would freak out. Especially in public. This smol, “manly” bean would be destroyed by his s/o every time, in the best way possible.

Seungmin:

Seungmin would just like that it gave his the chance to look at and admire his s/o. He would enjoy watching you fall asleep while snuggled up against him and would just enjoy being around his s/o for whatever reason, good or bad.

Jeongin:

Honestly, as much as he loved his s/o, I get the feeling that he would find the lying.  a little overwhelming. He would let you do what you wanted for a certain amount of time until he just couldn’t handle it anymore and then he would kind of hide from them (not in a very good spot) for a little while.

anon asked:  Can you do a reaction if stray kids parents didn’t accept their s/o because they’re foreign… Pleaseeee ❤️❤️

I really hope that this is good… I honestly have no clue what I’m doing rn ‍♀️

-Admin Lionheart

Chan:

I feel like it wouldn’t be the end of the world if his parents didn’t approve of his s/o. While he did respect the opinions and what not, he would decide that the love he chooses for himself would be more important than someones approval.

Woojin:

Woojin would be heart broken if his parents didn’t approve of his s/o. I get the feeling that he would be really torn in this situation about whats more important to him; love or his family.

Minho:

I get the feeling that Minho would feel like he had to break up with you if his parents didn’t approve. Not because he would want to, but because that’s what society would say he has to do in order to keep a relationship with his family.

Changbin:

I get the feeling that changbin wouldn’t give up super easily. He would try and convince his parents that you’re good enough for him. Meanwhile, he would continue to date you in secret until he could get his parents’ approval.

Hyunjin:

Hyunjin would be crushed if his parents didn’t approve of his s/o. He would love you so much, but his parents approval would be so important to him that he wouldn’t actually know what to do.

Jisung:

I feel like Jisung wouldn’t like that his parents don’t approve of his s/o, but it wouldn’t change anything between you two. He would stick the mentality that they’ll like you in time.

Felix:

Felix’s situation would probably be very similar to Bangchan’s since they are both foreigners. In the off chance that his parents actually didn’t like his s/o, it wouldn’t be a huge deal to him. He would probably just try to convince them to see you the way he does.

Seungmin:

This sweet boy would really be at such a crossroads. His love for his s/o would be irreplaceable, but his love for his parents is a whole other story. He would want to have to pick and choose who he could have in his life and would ultimately just ignore the conflict until it resolved itself.

Jeongin:

If Jeongin’s parents didn’t like his s/o, it would be the first major conflict in his life. He would have no idea who’s side he was supposed to be on or how he was supposed to deal with it. He would probably just straight up panic until someone helped him figure his life out

prompt : ( Seungmin x Reader ) Seungmin breaks up with you to join the JYP Nation. You understand, of course, but it’s taking a toll on both of you.

genre :angst

word count :1.7k

muse insp :GOT7 • Never Ever (spotify ,soundcloud)

You and Seungmin had always been close. You met in middle school, initially; you sat next to each other in a couple classes and your friend groups merged over time. The two of you formed a more romantic relationship in your last year of middle school, and it really blossomed as you converted into high school. The two of you were inseparable, truly; you were attached by the hip and, in your mind, nothing would tear your love apart.

You, however, stood corrected.

Seungmin, you knew, was amazing at singing, and he loved performing. He wanted to go on to be an idol, and you supported him. You knew it would end your relationship. But you didn’t care, because you loved him and all you wanted was for your Minnie to be happy. However, you were still struck with grief when he broke the news that he was accepted and that the relationship you’d grown to love so much was going to have to end.

You could still remember the day, an hour, the clothes you both wore, every detail. You were on the couch, waiting for him to drop by and tell you the news. You weren’t sure how to feel; if he were to get rejected, he would be upset and feel insecure about his talent, because he could be rather sensitive. But if he was accepted and got into the trainee program, you would lose him forever.

You were truly at a loss.

That being said, he eventually showed up about ten minutes late. You didn’t mind, it wasn’t your place to judge why he’d been late. But as you stood with a bright smile, clad in one of his shirts and simple shorts, your phone dropped from your small hand as you realized that his eyes were red and his cheeks were streaked with tears. Your instinct was to rush over to him and hug him, kiss his tears away, shush him and whisper sweet nothings into his ears, but your movements were delayed. You took slow, short strides to where he stood. His school bag slid over his shoulder and landed on the floor.

“Seungmin,” Your words came out in a feathery breath as you stepped closer, bringing your soft hands up to cup his face, “What’s wrong? What did they say?”

He leaned into your touch, closing his eyes tightly as he fought another sob from ripping out of his throat. “Lamb,” He mumbled, “They won’t… Let us. You- you have to.. Understand..”

Your eyes widened as they glazed with panic, you dropped your hands from his cheeks, “What.. do you mean? Is this it for.. For us?”

Your lover’s eyes shot open, and he struggled to step closer to you, to touch you. “Please,” He whimpered, “Please understand. I’m sorry.”

Your lips pursed into a thin line as you took a tiny step back, fighting the tears that threatened to escape your eyes. You knew what this meant; Seungmin got in, and they told him the truth. You’d been expecting this. But damn, it still hurt like hell.

“I don’t have a choice,” He continued, his lips quivering and his voice breaking, “Please. I love you.”

A sob forced its way out of you, your body jerking with the motion as your throat and eyes burned. “I understand. I know this is what you want. And I’m okay with that. But… It just hurts, Minnie… It hurts. You do have a choice. But I would never pressure you to make that choice.”

Seungmin’s eyes grew wide as the tears he’d been trying to hold back cascaded down his cheeks. He wanted nothing more than you hug you, to tell you everything was going to be okay, to tell you how much he loved you and that he’d never let you go.

But he was letting you go.

You let a sad, teary smile grow onto your face as you looked up at him. “Go, Kim Seungmin,” You said, “Go live your dreams. Be happy. Forget about me, please, because I don’t want to weigh you down.”

The older boy opened his mouth to protest, to which you cut him off before he could even say anything, “This is what you’ve been wanting. So I will support you because I love you. I want to be with you, but it looks like it just wasn’t meant to be that way, and that’s okay.”

All he could do was sob. He didn’t deserve you. You were so understanding, too sweet. Too perfect.

You didn’t deserve to be tossed away like this. You deserved better. Much better than Seungmin.

Once you finished talking, your dam broke; you started sobbing and crying like it was the key to keeping you alive. You covered your wet face as your emotions – your pain – spilt out of you. You didn’t know what you were going to do without Seungmin. He was your everything. Your light, your sun, your stars, your world. Without him, there would simply be a gaping hole in your heart.

The two of you cried together for some time. What else was there to do? Neither one of you could form coherent words. That is until you screamed for him to leave. It was shrill, and lacking all anger; just pain.

Unable to stand to see you like that, unable to cope with what he’d done to you, Seungmin rushed out of the house.

All contact was broken with him after that.

* * *

You were nothing but a hollow shell of a person for two months after the breakup. You sat in your dark room and stared at pictures of him, or pictures of you and him together. You didn’t eat much, and at school, you didn’t talk to anyone. It seemed the others around you knew to leave you be, word of the breakup spread fast – you were the “it” couple, after all. With gossip, comes rumours. Most of your classmates knew the truth because Seungmin going into idol business was pretty big and it spread fast. But there are always those ignorant few who feel the need to stir up drama wherever they go. The biggest one was cheating, which you felt disgusted by. Why would someone assume that either you or Seungmin cheated on the other? Cheating is a horrible thing to do and it’s something you despise with the entirety of your being. That being said, you did not like the scandalous rumours arising in the school halls.

Come summer, you feel a little bit better. Your childhood friend, Benji, had been texting you and cheering you up. He lived in America and had lived there for some time, now. It was a random day that he said something crazy, but something that promised you a new future. Something that you found yourself wanting to do more than anything.

He wanted you to move to America and live with him and his girlfriend.

So, you thought, fuck it. Why the hell not?

After discussing it with your parents, who surprisingly allowed you to go, you packed your things and were sent to California only three weeks later.

There, your new life began. You dyed your hair, started wearing a little more makeup, started working out; you really wanted and took advantage of this “new start.” You became a different person. You were thriving, and you loved it. Seungmin was pushed to the back of your mind. In fact, after almost a year, you barely thought about him at all.

Sometimes, though, you missed him. You missed his soft touches, his lips on yours, his soft brown eyes boring into your own. But you knew that what happened was for the best. With that in mind, you pushed everything back and focussed on your new life.

Once again, finally, you were happy.

* * *

Though you lived in America, your family remained in Seoul. Thus, obviously, you would have to visit from time to time, which you didn’t mind.

It was on one of these simple trips, you were staying in a hotel that was in the city with your two friends whom you lived with. It was late, probably around midnight, and you were craving chocolate more than anything. So, by God and everything holy, you went out to buy some damn chocolate.

Little did you realize just how scary the streets of Seoul were.

You had the hood of your grey hoodie up over your hair, and your hands were shoved in your pockets. The darkness, save for the streetlights, seemed to leak from the alleyways and claw at you. Every small noise made you jump and turn to see what it was. Life was different, come the shadows and darkness of the night.

You made a quick trip to the small 24-hour convenience store. The clerk was a woman in her thirties, she read a magazine with drooping eyelids. You made sure to make your purchase quick.

While she was ringing you up, you glanced outside the window, and what you saw made your heart jump to your throat. There, looking into the store, and probably at you, was a man in a black hoodie with the hood pulled over his head. His dark brown eyes stared into your own, they were unreadable. He walked away seconds after you made eye contact.

You pursed your lips, paid for the chocolate, and left the store. Slipping the sweet candy into your pocket, you rushed down the street, listening for footsteps and watching for the strange man. You didn’t like the feeling in the pit of your stomach; the fear and the dread.

Then you heard them. Quick, heavy footsteps behind you. They, along with your irregular heartbeat, pounded in your ears and pulsed through your veins.

You started speeding up, running as your hood fell in the rush.

“Wait!” A heart-breakingly familiar voice called out from behind you.

You stopped in your tracks and turned to face the person, the same one you saw in the window, except his hood, too, had fallen while running. His newly dyed reddish brown hair swayed in the small breeze and shone in the dim light of the streetlight next to him. His deep, almond-shaped eyes were wide and bore into your own with something unreadable in them. His lips were parted slightly in shock as he panted quietly from the running he’d done to catch up with you. Your eyes became the size as plates, your lungs felt heavy and empty at the same time, your heartbeat continued to rattle your bones.

“Seungmin?”

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I know this is late but I’m dying at this

FELIX DID THIS PART SO WELL

04 ❣️ Kim Seungmin

I don’t want to go to sleep now, I’ll be making a masterpiece ❣️

Finally finished it ! https://youtu.be/FL4kM5KheYk

네모네모 스폰지밥…

사랑니야 이제 안녕~

STRAY KIDS - ‘YOUR EYES’ MV

Stay who you are, don’t be afraid ..

chan: When you walk behind your group cuz u walm too fast but u end up kicking their heels

jisung: walm

felix: walm

woojin: walm

changbin: walm

minho: walm

hyunjin: walm

seungmin: walm

jeongin: walm

felix: get his ass

Australian Accent

PT.1 Music Video

Pairing: Felix x idol!reader

Summary: Remembering the old times when you were just a simple STAY was not the right choice

A/N: Y/F/N= your fanbase name

Since Bangchan’s VLive your group gained popularity because more STAYS couldn’t stop talking about Felix’s reaction to both your MV and connection with his leader. But as your fame growned thank to that little interaction so did haters. They would mostly attack you because “Oh My GoD sHe iS fRiEnD wItH bAnGcHaN” and other things that weren’t even close to reality.

-Y/N manager wants to know when you are up for a solo VLive.- asked your leader popping her head in your shared bedroom. It had been a while since you did a solo Live, it was since what happened during Chan’s, your staff asked you to avoid it for a while and then hateful comments started floding like no tomorrow and you were too scared to do a Live alone, now, is not like you care much about what people says about you, but you don’t want your group mates to be dragged into it.

-I don’t know, maybe tomorrow or next week. It really depends.- she gave you a stern look, she knew why you were being like this, the two of you would spend hours talking about the issue. -I just don’t want to read how of a…-

-ah ah. Take down your phone. I’ll tell her you want to do it tomorrow.- she interrupted you.

-But…-

-No, buts. I would be there, maybe I can ask the others to come as well so you are more comfortable.- you thanked her, thinking of how lucky you were to have such an amazing leader like her.

The next day you were ready to face Y/F/N and your haters as well but you were not anxious at all, not when your leader, roomate and best friend was there with you.

-Is this thing on?- you asked at the manager behind it. -is been like what? Two weeks and I forgot how this works. Hi Y/F/N sorry for not coming here lately but I was… busy.- you said and then checked the comment section.

-“Have you meet Felix yet?” it depends, as a STAY I did meet him once as Y/S/N not yet.- you answered, then, of course, everyone(well not everyone but you get me?) wanted to know since when you were a STAY and you answered since the survival show. -I swear, I cried my eyes out when Felix got eliminated and also when he came back. I almost threw my phone but then my mum would have killed me.- you said smiling at the memory.

-“Favourite SKZ bside”- you knew it was meant to expose you as a fake stan but you didn’t care much. -극과극(N/S) because its when I meet Stray Kids in my mum’s resturant.- you answered and then proceded to sang the song, just for fun, but also to make haters aware that you indeed were a STAY. After that comment your phone vibrated telling you someone had sent you a text messagge so you cheked it. It was Felix.

-Oh so Felix, hi oppa, is watching the Live and he texted me all in cap “SO IT WAS YOU” with multiples question marks, I think he rembered what happend that day.- reading the comments you laughed, it was funny how everyone wanted to know about that. -I don’t know if I can, like maybe Felix oppa doesn’t want you to know…- your attention was once again on your phone and you laughed again. -Nevermind, he gave me permission to tell you, so…- you took a deep breath. -Ok. So they were dancing and having fun just outside my mum’s resturant that day and I was just helping her around and doing my homework. At some point of the day they walked inside and my mum asked me to take their order, and I did it. Please don’t ask me how I survived, then Bangchan and Felix came to pay and me being stupid I went “ehy I really love your australian accent. Is very *with an austrial accent* nice” they smiled, payed and left. The thing is they did not spoke english that day so I guess they new I was a STAY but said nothing.- at the end of your story both the staff and your leader laughed at you, not being aware of this moment in your live.

-YAH don’t laugh, is not funny. They would tease me forever for this. Now…- you read some other comments, answering them or laughing or also giggling at how cheesy some F/N/B were being. After an hour you decided it was time to go, also because you had dance practice to attend. -It was nice coming back to talk to you my dear F/N/B see you next time.- you waved goodbye at the camera and turned off the app.

-See it wasn’t that hard, now. You really told them you love their accent?- you remembered how you also told them, out of the blue how you wanted to learn it but decided to keep it a secret for now. Your leader, staff, groupmates and ncitizens had already something to tease you now. Once in the dance practice room you meet the rest of the group which was already making fun of you.

-Oh, I love your australian accent oppa- mimicked the maknae and you wanted to slap her but the way she said that made you laugh.

-I hate you. Now can we practice or…- you asked and they stand up so fast you jumped for the little scare they gave you and before starting stretching you checked your phone to see if Bangchan texted you but found just a text from Felix that read: “If you still want to learn how to have an australian accent when speaking english, I’ll be happy to give you some lessons” you smiled and left your phone on the desk before joining the girls.

-Please take that stupid smile off your face, you look so in love.- one of the girls teased you.

-Ehy not my fault I’m living in a wattpad story.-you said making everyone laugh.

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Warnings: Swearing, death, mentions of kidnapping, torture, stalking, obsessions, reincarnation, ANGST ANGST ANSGT.

Pairing:StrayKids!idolOT8 X Ghost!reader

Premise:Being alone and ignored was one thing, you were used to that by now. But having each member of an idol group barrelling into your safe little sanctuary was not something you could have imagined. Now being torn away from your tiny cozy room all you wanted to do was get back to it. Even it meant losing home.

Authors notes: 9.2K words. I’m going to start including a word count in each drabble, as I have realized some of these reach over 5k. It’ll let people know if they’re opening up a mini novel or a short piece.

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The comfort of the dark room, the silence you are so accustomed to now. No longer cold and dim, but a neutral sanctuary. 

Or so you thought….

The doors unwarningly open, and a scream echoes in your enclosed space. Your eyes fly open, and are hit with a harsh stream of light. Making your brain stumble at the impact. 

Squinting you fumble out of the space, cumbersomely forcing yourself to your feet. Your ears finally begin to work again as you can hear faint muffled speech smacking you in the head.

“I am so sorry! I didn’t know anyone would be hiding in there!” 

“I was napping, not hiding.” You correct, rubbing your eyes, hoping the spinning would stop soon. Your eyes slowly begin to focus. When was the last time the light was on?

“Why would you nap in a closet?” 

“It’s comfier than you’d thin-” Wait. Did you hear that right? The voice chuckles. Your eyes swim back to vision as you face your intruder. 

“You’re Hyunjin. From StrayKids!” Really? In this whole situation that’s all you got? You mentally slap yourself. You had bigger things to worry about.

“Yeah! Are you a fan?” He replies brightly.

“Uh…” You take in his form from his iconic shoes to his blonde hair. “Was…?” 

Looking at his face, more important his eyes. Yep, he’s definitely looking at you. 

“Was? Oh, I’m sorry to hear that.” His smile falters, but he recovers quickly. 

“What are you doing here?” His outfit and makeup tells you he is filming something. But if he’s here then the others must be and a whole production team, which to you sounds like a right nightmare. Well it would be if you could have one.

“We’re filming for our new music video. What are you doing here?”

“Napping.” 

“You came all this way, to this run down old building… to nap?” He looks at you skeptically, but you’re too lost in examining the room. An old classroom, the posters still on the wall hold some faint colour to them. Your favourite drawing hanging up was blue not black. Huh, who would have thought. 

“Uh huh”

If anyone had asked you this morning if you would be standing here having a conversation with Hyunjin of Straykids, you would have laughed at them. Wait… you clearly missed something important. 

Before you could open your mouth to assure yourself, the door of the classroom bursts open and three more members of skz file in.

“Hyunjin, we’ve been looking everywhere for you!” Changbin yells at him.

“We thought we heard a faint scream, we assumed it was you.” Jisung laughs.

“Oh so funny” He rolls his eyes.

“Who’s this?” Seungmin asks, eyes staring directly at you. Oh great, another one.

“I’m not sure I just met her. She was napping in the closet.” Hyunjin explains, gesturing at you. 

“Well, Hi I’m Ji-” Jisung starts as the three members walk over to you.

“I know who you are.” You are struggling to keep your face blank from your rising panic.

“Apparently she used to be a fan” Hyunjin chuckles awkwardly. The atmosphere in the room becomes a shade dimmer. 

“Can we ask what your name is?” Seungmin tries to divert the tension. 

You shake your head. “You guys should go now. You have filming to do right?”

They all stare at you, something hanging in the air that they can tell something isn’t quite right. 

The silence is broken by Changbins cough, “She’s right, we need to head back.” He nudges the others to remove their cemented feet. All giving you a quick goodbye before leaving the room, all but Hyunjin.

“Will you be alright?” 

“I’m fine.” You give him a faint smile before he’s nodding and heading out the door. You wait until you’re sure you can no longer hear their footsteps, before completely freaking out.

“HOLY SHIT!” You yell as you run around the tables. “How did they see me? How can they hear me?! HOW CAN I UNDERSTAND THEM?” 

You collapse onto the dirty laminate floor. You close your eyes, now letting the black unknown take you. You called it napping, really you weren’t sure what it was.

“What the hell is going on?” 

No one answers you, no one ever answers you. No one knows you’re here. It’s been over a year since the incident and you woke up in this building. Well this room to be exact, you’ve never been able to leave and lord knows you’ve tried. Eventually you gave up and accepted your confines as home, you don’t know how you ended up here. The markings on the walls indicated Korean, that much you could tell based on all the k-dramas you used to watch, but you had never been to Korea, so how did you end up in another country? 

Too many questions, all of which you’d had given up finding answers to. But now meeting these 4 members, a whole new wave of questions came flooding in. 

And once again you were left alone. With no answers. 

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You take your time opening your eyes, unsure of how much time you had been ‘napping’ but you let yourself regain at its own pace. Eventually your eyes begin to open, ready for the grimy ceiling tiles and rusty, broken looking light fixture. However, you are jolted awake when you realize that’s not the ceiling above you. This ceiling for 1 is clean, 2 white and 3 all the bulbs are working. You jolt yourself up right, hastily looking around the room. There’s no way you could be anywhere but that old room, so how are you seeing someone’s living room, you must be imagining it. 

You hear shoes scuffling towards a hallway to what looks to be a front door you shoot to your feet, backing up to the opposite end of the room. There’s no way anyone could see you, but these turn of events were enough to put you on edge. 

Your thoughts ricoshay around you, deafening you to the figures entering through the door. One of them stops mid sentence as he comes face to face with you as he enters the living room.

“Who are you?” Chan barks.

Can he see you too? You struggle to answer. Confusion evident on your face. 

“How did you get in here?” He stands his ground, his voice rising in what would be a dominant, intimidating way, but you’re too concerned that once again you have been seen to feel threatened. 

The other 3 figures rush in behind him, upon noticing you their expressions change from fear to worry.

“You’re the girl from the mv shoot we met.” Jisung voices out. 

“This-” You point around the room. “Is your dorm?”

“I’ll ask again. How did you get in here?” Chan asks again. Voice less threatening.

You take a step back, going over everything that happened that day to now. This can’t be real. Scanning each member quickly, you notice something. You point at Changbins now blonde hair and Hyunjins now dark hair. 

“How long ago was that? The video shoot?” Your voice comes out shaky, you’re trying to swallow back the rising emotions bubbling in you. 

“A couple weeks ago?” Changbin offers. 

That’s it, a couple weeks? How have you been out that long? I mean it’s not like you could tell time with a broken clock, but weeks. You start pacing back and forth muttering to yourself. “How is this happening? This can’t happen. It’s impossible- but then again, I thought I was impossible. So maybe not impossible? But that doesn’t make any sense.”

You don’t hear the front door opening and the other four members enter until you hear Seungmin exclaim.

“Hey, why is the shoot girl here?”

You halt in your steps, turning to them.

“Shoot girl?” Felix asks.

“The girl we said we ran into at the mv shooting.” Seungmin shrugs. 

“OK, so you guys felt the need to invite her over?” Minho huffs next to him.

“No offense, but that doesn’t sound like the smartest thing to do Hyungs” I.N. gestures behind them. 

“We didn’t invite her, she was here when we came in.“ Hyunjin defends dramatically. 

You can feel your voice clawing it’s way out, but before you can think the panic has taken over.

“Hold on. WAIT. You can see me?”

“Is that a joke?” Chan asks. Your cold hands rub against the skin on your face. This is really a nightmare. 

“You can all see me. You can all hear me. You can all understand me.” You state, the shock finally breaking your blank shell. You see them all nod, distrusting eyes watch you as your feet restart their pacing. 

“This can’t be happening.” This time you’re not mumbling. “ I can’t be here. How is this happening? Oh god- I need to get back to my room.”

“You mean that old classroom? That’s your room?” Jisung can’t help but ask, but he’s stopped short of completely asking you things when Minho nudges him in the ribs with his elbow. 

The pacing stops as you stare at them. “You don’t understand. I haven’t been able to leave that room in over a year.”

“What? Has someone been keeping you there?” Jisungs exclaims, followed by another nudge to his ribs.

You can’t help but laugh dryly, if only it was that easy. “I stopped asking those questions a long time ago. Seriously though, none of you should be able to see me.”

“Why because you have your invisibility cloak on?” Minho sneers at you.

You stare blankly at him. Walk over to the table, pulling your hand back you aim to push all the items off the table. Your hand collides with nothing, phasing through the objects. You smirk at his shocked face, arms crossing over your chest in triumph. 

“No, because I’m a ghost.” Now the feelings of being annoyed started to build. “And like I said, I’ve been stuck in that room for a very long time with no idea how to leave. And no one has been able to see me until you showed up. And then I wake up here, in your space weeks later. AND to top it all off, I don’t speak Korean so how the hell are we having this conversation?”

~

“So you’re dead?”

“If he asks me that one more time I’m going poltergeist on this place” You threaten, turning to the eldest two. 

“What happened to you?” IN calls your attention. The room becomes dead still. The continuous shuffling and side comments coming to an abrupt stop. Unclear certainty fields the room, from them upon realizing they may have crossed a line in their maknae asking so bluntly. And from you… well for very different reasons. 

“Wrong place, wrong time?” You will your voice to come out steady and nonchalantly. However, your body betrays you. Leg bouncing in your seat on the couch, hands showing a slow tremor.   “Look, I’m not really sure. I can’t remember. All I know is one minute I was walking along this backroad to my place from being with friends. I had my headphones in, I was listening to a random playlist when………..-wait-”

A subtle drifting melody passes by your ears. Like it was traveling on a motionless breeze. The sound ebbing in and out of your being. 

“I think one of your songs was playing” Wide eyes jump to each member as the beat lingers. “and then I woke up in that room. That’s it. Nothing in between” 

“Maybe someone was meant to find you in that room? Like we were? It’s easy enough to come and go in that building.” Hyunjin hums, trying to put the broken pieces of a puzzle together.

“That’s the weird thing, others have filmed there before and no ones ever seen me.” You shake your head at him. “Actually no ones ever been able to come into the room before. I can see the reflection through the hallway windows, there’s always been a padlock and chain on it. How did you get in?” 

“There wasn’t anything like that, the door was partially open when I Found it.” 

Too many coincidences… that’s what this is….if you could feel your skin, you’d say it was beginning to itch. 

“Strange. Why did you go in that room? Were you randomly searching all the rooms?” Minho’s careful eyes watch the younger one carefully. 

Hyunjin shakes his head. “No, that was the only room I went into. I just felt like there was something… that I had to see…”

“Wait. So the last thing you heard was one of our songs before nothing and you just happened upon a room that was mysteriously calling you?” Jisung questions wide-eyed. His large eyes bore into you.

“That sounds like we were meant to find you, somehow this was meant to be.” Chan nods to himself. His voice is warm and soothing, but there’s something chilled about his sentence. 

Your vision ripples momentarily, whatever else they were saying you could no longer hear. Only a deep raspy faltering voice.

‘It was love at first sight. We are meant to be.’

And then they were back. All 8 pairs of eyes staring at you, clearly someone had asked you a question.

“Sorry, what was that?” 

“Are you ok?” Chan’s thoughtful gaze makes you feel slightly uncomfortable. 

“Uh yea yea fine. Everything is just a lot.” You try to give them a reassuring smile. They must have seen the look of loss in your eyes, hoping to move on from the subject. 

“I know y/n, but we promise we’ll figure it out together.” Followed by several agreeances, and encouraging smiles.  

~

“I already regret agreeing to help you.” Seungmin’s voice mumbles tiredly from the couch.

You can’t stop the evil giggle from bubbling out of your mouth. Your day spent getting used to your new surroundings, figuring out which door went where, whose room was who’s, who was the easiest to poke fun at when you were bored.

“You? At least you can leave to your own dorm rooms. She’s here all the time.” Changbin huffs coming out of his room.

“Guys be nice to noona! You’re acting like she’s a disobedient pet or something.” Jisung scolds from the dining table. 

“She’s like an angry chihuahua that pees on everything just because she knows it’ll annoy us.” Seungmin retorts annoyedly, eyes still fixed on the tv. 

“Exactly!” Changbin agrees a little too enthusiastically for your liking. Plopping down next to Seungmin.

“Did you just call me a chihuahua?” You shoot them a look of disgust. “Ew.”

“If you stopped acting like one we’d stop calling you one behind your back.” Minho eventually joins the conversation from the other end of the dining table to Jisung. His face was blank as always.

“Linoring, not you too!” Jisung whines dramatically, falling back in his chair, face stricken with dismay and disappointment to the dancer.

“Sorry jagi” Minho mumbles looking away from the huffy chipmunk, slight pink dusting his cheeks as he accidentally makes eye contact with you. Purposefully, at least on your end, catching the smirk on your face as you wiggle your eyebrows at him knowingly. 

“Thank you sungie! Besides, It’s not my fault you guys are boring.” You groan in frustration. “When did Lixie and Innie say they would be over?”

“IN said he was finishing his game while waiting for lix to finish his baking and then they’d be over.” Seungmin’s voice makes you feel even more disheartened. 

“If I could die again it’d be from boredom. I want Lixie.” You cry out.

You hear Changbin mumble something under his breath about you being dramatic, in retaliation you whip around to give him another dramatic show, but are hit with the room beginning to spin. As if the world is tilted on its axis you stumble slightly, eyes flying shut and a ringing in your eyes. Regaining your balance a pained groan escapes you.

—-

“Noona? Noona!” Felix’s deep voice bounces in your still pounding mind. 

“Lixie?” Your staggering mind manages. 

“How did you get here?” You hear I.N’s surprise. Begrudgingly you pry your eyes open, blinking the world back to alignment.

“I dunno.. I was complaining about seeing you guys and then I felt like I was hit with mega vertigo and… here I am.” 

And here you were. Standing in an almost identical dorm room kitchen to the first one, individuals items being the only difference you can see.

“Are you ok?”

“That’s so cool!” 

Both chime at once. You can’t help but laugh at them.

“Yes I’m ok, it was just really abrupt. I was not ready for it.” You smile softly at Lix, before turning to give I.N a mischievous smirk. “…do you think I’d be able to do it again?”

“Please tell me you’re going to try it right now.” I.N comes over to you excitedly, his game completely forgotten. “Wait! I have an idea!”

You watch as he races back to the computer to grab his phone. You and Felix share a confused look. 

“I’ll text everyone in the group to see if they’re all decent. I won’t say why and then you pick a member and try to poof to them.” He begins typing away on his phone.

“Oh this I’m ready for. And don’t say poof. It’s weird.” The mischievous look on the maknaes face only amps up your own. The youngest was always ready to cause a ruckus with you.

He rolls his eyes at you, but doesnt respond.

“Ok everyones good. Chans in his studio, the others are either in the other dorm, the gym or wandering around the city.” IN eagerly informs you both.  

“Did you at least give them a warning? If this does work?” Felix, trying as always to be the voice of reason for you two. Always worrying about what you two would end up doing to the others. Felix and his soft heart. 

“Yeah’” IN waves off. “Give it a try y/n”

Focusing on one member you begin to try to will yourself to him. Your eyes close, the world tilts and the ringing hits. 

“See you later!” You chime, an evil smile plastered on your face, and then poof.

—-

“Do you think it worked?” Felix paces back and forth in worry. They hadn’t heard anything from anyone for over 5 minutes, he was beginning to worry you got lost somewhere.

“Well she’s not here anymore, so I’d assume so.” IN comments, composure set in his shoulders as he watches the older continue in his steps.

The group from your previous location burst into the dorm. Eyes wild, almost panic stricken. 

“Have you guys seen y/n? She was in the dorm and then she just vanished! We can’t find her.” Jisung wails, coming in first. Clearly the most concerned out of the group.

“Yea, she was here just here.” Felix remarks, finally his feet coming to a rest. 

“Was?” 

“We’re waiting for touchdown.” IN shrugs, now scrolling through his phone absentmindedly. 

“What?” 

The maknaes phone notification appears on his screen and the ringtone he set goes off. A bright smile erupts on his face as he answers it, placing it down on the table as he hits speakerphone for everyone to hear. 

“You couldn’t have given a better warning?!”  Chan’s exasperated voice comes through the line.

“I said heads up.” IN chuckles.

“Heads up was not enough to have my heart leap out of my body. She appeared out of nowhere. How was I supposed to be ready for that?!” Chan howls. IN can’t contain his laughter at his leader’s cries. 

“It worked?!” Felix beamed, eyes now sparkling with joy at you not being sent to god know where.

“Yes Lix it worked.” You sang from Chan’s end of the phone. 

“Greeeeaaaaat.” Less than excited groans break out mixed with genuine cheers.

~

“Um y/n, did you visit me at some point today?” There’s a slight tremble to IN’s voice as he returns to the dorms, not even taking his shoes off to come find you in the kitchen.

“No? I was with Changbin all day.” You chime brightly from your perch on the counter, legs swinging back and forth as you watch Changbin struggling to make a meal. 

“As annoying as it was, yeah she was with me the whole time. Why innie?” Changbin turns to the younger, concern written all over his face. You were still learning about the kids, how each one’s reactions played a part in their personalities. But they knew each other better than themselves.

“I swear it felt like something was there today.. I don’t know, maybe I’m imagining things” IN huffs, shoulders slumping and head cast down. You catch his demeanor shift this time. Hopping off the counter you walk over to him, angling to catch his eyes now trained to the floor. 

“Can you show me where?” You smile at him sweetly. “I’ll take a look for you.”

He doesn’t say anything, only giving you a small nod, finally making eye contact again.

You and Changbin trapse after IN through the company hallways, he had been silent the whole trip there. Something had seriously left the maknae shaken, something you were determined to get to the bottom of. Only you are allowed to scare these boys now. 

Changbin steps to walk alongside IN now, draping an arm over his shoulders. You are left a few steps behind. As they take a turn down the last hallway, you can feel it. 

You don’t have a body anymore, you know that logically, but somehow there’s a heaviness to your steps that leave you stunned silent. If you had to breathe the air would appear thick, sinking to the bottom of your lungs. But you don’t and you almost have to convince yourself of that fact. 

The boys step into the open doorway vanishing into the room. You feel as though there’s a tickle on the back of your neck. The only thing you can think of that it reminds you of is the breath of someone standing too close behind you. 

You swear you can hear a whisper of a voice behind you. Instinct tells you to look behind you, but you don’t. The hallway is empty, your voice in your head tells you, you don’t have to worry anymore. 

Wait. Why did you have to worry? 

You blink several times, pushing away your confusion. Now wasn’t the time to dwell on yourself. You step into the room to see the two of them standing in the center of a vocal room, eyes darting around as IN’s voice finally speaks up.

“It was in here.” He gestures to the room. “I was sitting at the piano, facing away from the door and I felt like something came in. But I had the door locked. When I turned around I was just expecting to see you, but there was nothing.”

You walk over to where the keyboard is positioned, glancing over at the door you all had just come through. And just like that your breath would have hitched if you had one. 

“What is it y/n?” Changbin asks from behind you.

“I think we should head back.” Your eyes follow something in the room, moving up to the ceiling. “We can all talk about it together.”

“Sure?” The suspicion in Changbins voice does not go unmissed by you.

“You guys go first, I’ll meet you there.”

You can’t see the shared look of distress passed between the two as you hear them leave, mumbling something as they go. You always fazed home first, too impatient to wait for them and wanting to annoy the next person as soon as possible. So you deciding to stay behind was something that stirred anxiety into them.

You want to reassure them, but you can’t. You can’t look away from what you’re seeing. You can feel them getting farther away from you, a forced faze back to the dorms. 

You hated accidentally falling out of their proximity, some force slapping you to their side. Always leaving you extremely disorientated. So you avoided it at all costs. But no this time, you feel the pull but you fight against it as you swear you can almost make out what you’re seeing. It’s on the tip of your tongue and that’s where it dies as you hear the same chilling voice rasp to you as before.

“Don’t worry, once you let go of everything else we can finally be together.”

And then you’re wrenched back to the dorms.

Stumbling to the floor you are met with 6 sets of eyes. The group chat had been notified as soon as the two left you behind. They were all waiting for you to return. Shortly after IN and Changbin returned, IN explaining what happened with him. 

Then it was your turn. But somehow you couldn’t remember what you thought you might have seen, the emotions you felt now fuzzy and muddy in your head.

“I’m not sure what it was, but it left a heavy residue. Like I could see where it had been on the walls and floor. I think it would be safe if you all traveled in pairs when you’re outside the apartments. Something just doesn’t feel right about it.” You think out loud. “Just being cautious until we can figure this out, I mean.”

“Yea, I think that’s a good idea.” Chan agrees after replaying your words. “I’ll call and get our schedules moved around so no ones alone.”

~

As the weeks progressed, the boys were becoming more unsettled. Even in pairs they claimed to feel like they were being watched or followed. Any and everywhere outside the dorm building, mostly at work and then a trickling of outside. 

All the while you couldn’t shake forgetting something. There was something important you needed to remember. But everytime drawing a complete blank as to what it actually was. 

Your napping was also impossible now. Once being able to drift into nothing, is now replaced with the cold chill of hands on your skin, dark murmurs against your ears and the overwhelming feeling of grief. As scared as you were when you came back to the world, you couldn’t remember exactly what had happened. Couldn’t place the familiarity of the hands, the voice and the words. 

You remained upfront with the members, explaining to Chan the ominous dissociative states you found yourself in. And how sometimes it wasn’t you that did it. One moment you could be with them and then the next gone. However, you would put everything you had into fighting it off, it had become frequent for almost a week, before you started to reel it in. it had been days since the last time, finally feeling like you had some control…

Until it hit you again. 

The boys were either napping in their dorms or watching tv or eating, some even opting to go to the company for some extra practice. It was an off day for them, all free to roam about as they pleased. You had walked into the living room of the Lee’s dorm when you are halted by a sudden wave of forgetfulness. 

“Are you ok, y/n?” You can hear Felix’s voice swim into your fog. 

“Yea, I just uh…forgot why I came in here..” You give your head a little shake trying to wave off the clouding fog that was slowly becoming thicker as the seconds ticked by. 

You could see through the glaze of your vision, like you were looking through a window of ice, three figures coming closer. You hear their muffled voices as you stumble slightly.

“I’m fine-” You slur out. Unknowing what they were actually saying to you. “I-”

“I know why you’re fighting me so hard. You want me to prove my love for you, don’t you worry I’m not going anywhere.” 

The voice envelopes you like a cement blanket, your vision darkening….

“Y/N!” 

You immediately snap out of it, standing straight, eyes now clear. “Hyunjin!” 

And you phase out. 

~

Staggering a couple of steps, you attempt to catch yourself but fail. You plummet forwards to the floor, hands coming out to catch yourself. The ringing is excruciatingly loud now, lights in the room blindingly bright. 

Where are you? Someone screamed your name, who was it…? You knew who it was.

Painfully slow you wince as you lift your head to look around the room. Light reflections from the far end. Mirrors, those must be mirrors…dance studio. Your vision is still swimming, unable to focus, if you weren’t already certain you’d think you were underwater with how submerged you feel. 

Peering over to the side, shifting your head as little as possible. Gut twisting nausea hits you as you vaguely make out a figure lying on the floor. Fighting through the unseen force dragging your body down, one limb at a time you begin to crawl over. 

Your voice coming out in a weak attempt, “Hyunjin”.

A feeble moan comes from the blurry figure, still unmoving.

Hand moving forward to continue moving, don’t stop moving.

‘I-’

“Hyunjin!” Ignoring the voice banging itself against your skull you have to get to him. 

‘You-’

“Hyunjin!” Finally movement from the figure. Only a few more shuffles and you’ll be able to reach him. 

‘Me-’

Finally leaning over the figure you can now see some of him. Your mind is stuck in a fishbowl view. He’s lying on his back, chest rising and falling in deep rhythmic breathing. He didn’t seem like he was in pain. You want to touch him, make sure he’s ok, somehow wake him up. Go for help. What you wouldn’t give to be able to go get help right now. Who did Hyunjin say he was coming here with? Why can’t you remember anything?

Who was at the dorm? Felix, Minho and IN. Who did he leave with?

‘-estiny’ 

‘SHUT UP!’ You scream back in your mind. You needed to think, but you couldn’t even hear yourself try. 

‘-ove’

You grapple with your mind to think clearly, you just had to make your body work too. “SEUNGMIN!” 

As his name leaves you the practice room door swings open. Faces you couldn’t recognize and eyes that couldn’t see you crowd around Hyunjin. Seungmin’s face comes into focus, as the chaos carries the unconscious dancer out. 

“Y/N, what happened?” He finally asks when everyone else left the room, crouching down to you. 

“I don’t know, he… I heard him yell my name from the dorm and I ended up here.” 

“Everyone heard him yell. That’s why we all came running. Did anything else happen? I’m going to go find out if he’s ok, but is there anything I need to know? Are you ok?” As he spoke, the water from the room began to drain. Your eyes focusing once again on your surroundings, the ringing dying out. 

“No, just go with him, I’m fine.” You wave him away, he only hesitates for a moment before leaving you alone in the room 2 unopened, iced water bottles lay in his place. He must have gone to get them water. 

Pushing from your hands, you fumble to sit. 

“What do you want?” A broken whisper comes out of you, voice almost sounding not like your own. Eyes trained to the ceiling. 

This time the fade out is slow, like you can feel it fluttering down on you like a fresh sheet. 

The same infuriating voice sounds as you slip away. 

‘I love you and you love me. We’re destiny.’

~

Movie night was demanded of all of you when you finally returned from your ‘nap’. Hyunjin was not able to remember what happened, but he did remember calling your name. But he said it felt more like a warning call than him wanting you to come help him. You were all unnerved by this, but upon long late night discussions you all agreed to let it rest for now. They had a hectic schedule coming up after the next few days of being off. 

They were scheduled to go overseas for some promotional work, you were excited about traveling when they first told you. But as time ticked on and you let your mind wander you became increasingly uncomfortable with it. Maybe you could stay behind in the dorms? You could wait for them to get back.  

The credits begin to roll over the screen breaking all of you out of your 20 minute silence. The plot twist actually surprises you all near the end, leaving you quietly focused.

“Reincarnation would be pretty cool.” Jisung’s eyes wide in disbelief, finally someone speaking.

“You know what would be even better?” Felix wiggled his eyebrows at his birthday twin, only to have him shake his head in response. “If we all got to do the next life together!” 

“Yes!” Jisung cheered, hands thrown in the air in excitement. Snacks completely forgotten in bowls on the table and floor. 

“It does make sense. None of us could manage alone anymore, at least I wouldn’t be able to.” Chan laughs at the dramatic younger ones, as they both throw themselves into their leader’s lap. Fits of giggles erupting.

“You really want us to all do this again?” Minho complains, the thought already exhausting him.

“Of course!” Felix continues to giggle as Chan gives him a hug, Changbin tickling him on his other side.

“You don’t want to?” Jisung already pushed away from the fight to turn his large puppy eyes to Minho. Pout forming on his lips, forcing Minho to look away abruptly. The question caught the other members’ attention. 

“It’s not that…” Each member staring at him patiently waiting for his answer. He huffs and rolls his eyes. “Alright, the next life we do together.” 

“Promise?” Felix turns on his puppy eyes, following Jisung’s lead.

“Promise.” The others all say in unison. 

You snicker to yourself, perched behind them all clustered on the couch, how were they so adorable to each other but also extremely annoying?

Clearly your noises didn’t go unnoticed.

“Y/n, do not even think you can go to the next life without us. ALL of us” Hyunjin glares at you. 

“What am I supposed to do? Wait for you?” You feign irritation. Next life huh?

“Yes!! There is no way in hell you are being reincarnated without us, we can finally annoy you then, instead of you just annoying us. And we’ve all just promised to have the next life together, so you’re stuck with us.” Changbin demands, the tone in his voice pushing through the idea that this was final. 

“Too bad. You don’t have a choice now.” Minho smirks at you, causing you to mimik him from before, eyes rolling in mock disgust.

The next life with these weirdos? You guess that’s something you could do. Maybe this is what having a home could feel like… being not alone and being wanted made you feel something again. Something you hadn’t felt for a long time, something you had almost forgotten. 

Trying to hide a smile you turn away from them, “Whatever.” is all you can manage.

Two more days of having them all to yourself then it’s back to business. Discomfort settles in you again, yea maybe you’ll stay home. You’ve gotten pretty good at poltegiesting the tv on and netflix, slowly being able to move things slightly, playing around with equipment they brought into the dorms. Hey, maybe they can leave you some stuff to attempt to interact with.

You’d be ok here alone. Something in you was saying you should stay back. This time you’d listen to your gut feeling.

~

“Where exactly are we going?” You whine from behind the group. They all had insisted you went out tonight, something to do with having fun to distract from all the creepiness that now was a part of their daily lives. And also their impending work trip.

“We told you it’s a surprise.” Minho huffs annoyingly at you.

“And I told you I don’t like surprises.” You grumble, continuing to wander down a gravel path through a large park. The evening had darkened the sky, however along the path they had taken it was illuminated with string lights. The trees break up ahead and you can see even more lights. You squint trying to get a better idea of what the heck this was.

“No way-” Your mouth hangs open. 

A pop-up carnival, adorned with beautiful lights, multiple rides, little shops, tents and so many more options. The night air is buzzing as you look at the others who are waiting for you. 

“Surprise!” Hyungjin beams. 

“Time to have fun.” Felix chirps before gesturing forward, and that was all the invitation you needed to enjoy yourself tonight.

—-

After a few hours and your second round of the carnival, each member is stuffing their faces with some form of snack. You notice a smaller trailer just out of the main circle trail. 

‘Tarot reading/Fortune reading/Psychic medium’

Your pace slows as you feel a slight pull towards it. 

“Oooo a psychic!” Jisung shouts excitedly from beside you, making you jump a little. “Should we check it out?”

“Aren’t they all just scammers?” Seungmin deadpanes towards the marked trailer.

“We have the perfect thing to test them out.” Minho counters. “If they pick up on y/n then they are real, if not they are fake”

You nod to the group. That does make complete sense.

“I’m in.” You smile before skipping your way over the boys following close behind, the Medium didn’t have a line or anything so it seemed like this would be a quick visit. If anything you could knock some things off their wall if they got things wrong. It’d be fun regardless.

Upon entering you instantly notice a thick foreboding smog that clung to the air. Something in the back of your mind is telling you to leave, barely one foot inside the trailer. The members crowd in around you giving you a chance to take in the small space. A burgundy wall of curtains behind a small counter with a korean sign you couldn’t read. 

The members had been helping you learn to read Korean but some things and words were harder than others. 

The walls of the trailer you could see had trinkets and lace draping meticulously and delicately placed with symbols you had never seen before. However, each symbol makes you feel a certain way…You couldn’t describe it but it was as if you glanced a little too long you’d either feel nauseous, giddy or incredibly nervous.  Unable to focus on one thing, your mind hyper tracked every thing in the tiny room. 

Everything except the curtain opening slightly. 

A young couple arm in arm walked out merrily, smiling at nothing but each other. Clearly given some form of good knews, fake or not. You watched them walk out before turning back to the group.

“Next please~” A tender voice sang out from behind the curtain. Still shifted to the side, the members share a look before walking through, you only hesitate for a moment, the panic of wanting to run weighing down on you. Pushing past it you follow them into the other portion of the trailer.

Entering the room the thick feeling no longer clings to you. It’s like it was trapped in another space. The room coloured in deep tapestries, symbols, mirrors and prints along the walls. A bookshelf full of old looking books, crystals splayed around them. Crystals hang from the ceiling in bottles and in cages, along with plants around the whole of the room. You almost feel comfortable here, that is until a voice brings you out of your wonder.

“Normally I’d request all excess energies to remain outside, however I do not believe I have to this time.” The female voice sings. “You’ve brought someone with you.”

She’s hidden by the members all crowding around her table, it’s not until they all take their seats that you finally get a look at her. The years have aged her….not well to put it nicely. Her body frail, hands shake slightly as she covers her mouth to stifle a laugh. 

Changbin looks over at you, giving you a ‘what the hell is this?’ kind of look. All the others were stunned, staring wide eyed at her instant recognition of you.

You shoot him a confused annoyed look, huffing at him to pay attention. In response he rolls his eyes and looks back to her. 

“A young girl, your age I feel.” This time not hiding her laugh. “She’s a spunky one I take it?”

“Spunky is an understatement.” Minho mumbles under his breath. 

If looks could kill, he would be dead with the glare you’re giving him, you stick your tongue out at them.

 “I will give you my quick introduction, and what I normally do for people. However, I will be doing something a little different today.” She begins. “My name is Sengul. I offer Tarot card readings, communications with deceased loved ones or palm readings. But today let us discuss the young lady that has joined you today.”

You eye her carefully, clearly she wasn’t someone to be taken lightly. No one knew about you other than the 8 members, so she shouldn’t have been able to know you were there.

“Can you see her?” Jisungs voice squeaks out, shifting closer to Minho. MInho’s hand coming over to rest on the youngers tapping knee.

“No, but I can feel her.” The medium smiles at the nervous rapper. “She has a very strong presence. An aura if you will, a projection of emotions. And I take it upon your response to my words you all know of her?”

“Yes we do. We can see and hear her clearly.” Chan states confidently, you can tell by his tone he’s thinking over his words carefully. 

“I see, and she has been here for quite some time?” 

Eight heads nod simultaneously. 

“And the other….presence?” Her voice drops.

“You can feel that one too?” Shock encapsules Felix’ normally tender voice.

“Both very different, both just as strong I fear.” Sengul murmurs to herself, thinking out loud. 

“Should we be worried?” Chan’s face morphs into a deadpan, quiet demands.

“All I feel from the young lady is pure… love.” Panicking you train your eyes to the floor. You weren’t good at talking about your feelings. It was easier to hide behind shrewd comments, bitter banter and condescending tones. And now she was laying it all out for them, all your feelings for them. “The need to protect is strong. Also the need to not be alone, not for the fear of being alone but of loving too strong. Wanting to be with the people you so deeply care about continuously. Doing everything you can to procure someone’s happiness. There’s a sense of ‘if you are happy then I am too’. Not done for selfish reasons but out of love for them.” 

If you can’t see them then they can’t see you right? You wished the ground would actually swallow you whole right now, you didn’t want to have to talk about this later, knowing the boys would pester you about this when you got out of here.

But she doesn’t stop. “A soul who chooses comfort and trust in the living can open up their doorway to be seen and heard like she has with you. But this takes complete trust in the individual, for a whole group to be given that is truly a gift in itself. Even if the soul itself is not aware of it, sometimes that’s where fate plays a part.”

“That would make sense as to why I saw her the first time.” Hyunjin’s voice comes out soothing, but you’re too afraid to look up. Why did you have to be visible? “You mentioned the other?” 

Thank god, please move on.

At first she only hums at his question, standing slightly to the side behind the members you look up at her. Fear of your feelings being known, now forgotten. 

“I will be honest with you. I don’t believe this one to be like her. A putrid smell invaded my senses under her arua. It lingers on you the way soot would, gathering thicker and thicker on you each time. Draining you, like leech upon flesh. It is dark, something I myself am uncomfortable dealing with.” Her strong eyes trying to reach each member, the sincerity in her voice, the worry.

“Human..?” An unfinished question. 

“It was once.” 

“How can a human soul be something like this?” Minho’s hand tightens on Jisungs knee, who in return clasps his hand over his Hyungs, trying to now calm the rage set in the dancer’s jaw.

“Sometimes, if a soul is truly corrupt in life it can form itself into something inhumanly evil. The reincarnation process is impossible. It can only cling to this world until it achieves what it wants.” Sengul looks apologetically at Minho.

“Achieving what?” 

“Whatever it was after in the living. Once it has it, it will bleed it until the soul is lost into nothing. It will no longer exist. These fractured souls are everywhere, I’m surprised you’ve been able to feel one.” Sengul explains cautiously, hands trembling on the table.

“Maybe it’s because we’ve been around y/n for so long, we can pick up on some now?”

“Perhaps” Medium hums, her sad eyes betraying her. There’s more she isn’t saying. “Perhaps you’ve just come into contact with it through somewhere you’ve been.” 

‘Somewhere you’ve been’ echos in your head… ‘somewhere they’ve been…’

As the boys listen on, something draws you to the side of the trailer. An ornate gold framed oval mirror hangs among the vines and crystals on her wall. You don’t make a step closer, only turning enough to look at it. Stupefied in place, your eyes wide as the voices around you drown out. For the first time in years you make eye contact with yourself in the glass. Noticing a pair of steady eyes watching you through the glass, your body trembles as you let yours drift to them. 

The reflection of the Medium is staring at you, your chest rising and falling as if you’re struggling to control your breath. She gives you a soft, sad smile, her eyes beaming with so much…was this sympathy… or was it pity? 

You break away to check on the others. Could they see what you were seeing? 

The Medium and the members are still carrying on their conversation, unaware of what was happening to you. Clearly this was just for you. You quickly look back, making sure you hadn’t imagined it. Once again eyes finding the Mediums reflection still looking at you. So heartbroken. 

As if slowly guided forward you began to step towards the mirror. The closer you get the more drawn you are to her. She stands from her stool, matching her steps to yours. With each step you feel an electric vibration through your body. Your hand reaches out to feel the glass in front of you, her doing the same. It almost feels as though you are making contact with someone, there’s now despair engraved into the lines of her face. 

Her lips don’t move when you hear her voice, “I am so sorry my child.”

Before you can ask her, her reflection fades away in a static like motion, morphing into a tall dark figure behind you. You can’t see any facial features, you don’t know what this is. 

Something feels incredibly off, looking back at yourself you see a single tear escape down your cheek. The figure’s hand reaches up behind you, fingers wrapping around your neck. Another tear breaks free when your eyes inevitably close, memories flood your mind. The dam finally broken, a dam you wish you could rebuild. But it’s too late. 

You remember.

“Nonononono, you can’t leave me. I’ll follow you, I’ll find you my precious. We’ll be together always”

~

You kept yourself relatively calm, at least on the outside. The days, hours, minutes even leading up to the boys traveling to Japan, were some of the most emotionally draining for you. 

Watching them each pack a bag made you feel like they were the ones leaving you behind. Ultimately you knew that wasn’t true, they’d never leave you behind.

But still you smiled and waved as they left acting like you didn’t know what was coming next. Alone you wandered through the dorms, memories flashing in a vivid 4k movie you had saved.

Late nights talking with Minho about his hidden, not so hidden feelings for his soulmate. Leading to late nights talking to Jisung about the same thing. You give them what advice you could but ultimately leave the ball in their court if they were to bring it up with the other. Which to your joy they did.

Hours watching and rewatching Hyunjin dance over and over again, upon his request. Noting changes, weak steps, things he couldn’t see himself. Then you try to erase the doubts he had for himself in his abilities to master his own choreo. Him unloading his worries on you, for you to help amend. 

Following Felix to his voice lessons, only for him to be overcome with nervousness at you listening. Unsure of how to use his beautifully comforting instrument. You encourage him to try more, different styles, different techniques and decide how he wants it to sound. Not how anyone told him he had to sound, believe in what he was singing for, himself.

No longer sitting idly as you all watched Chan overwork and overthink himself. His unableness to see his own worth in the eyes of others. You had gotten so worked up over him self-deprecating that you had snapped. Throwing every piece of importance that his existence brings to so many people, unrelenting confident laced compliments, until he broke down crying. 

Bothering Changbin on his solo trips to the gym on days he felt weak. Too many worries about his members and his music filling his mind, making it hard for him to see his strength as a person. He stayed longer at the gym those days, trying to convince himself of his solidity. On these days you felt an even greater urge to voice and compliment him on his reps and stamina. It might have seemed like you were only feeding into this idea of muscularity, but he knew, he always knew why you were really there. And he always just laughed and said you were annoying, but he never asked you to leave him. And so you’d stay until the end.

Days observing the youngest members of the group. Each day growing more and more into bright men. Considerate, emotionally intelligent humans, finding themselves in a world of harsh criticisms and cruel expectations. But still, watching them thrive in the safety of the home they all created with each other was something beautiful in itself. The fearlessness of Seungmin and IN was something that people should be jealous of.

How can a world shrouded with darkness still hold so much light?

Each room now contains countless memories and moments you’ve locked away in your heart. Ones you will hold onto until the last moment, taking them with you. Not remembering your life wasn’t painful neither was remembering what happened at the end of it. What was truly the most excruciating was now saying good-bye to a home you remember, one you didn’t want to leave. 

Making your way through the archives of memories you sit down at the dining table. Recording equipment, ipads and other electronics placed especially for you to kill time until they returned. Eyes glazing over, chest heavy, lingerings of a broken promise hanging in the air.

Exerting every ounce of strength left in you, you reach out to one of the machines. 

A deafening click fills the room as the recording unit turns on.

~

Voice recording:

‘Hey guys! Yea it’s me, y/n. Bet you didn’t know I could do this huh? Honestly I’ve been practicing trying to use this recording thingy myself for a while, and let me tell you it wasn’t easy *laughs nervously*

I uh just wanted to say thank you, ya know for letting me hang around you guys. I can’t tell you how bored I’ve been and this has been the single most exciting moments in my undead life. So yea, thank you for that.

But um…. I wasn’t sure I’d be able to say all this to your faces before leaving, so I guess I’m taking the coward’s way out. Leaving this for you to find after I’m gone. 

It doesn’t look like I’ll be waiting on the other side for you guys. I know I promised we’d all start the next life together, but uh…. I don’t… I won’t be having a next go at this. I guess this was meant to be my only life. 

I realized what it was that was following you guys, and when I did I got all of my memories back from when I died. I won’t be getting into detail about that because… I don’t- I don’t want to talk about it and I don’t want you guys to think about it. When I figured it out, I knew the only way it would stop coming after you was me.

 …It only ever wanted me… 

I know you’ll be upset and furious with me that I didn’t talk to you before deciding, but sometimes you have to make a hard decision for the good of the group right?.. and I uh… it wasn’t fair for me to let you guys deal with this when it’s my fault.

So I am sorry, but also not because I enjoyed annoyingly haunting you. 

You’ll be getting on a plane to come back in a few days.

So I guess it’s time, if i don’t do it now I’ll chicken out. I have to go back to my room.. we’ll it’s not my room anymore. 

*short pause*

I think that’s what scares me the most about this. Not the unexisting part, I mean, but having to go back to my old safe room. That isn’t so safe anymore, not with it being in there. 

This, with you, was what being safe felt like. Even if it only lasted for a moment.

A part of me really hopes that when I walk through those doors you’ll forget all about me, so you won’t have to deal with it after I’m gone. I don’t want you to be sad, or feel guilty for my choice…. Do you think if I beg the universe hard enough it could happen? Here’s me hoping that maybe I’ll have more luck in death, than in life?

But it’s ok. 

You will be ok.

I know these weren’t the answers we were hoping to find. These are just the answers we’ve been given.

I’d say see you later, like I always do but that feels like a lie now…

So I guess it’s Goodbye.

*long pause, sniffling can be heard over the recording*

I Love you guys.’

*CLICK end of recording *

masterlist

You had such a terrible day. It felt like everyone and everything was against you. You felt like breaking, but you were trying your best to keep yourself together. You just needed to be held and reassured that everything was going to be okay. The only person you wanted to comfort you was your best friend Seungmin. He wasn’t into skinship or showing affection, he would hardly let you hug him, but you did it any way. He was one of the only people who made you feel happy and comfortable. He was the only person you wanted to see at that moment, so you made your way over to his dorm. 

You texted Seungmin what he was doing, but he never texted you back. You texted Chan, who told you Seungmin was home and you could come over if you wanted to. You gladly took him up on that offer. Bless Chan for always letting you come over to annoy your best friend. 

“Y/n! Come on in!” Chan greeted you as he opened the door. He gave you a quick hug when you got in. It made you a little better already. 

“Hi Chan, thanks for letting me come over.” You said stepping out of the hug. “So where’s Mr. Won’t Respond To My Texts at?” 

“He should be in his room.” Chan said laughing. 

And with that you went to Seungmin’s room and entered without bothering to knock. You were too sad to care what he might be doing and it slipped your mind to do so. Luckily Seungmin was just laying on his bed reading a book. 

“Seungminnieeee~” You said when you saw him. 

He looked up at you surprised. “Y/n? What are you doing here?” 

“I texted you and you never responded so I asked Chan and he let me come over.” You said pouting. 

“Ah sorry, I didn’t want to be disturbed while reading so I put my phone out of reach and on silent.” He said going back to his book. 

“Seungmin…” you whined going over to the end of his bed. 

“Hm?” He asked not looking at you. 

“Seungminnnnnnnnn~” You said in a sweet voice getting closer to him. He just ignored you. “Seungmin, I’m sad.” 

“Really? Why?” He asked still not taking his eyes off his book. 

“I had a bad day today.. I came here hoping you would help cheer me up.” You said quietly. 

“Me? How?” 

“Cuddles, please?” You said pouting. 

He finally looked up at you. “No. I’m busy reading my book.” He then went back to reading. 

You knew getting cuddles from him was not going to be an easy job. You decided you would have just have to get them yourself then. You got on his bed and started to crawl over him. 

“What are you doing?” Seungmin asked once you got to where he held his book up. You laid down and put your head on his chest and hugged him. 

“Getting cuddles.” You murmured. 

Luckily they book covered his blushing face. He wasn’t expecting you to do something so bold. He tried to be calm and aloof when he was around you, but with you laying on him.. well he was freaking out in the inside. 

“And I said no.” 

“You don’t have to hold me.. you can read your book.” You said feeling tears well up. “I-I just think feeling your warmth will make me feel better..” 

If there was one thing Seungmin hated more than skinship (he actually secretly liked it but he had to keep his savage image up) was seeing you cry. 

“Oh.. alright. Just don’t bother me.” He said has his bit his lower lip, wishing he could actually comfort you, but he felt awkward. 

“Thanks, Minnie.” You said snuggling into his chest, letting the sound of his heartbeat lull you into a comfortable state. 

The two of you stayed like that for awhile, but Seungmin was having a hard time focusing on his book, but he was too focused on trying to keep his heart rate down so you didn’t find out he was super nervous about having you on top of him. Also he couldn’t ignore your little muffled sniffles any longer. 

“Y/n, are you okay?” He asked as he put his book down. 

You had been managing to keep your tears in for the last hour, but once he asked you that question, all the sadness you had been feeling just let loose. And you broke down crying, and Seungmin was shocked. 

“Whoa, whoa.. why are you crying!? What happened?” He said lifting you face up and trying to wipe some of your tears away, it didn’t help because they kept coming. He wrapped his arms around you and just held you while you cried into his chest. His heat was breaking seeing you like this. He wanted to take all your pain away. And he felt terrible for ignoring you for so long. 

After awhile you finally calmed down, but your head hurt so much crying, and you chest laid on his chest with your eyes closed. 

“What happened today, y/n?” 

“Everything that could go wrong today went wrong. And I feel like everyone is against me. I was yelled at so much today at work for things that weren’t even my fault. And things kept falling apart.. and I was being blamed for it all.” You said as your voice cracked a little. 

He rubbed your back and leaned up a bit and gave you a kiss on your head. “Oh y/n, I’m sorry. I-I wouldn’t have ignored you like I did if I had known. I thought you just wanted to annoy me like usual.” 

Your heart felt warm knowing you had one person on your side and the usual cold side he had usually melted away for you. Not only was he cuddling you, he also kissed your head, which was a first. 

You lifted your head to look at him. “Thank you, Minnie. You’re the only person who can make me happy even when I feel like breaking.” 

He smiled at you and caressed your cheek gently. “I-I’ll give you cuddles anytime you’re sad.. just don’t abuse this wonderful offer.” 

“Only when I’m sad?” You asked. “What about when I’m happy?” 

“W-why would you need cuddles when you’re happy?” 

You wiggled up his body a bit more so your face was leveled with his. “Because I like feeling your warmth.. you make me happy.. and I want us to show our affection even when we’re happy!” 

He looked away from you, his face turning red. “I said not to abuse my offer.” 

“You don’t like cuddling with me then?” You pouted as you laid your head in the crook of his neck. “Because I think you do.” 

“S-shut up.” He said as he put his hands on your waist. “Ugh, I changed my mind get off.” 

You wrapped your arms around his neck before you he could push you away. “Nooooo, you’re stuck we me~” 

“Y/n, I’m serious.” 

“Yeah, so am I.” You pushed yourself up and we’re now hovering over Seungmin. You saw his eyes go wide for a second and his face flush a bit. “I’m just going to be honest with you and myself.. Seungmin.. I like you.. a lot. You’re the only person I want to comfort me. You’re the only person I want to talk to about my problems, accomplishments and random things. You’re always on my mind and you make me happy. I realized recently.. like right now.. that the reason for it is because I have feelings for you.” 

He looked at you shocked. He didn’t even try to compose himself. He never expected that you- the girl of his dreams - would ever confess to him. He has always liked you, but he never showed any signs he did, because he was excellent at hiding it. Plus he was worried you would reject him and your friendship would end. 

“A-are you serious?” He asked quietly, expecting you to burst out laughing and tell him it was a joke to get back at him for earlier. 

“I am dead serious, Minnie.” You said looking at him intensely as you started to blush, worried what he would respond with next. 

He felt a wave of relief wash over him. He was so happy he could cry- he would never, at least not in front of you - but hearing you say that just gave him the boost of confidence he needed to do what he always wanted to. He put his hands on your waist and leaned towards you face. His lips gently met yours and he gave you such a sweet kiss, you felt like melting. You leaned deeper into the kiss which caused him to kiss you more passionately. 

He sat up he positioned you so you were straddling his lap. He gripped your waist tight as his kissed you more hungrily. 

You wrapped your arms around his neck and ran your fingers through his hair. 

You two made out for a while until you both finally pulled apart, panting. 

“Uh.. wow.” Seungmin said sheepishly. “Are we like a thing now?” 

“I told you that you’re stuck with me~” You said nuzzling your face into his neck. “So yes we are.” 

“Good.” He said smiling as he held you closer to him. Neither of you were expecting this result today, but neither of you were complaining. 

Chan: 

-You two would be out and about on a hot day 

-you were wearing a crop baby tee that kept want to show off more of your stomach than you wanted 

-“I should have worn a sweater” You mutter 

-“whaa-? A sweater? Y/N, it’s like 90 degrees out.” Chan said confused. See’s your hands on your stomach. “Are you sick? Should we go home?” 

-you would shake your head in embarrassment. “N-no, I’m not sick. I-I just feel everyone’s looking at my stretch marks because of this stupid shirt.” 

-his heart would break hearing you whisper this confusion while looking at the ground looking like you might cry 

-“oh baby, no, don’t be sad. You know I can hardly notice your stretch marks and if anyone is looking at you, it’s to admire your beauty. I mean look at you! You’re so beautiful!” He said cupping you’re face in his hands. “They’re probably wondering how I got so lucky to have you as my girl.” 

-Kisses you sweetly. “You look good in that shirt, babygirl. And nothing, not even stretch marks, can change that.” 

-You smile gratefully at him as he takes your hand in his. 

Minho: 

-you two would be at the dance studio because you begged him to teach you one of their dances 

-danced for a good half and hour before Minho says to take a break 

-“Ya, y/n why the hell are you wearing a hoodie to dance? You look like you’re dying.” Minho says to you as he sits down fanning himself. 

-“N-nope. Perfectly fine.” You said even though it clear that you aren’t. You’re so sweaty and hot, you feel like you could pass out, but you don’t want to take your hoodie off. 

-“Don’t tell me you don’t have a shirt on underneath?” Minho asks rolling his eyes. 

-you would tell him you do, but you don’t feel comfortable taking it off. He’s confused by that. And keeps nagging you to take it off before you have heat stroke. 

-you reluctantly agree and turn your back to him to take it off. You then sit while hugging your hoodie, not wanting him to see the stretch marks under your arms. 

-“What are you doing?” He asks raising his eyes. 

-“I-I’m just embarrassed, okay!?” You said now hiding your face. 

-“from what??” 

-“stretch marks.” You mumble not lifting your face. 

-“Eh?” He asks confuse getting up to go closer to you. “Stretch marks? Where? I don’t see any.” 

-“under my arms.” 

-lifts your arms up even though you protest. “They’re hardly noticeable, babe. Honestly, what an odd thing to be embarrassed over. It’s something natural and only adds to your beauty. No need to hide them. Especially if you can be danger of heat stroke.” 

-You look up at him with some tears in your eyes. People have only made fun of you for them, so his words really touched your heart. “Thank you.” 

-“wha? Why are you crying.” Immediately hugs you. “Oh please don’t cry, love.” 

-“hehe, these are happy tears, Min.” 

-“Oh thank God. You know I’m not good at handling when you cry.” Hugs you tighter either way and kisses your tears away. 

Changbin: 

-You and Changbin would be watching a movie in bed, he was getting bored and started making out with you

-Everything was going okay until he started to lift your shirt up and you panicked and pulled it back down 

-he got worried and started apologizing not meaning to make you uncomfortable or try to do anything you weren’t ready for 

-“A-ah it’s no that.. um.. I-I don’t want you to see my stomach..” you said quietly while you face was getting redder 

-He was confused at your words and gingerly touched your stomach. “Why? Did something happen?” 

-“I-I have stretch marks..” 

-“Okay.. and you don’t want me to see them?” 

-You nodded your head not meeting his eyes. He asked you why that was and you told him you were embarrassed and afraid he would think you too be less pretty. 

-Cups your face in his hands. “What? Why would I ever think that? Has someone else made you feel this way? Did someone tell my baby they were less pretty because of stretch marks? Who do I have to fight? Give me names, y/n!” 

-you burst into giggles at his sudden speech. You instantly felt better by seeing your boyfriend love you all the same even with stretch marks. “Thank you.” 

-Changbin kissed you softly. “You are so beautiful, stretch marks and all, and nothing can change that. You are beautiful inside and out and my love for you only grows each day. Don’t even forget that.” 

-You attacked him into a hug feeling all his warmth and love. “I love you too, Binnie.” 

Hyunjin:

-You and Hyunjin were suppose to go out for ice cream, but you were sitting on your bed in your pjs when he knocked on your day. 

-you answered the door sheepishly and he raised an eyebrow at you seeing you in your pjs. 

-“Ya, did you forgot you had a date with your super hot and super caring boyfriend, y/n?” 

-“No…” you said as you walked back to your bedroom and sat down on your bed. “I-I don’t know what to wear.” 

-he suggests shorts because it’s summer and refuse. You tell him you would be more comfortable in pants. 

-“Pants in this heat!? Babe, are you crazy? You’ll melt like ice cream!” He went to your dresser and grabbed a pair of shorts and a t-shirt and threw them at you. “There ya go. Problem solved.” 

-You sighed defeated and changed. Put you kept pulling down your shorts the entire time you two were out and often cling to Hyunjin to hide yourself. 

-“Babe, what’s wrong? You’re not acting like yourself.” 

-“it’s because of these stupid shorts! They show off my stupid stretch marks I got from my growth spurt when I was younger.” You angrily said, trying to mask your embarrassment. 

-“You have stretch marks? Never noticed them. So no one else will. So just relax.” He said pulling you by the hand and pulling you along. 

-you whined to let you go and that you just wanted to hide in a hole. You didn’t want anyone to make fun of you. “If they dare make my baby feel bad about her stretch marks.. they won’t be able to walk away after our conversation ” 

-You laughed. “Your smile is so beautiful, Y/n. If anyone stares at you, it will because of that and not stretch marks you can’t even see.” 

-“You’re right. Thank you.” 

Jisung: 

-You and Jisung were out shopping and he was picking outfits for you to try on. He chose a strapless dress for you to put on and you really didn’t want to. 

-“Y/nnnnnn why won’t you try this on?” Your boyfriend whined while giving you puppy dog eyes. “You would look amazing in it.” 

-You told him you didn’t like strapless things, but you eventually gave in because you couldn’t say no to him

-You put it on and came out to show him, with your arms tightly held to your side. Not wanting to show your under arms. 

-“Omg, baby, you look so good!!” Jisung said when you stood out. “Come on, give us a spin!” 

-You spun around without moving your arms from your side, which was not up to Jisung’s standards. He told you to move your arms and not to be so stiff. You refused. He came over to you, moved your arms from your sides and spun you around himself. 

-“Ah, Jisung! Don’t!” You said. You were so worried if anyone noticed you two after he did that and you noticed there was a woman and her daughter looking at you two. You instantly wrapped your arms around Jisung’s stomach and his your face in his shoulder. 

-He hugged you back not understand what was happening. You explain that people were staring and you were embarrassed and worried that they saw you stretch marks. 

-“Eh? Stretch marks? Why would you have those? Don’t women usually get them from pregnancy?” 

-You pouted angrily at him. Explaining how you got your stretch marks and that’s why you’re even more embarrassed about having them. 

-“Baby, I have noticed them before. And those people watching us.. they were doing that because I spun you around, not because they saw some stretch marks.” Jisung said, rocking you back and forth in his arms. “You are still absolutely stunning in this dress. Stretch marks don’t change that. So please don’t feel the need to hide your beautiful self from the world.” 

-You nodded at his kind words and felt better after hearing them. Knowing he still saw you as beautiful made you feel truly loved and like you could get over that insecurity of yours. 

Felix: 

-You and Felix were planning on having a beach day and were excited to play in the water together 

-You were feeling confident at the start of the day when you decided to wear a bikini, until you got to the beach and realized you were going to have to take your coverup off. 

-Felix was already in the water after you two had picked a place to place your stuff. You watched him stand in the water waving at you to join in him 

-You looked around nervously at everyone before taking your coverup off and quickly running into the water while covering your stomach with your hands. You felt better once you were emerged in water 

-“Babe, you finally made it in!” Felix said grabbing you by the waist and lifting you up in the air 

-“Ah, n-no Felix put me down please!” 

-He quickly did, but looked at you confused. You put your head on his wet shoulder, trying to work yourself up mentally to tell him your reasoning, you just were so embarrassed. 

-“I don’t want you or others to see my… Stretch marks.” You muttered. He still had his hands on your waist which now started rubbing against your stomach under the water. “Ya, Felix stop.. that tickles- aha!” 

-“Babe, I can’t even feel any difference.. you sure you got them? Not that it matters if you do or don’t.” Felix said placing a kiss on your nose. “Honestly you are looking hot in this bikini. And people will be staring at the beautiful girl wearing it, not some faint stretch marks you can hardly tell exist.” 

-You hugged him. “Thanks, Felix. I love you.” 

Seungmin: 

-You were in your bedroom changing out of your work clothes into something more comfortable when your boyfriend, Seungmin walked in 

-“Ya! Seungmin, get out! I’m changing!” You said flustered, turning your back to him. 

-He paid you no attention and went to lie down on the bed. He took his phone out to look at something and the glanced back up at you and realized you were frozen in place. “It’s not like I haven’t seen you change before. So what’s your problem?” 

-“I-I’m feeling really insecure right now and don’t want you to see me change.” 

-“Why? What happened to make you not want me to see you change?” He asked now getting up and walking towards you. 

-You grew more flustered and turned away from him again. He spun you around and you instantly seek refuge in his chest. 

-“Okay, seriously, what’s wrong?” He asked stroking her hair, feeling concerned by your strange behaviour. 

-“You know I don’t like my stretch marks.. and I don’t want you to see them.. so please leave so I can change in peace.” 

-He knew you meant the ones that were on your chest. You hated that you had those and never wanted him to see them, even tho he has before, though he never really gave them much thought. 

-He pulled you back from him and smirked. “Oh, these ones?” He asked before kissing your stretch marks. 

-Your face turned red from embarrassment and you ran away from him into the bathroom to finish changing. 

-“Ya, I cannot believe you did that!” You said as you entered the bedroom again. 

-“Why not? I enjoy kissing my beautiful girlfriend and those stretch marks are part of my beautiful girlfriend.” He said with a shrug. “I really never paid them much attention. It’s not like they make you who you are or anything. You’re a beautiful person who happens to have stretch marks. Big deal.” 

-You looked at your boyfriend, dumbfounded how he could somehow make you instantly feel better about your insecurities by saying something so nonchalantly. “I-“ 

-“Just come cuddle with me, I know you want to express your love towards me.” He told your opening his arms out. 

-You never ran so quickly into his arms before, afraid he would take back his offer to cuddle. “Thank you, baby.” 

Jeongin: 

-You were hanging out at the dorms with your boyfriend and his members. You were currently being attacked by Jisung and Hyunjin, who wouldn’t with tickles. 

-Jeongin was laughing as he just watched you being attacked merciless with tickles, even though you were begging for him to help you. 

-It was all fun and games until Hyunjin moved your shirt up a bit to tickle your skin- because he’s evil like that. However, you started to have a lowkey panic attack because you didn’t want him and Jisung to see the stretch marks you have. 

-Jeongin saw the panic on your face and knew how you felt about your stretch marks. “Hyungs, stop it! You’ve tickled her enough.” They ignored him. He walked over to them, grabbed their hands and them away from you. “I. Said. Stop. It.” 

-They looked at him shocked by his forcefulness. “Come on, y/n. Let’s go.” He grabbed your hand, pulled you up, and brought you to his room. “Are you okay?” 

-You nodded and hugged him. You felt so insecure and vulnerable at that moment. You hated that you felt that way. He stroked your hair. “Baby, you know you are absolutely beautiful no matter what. I know the hyungs didn’t even notice. So please don’t please like this.” 

-“I-I’m sorry. I’m trying not to.” 

-“Oh, baby. There’s no need to apologize. It’s okay. We’ll work on this together. I’ll make you feel beautiful everyday. I’ll make you see yourself as I see you. So, one day you will see yourself and not feel insecure.” 

-You giggled at his determination. “Thank you, love.” 

Chan: 

-“hey Chris, do you like water?” 

-“uh I guess so? Keeps me alive.” 

-“Well then you already like 70% of me” *winks* 

-“ooooooooh my god, y/n” 

-“that was so bad, but maybe I should try it out on Felix” 

-“but we’re dating..” 

-“so? You don’t Felix would like it? :(“ 

-“….” 

Minho 

-“Hey baby~” 

-“Hm?” 

-“Do you want a raisin?” 

-“what? No not really.” 

-“well there’s none left anyway. But perhaps a date then?” *wiggle your eyebrows* 

-“yeah no thanks babe I’ll pass. I don’t want a date from you because that was the worst pick up line I ever heard” 

-“:(((“ 

-*rolls eyes and sighs* “Aish, fine. Only because I love you.” 

-“it worked :))” 

Changbin 

-you walk towards him while he’s in the studio working 

-“hey babe, what brings you here?” 

-“Do you believe in love at first sight? Or should I walk past again?” 

-“Yeah? I mean the first time I saw you I was definitely in love with you. But if you wanna walk past again, be my guest.” 

-“I-well gosh baby that’s cute as heck.” 

-you’re flustered even though you were trying to make him flustered with your pick-up line 

-Changbin’s super confused by the whole situation and pulls you into his lap, causing you to be a blushing mess even more. 

Hyunjin 

-was sitting on the couch scrolling through his phone 

-“Hey baby, are you a campfire?” 

-looks at you confused 

-“‘Cause you’re hot and I want s’more” 

-gives you his signature disgusted face and pretends to throw up 

-you pouted and fold your arms over your chest “jeez it wasn’t THAT cringey” 

-“babe I love you, but I might have to un make you my girlfriend because that was bad” 

-“fine! I’ll go find a boyfriend who enjoys my pick up lines!” 

-you stand up to walk away, grabs you and pulls you into a hug “why do you always gotta try and more dramatic than me? And I said MIGHT. You’re mine even if you’re cringey ” 

-“” 

Jisung 

-he was laying in your guy’s bed watching tv when you entered. 

-“okay I am here. What’s your next wish? ” 

-“what?” 

-“I granted your first of wanting someone super sexy and wonderful in your life. And I am here to grant one more.” 

-“oh okay. Perfect. Could you get me some cheesecake?? I ate the last of what we had and I really wished I had some. I guess God does exist.” 

-“why do I even try?” 

-you shook your head as you left the bedroom 

-“are you getting me cheesecake baby?” 

-“yeah sure.”

Felix 

-He was gaming in the living room. You sat down on the couch, then fell over onto his lap sighing loudly. 

-paused his game to look at you. “Babe, you okay?” 

-“No, my doctor told me I’m missing vitamin U. Can you help me?” 

-starts laughing at your cheesy pick up line. Thinks it’s super cute. 

-“of course baby. Anything for you. What do you need from me?” 

-“cuddles and kisses.” 

-“okay, come here.” Opens arms wide. You sit on his lap while he games, making sure to give you kisses every now and again, especially when he wins. 

Seungmin 

-your boyfriend was happily scrolling through his phone and you had the need to bother him as his loving girlfriend 

-“hey baby,” you said wrapping your arms around him “Did it hurt?” 

-“did what hurt?” 

-“when you fell from Heaven.” 

-“did it hurt?” He asked you. 

-“did what hurt?” You asked smiling. 

-“when you were dropped as a baby?” 

-you sighed and rolled your eyes and let go of him. “Last time I try to be cute with you.” 

-“you just wanted to annoy me so don’t lie.” 

-“caught me. I do think you’re an angel though ” 

-“and I sometimes think you were really dropped as a baby.” 

-“…” 

Jeongin

-he was reading peacefully in the living room when you walked in 

-you said nothing out looked at him up and down with a smile on your face 

-“uh can I help you, baby?” 

-“I was just thinking it’s handy I have my library card because I’m totally checking you out.” 

-his face turns red out of embarrassment that you would even say something like that 

-hides his face behind the book and giggles 

-“uuuugh I can’t believe you would actually say something like that” 

-“it’s true ” 

-“maybe when I’m done with this book, I’ll check you out next” he says shyly behind his book 

Chan: 

-sees you clutching your boob, clearly in pain 

-“Ah, baby I’m so so sorry!” 

-pulls you into a hug to try to make up for it 

-rubs your back and kisses your head 

-won’t stop apologizing even when you tell him it’s fine 

-feels bad for the rest of the day 

Minho 

-sees your clutching your boob, thinks you’re being dramatic so pays you no attention 

-“Minhoooo that really hurt, ya know?” You whine while massaging where he hit you 

-feels bad when he sees the pain on your face. Walks over to you and starts to massaging where he hit you 

-you become flustered “ya, Lee Minho what do you think you’re doing!?” 

-“What does it look like I’m doing? I’m trying to take the pain away” 

-“Well stop it!” You say trying to push him away 

-“No way, I’m enjoying myself” he says with a smirk 

Changbin 

-knew instantly what he had done and looks over to see you clutching your chest in pain 

-instantly wraps you in his arms and attacks your face with kisses 

-“awe baby I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to do that!” 

-starts to act cute to distract you from your pain 

-“da da da~”

-you just laugh through it because he’s being too cute 

Hyunjin 

-your boyfriend was known to be dramatic , but so were you. You clutched the boob he elbowed and you fell to the floor

“This is the worst pain I have ever felt” you whined 

-He wasn’t about to let you be more dramatic then him. He fell to his knees and laid on top of you 

-“oh no! My poor y/n! I’ve caused you so much pain. I’m sorry! Please return to me good as new!” He then started peppering your face with kisses 

-you start giggling from his actions and forget about your pain 

-“you okay now?” 

-“yeah” you said giggling 

Jisung

-“Ow! Jisung that hurt” you pouted clutching your boob 

-“Ah I’m sorry! Here let me kiss it better” 

-“wha? No way!” 

-you run away from and he chases you around the house until he catches you 

-“Babe, let me make it better by giving a little kiss.” 

-“only if it’s on the lips.” 

-shakes his head in protest and the kisses the place he elbowed and then kisses you on the lips 

-“now you will heal twice as fast thanks to my love” 

Felix 

-“Ow that hurt” 

-Feels so bad that he elbowed you there. Apologizes like a million times. Doesn’t know what to do to make it better. 

-Gives you a hug before massaging the place he elbowed and then realized what he’s massaging and goes red 

-“Ah sorry! Um do you want ice? Would that help?” 

-runs to the kitchen to get away from the situation 

-too embarrassed to face you, texts you how sorry he is for everything 

Seungmin 

-“ooooh that hurt so much!” You cried out. “You did that on purpose, didn’t you?”

-“no? Why would I do that? Anyway, you’ll live.”

-You pouted and hug your chest. You had people elbow you in the boob before but not as hard has Seungmin had 

-“Honestly that hurt so damn much” 

-“okay, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean too. But I’m sure it’s not that bad.” 

-“I bet it’s gonna leave a bruise TT” 

-Pulls you into a hug and whispers “if it does, I’ll kiss it better” 

-“no thank you” 

-Kisses your forehead. “My offer still stands if you change your mind” 

Jeongin 

-“Ahhh! Sorry!”

-feels so terrible that he elbowed you therealso becomes really flustered realizing that he touched you thereeven if it was just his elbow and on accident 

-apologizes a lot like Felix. Even after you say it’s fine, he continues to do it 

-Not sure what to do or say and ends up watching you massage your chest 

-realizes what he’s doing and gets so embarrassed 

-pulls you into a hug to hide his embarrassment 

-“SORRY” 

Seungmin was enjoying his Friday night at home and alone. He was happy he finally had some time to relax and read, since he was usually busy with school and looking after you during the week. Tonight was one of your other friend’s birthdays and you were celebrating it with her. What Seungmin didn’t know that this party was more of a house party, with lots of random people and alcohol, which you didn’t handle well. So he was rather annoyed when he got a call from your friend telling him you were pretty drunk and some of the guys at the party were hoping to get with you. 

“Hey Seungmin, this is y/b/f/n and y/n’s pretty drunk. Can you come get her?” 

“Can’t she just sleep it off? I mean it’s just you guys and a couple other friends.” He said sighing. 

“Uh, actually some of my friends invited some of their friends who invited some guys… and it’s getting hard to keep them away from here since I have been drinking too.” She explained laughing nervous. 

Seungmin was going to kill you and any guy who tried to touch you before he got there. “Address. Now.” 

Once Seungmin arrived at the right location and entered the house and saw just dozens of people crammed together. Some where dancing, most if not all were drinking, and some were getting heated right there for all to see. He scanned the area for you and didn’t see you. His heart started race. He spotted your friend and went to her. 

“Where’s y/n?” He asked harshly. 

“In my room. I managed to get her to stay there by telling her, you were coming to get her.” She explained. She told him where her room was and he went up the stairs. 

He knocked on the door before opening up. “Y/n?” He asked before seeing you sitting on the bed, hopping up and down. “What are you doing?” 

“Oh!! Minnie you came!” You exclaimed happily and ran towards him. You hugged him tightly, which caught him off guard. You two were best friends and you were the more affectionate one in the relationship but he still was caught off guard every time. 

“Who allowed you to drink? You know you can’t handle it.” He said rolling his eyes. 

“Oooooh but’s a celebration! Wooo!” You said throwing your arms up and yelling. 

“Well no more celebration for you. I’m taking you home.” He said as he grabbed your wrist. “Let’s go.” 

“Oh but I don’t want to go home.” You pouted. “Oh! We should have a sleepover! We haven’t had one in ages!” 

He looked at you, feeling exhausted, he didn’t understand why you wouldn’t just let him take you home. 

“Y/n, we are not going to have a sleepover. We’re adults now. And you are drunk and just need to sleep it off” 

“Just because you’re an adult doesn’t mean you can’t have sleepovers!” You said angry. “And I can sleep it off with you.” 

“My, you’re bold today.” Seungmin said laughing slightly. “But no. You’ll sleep it off alone at home.” 

“Then I’m not going.” You said crossing your arms over your chest and sitting on the floor. “I’ll stay right here. Maybe even go back down and party some more. Maybe someone else would like to have a sleepover with me.” 

“What are you even saying?” He asked. “Just go home,” 

“No, I refuse.” You said shaking your head violently. 

He looked at you, throwing a fit like a child, and knew he could easily toss you over his shoulder and take you home by force. But he knew if he did that you would make a scene and someone might think he was kidnapping you something. So he knew he had no other choice. 

“Fine,” he said. “We can have a sleepover,” 

“Yay!!” You jumped up excitedly and hugged him. “I can’t wait! We never hangout like we used to.” 

He frowned when you said that. You guys saw each other pretty much every day at school and did things on the weekends. But he decided not to dwell on it and grabbed your wrist again and lead you to his car. 

He was driving you to your home. He had lied about having a sleepover. He only said that to get you to come to his car quietly. As soon as you figured out he was taking you home, you started to throw a fit. 

“Kim Seungmin. You lied to me.” You said. “Stop the car I want out.” 

“What are you talking about? I’m taking you home, so stay in the car.” He said feeling like he was getting a headache. 

“Let me out.” You said and unlocked the car door yourself and opened it while he was still driving. 

He slammed on the breaks. “What the hell are you doing!? Are you crazy?” He asked leaning over and slamming the door closed. “Are you trying to get yourself killed?” 

You put your head down and started crying, which startled him. He has no idea what to do because he didn’t know why you were crying. “Why are you crying? Is it because I yelled at you? I’m sorry for that but you scared me to death when you opened the door!” 

You shook your head. “I j-just want to spend time with you and you j-just want to send me away.” 

“Wha-“ 

“We h-hardly hangout anymore!” You said crying harder. 

“We see each other at school all the time-“ 

“No! That’s not the same! We’re in different majors! We hardly spend anytime together a-anymore!” You finally were able to say what you wanted to tell Seungmin for months. “I feel so lonely without you. You’re u-usually with your friends or classmates a-and don’t make a lot of time for me.” 

Seungmin’s heart sank when he heard you say all this while you were crying. It was true he didn’t see you as often as he liked or for as long either. He was busy with his classes and studying and usually chose to hangout with the guys from his classes so they could discuss what they had learned. He didn’t realize he had hurt you by doing that. He bit his lip and sighed. 

“Okay. Sleep over at my house.” He said and started to drive. “To make up for me being a shitty friend to you. I’m sorry.” 

You thought he was lying again so you just leaned your head on the window and cried a bit more until you guys got to his house. He got out and went over to your side and opened the door. 

“Y/n, come on. Let’s go in.” He offered you his hand. You looked up and realized you were in front of his house and you smiled and took his hand. 

Seungmin had lent you some of his clothes and helped you wash all your makeup off before tucking you into his bed. He said goodnight to you before he started to walk away, you grabbed his arm. 

“Where are you going?” 

“I’m going to sleep on the couch.” He said as if it was obvious. 

“But Minnie, it’s a sleepover. Sleep beside me.” You whined. You pulled his arm causing him to lose his balance and he fell onto the bed. “Please.” 

At this point his was out of energy to argue with you and he still felt bad that you had cried because he unintentionally ignored you. You moved over and he got into bed next to you. He laid into his side and turned his back to you. 

“Good night.” 

“Seungmin, would you hold me?” 

He nearly had a heart attack from your sudden question. “No.” 

“Fine,” you said as you wrapped your arms around him to hold him instead. “Good night.” 

He stiffened. He didn’t understand what you were doing. “Y/n what are you doing?” 

“Cuddling you.” 

“Why?” 

“Because I want to.” You said snuggling closer to him, smiling at his warmth. 

“Well, I-I don’t want to. So let go.” He said feeling his face blush. 

“No.” You said hugging him tighter. “You use to let me do this when we were younger. I miss it” 

“Yeah when we were kids! So let go” 

“What does that have anything to do with it? Being kids or adults?” You asked annoyed. “Like damn it, Seungmin. I loved you when we were kids and I love you now, when we’re adults. So what difference does it make?” 

He froze. His heart rate started to increase. His face burned. He wasn’t sure if you meant friendship love or love love and he was kind of afraid to ask. But he knew he had to. 

“Y-you love me?” 

“Of course.” You said. “I always have and always will.” 

“Like as friends or?” He asked nervously. 

“I mean you’re my best friend so course I love you as a friend, but I mean I love love you. That’s why I have been very sad because it felt like you didn’t like me anymore and was pushing me away.” 

He turned around quickly and wrapped his arms around you. “Y/n, I never meant to make you feel like that. I would never push you away and I still like you and will always like you.” 

He pulled you in closer to his chest and hugged you tight. He never wanted to lose you and the realization that he was close to due to him prioritizing others before you, broke his heart. 

“Do you love me?” You asked quietly. 

“If I didn’t love you then I wouldn’t have went through this whole ordeal to get your drunk ass from that party, have you open the door while the car was moving, and be holding you like this.” He said smiling softly. 

“Then say it. Say “Y/n I love you.”” 

“But you already know I do.” He said embarrassed. 

“Seungmin, I love you. Why can’t you just say it back?” You whined. 

“You know you’re annoying, right?” He said chuckling. “Y/n, I love you.” 

“Good,” You giggled. “Can we have lots of sleepovers now?” 

“What’s with your obsession with sleepovers?” 

“Because I want to sleep in your arms often.” 

He blushed and was happy that the room was dark and you couldn’t tell. “If that’s the case, we’ll have as many as you want.” He kissed your forehead. “Good night, y/n” 

“Good night, Minnie.” 

He was waiting for you to finish your last class for the day in front of you school. He sat on one of the benches out front and scrolled through his phone while he waited. Even though on the outside he looked calm and collected, he was actually really excited to see you after a couple weeks. You had been busy with exams and he didn’t want to distract you from studying. 

“Minnie!!” He heard you yell and he turned his head to see you running out the front doors to him. He smiled for a split second before hiding it again. 

“Hey, y/n. Did you exam go well?” He asked as he accepted your hug. He secretly loved your hugs though he would deny that if ever asked. 

“Oooh I have such a good feeling about it, Minnie! Like I feel like a nearly aced it!” You said happily while clapping your hands together. 

This time he showed you a warm smile. “I’m glad to hear that your studying paid off then. I’m sure you aced it then.” 

Just then one of your classmates called you from afar. “Y/n! Can you come here for a second?” 

You nodded and told Seungmin you would be right back. You went over to your classmate and started talking to him. Seungmin stared at the two of you talking, he bit his lip in annoyance, he didn’t like how close the guy was to you. Everything was going fine until the guy started to touch your shoulder while talking and then had the nerve to hug you. Seungmin couldn’t take it anymore. He stormed over to you and grabbed your wrist. 

“I’m sorry, but we need to go,” he said coldly to your classmate. 

“Minnie?” You asked confused by his harshness. “A-ah okay,”. 

You apologized to your classmates and then was dragged away by Seungmin, who had a tight grasp on your wrist. 

“Seungmin, you’re hurting me..” you whined. 

He then realized how tight he was holding you and let go instantly. “Ah! Sorry.” 

“What’s wrong with you?” You asked annoyed. “What was that all about? He just wanted to talk about the exam.” 

“Well you have plans with me, don’t you?” He asked harshly. 

“I do, but you didn’t need to be rude to him.” 

“Well then he shouldn’t have been touching you,” Seungmin spatted out. 

“What? You’re angry that he hugged me?” You asked. “It was just a hug.” 

“Ugh, I don’t trust that guy. I bet that hug meant more to him.” 

“What’s the big deal? Why are you acting like this? So what a boy hugged me.” You said shrugging. 

“It’s because I don’t trust him. I bet he wants to take advantage of you.” 

“What? You don’t even know him!” You cried out. 

“I could just tell by looking at him! He’s bad news, y/n! Stay away from him from now on.” 

“And who are you to tell me who I can and cannot be around? I can hangout with whoever I want!” You said angrily. 

“I’m just looking out for you!” He yelled. “I don’t want you around other guys.” 

“And why’s that? If I ever want to get a boyfriend I have to be around boys.” You said getting mad. 

“As if you’re good enough to date any of them!” He shouted. Once he heard what he said he instantly regretted it. It came out wrong. He meant that you were too good to date any of them because he thought they were scum. “Wait-no that came out wrong!” 

“Oh okay I see how it is.” You said shaking as tears threatened there way down your face. “You think no one would date me, right? Because I’m what? Too ugly? Too dumb? Not enough for anyone?” 

“No y/n I-“ 

“No I get Seungmin. You think no one would date me so you want to keep me safe, right?” You said as the years started down your face. “Well guess what? You’re really mean Kim Seungmin and I hate you!” 

And with that you turned around and ran away. 

Seungmin cursed as he watched you run away. He wanted to chase after you but he knew he didn’t deserve to. He felt numb and his heart felt broken as he thought about your words I hate you. 

He went back to his dorms and laid in his bed, thinking about how much he hated himself too. He let himself get jealous, you were his best friend, he had no right to say what he did. To tell you not to be around guys when he was too afraid to tell you how he felt. After a few hours of self-pity, Chan came in to check on him. 

“Hey, Seungmin.” Chan said sitting down. “What happened? I thought you were suppose to hangout with y/n today?” 

“We got into a fight” Seungmin said sighing. “And I caused it. Because I’m stupid.” 

“Hey, you’re not stupid.” Chan reassured. “What happened?” 

“I-I got jealous and said some hurtful things.. I didn’t mean to but now she hates me.” His voice cracking as he said the last part.

“I’m sure she doesn’t hate you. You just need to go apologize to her and explain what happened.” 

Seungmin sat up. “I can’t tell her I was jealous! That’s so embarrassing!” 

“What’s more important? You saving face or y/n?” Chan asked. 

“Ugh! Damn it! Okay I’m going!” Seungmin said getting out of bed and running out the door. 

He ran all the way to your house, he didn’t know if you were home, and he didn’t know if you would even answer the door, especially this late at night. But he didn’t care, he needed to see you and apologize, he realized he didn’t want to loose you. You were so important to him. Once he got to your door he knocked loudly and quickly and waiting anxiously for you to open the door, at least he hoped you would. 

Luckily you opened the door and saw that Seungmin was standing on your porch, out of breath, and rather pale. 

“Seungmin? Why are you here?” You asked annoyed. 

“Y/n!” Seungmin said as he threw his arms around you and pulled you into a hug. “I’m so so sorry for what I said today. I didn’t mean a word I said. Please you have to believe me. You’re so important to me and I was just being so dumb and childish. I-I was jealous when that guy hugged you that’s why I was angry.” 

You were surprised by Seungmin’s actions and words. You could hear the grief in his voice and you tell he was generally sorry for what he said. 

“I think you are too good for any good, even me, you are really way to good for me. I can’t even believe you have been my best friend for this long.” Seungmin’s voice started to crack as tears threatened to come out. “I-I don’t want to loose you. When you said you hated me… that broke my heart because I was so scared to lose you. Y/n, I love you. I love you so much it hurts. I never told you because it was embarrassing and I’m not good with talking about my feelings.” 

You hugged him back as he cried and you started to cry with him. You never thought Seungmin could be emotionally, and you knew everything he said was true, because he let you see his vulnerable side, and only you. 

“Seungmin, I don’t hate you. I never have and I never will. I’m sorry I said that.” You said through your tears. “You are important to me too and I love you. Even if you seem cold and you may said harsh things, I still love that about you because you are very kind and sweet and we always have good times together. So I am never leaving your side. You are stuck with me.” 

Relief washed over Seungmin as he heard that you accepted his confession with your own. He pulled back to stare at your rear streaked face with his own and kissed you softly. It tasted salty because of the tears but you both smiled into the kiss and started laughing. 

“Thank you for loving me,” Seungmin said as he hugged you close. “I promise you won’t regret it.” 

“As If”

Seungmin, Hyunjin and Chan were all at the studio. They had just finished recording their lines for a new song, and they were just hanging around. Seungmin and you had made plans for after he was done and you were currently on the way to meet him there.

“I’m so tired,” Hyunjin whined. “Let’s go Seungmin.”

“I can’t. I’m waiting for y/n.” Seungmin checking his phone to see a message from you. “We’re hanging out today.”

“Oooooh,” Hyunjin said raising an eyebrow. “Hanging out with your girlfriend, I see. That’s fine I’ll go home with Chan then.”

“She’s not my girlfriend.” Seungmin said blushing slightly.

“Well, not with that attitude.” Hyunjin said rolling his head. “Why don’t you just tell her you like her already? It’s really killing all of us.”

“What?” Seungmin said looking at Hyunjin embarrassed. “I-I do not have feelings for y/n”

“Oh my god, yes you do!” Hyunjin said annoyed. “Everyone knows it except for y/n”

“A-as if I would ever have feelings for y/n.” Seungmin said harshly. “Don’t be ridiculous.”

Then came a sound from the door way. Both boys turned and saw you standing there, with a crestfallen face as you picked up your phone that you had drop.

“O-oh sorry. I-I’m just going to go.” You said turning to leave so neither of them would see the tears that were starting to fall down your cheeks.

Seungmin cursed as he watched you run away. “Look what you did.”

“Me? Look what you did by not being honest with you feelings.” Hyunjin said.

“Damn it.” Seungmin groaned.

“Dude, why are you still here?” Hyunjin asked pushing him towards the door. “Run after her. Unless you actually don’t like her, then let her be heartbroken by your stupid words.”

“Ugh! Damn it! Okay! I’m going.” Seungmin said running out the door after you. “Y/n!”

You exited the building, walking faster than normal, you were so hurt and just wanted to disappear. You figured that Seungmin only saw you as a friend, but his words pierced your heart all the same and hurt so much.

“Y/n!” You heard him call after you.

You kept walking, not stopping or running, you didn’t have the energy. He continued to call after you until he caught up to you.

“Y/n stop, please.” He begged as he grabbed your shoulder and turned you around.

“What?” You said weakly, refusing to look in his eyes.

“Y/n, I-I’m sorry for what I said. I-I didn’t mean it. I was just embarrassed by what Hyunjin said.” Seungmin said looking at you with with regretful eyes.

“Seungmin, it’s okay.” You said quietly. “If you don’t like me, I get it. No need to lie for my sake.”

“Y/n, I’m not lying. I-I’m not good at expressing my feelings. You know that.” He begged.

“Seungmin, please don’t lie to yourself. You said you would never have feelings for me.” You said bitterly. “So please let me go.”

You shook his hands off you and walked away. You didn’t want to see him or anyone. You just wanted to go home and cry out all your negative feelings.

You didn’t get very far before some grabbed your hand and intertwine their fingers with yours. You turned to see Seungmin staring at you with a look of determination.

“What are you doing?” You asked.

“You said “just let me go,” but what if I don’t want to?” He asked. “What if you are the best thing that as ever came into my life and I refuse to just let you walk away from it?”

You were taken aback by his words. You were expecting Seungmin to every day anything like that to you. He grabbed your other hand and held both of your hands to his chest.

“Y/n, please don’t walk out of my life. You are the best part of it. You make me so happy whenever we are together or when we’re video chatting or even just through texts.” He kissed your hand gently. “You make me feel things I didn’t know were possible to feel. I love everything about you… I love you.”

You had tears in your eyes by his sudden confession. “Really? You love me?”

“More than anything,” he whispered. He held his breath waiting for you to answer him. He was 99% sure you liked him back, but there was that 1% of possible rejection that gave him so much anxiety.

You looked up at him and smiled. “I love you too, Minnie.”

All the anxiety he had been feeling a moment ago was instantly replaced with relief. He leaned down and kissed you softly, both of you melting at the touch. He then let go of your hand and pulled you into a hug, so you couldn’t see his bright red face.

“Are you embarrassed?” You asked giggling.

“Hush.” He said hugging you tighter. “Do you still want to hangout? But like it be a date instead?”

“Yes, I would love that.” You said smiling into his chest.

— Different Meaning —

+ pairing: kim seungmin x female reader
+ genre: fluff, enemies to lovers, florist!seungmin, best friend!felix
+ warnings:none
+ word count: 1.1k
+ requested as part of my Drabble Event #2
+ summary: Your plan was simple: get Kim Seungmin a flower bouquet that screamed how much you despised him. However, your plan fails after you meet the florist and understand that maybe flowers can mean different things to different people.
+ lia’s note: Hello, I hope you’re doing well. When I tell you I love this drabble, it’s because I do. I had so much fun writing it and I hope you enjoy reading it too! Please, like/reblog this if you enjoy reading it and let me know your thoughts through an ask if you feel like it! As always, happy reading!

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“What flower says I hate you the most?” You asked your best friend as the two of you stared at the flower shop window, looking over the different arrangements on display. “Do you think I should google it?”

“Why do you want flowers anyway?” Felix shrugged and messed his hair. “Couldn’t you get him, I don’t know, a box of spicy chocolates?”

“Those don’t say I hate you discreetly, Felix. Those are too straightforward. Besides, he likes spicy food.”

“How do you know that?”

You ignored Felix as you moved away from the window, grabbing your phone and quickly searching which flowers had the meaning of I hate you. You scrolled through a couple of the results and made a mental list of the flowers you’d consider: orange lilies and yellow carnations seemed like the best option. You’d be sure to ask the florist to make you a small bouquet with that.

“Let’s go!”

You grabbed Felix’s hand and pulled him to the inside of the flower shop. A soft melody played and your eyes got lost in the beautiful colours of the different flowers, their scents melting in the air beautifully.

“Welcome to the flower shop! How can I help you?”

Your dream was short-lived when you glanced at who was behind the counter. The disappointment you felt was probably not mutual because his smile didn’t fade. Since when did Kim Seungmin work at a flower shop?

“I’ll wait outside…” Before you could argue with your best friend, Felix was already opening the shop door and stepping outside, offering you a thumbs-up from the outside.

You shook your head and massaged your temples, not surprised Felix left you here on your own to chat with Seungmin. He always did this whenever you were together. Slowly, you made your way to the counter and placed your hands on it, glancing at Seungmin. As usual, he had a smirk on his lips that made your heart jump in your chest at an awfully fast pace. This was why you couldn’t stand Kim Seungmin. You didn’t like feeling this way when you were close to him.

“I’d like a small bouquet with… orange lilies and yellow carnations. You can make it ugly, I don’t care.”

“That bouquet is for me, isn’t it?” He chuckled and leaned on the counter, keeping his eyes on you. You glanced at his lips and back into his eyes, wishing you had the strength in yourself to look away. “Props to you for looking up the meaning of the flowers. Sadly, we don’t have those flowers in stock. Do you still want to offer me an I hate you flower arrangement?”

“Make me a flower arrangement with the flower you hate the most, then.” You leaned closer to him too, somewhat upset. “And I don’t care about how it looks. The more you hate it, the more I’ll like it.”

He shrugged. “I don’t hate any flower, Y/N. And I can’t possibly make it look bad, not even on purpose. I am that talented. However, it will never be as beautiful as you, of course.”

Here he was again, swaying you with his words. You didn’t like this at all, especially when you knew this was the most cliché pick-up line he could’ve used on you. Besides, he didn’t mean it. Seungmin charmed everyone around him with words, half of which he didn’t mean.

His words carried no meaning. He truly didn’t think you were beautiful no matter how much you wished he did.

As he got back to work on the flower arrangement you had requested him, you paced around the flower shop and glanced at the different shades and sizes, smelling a couple of them to get the full experience of their scents. Some were stronger while others were lighter, but you enjoyed all of them.

“Gardenia,” Seungmin said after a while. “Specifically the white ones.”

“Do you hate them?”

He chuckled and shook his head, glancing your way. “I don’t hate them. I just feel powerless by them.”

“Why is that?”

You started to walk towards the counter again, focusing on what Seungmin was doing. He had selected a couple of flowers and was working hard to prepare a flower arrangement. He was methodical in his work, quick too. You found yourself leaning on the counter, fascinated by what he was doing, admiring him from afar.

“I always wanted to give you a bouquet with them.” He stopped what he was doing and messed up his hair, quickly glancing at you. He was flustered, making you flustered in return. “They’re pretty flowers. But I always feared you’d know what they meant so I kept myself from sending them to you.”

“It’s ok if you despise me, you know? What do they mean, anyway?” You said that last part more to yourself than to him.

You got your phone out of your pocket again and searched for the name of the flower he had said. The more you read, the more confused you were. Most websites said positive things, lovely things. Seungmin couldn’t possibly mean that, could he?

“Like any other flower, they can mean different things. But if I ever gave you these flowers it would be to tell you that you’re lovely.”

Your eyes shot from your phone screen to Seungmin on the other side of the counter, extending a bouquet of white flowers to you. It took you a while to understand that the flowers in front of you were the same flowers on the images on your phone.

White gardenias. Seungmin had prepared a bouquet with white gardenias.

Slowly, you reached your hand towards the bouquet, unable to hide your smile. It looked pretty, not ugly as you had requested. And the flowers were lovely, maybe more lovely than you. However, you couldn’t help but wonder what you would do with it. You had asked him for a bouquet with the flowers he despised the most, but now that you knew what they meant, you couldn’t help but wonder if that wasn’t the message you wanted to get across to Seungmin, but couldn’t.

You’re lovely.

“So these are the flowers you loathe the most?” You asked, just be sure.

“I guess…” He shrugged and messed his hair, smiling at you afterwards. “Just let me know which meaning you’re giving to them once you offer me the bouquet later.”

You nodded, feeling your heartbeat increase the more you stared at him. Except, this time, instead of looking away or making a sarcastic remark pretending you didn’t care for him, you allowed yourself to smile and enjoy this small moment.

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