I already made a post on a Teacher Crush Community YouTube collab channel, but LIKE this post if you’d like to see this collab channel become a reality! <3 

I don’t know much, K, but I do know:

I know your smile and how it shines when you talk about artwork. I know that you have a red car, a dog, and two sons. I know that you like ships and you don’t like coat hangers. I witnessed the first time you ever used a glue stick and I know that I’d keep it a secret on how bad you were at using it. I know that you are kind and sweet, and that you are good at picking people up when they are down. I know that you are a painter with great skill. I know that you like tea and you drink it out of big mugs. I know that I am one of your favorite students. 

And I know that I love you. I don’t know much, but I do know that. I don’t know very much about you, but I want to get to know you more. I want to love you not only for your kindness, charm, and humor, but for your sad and angry days as well. I want to know all of you. 

I love you.

For K:

Last night, when I was thinking of you at God knows what hour, I realized that perhaps, just perhaps, that you liked me too. Maybe I wasn’t just a student to you. 

Last time we saw each other in class, I had worn makeup and a cute outfit for the first time. I felt awkward and goofy, but I wanted to see if you noticed. Had you noticed? You were grading artwork that day and when you gave me back some work, the grade was an A, with the comment “Looking good!”. 

I just realized: did you mean I was looking good? Or my work looked good? I am so confused, K, and I need to know how you feel about me. I realized this last night. That you might’ve been complimenting me, not my art, and I’m so confused. K, I need to know. What do I mean to you? Am I another student to you? Am I something more? Whether that be a friend or something…more?

Please…

Just thought I’d share some of my favorite songs that remind me of K (or the teacher crush community in general)! <3

- I Was Made For Loving You // Tori Kelly ft. Ed Sherran
- Is There Somewhere // Halsey
- Moving On // Kodaline
- The Art Teacher // Rufus Wainwright
- Air I Breathe // Mat Kearney
- Skinny Love // Bon Iver
- YOUTH // Troye Sivan
- Overwhelmed // Tim McMorris
- Best Thing // Steve Moakler
- Heart To Heart // James Blunt
- Older // Birdy
- Distance // Christina Perri
- BLUE // Troye Sivan ft. Alex Hope
- They Don’t Know About Us // One Direction
- In Your Arms // Kina Grannis
- Ours // Taylor Swift
- Back To You // WILD
- This Is Why I Need You // Jesse Ruben
- I Don’t Care // The Runaway Club
- Best Shot // Birdy and Jaymes Young
- Love Love Love // Avalanche City
- Heart Like Yours // Willamette Stone
- Like Lovers Do // Heather Nova
- Why Can’t I? // Liz Phair

you are my escape
my saviour from this nonsense world
i see your face
i forget about the pain
i hear your laugh
i forget about my fear
i feel your touch
i forget about my unaccepting mother

i grasp for every opportunity
to talk to you
i’m sorry if it makes me seem weak
however you’re this drug everyone
tells me to stay away from
but tell me how can i stay away from those
glorious eyes and
precious smile

this is why i can’t have you
this is why i must be without you
you may be breathtaking
but the consequences are devastating-

forbidden fruit

i don’t know who you are

your name is engraved on my heart,
and the ghost of your touch lingers on my arm
yet i don’t know who you are

my sol, i have only seen you rising
what are you like setting?
i have only seen you out in the open
what do you look like, coyly hiding behind the moon?

grace me with your beauty
paint my waters with your red

-i want to see you, raw, unrefined, like mother nature intended

we’ve been parted for so long

far, far, faraway,

your eyes, your lips, your touch are

far, far, faraway,

days leading up to our meeting feel so

far, far faraway,

the reality of being able to kiss; your tender lips is

far, far, faraway,

Also, M told me that he was talking with her and some other students and he said that we could contact him on facebook and that he would add anybody so yeah I’m doing that but I’m not using this account anymore guys so…Thank you everybody for being understanding and supportive. I love y'all. Cya

LAST UPDATE

I saw him. After a year. Exactly a fucking year.

So, today was my friends’s graduation and I was invited so I went there and Y was also there. I was very very nervous and I kept telling M that I was very stressed. When I arrived, M and I went to the graduation room or whatever it’s called and when we were heading to our table, I see Y from far away. My heart fucking stopped beating and I held M by her arm and I kept whispering “ he’s here he’s here he’s fucking here” and she was like “okay calm down, we’ll go talk to him later”. We ended up talking to some of our teachers and then we went up to Y. He was so fucking cute you guys oh my god he was adorable aghh. He got up from his chair and had the brightest and cutest smile. The fucking smile that I’ve been waiting for so long to see. His voice was as sweet as ever and his eyes ♡♡♡♡ So we said hi and he told us “I don’t wanna lie, but I’ve missed you guys a lot” and we said that we did too. I then asked if he’s coming back next year and he laughed and said “No, not anytime soon..” and I laughed back and said “Almost all of our teachers are leaving” and he laughed. I then asked him “how’s everything there? (The place where he left to teach)” and he said “hmmm..it’s normal” and laughed and said “cold?”. He then laughed back and said “well, no not really, I mean we’re in [country] so it’ already cold” and we laughed about it. He then said that he taught kids and I said “kids??” And he was like “yeah, small children” and gestured with his hand like how small they are and he said “[language] isn’t their first so it’s difficult to communicate since they speak a whole new and other language”. M then asked him if he would come to next year’s graduation and he smiled and said “of course, if you invite me” and we said “of course we will”

Later, he was passing by our table and I was standing up so when I saw him I said “Oh, sir you’re already leaving?” And he said “I wanted to, but Mrs.[name] begged me to stay so..I’m just gonna grab some dessert now”. I then said “don’t leave now, please stay” and I think he smiled or idk what he said and then there was a small silence so he shyly said “..I’m gonna go grab dessert now” and smiled.

At the end, when I had to leave, I saw him getting down the stairs with two of my teachers. One of them waved at me when he saw me because I told him “you better not leave without telling me goodbye”. I told them to have a nice summer vacation and they were all like “you too” and then I turned to Y and guyyyyyssss he had this cute fucking smile aaaaah it makes my heart melt. He lowered his head a bit and i swear he’s so timid and fucking shy its so adorable ♡♡♡♡ and I told him “enjoy your vacation!!” and he said “thank you, you too!!” and I said bye.

IN NEED OF ADVICE

So, I haven’t tried messaging Y on facebook yet. I just recently made an account and I need some time to properly arrange everything.

Someone told me that Y will be coming to this year’s graduation. I was already planning on going and I’m even more excited now. It’s in a month. Do you guys think that it would be best to wait until I see him the day of the graduation to ask him if it’s okay for me to stay in contact with him on facebook? ( it’s not my graduation btw )