#depressing thoughts

Deadly…

I really,really really really really, hate myself.

I am literally doing nothing with my life

I want to find a way out…

I really hope i’m living a nightmare and i do really wake up…

This week has been shit

I’m ILL, Mentally and Physically

I wrote this ages ago, before I knew the real you.

Welcome to November breakdown no. 1

After some time off, welcome to chapter two of my raw feelings in times new roman.

Feeling

I haven’t self harm in a few years and that good and great but I still struggle with it and I hate it when something bad happens or I mess up the first thing I think about is bringing my self pain I feel like I deserve it for messing up. When I took a step and said I was gonna stop I thought the temptation was going to go away at some point ya know? I hate that I’m still dealing with this it makes it harder and harder every time I really just want to give in I really want to just feel something.. I’m really tired of of just being numb all day I’m so lonely and I really miss feeling something