The thing about Susan is that sometimes you have to grow up. Sometimes you have to lock away the dreams of childhood, the fanciful says of pretend, sometimes you have to let the magic go. Sometimes that’s the only way that you can continue to live.
She loses Narnia and it’s okay. Well it’s not okay but what other choice does she have. Her siblings don’t understand why she doesn’t pretend anymore, why she throws herself into fashion and boys and school and a job and life. They don’t get why she focuses on living in the moment instead of dreaming of what was. Losing Narnia hurt more than she could explain, it broke her to learn that she was no longer wanted, no longer enough. So she tries to do the impossible and forget. She lets go of everything and focuses on living in the moment, on building a life in the only place that she’s got left.
Losing her family breaks her. She’s furious for a long time, refuses to cry, refuses to speak of the brothers and sister that were everything to her. She paints on red lipstick each morning with swift strokes as a barrier against the world. Coats mascara on her lashes so that she won’t cry and goes out into the world. She works, goes to pubs, let’s people buy her drinks but she doesn’t smile, she doesn’t laugh. Laughter and smiles died on a train headed to the country side. She goes through the emotions, and hides her heart away from the world.
Years go by because time doesn’t stop and she continues to live, one day, one week, one month, one year at a time. She doesn’t smile anymore not the way she used too, her eyes are hard and there is a sharp and brittle edge to her. They used to call her gentle, tell stories of her kindness, her wisdom. She doesn’t feel wise anymore, doesn’t care to be kind. The years alone have worn her down.
kimlucille:Heres an unedited photo from when Mike Mcdougal shot me(literally like right after the photo shoot was done, he shot me with a gun…i’m a ghost now, Tumbling away) But yeah, he was wonderful and made me look rad!
“AND SHE’S GOOONE!” “It’s over isn’t it” “Why can’t I move on…?”
I finished this last night! I love the bit where she throws the rose off the balcony. IDK why…I just do! I haven’t used watercolors in a while, so I still have to learn.
“My feelings for you are slowly growing, and I want them to stop. I don’t want to ruin the friendship that we have. I don’t want to lose you. But, my heart beats so fast when I’m with you.”
When I lived in Katmandu we lived in an extended family situation, with my aunts and uncles and cousins with my grandfather, in a very small apartment. There was a really strong sense of community, I find in third world countries, the communities are stronger because they have so many more challenges. I always had this desire to be surrounded by people, even in my work.
Dichen Lachman photographed by Rie Rasmussen for Imagista
Consider who the three main characters of Obi-Wan Kenobiare.
Obi-Wan, Vader & Reva. What ties them all together?
They’re all trying really hard to NOT be Jedi… even though, deep down, that’s who they are.
Because as the Grand Inquisitor puts it: the Jedi Code is like an itch; they cannot help it.
Take Obi-Wan, for instance:
He’s saying: “I’m not a Jedi anymore. That guy died the same day Anakin did. I’m just Ben.”
But it kills him that he can’t help Nari, he can’t help that dude who can’t feed his family, he can’t help those settlers on Mapuzo who were getting bullied by stormtroopers.
His character arc is the most obvious one: he is coming to terms with the idea that, yes, he still is a Jedi.
Becausethat’s who Leia needs him to be right now.
And it’s who Luke will need in the future.
Vader:
We know Vader’s road arc won’t conclude in this series.
For years, Vader is always THIS close to going back to the Light, then always stomps his foot on the ground and doubles down, going “nu-uh, I’m evil deep down inside, I swear! Dark Side all the way! Look how I’m killing this guy! See what a monster I’ve become Obi-Wan?!”
He keeps rejecting the Light and rationalizes his actions by saying the Jedi betrayed him, but deep down, he’s rejecting the Light because he thinks he deserves the pain that the Dark gives him. He’s a monster and he is where he belongs: in Hell.
But we know that, eventually, he lets go of the guilt, the anger, the fear, and does become that Jedi again, which George Lucas once described as “ultimate father figures”.
Because that’s what Luke needed when the Emperor was killing him: his father, the Jedi.
Now take Reva:
She’s saying: “I’m not a Jedi. The Jedi abandoned me. I hate them and I’m gonna have my revenge!”
That whole speech she gives in Part I?
She’s not saying that to the Tatooine randos (who the Jedi never protected in the first place because they had no jurisdiction in the Outer Rim). She’s repeating that to herself.
Clearly, she was a youngling when Order 66 happened, she got taken in and made into a monster. But not really, right? ’Cause the other Inquisitors? Now those guys are full-on psychopaths. She’s cute compared to them. They tell her as much.
She’s not as broken inside as they are.
And deep down, she knows it too. Which is why she screams, she pouts, she’s overly arrogant, reckless, mean and insistent, she’s overdoing it, she’s overcompensating.
“Look at my flips! Look at how I parkour! Would a Jedi be so badass?!”
She’s doing exactly what Vader is doing.
Only she’s doing it louder, because the good in her isn’t buried as deeply as it is with him. She’s stomping her foot and doubling down and insisting that “no, I’m bad, I swear”.
Because the alternative is accepting that - unlike Vader who made his own choices - deep within Reva lies the truth that what happened to her wasn’t her fault. She’s a victim of a galaxy-wide genocide. And it’s not her her fault. Sometimes, bad things happen to good people, and it’s unfair.
Which is why Haja takes her by surprise.
Why would this guy WILLINGLY say he’s a Jedi? Is he crazy? Doesn’t he realize what that comes with? The target it puts on your back?
Seeing him do that clearly hits her where it hurts.
Now, I don’t know if she eventually arcs and manages to become that Jedi once again… or if she’ll die trying… or if she does like Vader and rejects it for good.
There’s a reason Reva and Moses Ingram are positioned in the middle in all promotional pictures featuring the trio:
My guess is that it’s because while Kenobi is coming around to following the Way of the Jedi, and Vader is just blazing trails in the opposite direction… Reva’s fate is unclear.
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