#lost friends

I’ll never be loved

I’ll never be special

I’ll never be worth it

I’ll never be enough

I feel lonely all the time even when I’m around people. Honestly I don’t even feel like I’m physically there and it wouldn’t matter if I wasn’t

I’m always thinking and thinking and over thinking about everything I say and do because I’m trying to figure out why it’s so easy for people to leave me like I wasn’t worth anything in the first place even though I try so hard to be perfect but as usual I’m not good enough

I’m too intense, too weird too this too that I’m so done with everything, so tired of this life and the people in it tried of being someone’s second choice, tired of if I make a mistake I can’t get a second chance tired of everything and everyone if I die it wouldn’t matter that much anyways

To be honest, I just want to die.

It’s the last week the semester and I feel like I’m at my breaking point. My laptop that I’ve been trying to work with ohad broken down and now is beyond repair. I feel so useless as the I spent all the money I had saved up on fixing it the 1st time. Even though exams are less than a week away my lectures are still giving assignments. I was struggling before and now i feel like there’s no hope. I’ve been asking and begging for help but no one seems to care or understand the depth of this situation. I really need help more than before. I have no idea how I’m to manage to finish the assignments and exams. I really need help and advice.

Why do I never feel like I belong

Everything hurts all the time

“I wish I could touch you again. I wish I could still call you friend. I’d give Anything.”

‘Who knew’ -P!NK

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