1 John 2:24-25 ESV Let what you heard from the beginning abide in you. If what you heard from the beginning abides in you, then you too will abide in the Son and in the Father. And this is the promise that he made to us—eternal life.
Bella was way too into the whole vampire thing and never really thought immortality over.
Like sure, you wanna stay young with your vampire bf and demon baby forever? Cute like me too but what are you going to do when the sun eventually dies out? Say you somehow survive that, what will you do when the Milky Way and Andromeda galaxies collide? By then no life can sustain on earth and y’all won’t have food. Who knows, maybe the earth will just explode and you’ll be chilling in space with the vampire squad.
In conclusion, SMeyer really didn’t think shit through like someone with anxiety and it SHOWS.
(Just a lot of words. A lot of pointless and beautiful and painful words. Isn’t that what writing is?)
(Always is the cruelest world I know.)
“Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes.)”
I do not know what happened. I was sitting at a Starbucks with a warm cup of hot chocolate. A pair of children made silly faces at me through the window, and I laughed. For a moment. I laughed. I turned my head back to the work in front of me, typing words into another paper for my writing class—a class I loved, for the professor I admired, for the dragging determination that I would continue on, in spite of everything. Certainly, I was miserable, but that was something to be overcome, to fight against; I would make it as long as hope remained. — How was it then, that moments later I became hopeless? — I see myself sitting on the train, watching soft night descend on city lights. Watching apartment buildings for glimpses of lives I’d never know, hoping to catch the shadow of some lamp, the face of a curious onlooker, watching me as I watched them. Life, at its purest essence. Humanity has always been the same.
Always. Was it that word that broke me? That sense that everything should go on? Was it my own determination to continue in spite of everything? What was it that struck that fear so deep into my mind? What was it even—but that concept of always—that I feared?
Half an hour later, with hot water streaming down my face, I slipped into the bottom of the bathtub and tried to chase out the thoughts. Head underwater. The sound of artificial rain on my ears. Eyes closed. Breath held.
I’ll know what it’s like—eternity—in a second.
It wasn’t death I was hoping for, it was paradise. It was a glimpse of the divine and a promise of eternal life—everlasting consciousness. I didn’t want to die, you see, I wanted to make certain I would live forever. I wanted to know what my mother felt when I was born, when she almost died, when she heard the voice of god and knew paradise. I felt my body plead for oxygen. I felt my heart skip a beat. I felt cold darkness echo back to me the same way it did each time I prayed to god and begged for some promise of hope. I felt the unforgiving silence again, and nothing more. Instinct took control and I lifted my head from the water, gasping at air the way I grasped for hope. I still don’t know what happened; I don’t know what made me so afraid of dying that I wanted to risk life. — I keep telling them I want to be dumb. If I were dumb, I wouldn’t think about it; it wouldn’t bother me. Like a bird I would live and I would die and would care very little for eternity. — What I understand of neuroscience and physics, what I know of thermodynamics, makes me think eternal consciousness is impossible. — What I know about religion and philosophy is that this is the ultimate question. Or as Camus said: “There is only one really serious philosophical problem and that is suicide. Deciding whether or not life is worth living is to answer the fundamental question in philosophy. All other questions follow from that” It’s the ultimate question because no one truly knows the answer. — Is that what made it happen again? Is that why I had to run away? The deepest and yet most absurd question—is that really what made me leave school for the third time? I know it’s not of course. It was more than that. It was an inability to keep going, it was a loss of hope and an outpouring of fear. It was everything and nothing. — I beg god again, for something, really anything. But like all those days, those endless hours sitting, curled at the bottom of my closet pleading, I meet silence and darkness and emptiness. I meet the very thing I fear, and the thing which has taken over my OCD, and anxiety, and led me to the deepest depression I have ever known. I hope for certainty where I cannot have it. — There are two things I know: 1. I do not have any reason to hope for eternal life. Death, like every other thing in this world, seems physical, temporal. 2. Without the hope of eternal consciousness, I have no reason to enjoy living, no reason to hope for anything. Hope, at that point, becomes temporary, and seemingly useless. — There is no reason for me to say any of this, of course. I am not asking for anything, not looking for someone to tell me to just have faith, not looking for anyone to tell me not to. — My obsessions have fixated on ideas of aging and death. (Time is so short. “It is later than you think.”) I sank into depression. I left school again because I was simply, physically unable to continue on, even though this time I thought I would make it. Until that moment, that second on the train watching the world go by I was okay. Now, I need to know that I will be okay forever—literally forever—or I don’t know if I will ever quite be okay again. Without a hope for everything, is there a hope for anything? — No, I haven’t given up all hope. I hope for a someday (and for an eternal someday.) I hope to find some sense of spirituality, some presence or peace from some god, some little spark of light in the echoing darkness. I hope. But I do not expect—I do not know.
Heh, the God of Eternity (one of the Gods of the Ogdoad), kneeling on the symbol for “gold” and holding in each hand the Year-staff (the palm branch) with jubilees; above Him, the Solar Orb flanked by Two Uraei. On the top, a row of stars. Detail from a column of the “House of Birth” (the Mammisi) of the Sanctuary of the Goddess Hathor at Nitentóre (Dendera)
“Forever soothes my soul into eternity when you smile ever so beautifully for me..”
Forever exists in a heartbeat when you lose track of time and I.. I lose track of time when I look at you dear, I lose track all the time living forever in a heartbeat - eUë
And there will be signs in sun and moon and stars, and on the earth distress of nations in perplexity because of the sea and the waves, people fainting with fear and with foreboding of what is coming on the world. For the powers of Heaven will be shaken. - Luke 21:25-26
When ye shall hear of wars and commotions, be not terrified. - Luke 21:9
Go, my people, enter your rooms and shut the doors behind you; hide yourselves for a little while until his wrath has passed by. - Isaiah 26:20
When I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or command locusts to devour the land or send a plague among my people, if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land. - 2 Chronicles 7:13-14
The LORD’s hand was heavy on the people of Ashdod and its vicinity; he brought devastation on them and afflicted them with tumors. - 1 Samuel 5:6
Do everything in love. - 1 Corinthians 16:14
Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. - Proverbs 3:3-4
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love. - Ephesians 3:16-17
All wisdom is from God. He who loves wisdom, let him ask of God, and he will receive it. All is open to God; with Him is the treasury of wisdom; from Him, by Him, and in Him are all things. It has willed God to illumine my spirit by His grace, to lead me in the way of truth, to whom be all praise, who reigns ‘in excelsis’ for ever and ever - Amen. - John Cremer, Abbot of Westminster (14th century)
All true religion, all true morality, all true mysticism have but one object, and that is to act on humanity, collective and individual, in such a manner that it shall correspond efficiently with the great law of development, and co-operate consciously therewith to achieve the end of development. - A. E. Waite
A beautiful god is the most noble product of Man. - Franz Hartmann
What you contemplate, you touch. What you enter into in imagination, you make yourself one with. - Dion Fortune
It becomes evident that when the Life-power awakens its mysterious activity at the beginning of a cycle of manifestation those vibrations which we recognise as sound come into existence before the more rapid pulsations of electricity and light. Thus modern science confirms the ancient occult teaching that sound is the root of physical existence. 'It is out of Sound that every form comes, and it is in Sound that every form lives. - Paul Foster Case
Seek the Path, do not seek attainment, Seek for the Path within yourself. Do not expect to hear the truth from others, nor to see it, or read it in books. Look for the truth in yourself, not without yourself. - P.D. Ouspensky
A good teacher must be able to put himself in the place of those who find learning hard. - Eliphas Levi
It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting. - Paulo Coelho (“The Alchemist”)
We comfort ourselves by reliving memories of protection. Something closed must retain our memories, while leaving them their original value as images. Memories of the outside world will never have the same tonality as those of home and, by recalling these memories, we add to our store of dreams; we are never real historians, but always near poets, and our emotion is perhaps nothing but an expression of a poetry that was lost. - Gaston Bachelard
Be the change that you wish to see in the world. - Mahatma Gandhi
Do not read, as children do, to amuse yourself, or like the ambitious, for the purpose of instruction. No, read in order to live. - Gustave Flaubert
Avoid vice, therefore, and cultivate virtue; lift up your mind to the right kind of hope, and put forth humble prayers on high. - Boethius
I can’t give you a sure-fire formula for success, but I can give you a formula for failure: try to please everybody all the time. - Herbert Bayard Swope
Sam Levenson, “In One Era & Out the Other”:
For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge you’ll never walk alone. … We leave you a tradition with a future. The tender loving care of human beings will never become obsolete. People even more than things have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed and redeemed and redeemed and redeemed. Never throw out anybody.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you’ll find one at the end of your arm.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands: one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
Your “good old days” are still ahead of you, may you have many of them.
“ For me, trees have always been the most penetrating preachers. I revere them when they live in tribes and families, in forests and groves. And even more I revere them when they stand alone. They are like lonely persons. Not like hermits who have stolen away out of some weakness, but like great, solitary men, like Beethoven and Nietzsche. In their highest boughs the world rustles, their roots rest in infinity; but they do not lose themselves there, they struggle with all the force of their lives for one thing only: to fulfil themselves according to their own laws, to build up their own form, to represent themselves. Nothing is holier, nothing is more exemplary than a beautiful, strong tree. When a tree is cut down and reveals its naked death-wound to the sun, one can read its whole history in the luminous, inscribed disk of its trunk: in the rings of its years, its scars, all the struggle, all the suffering, all the sickness, all the happiness and prosperity stand truly written, the narrow years and the luxurious years, the attacks withstood, the storms endured. And every young farmboy knows that the hardest and noblest wood has the narrowest rings, that high on the mountains and in continuing danger the most indestructible, the strongest, the ideal trees grow.”
- Hermann Hesse, Bäume. Betrachtungen und Gedichte
“Beauty is unbearable, drives us to despair, offering us for a minute the glimpse of an eternity that we should like to stretch out over the whole of time.” ~ Albert Camus [The Ecstasy of St. Teresa, c.1640 - Gian Lorenzo Bernini]
• Albert Camus (1913–1960) was a journalist, editor and editorialist, playwright and director, novelist and author of short stories, political essayist and activist—and, although he more than once denied it, a philosopher. He ignored or opposed systematic philosophy, had little faith in rationalism, asserted rather than argued many of his main ideas, presented others in metaphors, was preoccupied with immediate and personal experience, and brooded over such questions as the meaning of life in the face of death. More: https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/camus/
• Gian Lorenzo Bernini dominated the Roman art world of the seventeenth century, flourishing under the patronage of its cardinals and popes while also challenging contemporary artistic traditions. His sculptural and architectural projects reveal an innovative interpretation of subjects, use of forms, and combination of media. Forging a path for future artists, he played an instrumental role in establishing the dramatic and eloquent vocabulary of the Baroque style. More: https://www.metmuseum.org/toah/hd/bern/hd_bern.htm
But the two times, past and future, how can they be, since the past is no more and the future is not yet? On the other hand, if the present were always present and never flowed away into the past, it would not be time at all but eternity. But if the present is only time, because it flows away into the past, how can we say that it is? For it is, only because it will cease to be. Thus we can affirm that time is only in that it tends towards not-being.
Reading this today I was overwhelmed by the extravagant goodness of our God. There are no prerequisites to a relationship with God… no worries that you won’t be accepted… no long distances to travel just to get to him… God says call on him and you will be saved. How can this be so easy when everything else in life is so hard? Because it wasn’t easy. It was the hardest thing God ever had to do. To leave heaven and become a man to live among his creation. To endure the pain and suffer of the cross… taking upon himself the full wrath of God… and yet the Bible says he endured all this for the joy set before him. Jesus did the hardest work and he removed every obstacle that could ever keep you from him. No matter the time, place, or circumstances in your life Jesus says all who come to him will be saved. All you have to do is call on Jesus and he promises He will come and never leave you. #Jesus #love #blessed #grace #gospel #Christ #church #bride #faith #salvation #eternity #beloved #christian #joy #peace #God #Yahweh #Yeshua https://www.instagram.com/p/BuOWv5tHtSTZbVpuyEQdluJvYBbICPH5ZU0U0Y0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=nkucha3iqcev
Simple wedding rings are my favourite as they truly encompass the infinity of the circle and, therefore, never-ending love.
My Rustique wedding rings are hammered and can be darkened or polished with a high shine. I can also stamp initials, letters or numbers inside to make them even more special.
I’m repeating myself, but it’s truly such an incredible honour to be trusted for the crafting of such meaningful pieces. . . . . #underthepyramids #underthepyramidstreasures #portablemagick #portablemagic #eternity #forever #weddingband #alliances #rusticweddingbands #handmadeweddingbands #darkweddingbands #darkwedding #folkwedding #darkaesthetic #sustainableweddingbands #sustainableweddingrings #sustainablewedding #darkwedding #darkacademia #cottagecore #darkcottagecore (at Paris, France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CbLa39mLtCA/?utm_medium=tumblr
