the fact that there are ddlg blogs that will follow like csa trauma vent blogs is fucking disgusting but somehow im not surprised that people who like to pretend to sexually abuse children would be interested in the blogs of people who were sexually abused as children

enby-life:

This isn’t funny or anything but transphobes are so fucking stupid. They are deeply and genuinely stupid. Completely and utterly stupid without a glimmer of hope for common sense, dare I say.

You think I’m kidding but I’m not. These people are STUPID stupid. UNIMAGINABLY stupid. Point blank dumber than rocks don’t know anything about what they’re talking about stupid. And ALARMINGLY fixated on their obsession with little boys’ penises. Like weirdly intent on circle-jerking to the idea of having hands-on control on kids’ genitals.

neotrances:

neotrances:

nah hold on y r u as a obvious horny blog following a child

can y’all do my a favor and report this blog or something i don’t even know what to do PLEASE donot harass the girl in question, im sick, y’all are fucking disgusting

dont-discourse-so-close:

rivalhues:

feministingforchange:

feministingforchange:

layered-like-an-onion:

feministingforchange:

addictofthefandom:

feministingforchange:

Aphobes:

Also Aphobes:

this stuff is harrasment/ bullying, if you do this you are breaking the law in quiet a few countries and breaking tumblr rules of service, not only is it uncalled for and disgusting you are commiting a crime/breaking terms and conditions

if you see ANYONE (gay,straight,trans cis,black,white doesn’t matter) telling ANYONE to go die report it Immediately because it is crossing a line

^^^^^^^

This shit is absolutely disgusting. What sorry excuses of human beings willingly go out of their way to harass people because of their sexuality…….oh wait

And it’s still not over either. Check out some of this new and truly disgusting aphobic bullshit:

Apparently, being against telling ANYONE to go die or kill themselves is being pro-terf… (ughhhhh!!! i’m also against the death penalty, does that make me a super terf then?!?! like honestly, go read a book)

Oh and this:

So, hearing about the corrective rape experiences of aces is “annoying” bc “aces aren’t lgbt” according to the above aphobe, and so we all just need to shut up about it. JOY

Maybe the above is not a death threat or anything like that, but dehumanization like this is the exact type of shit that rationalizes and reinforces all this aphobic violence.

 And of course, here’s more aphobic hell (including racism & more death/suicide baiting):

What “exactly” is it that we have supposedly collectively done to deserve this kind of seething, violent hate?!?!?!???? Read those tags on the last one, it’s the things of nightmares!!

But yeah, no, of course, 

I mean, it’s not as if wishing to deny us aspecs our right to life (often in very violent ways) just because we’re aspec isn’t invalidating in any way…. /s

Aaaaand here’s some new stuff:

damn wtf did aces do to these people?! why so much hate towars em

Existing against their will, I suppose.

feministingforchange:

by Alise D. Chaffins (SOURCE)

I keep waiting, but it hasn’t happened yet.

A few weeks ago, there were lots of men looking out for the safety of American women everywhere by wanting to ban transgender women from using the ladies’ rooms at Target and other public places. We were told how women were precious, how they needed protected from “men in dresses.” When the current administration sent out messages to schools giving guidelines on how to treat transgender students, 11 states sued to make sure that our girls are safe in their locker rooms from transgender girls.

Oh, I heard them say that it wasn’t REALLY the trans people they were worried about. Sure, there would be plenty of opportunities to call them freaks and perverts. Lots of chances to remind us that there are just a few of them, so why should we bow to their desires. Lots of dismissive language that told trans men and women that their comfort and mental health don’t matter in the grand scheme of things.

But no, it wasn’t primarily the trans people (especially trans women) that we needed to be protected from. It was the the pedophiles and the voyeurs who would take advantage of the laws. It was the men who would dress up like a woman so they could prey on women in bathrooms. Those were the real threat. Those were the men that needed to be dealt with. Violent men who would do actual harm against women — those were the men that we needed to be on the lookout for, those were who the men were concerned about. Keep women safe from men who were violent.

So when Stanford rapist Brock Turner got a mere six-month sentence, I started waiting.

Waiting for all of these men to start posting their outrage at the system that so dramatically failed a young woman.

Waiting for petitions to receive millions of signatures demanding stricter sentencing for rapists. Waiting for viral videos of pastors standing outside of the courthouse, speaking in animated tones about what grave injustice was taking place behind those walls.

Waiting for men to share the powerful words of the victim as a reminder that rape has lifetime consequences for those who experience it.

Waiting for men to remind other men that the responsibility not to rape lies with them, not with the women who are raped.

Waiting for these men to prove that their concern for their wives and daughters wasn’t really just a mask for the transphobia that they carried and didn’t want to be called on.

Instead, I’ve read a letter from a father saying that his son is being punished too harshly for only ““20 minutes of action,” where instead of a perpetrator of a violent crime, he is the victim of alcohol consumption and partying. I’ve read many times about how many drinks the victim had before she was raped. I’ve read about how we need to crack down on drinking on college campuses.

I’ve seen lots and lots of nothing at all from people who just weeks ago were ready to storm the bathroom stalls to make sure their wives and daughters were safe.

Where are you? Where is your outrage when a young woman is penetrated by fingers and leaves and pine needles behind a dumpster while she is unconscious? Where is your disgust for a system that slaps a rapist on the wrist and says, “Well, he probably won’t do THAT again.” Where is your anger at a culture that has more concern for the impact of jailing a rapist than the impact of a rape?

Weeks ago, we were told that women needed to be protected.

But apparently not from rapists.

A version of this post originally appeared on Knitting Soul.

ango-kept-the-photograph:

chaimtealatte:

posting a tiktok here bc she really said it all!!!

edit: i don’t have very many followers so i didn’t expect this to get any notes or anything but now it is! and it’s mostly from terfs! and i want them to know: FUCK YOU. THIS IS NOT FOR YOU. MY BLOG IS NOT FOR YOU. GET OFF.

[VD: A TikTok stitch made by user @staceyismom from user @citizenattorney1’s original video. Citizenattorney1, a white man, says, “The [Asian women] that are here are like, not cool, not nice, I rarely meet a sweet one.” It then cuts to staceyismom, an Asian woman, doing a bunch of exaggerated cutesy poses. She says mockingly, “… Hey, guys, do I seem cool, nice, and sweet enough yet? I just really want this 60-year-old guy to like me. Anyway.” (Cut to a shot where she’s holding the camera closer to her face.) “Pedophilia’s all about like power dynamics and control because it’s so easy to take advantage of like seven-year-olds. And it’s so weird because whenever white men with Asian fetishes talk about Asian women, they always talk about us like we’re babies. East Asians are known for kind of having, like, a babyface, and not having a lot of body hair, and there comes the whole submissive trope. This is also why so many Japanese and Korean people hate weebs and Koreaboos, because—” Cut to a shot where she is once again farther away from the camera and doing cutesy poses. She continues, “—because whenever white girls Asianfish, they always put on, like, this stupid little baby act where they’re like ‘Oh my God, I’m just a cute little Asian babygirl.’” (Cut back to her holding the camera.) “They play into fetishization and add on to negative stereotypes by making themselves look more Asian and then becoming a little uwu baby.” (Cut back to her posing. She addresses citizenattorney1 again:) “Just because no one wants to suck your dick here doesn’t mean you get to go to Asia and then prey on young women, just die alone like you deserve.” End VD]

[ID: A graphic of a skull and crossbones with the words “Terfs fuck off.” End ID]

despair-ronpa-writings-deactiva:

ultimate-detective-lover:

anti-koma-hina:

Response to ibukihate’s callout for Kisa/Ultimate-detective-lover and dangankinnieprincess

Even if you don’t like us or what our blog stands for please reblog and spread this. This is not about sexuality discourse or anything else right now this is about people being slandered and having their lives ruined because of bullshit accusations. This is about preventing this from happening to more people.

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My goal with this response is to allow people to see why the callout ibukihate made is full of hot air and holds no weight. So I will be debunking this post here since it seems to be the main callout.

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When I first heard about these accusations against Kisa I was on a kin blog who’s mod was told not to give them requests because they are a pedophile. As someone who runs blogs that interact with Kisa hearing this I was of course afraid and worried, who would ever want to interact with a pedo? No one. So I went to the link given to the mod of the kin blog to see if the accusations were true and what was the evidence.

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Imagine my surprise when instead of y’know actual pedophiliac stuff being used as evidence against Kisa all the evidence was nsfw of Drv3 characters. Yes you read that right… It would be one thing if it was nsfw of a character such as Kotoko or Nagisa you know actual child characters in the danganronpa series I would say that’s worth warning people about. But no it was the DRV3 characters who have no confirmed ages and are more than likely adults.

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Before we get started I just wanted to point this out because this just speaks for itself:

Hmm… Okay then seems pretty hypocritical to me.

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So with the introduction out the way let’s dive into the “evidence” this callout gives us. The callout starts off with ibukihate giving evidence of Kisa’s age being 29-30 not a problem it makes sense to establish someone is an adult if you’re accusing them of being a pedophile but it’s from here things go downhill. Our first piece of evidence is to quote the callout “Kisa is almost 30 years old and on her blog she has pages dedicated to her ‘waifu’s’ and her ‘husbando’s’ that are all underage, mind you, where she talking about ‘lewding’ them.”

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So who are these underage “husbandos” and “waifus” Miu Iruma and Gonta Gokuhara. Yes that’s right two characters from DRV3 who don’t have a confirmed age but are should I add definitely older than 17. Ibukihate is calling out Kisa for running an RP page that does nsfw of characters who are not minors. If that doesn’t get your blood boiling and show you how bad this callout is let’s continue so you can see more.

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Our next piece of “Evidence” is Kisa rating underage characters based on hotness with one of the ratings being “10/10 would bang” except here’s the problem, in the screenshot ibukihate includes it doesn’t show Kisa rating an underage character with this, in fact it doesn’t show Kisa rating any characters at all. It just shows Kisa offering to rate danganronpa characters. Wow very solid evidence… But there’s another screenshot included in this link let’s see if it’s any better.

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Ibukihate shows a screenshot of Kisa talking about her AU in which she has five boyfriends who act like brothers to each other with Hajime and Izuru being actual brothers. The five boys included in this AU are Shuichi, Makoto, Hajime, Izuru, and Kaito. Ibukihate calls this incestuous and pedophiliac it is neither. Once again DRV3 characters have no confirmed age and since Kisa isn’t shipping brothers together it’s not incest. Now you can debate on how tasteful/distasteful this AU is or whether or not you think it’s acceptable but that’s not the same as accusing someone of pedophilia and incest both very serious subjects.

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Let’s keep going, the callout now switches to targeting Kisa’s friend dangankinnieprincess. It says dangankinnieprincess called the picture of Nagito’s ass sexy. Our evidence this time around is a video which shows that people began harassing dangankinnieprincess over liking rantaro, ouma, and Nagito saying they are minors when none of them are.

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Oh and about the Nagito’s ass thing no one informed dangankinnieprincess that Nagito is a minor in that particular scene and most people (like most of this fandom) do not know that, that scene is from DR3 where the DR2 characters are minors because they are in high school in DR3. So you have a lot of people who post that scene and have no idea he’s underage in that scene. Which ibukihate’s friends could’ve explained to dangankinnieprincess but instead they went straight to calling dangankinnieprincess a pedo. Wow how nice…

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Oh and btw included in that video was proof of Kisa posting shucihi Saihara half naked stuff or something but we already established he’s not a minor. So let’s keep moving. To quote the callout again “a few other things that she’s done: Referred to a minor getting turned on as ‘going into heat’ and that it ‘would be interesting’” oh btw the minor Kisa is talking about is Ouma Kokichi who is not a minor (I know I’m tired too). Ibukihate calls out Kisa for genderbend art which is completely irrelevant to a callout about pedophilia and a subject widely debated as many, many, many people in this fandom reblog and post gender bend art (ibukihate you’ve got a lot of callouts to make).

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Last piece of evidence in this callout is Kisa reblogging a triggered joke which is not only not callout worthy but is also not evidence of pedophilia.

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Now before I wrap this callout up let’s tackle some of this bonus evidence ibukihate has provided. Ibukihate gives links to two pieces of testimony from people who “know” Kisa. But they were both by anons who provided no proof of anything they were saying, no screenshots or anything so that’s about as good as fake. Another screenshot was included of stuff Kisa and dangankinnieprincess have said on discord but none of it was proof of pedophilia and not worthy of a callout ibukihate could’ve easily brought some of this stuff to their attention instead of making a big to do like this.

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Last piece of evidence is a screenshot showing Kisa liked nsfw and suggestive art of DRV3 characters that ibukihate referred to as “porn of children” that’s not even close to porn of children as DRV3 characters are not children nor minors.

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Now since I’ve debunked all the evidence ibukihate has presented I can say that Kisa and dangankinnieprincess are not pedohiles but victims of slander. And now I’m going to talk to you Ibukihate because you clearly don’t understand the weight of your actions and words so let’s get into this. A pedophile as defined by the dictionary:

pedophile (plural pedophiles) (American spelling)

1. (general use) An adult who is sexually attracted to or engages in sexual acts with a child.

2. (psychiatry) A person aged 16 years old or older who is mostly or only sexually attracted toward prepubescent children. [from 20th c.]

So when you call someone a pedophile you’re saying that they’re a danger to children, that they might touch or harm a child in an irreparable way. That they deserve to be in prison or worse. Do you think Kisa and dangankinnieprincess are dangers to children? That they would harm one? If so why don’t you do something instead of a shitty tumblr callout that includes things like “a triggered joke” do you think that’s a cool thing to include in a callout when you’re talking about people who should be locked up? (By people I mean pedophiles)

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You do think they should go to jail right ibukihate? Since you’re saying they’re pedophiles. If so why did you call your callout drama? Why did you include irrelevant stuff that had nothing to do with pedophilia? Why was all of your evidence bullshit? I’ll tell you why because you don’t care about the callout you made, you don’t think it’s serious, and you don’t realize the weight of a word such as pedophile. You think this is a fun game and that you can get some likes and get people bullied based off of lies you made.

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But I’m here to tell you this is not okay and you really need help for ruining someone’s life like this. You got Kisa and dangankinnieprincess sent death threats, harassed, and drove out of this fandom over a fucking lie. The harassment she faced made dangankinnieprincess suicidal because so many people thought she was a monster because of your lie. A lie you don’t even realize the power of. With real traffickers getting busted in the news (people who have ruined the lives of countless children and families forever) you have a lot of nerve calling these two a danger to children over some danganronpa nsfw of characters who ain’t minors. If you had a shred of decency left you’ll delete your callout and apologize but I won’t expect that from someone like you.

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And one last thing if nsfw of DRV3 characters and genderbend art are worthy of a callout I look forward to the hundreds of bullshit callouts you’ll be making over these next few months for other people.

@ultimate-detective-lover@ibukihate

Thank you.  

This is crazy. I’m sorry this is happening @ultimate-detective-lover, I’m on your side. Sorry for the long scrolling guys! But this is outrageous.

@ultimate-detective-lover same here! You’re welcome to request from my blog anytime.

brackenfur:

its actually very very easy to not like pedophilic ships and understand that enjoying fictional pedophilia is still like, actively partaking in enjoying pedophilia and that it doesnt cancel that out just bc the content in question is fictional

G-d I wish I could say ‘why are straight Jojo fans like this?’ , but that’s just Jojo fans on insta in general…

mossea:

Okay i just saw something i really didnt like

For the love of god if you are under the age of 18 DO NOT POST ON THE INTERNET SUGGESTIVE OR NSFW BY ANY MEANS. This shit attracts groomers left and right you are putting yourself in fucking danger. I dont want to see kids soft core porn or even suggestive jokes with a group of adults this is genuely fucked up.

A ton of ppl will tell you how horribly normalized this shit was back in the days because fandoms were such a new concepts and how fucking easy it was to access porn back in the days. Porn was so normalized even with minors going around seeing it and posting their own online without knowing how fucked up it is with the amount of pedos and the psychological damage of porn addiction at a young age. Let me tell you that you are not fucking “old enough” even between 16 or 18.

Also if you’re hanging out with adults some of them will try to convice that its normal that you should do and share what you’re like we have all heard this dumb fucking sentence “you’re so mature for your age” used by groomers. You need to leave them and stop interacting with those ppl right away. Also you’re putting those who didnt know about your age in danger too because there are chance they will get framed because you didnt clarify your age to them. Be careful

im gonna post this in the dt tags (and other ships) because spamton is starting to get real popular among everyone these days.

Okay so I’m reading the wiki a bit more and I think that the anon may have a point? While I was oblivious there is a scene involving a minor that can be read as romantic, we didn’t read it that way personally but I swear it was not our intent to cause all this.

I’m sorry and I’ll delete the post now.

anyway the arya stark discourse has nothing to do with ‘sexualizing children,’ y’all are just mad that an unmarried couple had sex. 

nobody had a problem with a 16 year old dany being married off to a grown adult war lord against her will and then raped by her new husband on screen.

nobody had a problem with that old creep north of the wall who marries and fucks all his (eerily young looking) daughters.

nobody had a problem with ramsay bolton raping sansa the night of their wedding while theon was forced to stand in the corner and watch.

like don’t pull the ‘but think of the children!’ card now. don’t pretend your issue is with the sexualization of children. it’s not. you’re all perfectly fine with on screen depictions of children being raped as long as they’re married to the guy who’s doing it. you’re just mad that fictional high fantasy characters don’t share your creepy twisted views about marriage, abstinence, gender roles, and consent.

and by the way, arya’s canonically 18 this season. she’s not even a child. like you’re literally more offended by an adult woman instigating consensual sex because it’s ~sinful~ than you are by the concept of child marriage and rape. i don’t know how to explain to you that that’s fucked up beyond belief. 

nerdlingwrites:

nerdlingwrites:

Hey #OFMD fans? Just a little reminder of what your blorbo Stede Bonnet got up to when he wasn’t pirating. That’s right, being a FUCKING SLAVE OWNER and a militia member who hunted escaped slaves. He was likely a rapist, or encouraged the rape of barely pubescent Black girls. They would be beaten, whipped, and otherwise tortured into compliance. They would spend the rest of their lives pregnant while undergoing extreme violence EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY.

When he left to become a pirate he made sure the plantation stayed in the hands of his wife and sons in case he wanted to go back.

The show creator knew what he was and didn’t give a shit. I hope the show gets cancelled and all digital media of it pulled from the Internet for all fucking time. I hope it gives you nightmares.

If someone could transcribe these excerpts from bell hook’s Ain’t I A Woman I’d appreciate it, I’m too tired and physically exhausted to do it myself.

Reminder that Stede Bonnet was a whole ass plantation owner with an estimated 94 slaves who participated in hunting down (and no doubt torturing or killing) escaped slaves. And that was BEFORE the piracy. The writer knew this and instead of creating a fictional character, he just ignored it and turned him into a romantic love interest.

And once again white queers are happily dismissing this fact because the show gives them “representation” as if it isn’t just a bunch of straights playing gay for fun and Profit.

knuckle:

knuckle:

Kind of uncomfortable with Jared Leto being a meme despite the intense sexual assault allegations that periodically crop up about him sleeping with underage fans etc. I hope if any of his victims come forward or file suit (even anonymously) it will be taken more seriously but there seem to be half a dozen new articles about it even in 2022

Why is no one talking about Jared Leto’s history of paedophilia and predatory behaviour?

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It’s hard to be an aromantic asexual human trafficking survivor

Trigger Warning: What you are about to read will contain graphic descriptions of violence. If you will be traumatized by this, please stop reading now. I’m proud to be who I am and glad to still be alive. I love you, reader. :) <3 Because God loves you. I strive to love.

I’m proud to have survived human trafficking and I credit Jesus for helping me through it. All my life except for certain times, I have believed in God. Somehow I sensed God with me through all of my struggles. I even felt somehow my asexuality was a blessing from God that was hard for me to express to others. I was born into slavery and was trafficked to pedophiles since birth, and had to deal with incest along with that and Satanic blood rituals that involved my family cannibalizing me by drinking my blood. 

I struggled with getting teachers and police and parents to believe that I was being cannibalized. No one ever believed me; they said that stuff was only in movies. Though some understood I was being raped and trafficked, they offered no support or help. They thought “a man should save me” and they hated the idea of me being rescued by an adult woman or a young girl, of having relationships that would support me like sister and mother type relationships. When I was younger, they wanted a man to marry my mother and he was supposed to save me as a protective father. That never happened, of course because my mother dated and had sex only with pedophiles as well as raping all her kids including me and all the other kids she could get her hands on. Gender did not matter to her, she just loved power and lust and blood. I believe she had demons within her that she invited there. She told me later that she sold her soul to the Devil years ago. I tried to get her soul back in 2012, but she said it’s too late to repent and she enjoys being evil.

As I got a bit older, people in the community and the high school suggested that I should marry a pedophile who had been part of the human trafficking to get me away from my mother or that I ought to find a boyfriend my own age (14-15) who I was supposed to have sex with and live with and then the boyfriend was supposed to protect me along with his dad. They ignored the fact that age 14 is too young to have a live in sexual relationship and also they had no idea or belief that I was asexual. None of them were reasonable in agreeing with me that I really ought to go to a girl’s orphanage and live with a woman and other girls taking care of me and not having any sex while I was still a kid in high school. So this caused boys my age to drag me into bathrooms to rape me or to stalk me and then ask me to live with them so they get ongoing sex which they apparently craved.

Meanwhile, while all this was going on, I also had to deal with purity culture, where religious girls who asked me if I needed to be saved were screaming and cursing me to Hell after I told them yes I do need to be saved because I am being tortured with rape. Please get me away from the rapists and my family, but do not do it all by yourself because if you are alone, you will get raped and may die. They claimed that I am too impure to be saved and that God does not want me. They victim blamed me. I had gotten my hopes up that they were going to save me from all the torture, but all they really wanted to do was to prosthelatize at me like Pharisees and do absolutely nothing to help me. If they truly had been worshipping Jesus they wouldn’t have shouted and said they are so much purer and better than me, they would have helped me. They also did not understand my asexuality.

When I tried to explain I am not attracted to guys to the kids in my high school, they thought that had to mean that I was a lesbian. I said I’m not lesbian, I am an incest survivor of female rape who is celibate. When I tried to explain I am an incest survivor from my mom raping me and getting my younger sister to copy her because my mom incites violence and is trying to brainwash my sister and I to become exactly like her, they were certain that this proved I am a lesbian and then they beat me up for it. Sometimes they tried to ban me from things, saying that I’m a lesbian, like the prom. But then some other students said that lesbians are allowed to prom and they ought to let me in. Neither of them were allowing me to say I’m not a lesbian. To them there were 2 orientations. Straight or lesbian. I have to pick one. So none of us had heard of asexuality.

I tried to explain my feelings by using the word celibate a lot and seeing each human as a creation of God and I can acknowledge that some of them look nice like in the light or the colors of their skin and hair and the clothes that they choose to wear, but I just don’t want to have sex with anyone, and I need to be rescued from the rapists and the cannibals. 

The problem I faced with the sexual people was that they insisted the only way I could get away from rapists and cannibals was to pick one person I am supposed to want to have sex with. It can be a girl or a boy, although they mostly preferred I pick a boy. This partner was supposed to save me and protect me from literally everyone who came to torture me from my entire life and the life I was living when they said that.  That included frenemies (girls diagnosed with mental health disabilities used by my mom to spy on me and see which boys in school were raping me so she could get them to pay her), police officers who beat me or raped me, teachers in the school who groped me or raped me, ex-felon sex offenders that my mom looked up on the sex offender list and invited over to to torture me, beat me, rape me and try to kill me, grown ups chasing me and raping me with weapons like knives and guns, people raping me with objects, all the kids my own age who raped me of their own accord and the ones who got coerced by their dads to rape me or kids coerced by the pedophiles who also made child porn of themselves or kids raping me, all the drug dealers/addicts, alcoholics, gang members, cannibals, KKK members, all of my incestuous family members and all the cult members who they knew who raped me (Baha'i cult, Seth cult, Satanic cult).

It just seemed like too much for one person to handle. I told the sexual people that and they kept insisting it is the only thing that can save me. I said no kid or man could resolve all this, especially if they were a 14-15 year old kid themselves. They all put so much emphasis on “the romantic sexual relationship will save you” while totally ignoring that I do not want sex and I hate it and am repulsed by it and I’ve almost died a lot of times when being tortured by rape. It is a very bloody and painful thing. I had PTSD and seizures and they ignored that too.

So things went on, I grew up and went to college and I was still dealing with some pedophiles from the state where I was forced to go back to having been gone for 6 years, so these guys were stalking me as I was trying to go to college telling me that they had been fantasizing about me being an adult so they could have legal sex with me instead of raping me as a child and a couple of them actually raped me and I fought them all off as best I could. This was part of the human trafficking because they were paying my mother as they were raping me and stalking me. I cried a lot in class but the teachers just screamed in my face that I was a drunk and told me to get a boyfriend and were appalled to hear I was celibate. I told them it made me happy. I still was involved in the Baha'i cult which does have a religious law saying to preserve your virginity and celibacy until marriage and I thought it was a good idea and I liked it, but when I discussed how much I liked it, all the sexual people harassed me and told me how horrible it was and now that I’m an adult I need to stop being celibate and go run around and have sex and then tell them all about it. They kept saying how hard celibacy was and projecting it onto me. I told them it’s normal and easy. This way of seeing the world made it hard for me to form relationships with anyone. 

So after I graduated I tried to get jobs in my field of wildlife biology (degree from University of Idaho in Moscow) and I was able to get some seasonal ones. My mom made it a point to incite as many people at my workplace to rape me in the wilderness as possible by calling and emailing them to give them ideas on how to do that and then she got really mad when they did not send her a lot of money or any money. Growing up, she had made a lot of money when rapists raped me an paid her. She called me a slave and was convinced I was still her slave. She had married another pedophile human trafficker cannibal in 2000 who did horrible things to torture me and collect money from people to rape me too prior to me graduating high school. Summer of senior year. So I had to survive his torture and human trafficking of me and hers from summer 2000- January 2013. Though in 2012 he said he had been raping me since I was 12, which would be 1994. I have some traumatic amnesia so I can’t remember all of the rapists who raped me. So between 2001 - 2013 I had jobs where I studied wildlife or taught camping and nature science and English to kids around the world and had to survive stalkers and rapists at my workplaces, some of whom did attack me so I lost blood from their rapes and some also tried to murder me, all incited to violence by my mom. In between that I kept on going home to be with my family because I was suicidal and wanted them to kill me or because I was trying to rescue my sister from human trafficking, which I failed to do or because they threatened to kill animals, themselves or people and I got manipulated to go back.

All of the people around me who were not abusing me as well as the ones who were continuously told me that I need to get a man and have sex with the man in a relationship in order to not be tortured and be able to have human rights and not be a slave. Even the people in positions of power that could have helped me like the Child Protective Services, Police and FBI told me that. After I finally got the FBI to come over to try to rescue me because human trafficking is a federal slavery crime and it’s their job and they threatened to shoot me (despite me being naked and terrified and completely unarmed) I had a couple of pillows I was trying to cover myself with to hide my nakedness when I asked for help in 2012…I gave up on getting rescued by another human being and fortunately I survived all my suicide attempts and was able to rescue myself. I think Jesus helped me survive all my suicide attempts because looking back I think there had to be miracles taking place for me to survive everything I and others did to me. I also was given Jesus visions and dreams, and surprisingly so were my mom and stepdad who were hard core blood drinking Satanists. So Jesus was there, with me. Then entire time. Supporting my soul and keeping it safe. So I eventually left the Baha'i cult I had been raised in and became a non-denominational Protestant Christian. :) I go to Life Church Online. 

So I escaped the human trafficking by going to live on a campus of a masters degree program I had started online while hiding under the desk from the rapists. I had done some classes under there in-between tortures in Environmental Education and I was able to get a summer job with the US Forest Service and go live with a cult member who my mom approved until she threatened me with violence and my mom saw the police and got scared and started screaming her head off and wanted to leave and I got to go stay in a hotel until the Forest Service could get me into one of their dorms. It happened on Independence Day :) Yay Perfect timing, right? LOL God is Good. So then I went from living in a Forest Service dorm to living at the college campus where I hoped to get counseling and help as I finished my masters degree at the University of Wisconsin Stevens Point.

I got disappointed by the way I was treated though. In my body I was starting to heal. My therapist told me that I should forget about my stepdad raping me and one of my landlords raping me in Colorado in 2010 and go be a lesbian since I do not want sex with men. He said he wanted me to go have lots of sex with women even though my mom had raped me so that he could put on his resume that he helped a lesbian. When I told him I am not a lesbian, he said he was just going to put it on his resume anyway. He continually tried to force me to go have sex with women even though I did not want to. The student health center did not offer me any help or any healing and they claimed my way to healing was sex. I told them no. My academic advisor was pregnant and saw that I was hanging out with a guy. She was shouting at me that I ought to start a relationship with the guy if I hadn’t already because that is how you get pregnant and I need to get myself pregnant. I told her I do not want to be in a relationship like that and I do not want to get pregnant. I already know how people get pregnant. I am obviously well versed in biology. So she was mad that I didn’t want to be pregnant and also said that a man will save me from my family if they are abusive and that I should devote myself to one man and then suggested I must be sleeping with lots of men if I can’t pick just one. I told her no, I am celibate and I do not have sex with anyone. So she was confused and angry and told me, like many other people that I will just always be abused until I get myself a man. I said I don’t want a man. So then she was scared I’d want a woman and I told her I don’t want a woman. So then she insisted I wanted to be all alone. Completely alone forever and I told her I want good close friends and she like many others told me I am not allowed to have them or I can’t find them.

Some people when I say that tell me that I need to join a convent and live with nuns and they laugh at me when I bring up the idea that I might get raped by priests because it’s not safe anymore to be a nun and nuns these days do get raped by priests along with kids being raped by priests. Some nuns who get raped by priests then go on to rape kids too. So there is too much corruption in the Catholic Church and predators hiding there waiting to attack me for me to be able to be safe there, it makes more sense to just be a regular Christian layperson who is Protestant. When you dress differently like in a nun habit, you become a big rape target for people like soldiers who enjoy raping and murdering nuns, like in “Les Innocents,” a story of some Polish nuns who got raped by soldiers in WW2 and had to have an atheist girl and a Jewish guy from the Red Cross help them with the pregnancies and the orphanage they built so the Catholic Church would not murder them. The Catholic Church has murdered pregnant or raped nuns before so its dangerous to be a nun. 

So long story short, I finished my degree okay and I found my classes interesting, but the guy I was hanging out with broke into me dorm room late one night and violently raped me despite me saying no and having no clue this was going to happen. I had already told him prior to the rape that I was asexual and celibate and had been abused and had nerve damage from the abuse. He was Catholic and told me during the rape that his priest told him to do this to me and I learned he also heard it from his roommates and people in our dorm had been stalking us and asking us from time to time if we were going to have sex. We both said No because we were celibate. I found out from him that he did all kinds of sexual things minus the vaginal sex and called that celibacy wheras I did nothing and felt no desire to things and I called that celibacy. He was doing it because of Catholic purity culture and I was doing it because it was part of who I am. I felt very betrayed by his torture of me and I got suicidal and he got aggressive and tried to convince everyone in the dorm it was consensual which caused the dorm and Title 9 office to completely ignore me and discount me. The rapist then denied my access to a doctor (The doctor I saw that Medicaid approved already was screaming and cursing at me and saying it was consensual and then the guy who raped me called the doctor to shout and curse and say it was consensual too.) So I got a lot of abuse and no one really understood my celibacy or my asexuality. I did not get help with my pain. So in addition the bleeding from the rape, I developed severe pain with peeing and difficulty walking without pain. I had a lot of seizures every day then which I now think to be Psychogenic Non Epileptic Seizure Disorder (a disorder caused by the mind of traumatized people to make the body have seizures usually associated with PTSD, Anxiety and panic attacks.) So I was just about to graduate when the rape happened and I had made plans to go get Wilderness First Responder Training in the Grand Canyon hoping to get hired in Wilderness Rescue and some places which do environmental education that require WFR training. I hoped I could get away from human trafficking and Wisconsin that way. Because I got raped and was in so so much pain, that it was hard to walk much less hike the Grand Canyon, I had to cancel and I ended up being homeless for 5 years instead of getting a job with my great new master’s degree. 3 of those 5 years I was experiencing severe chronic pelvic pain from the rape. I still am within the statutes of limitations and I hope to get the guy who raped me arrested and sued. 

So I had made another friend in the dorm, a girl, and she was nice but I mistook her kindness for her church being nice and helpful to me as a homeless person looking to find work I could do or a way to take care of myself while I had severe chronic pain and cried a lot every day because I hurt and was terrified to get raped by homeless men. Her church sent me to a series of abusive churches, shelters, and houses of abusive men who tried to rape me or did rape me and claimed that its okay or correct because I do not have a husband to protect me, and that I ought to marry one of the old men who was waiting for God to give him the reward of my body because he had practiced celibacy and I’m supposed to be the prize. I was like Princess Jasmine and I was like “I am not a prize to be won!”

Anyway she married one of the guys in the church after being celibate and taking part in the purity culture and she was like me, in that she didn’t think much about sex. But she felt strong fear and guilt whenever she did think about sex and wouldn’t hear from me that its normal and okay if you are not asexual to occasionally have thoughts on sex. Or just to have thoughts every day is also normal for non asexual people. The difference is that celibate people have the thoughts but they choose not to act on them and non celibate people choose to act on their sexual thoughts.  But she insisted that the thoughts themselves were terrible and unnatural and she needs to feel guilty about every time she has a sexual thought. I thought we were discussing heterosexual urges and thoughts because she is heterosexual. 

Then she suddenly told me she was scared that I was a lesbian and I had to reassure her that I was not one and that incest does not turn a person a lesbian. Its just a form of torture. Apparently the people in the church had been calling me an abomination and she was trying to stick up for me. Then they started to harass me and ask me and her if we want to kiss on the lips. I said No I don’t like kissing because Ive been raped and kissed by both genders. She was trying to kiss my cheek without my consent which made me uncomfortable so she decided she ought to kiss my shoulder instead and I just thought it was silly and I just let her. I knew she was trying to help me, to be a sister to me. Sometimes she comforted me by holding my hand which is a normal human thing to do. The men at the church saw how we were affectionate like sisters and shouted at us that they needed to marry us off so that we wouldn’t become lesbians even though we both told them we consider ourselves to be sisters. They ranted and raved that we’d one day come to wanting sex with each other and she cried and had a panic attack and I comforted her and told them to go away and then after they went away, I cried and had a panic attack with seizures and she comforted me. Then we went home.

The guy she married, he was abusing her emotionally and making her cry all the time and she used to call me for emotional support, even though I was also crying all the time and was being raped or emotionally abused by the church or the people they knew because I was homeless. I tried to encourage her to leave him and the church but she insisted that if she did that, her family would disown her and she would end up homeless like me. She thought the church and her abusive husband gave her stability. She didn’t think she could just use her college degree to support her. So the church got fed up with me not marrying anyone and running away from rapists and calling them rapists and trying to warn her so she would not get raped by the rapists who raped me, so they tried to throw away all my stuff I had stored in the church attic and tell her I died, which made her cry. She managed to salvage some of my stuff before they tossed it and has sent it to me but has said we can’t be friends and seems to want to believe that I am a bad person now. The church and her family and husband finally brainwashed her. :( Maybe in a few more years we can be friends.

So all of the homeless shelters and social workers I came into contact with while homeless and even the ones when I was not homeless insisted that I need to get into a sexual relationship with a man and that is how I’m supposed to stop being homeless and some suggested also getting myself pregnant. They expected me to just find a man and move in immediately and start having sex. They claimed I wanted sex, a family, a husband and children. They refused to listen to me when I explained I am asexual and aromantic and that I just want to find a way to take care of myself. Once I figure that out, I may get myself a pet and some good friends as I am advancing my environmental career, because I want to take care of the environment. Once I have a good enough network of friends, I may choose one to three friends to live with me in the same house, but separate bedrooms, to help me adopt one or more orphans and raise the children. I was called stupid and crazy for saying this and told I can easily end my homelessness if I submit to sex. I was also told to sell my body for sex by stupid misogynistic social worker men that made me scream and want to tear their throats out because besides physical and emotional pain from being human trafficked, there is a lot of rage. I had to give the rage to God to not completely lose my mind and try not to commit suicide again.

Some churches were a bit helpful but not that much because they thought the government was going to help me. The government had misogynists in it that wanted me to live with someone for sex or sell my body for sex. The government thought the churches would help me.  There were plenty of men in the church who wanted to take me home with them for sex when I came just to worship God but very few women willing to let me come over and stay with them to trade my labor for room and board. When it did happen, I was glad to clean for them or take care of their kids or pets.

I did get accepted into Palmer College of Chiropractic in 2015 in San Jose for doctoral degree and I thought things were looking up and I did get some chiropractic treatments to feel better but people constantly sexually harassed me and tried to get me to enter into sexual relationships with men. I survived one attempted rape by another person before a classmate broke into my apartment to rape me and then he tried to rape me again and I had to brandish a knife to get away and then another guy at the party tried to rape me. One of the teachers sexually harassed me really badly, so it wasn’t just students. They don’t have a Title 9 office. The therapist was not all that helpful and they only allowed me to see them 5 times. Everyone harassed me for looking at the genitals of the cadavers to give myself exposure therapy so that if I see a naked person who wants to rape me I can fight them off better without having a panic attack that makes me faint. They said I want sex with dead bodies. This hurt me because my stepdad raped my grandma before and after she died. I couldn’t get the police to do anything about both crimes. They just laughed at me. The other chiropractor who had dealt with chronic pelvic pain caused by rape was trying to force me to do it her way by having sex every day until her body healed even though it hurt her for three years. I had to tell her, no I am asexual and I have no interest in that and I believe I can heal without sex, over and over and over again. It was so exhausting. Anyway because of the stress and abuse, I ended up flunking half my classes I had taken over the past 6 months I was there, and being homeless again until I got into my current graduate program in the summer of 2018 where I work to protect the environment and there is a working Title 9 office here and good campus security to protect me. 

Throughout my time being homeless, I was continuously harassed and told to shave my legs and remove my body hair so I look like a woman and some people might have filmed me naked because they were concerned I am not a woman due to having all my body hair. Plus a police man molested me after a teen boy screamed at me for having armpit hair when I was swimming to try to get clean. So getting myself clean was dangerous and so was having body hair…but I like my body hair and I dont want to get rid of it. I almost got thrown out of a homeless shelter because they were worried I was a hermaphrodite and they said they only have beds for men and beds for women and hermaphrodites have to sleep outside or die. 

I was constantly being told by shelter staff that I deserve to die, they want me to die, they want to throw me out so I can die…followed by them telling me they hate me and then some weird explanation of how they think I ought to behave or live so they do not murder me with hypothermia (stop being a vegan, eat expired food and give myself food poisoning/botulism because other homeless people do, let the witch doctor posing as a dentist who tears out people’s teeth at the Salvation Army in Madison WI next to the hair salon named “Lust” and gives them no medicine tear out my perfectly good teeth for his tooth collection, have sex, shave my body hair, mop the same kitchen floor 5 times so they can break my spirit, etc) Hearing all the death threats was really scary and it made me cry a lot and have panic attacks and seizures because I knew that the likelihood of me dying of hypothermia was very real and if they really did throw me out to die in the freezing cold, I could be dead in a couple of hours. Some of them did throw me out in the freezing cold, hoping I would die, but thanks to God and my own drive to survive, I made it to warm place in time to not die. Yay! 

I did a variety of work trades in people’s farms or houses, some of which I nearly got raped in or did get raped in and then I was singing musical theater or Christmas carols as a minstrel on people’s porches until I entered this graduate program. 

It’s a pretty good graduate program but the police of the town are mean and misogynistic and they don’t help women, children or animals. They are still using the old Nazi inspired gas chambers in the animal shelter to kill the animals and that takes like an hour of suffering. I know about it because my mom gave her approval that the pound in Idaho ought to make me kill some shelter animals by gas chamber when I was a 10 year old child and I got really upset and tried to kill myself in the gas chamber along with the cat. I survived but the cats and dogs I was forced to kill did not. Since 1992 when I was forced to do that a lot of states have banned animal gas chambers but not this one and not this town. When I called the police to come stop people hitting each other, their kids and their dogs, they literally told me that they go home to hit their own kids and dogs so I need to stop reporting domestic violence and animal abuse to them. They also called me a schizophrenic and they said they do not help disabled people. I went to the police station to report and the officer kicked a police dog right in front of me. They are cruel and hate women and children. My friend got raped and defended herself and they arrested her and put her in jail and refused to give her the bipolar medicine she needed so she was running into the walls and then they strapped her to a restraining table and this hurt her and made her have a miscarriage. Now she hallucinates that she sees police all the time because of the trauma. She got raped by some other people too and then one o the rapists was threatening me and I knew I couldn’t rely on the police to help us so I tried to just tell the security staff at her apartment to take care of her as I knawed on my hands in fear and tried not to draw blood. The KKK is active here but so far I haven’t been raped my anyone. Anyway I don’t know what became of her, because the last I knew she was living with a rapist who took away her phone and I can’t get in touch with her anymore. :( She came from an abusive family of lesbians who beat her and tried to kill her so it’s not like she is able to reach out to family for support. I hope she found a shelter. I kept on sending her shelter links. I only got raped one time at a couple of shelters and not at all at some others (just had to deal with panic attacks and lots of death threats and horrible food and emotional abuse) so I was safer there in shelters than being put through rape every day by human traffickers who were making me lose lots of blood every day and trying to murder me every day. 

So when the pandemic hit, I was really pleased to be able to move on campus where we have kind and responsible officers to take care of us and not a lot of violence. There is still lots of drug abuse on campus and that was giving me asthma attacks. But I have an air purifier now that takes the secondhand vape and smoke out of the air which is actually not allowed on campus. I wasn’t allowed to live on campus before, because they try to say that all non-freshman must live off campus, despite how violent and awful the town and the police and all the drug addicts living in all the off campus apartments are. So they took my money to live on campus because the freshman went home and they wanted people to pay them to live in residence halls.

Then I finally started to get a little help from medical professionals and got a letter stating my PTSD and need to be accommodated in class and in housing and I finally have a safe place to be. I have now been told I may have mild agoraphobia because of hard it is for me to leave the safe place I have found. Hopefully once I am done here, I can find another safe place to be and can still support my progress through academia to become a professor who works to save the environment and teach children and I can just be an asexual without any more bloodshed and torture heaped on top of me. I’m trying to make friends. I have two good friends that are treating me well and do not seem to be associated with any bad churches that want to hurt me or kill me. We find ways to worship God over the phone or just hang out and pray and talk together. We sometimes just hang out and hike. I spend a lot of time alone, trying to heal. I still need a lot of medical care that I am not getting and I keep not getting hired, so I can’t pay for it. I just did my appeal for SSI disability because I got rejected the first time. If I get SSI, then I can get Medicaid again. Right now, I’m not eligible and I got rejected. I feel pretty good and relaxed most of the time and I am working on my thesis to help homeless people experience nature mindfulness meditation so they can heal any broken bonds they may have with nature. It’s a qualitative study with pre and post interviews that will explore the relationships homeless people have with nature. I should be able to publish it in a sociology journal. :) We’ll see. I’m looking forward to helping them, so hopefully I have come somewhat full circle. 

I hope the rest of my life is much more productive and I can teach a lot more people and avoid all the violence. So far I have taught about 7,400 children about nature and also English in my temporary seasonal jobs and really connect with them and have a positive impact on them despite bleeding and being tortured, and I was able to do a bit of substitute and assistant teaching during the 5 years of homelessness as a working homeless person living out of my SUV. So I know I have already impacted a lot of lives and helped the environment too. I will just be able to do so much more once the torture stops and I am accepted as I am. Christian vegan asexual kind creative powerful academic woman. I am going to try to get everyone into jail that I can who hurt me. This will help protect others. :)

Thank you for reading my story. :) Please share it. We should educate people about human trafficking and asexuality and aromanticism. 

Have a great day, friends! :) <3

Why is my groomer actually trying to fucking talk to me again right now bitch go the fuck away I don’t want shit to do with you and I certainly don’t give a fuck about your college life oh my god I really didn’t need this shit right now I’m already emotionally fucked as it is i don’t need them on top of it

darkchoco-against-evil:

YOU W H A T

Oh my god this hell game

I got a lot of ads for this damn thing I kept seeing it on like kissanime (kissanime has a lot of gross ads in general honestly) and youtube and this game uses really nasty ass shit to promote it like it actually fetishized r*pe several times and it was so fucking up and it really freaked me out

I didn’t want to remember it existed ugh

chris-hansen-the-pedoslayer:

Alright, let me explain what’s going on with my older sister and her pedo boyfriend. Also, here’s some background.

1. She was in legal trouble when she was 16 for sending nudes and apparently the police couldn’t do anything about it because she was “legal”. (I’m calling BS, the SFPD is just lazy and doesn’t want to do shit.)

2. She’s gone on a date with a 20 something yr old when she was about 16-17. I was the one to tell my parents because I feared something bad was going to happen to her. We searched for her, she wasn’t at the place she told me they were going to be. This dumbass went in his car and they drove around. I know they fucked, there’s no doubt.

3. Her current boyfriend is a 34 yr old named Austin who lives in Mitchell, South Dakota. He has 3 kids about my age or younger, we’re still not sure. I’ve been told by my friends, who sit with my sister at lunch and endure her gushing about him, he has been with girls younger than my sister.

4. My sister spread rumors after her (now ex) best friend denied her request to join her and the pedo in a threesome. This lead to the friend winding up in the hospital.

Now I’m gonna post some evidence my friends and I have gathered. TIGGER WARNING FOR PEDOPHILIA!!!

This is my sister’s discord. Her own words. Trigger warning for self harm and suicide on the next picture.

This her once best friend who was driven to suicide because she didn’t want to get involved with their relationship. My sister tried to kill her once best friend.

And here’s my Waifu. Also ignore the incorrect spelling of my sister’s name! But it just shows how fucked up my sister is and how far gone she is.

TLDR; My sister is dating a pedophile and my parents won’t do shit.