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ya me cansé de sentirme culpable cada vez que como, por la chucha…
ahora estás caminando hacia atrás, a un lugar que llamas hogar, pero te sientes tan sólo. los mismos golpes hirientes, en tu lugar más oscuro en tus oídos vírgenes, los comentarios que hacen y si ellos, si ellos realmente supieran de esas cosas que haces en tu habitación para ocultar el dolor
Guys I did not forget, I know it’s been a while but I’ve been going under major changes in my life. It started with my dog dying, me getting a promotion as manager, losing my friends and loved ones, going full time to college while working a full time “part time” job as manager at a major grocery store, the pandemic hitting, and finally getting some freedom from people being near me(social anxiety). Suddenly people started to come back and I went into psychosis, could function at my job but had mental breakdowns to the point they were going to fire me if I didn’t get help. Met with a therapist who threw me into multiple psych wards, deemed me a danger to myself and others, had a whole group of mental health professionals try and tackle my issues with intensive out patient. I started to gain weight, hate my body, take medication, lose my thoughts, get detained by police at my job because my therapist deemed me a threat to myself and others again and again and again. Lost my position as manager, they threw me back into the store where I hated, gave me a new job there which was alright but they didn’t understand I was so desperate to leave there because I had stalkers.
Once again, I was harassed by my therapist because I’m atheist and she told me I was condemning myself to hell. She made me cry constantly because I do not love myself and have more love for others in need than “pitiful”old me. Finally had enough of her bullshit, got in touch with some old acquaintances and thought everything was good. Finally got my drivers license and a car. Ended up getting in multiple accidents with parked cars cause my therapist would talk to my psychiatrist since they used to work together and had me drugged up the ass without having any warnings on the labels saying “do not operate vehicles once taken”. Had a boyfriend who treated l like shit and raped me after constantly asking him to pull out because it hurt and telling him I didn’t want to do it anymore. Grew more and more suicidal to the point I told him to get the fuck off of me and broke up with him the same day because I was just a cumdumpster and a cab to him. My ex-fiance came back into my life and we remained friends but it was always on and off. A “friend” then sexually assaulted me multiple times while I was still heavily medicated. Got sent to the psych ward again and finally got a great therapist who’s a criminal psychologist and can deal with my homicidal ideation and not deem me as a threat because he knows I would never act upon it. Got a different job, and they fired me because I wanted to go back to school and work fewer days which they agreed to but suddenly changed.
Changed my major from nutrition to mortuary science, went back into school, And was struggling to pay bills, feed my companion animals, and pay for my medication and appointments. Now I have a steady job as a caregiver, only have two clients but they adore me and I adore them. Able to pay for my stuff again and lost 25 pounds but still struggle with my body dysmorphia. I got rid of the people who hurt me and now I’m lucky enough to have 3 people I consider friends. Now I’m almost done with my prerequisite for MS and no one is abusing me but my parents still. I’m not happy, I’ll probably never be, but right now I’m in a decent spot. Sorry for the wait, this will be completed. I’m not too sure if I will do a voice-over tier list but I will still definitely do the tier list. For those who need stuff right now here’s the hookup. Please eat and stay safe
i didn’t even realize we hit 100 followers thank you babes ❤️
Violet, you’re turning violet!
how tf does she have cheekbones like that
my last post got 83 notes omg thank youjust wanted to say hi new followers❣️❣️❣️
Sahar as Megan Fox in “Jennifer’s Body” is something i never knew i needed
