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⚠️TW - Vivid and Visible Bones In Pictures⚠️

Let me know if this is crossing the line because I WILL take it down if anyone feels it necessary

OkNOW I’m at 115lbsfinally

Through rigorous and exhausting exercise and countless sleepless night and 4 years of this bullshit I roughly have the body shape I want

Now I just need to proportionally lose 15-20 more pounds. Thinking rationally I know that wont happen perfectly so maybe another 4 years of this bullshit will finally get me where I want to be :,)

Being on your period and trying to lose weight while you’re bloated all to hell is wack

I’m not doing good with eating, or rather with not eating, and I hate myself for it just oh so much. I just wanna be skinny and attractive is that too much to ask???????

I was right, I gained, I’m 116.2

TW - Body Check, Weight & Calorie Rant

I’m getting a bit paranoid at the idea that I somehow gained cause I cant really see my ribs like I did a couple days ago n like Sunday I had a bad eating day (over 600 I’m certain) n since then havent been able to weigh n ik if I’m above or below 121 based on how much my ribs show when I suck in n I cant see them too well I dont think but also I’ve seen minor changes in where I lose weight ever since I’ve been losing n gaining the same 15-17 pounds over 4 years n I dont know what to think!!

Weighed myself again, its says I’m 116.2

Not sure if it true, but I weighed all round the kitchen n it said the same each time sooo…we’ll see ;)

I think my parents are onto me again, idk. The vibe of the house is strange, particularly my mom

One day I sware this’ll be me (her BMI 15.9 109lbs)

My semi-inactivity is due to the fact that I am currently planning my YouTube Channel :)

And I’m a fat b/tch so y'know

Btw I’ve finally figured out that my desired fashion style is Alternative so I’m happy to finally figure that out

Mom made dinner last night that I couldn’t get out of and it was well over 1000 cals and I’m still so depressed and disgusted over it.

I’m hoping to go to a friends house Saturday and secretly go to a party to just get high n wasted n I wanted to be 110 by then but now it probably won’t happen even if i do go :(((

This formatting looks kinda wonky, but it gets the point across‍♀️I wanna weigh cause Im paranoid but I cant cause parents are home.

Guys I did not forget, I know it’s been a while but I’ve been going under major changes in my life. It started with my dog dying, me getting a promotion as manager, losing my friends and loved ones, going full time to college while working a full time “part time” job as manager at a major grocery store, the pandemic hitting, and finally getting some freedom from people being near me(social anxiety). Suddenly people started to come back and I went into psychosis, could function at my job but had mental breakdowns to the point they were going to fire me if I didn’t get help. Met with a therapist who threw me into multiple psych wards, deemed me a danger to myself and others, had a whole group of mental health professionals try and tackle my issues with intensive out patient. I started to gain weight, hate my body, take medication, lose my thoughts, get detained by police at my job because my therapist deemed me a threat to myself and others again and again and again. Lost my position as manager, they threw me back into the store where I hated, gave me a new job there which was alright but they didn’t understand I was so desperate to leave there because I had stalkers.

Once again, I was harassed by my therapist because I’m atheist and she told me I was condemning myself to hell. She made me cry constantly because I do not love myself and have more love for others in need than “pitiful”old me. Finally had enough of her bullshit, got in touch with some old acquaintances and thought everything was good. Finally got my drivers license and a car. Ended up getting in multiple accidents with parked cars cause my therapist would talk to my psychiatrist since they used to work together and had me drugged up the ass without having any warnings on the labels saying “do not operate vehicles once taken”. Had a boyfriend who treated l like shit and raped me after constantly asking him to pull out because it hurt and telling him I didn’t want to do it anymore. Grew more and more suicidal to the point I told him to get the fuck off of me and broke up with him the same day because I was just a cumdumpster and a cab to him. My ex-fiance came back into my life and we remained friends but it was always on and off. A “friend” then sexually assaulted me multiple times while I was still heavily medicated. Got sent to the psych ward again and finally got a great therapist who’s a criminal psychologist and can deal with my homicidal ideation and not deem me as a threat because he knows I would never act upon it. Got a different job, and they fired me because I wanted to go back to school and work fewer days which they agreed to but suddenly changed.

Changed my major from nutrition to mortuary science, went back into school, And was struggling to pay bills, feed my companion animals, and pay for my medication and appointments. Now I have a steady job as a caregiver, only have two clients but they adore me and I adore them. Able to pay for my stuff again and lost 25 pounds but still struggle with my body dysmorphia. I got rid of the people who hurt me and now I’m lucky enough to have 3 people I consider friends. Now I’m almost done with my prerequisite for MS and no one is abusing me but my parents still. I’m not happy, I’ll probably never be, but right now I’m in a decent spot. Sorry for the wait, this will be completed. I’m not too sure if I will do a voice-over tier list but I will still definitely do the tier list. For those who need stuff right now here’s the hookup. Please eat and stay safe