#food log

Breakfast: Cottage cheese and mixed greens frittata

This has been my favorite high protein breakfast lately. It keeps me full all day, I get lots of greens in with out eating a huge salad and it could also be portioned through out the day :)

3 eggs

½ cup 4% cottage cheese

126g mixed greens

¾ tbsp butter

Salt/pepper to taste

Pinch of nutmeg and garlic powder

Preheat oven or toaster to 400. Whip eggs thoroughly, add cottage cheese and seasonings and mix. In a skillet, cook salad greens until wilted, remove and set aside. Add butter to heat-proof skillet coat thoroughly using pastry brush. Pour egg mixture into hot skillet, place greens on top, and place in hit oven or toaster oven! Ready when no longer jiggy!

435 calories

Lunch:

2 cups baby carrots grazed on over the afternoon 140cal

Snack:

I don’t have a sweet tooth but my biggest weakness is chips and dip :/ I try to have some through out the week so i don’t binge on a huge bag bc they r my one true comfort food.

10 tortilla chips and ¼ cup refried beans

210 cal

Dinner: Avocado and meat ball salad

100g lean meatball mixture

125g chopped romaine lettuce

¼ avocado

¼ cup 4% cottage cheese

½ lime, juiced

2 tbsp red onion

Salt/pepper to taste

I make four small meat balls and pop them in the air fryer on 350 for 10 min to cook to render out some fat. Then, dice the onion finely, mash the avocado and mix with cottage cheese, salt, pepper, and lime. Kinda weird, I know, but it makes a creamy dressing and adds extra protein w/o making it super unhealthy. Toss dressing romaine and top with meat balls! Enjoy :)

410 calories

Total: 1195 calories

Food diary: 11/09/2020

Breakfast: Black Coffee, vitamin D, biotin, 20g of almonds

120 cal

Lunch: 1 cup lentil soup, ½ cup rice, 75g grilled chicken, 1 tbsp bbq sauce

475 cal

Dinner: 1 cup lentil soup

180 cal

Total: 775 calories

I want to be more active on here but i kind of feel like I’m talking to an empty room sometimes so I forget. I wasn’t restricting for a few weeks and my weight kind of stabilized around 160 but I don’t like how it feels. I can feel fat where I didn’t have it before. I don’t really recognize my body as my own and it’s really dyshoric. I don’t hate how I look and my body is healthy but like? It feels at odds w how I feel abt my gender. Like I see a healthy dude but I don’t like the idea of being like a burly man iykwim lmfao. Same way I feel about chest hair. Like, it’s fine and I don’t hate it but it I feel more myself with out it. Non binary things

Food diary

Breakfast

Rose and mint tea, almonds

140 calories

Lunch

10 asparagus spears

1 small tilapia filet

½ cup Pineapple avocado coleslaw ( coleslaw mix, sliced pineapple, diced tomato, diced red onion, chopped cilantro, avocado in place of Mayo, lime juice, and salt)

275 calories

Dinner

Tilapia filet w coconut milk and red peppers

Sweet coconut rice ( rice, a bit of honey, and a bit of low fat coconut milk)

475 calories

Snack

Tortilla chips and pineapple avocado coleslaw as salsa but a added a bit of mayo to make it extra creamy

360 calories

Total:1250 calories

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Today was nice, I’ve been pretty good since the 28th of December. Before then I was just eating whatever and i gained little weight, unfortunately :/ I’ve been working out a little bit every day and it is keeping me on track. Even light work outs are helpful so I don’t feel like a failure. With my ED in the past the most difficult thing to deal with is my all or nothing mentality. Like, if I don’t work out one day I may as not well work out for a month OR if I ate one unhealthy thing I may as well eat the rest. So doing small work outs and having at least ONE healthy meal a day reminds me to stay on track and not catastrophize for making small mistakes.

I rode my bike for about 45 minutes through out the day, 5-10 minutes of jumping jacks and I also played just dance for a bit :) I probably burned about 700 calories from working out. Also trying to stand more so I burn more calories.

Food diary 10/18

1 piece of brioche

Half of a buttered bagel

1 chocolate cupcake

1 slice veggie pizza

1 slice pepperoni pizza

Yday was a big family event so I ate a non sus amount to make sure no one made comments. I got a lot of compliments on my outfit which I think is just code for I lost some weight bc they’ve seen this outfit before lmfao. They didn’t notice bc i don’t see them often but, I gained some weight back bc I honestly forgot I was restricting for a few weeks bc I became hyper-fixated on sewing and making clothes (Thanks ADHD) and my ED took the back seat for a bit lmfao.

Wearing a mask all day feels like a constant reminder not to eat. I going to try to work out more this week. Everything feels so pointless lately and the election really has me so fucked up. It’s so nice enjoying pizza sometimes and forgetting that we’re spiraling toward a fascist techno-autocracy

I forgot to log yday :( but here’s a rundown

Breakfast: skip/coffee

Lunch: salad (cucumbers, tomatoes, red onions, avocado feta, mint, and cilantro)

Small piece of chicharon, the way my mom fries it she renders almost all of the fat out until it’s practically porn rinds lol

A small bowl of beans and collard greens

450~650 calories

Dinner:

3 tortillas, two eggs, some refried black beans, feta, sour cream and my homemade hot salsa

580 calories

Total 1030-1230 calories

My intake was a little higher yday I was under 1000 for ten days. I definitely feel hungrier when I eat more lmao which is so weird. But my body has gotten used to eating less pretty quickly. Hope fully it lasts and I’m not having crazy cravings in a few days :| but I think treating myself every few days is rly helpful in maintaining focus. One day of a few bits of comfort food every few days isn’t going to stop my progress overall. I do feel kinda guilty tho :| I wish I didn’t but I do.

Breakfast: skip/ black coffee

Lunch:

I made super big cabbage pancakes! So yummy and so filling! Didn’t get hungry until around 9pm!!

Cabbage 160g
Onion 25g
Kimchi 10g
Ap Flour 25g
Sesame oil ½ tsp

Stirred up and placed in an electric omelet maker! Then topped kinda like okonomiyaki!

Topping:
Sour cream 1tbsp
Hoisin 1tbsp
Sriracha 1 tsp

388 calories

Exercise:

I did a 20 minute cardio circuit and then I went for a lonnnng walk and walked 14k steps!

burned -1000~1200 calories

Dinner:

I made I big big big cabbage & veggie stew w eggs tonight after my long walk. I had a lot of cabbage today lol

Cabbage 270g
Carrots 83g
Sweet potato 125g
Onion 25g
2 cloves garlic  
½ in piece of ginger
Kimchi 10g
Gochujung 1tbsp
Boullion base ½ tsp
2 hard boiled eggs
Water for cooking

524 calories

This was wayyyy too big but I was super hungry lol

Next time I’ll make it in the afternoon and eat it throughout the day bc PHEW lol I got two huge bowls out of this recipe. Cabbage rly is so helpful to get nice n full :)

Total today: 914 calories

Fooood Diary:

Breakfast:

skip/black coffee

Lunch:

78g grilled chicken, 126g of broccoli, 113 g of roasted potato, 1 tsp olive oil used and ½ tsp of hoisin for dipping
378 cal

Snack:

1 sachet of gold kili matcha latte (on ice, mixed w water) and 1 tbps of peanut butter with my daily vitamins.
215 cal

Dinner:

2 scoops cookies & cream protein powder 
280 cal

Total: 873 calories

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I did a bunch of push ups, legs work outs, and finished off w intense cardio for 20 min. I live in a basement so I can’t only do so much bc the ceiling is apt 4 inches above my head lol

I thought I’d add some protein powder bc I think was getting light headed and hungry at night from not having enough protein in my diet. So far so good. I’ve been under 1000 daily cal for a week now n so far I feel good! Watching Korean diet vlogs has been so so so helpful lol bc american diet videos are…depressing lmao. I love how they include stuff they love along w low cal recipes so it never seems too too extreme. And they show their real portions which tend to be quite small. I can only eat so many salads and smoothies b4 I have a mental break lmao

Fooood Diary:

Breakfast: skip/black coffee

Lunch: 100g turkey meat, 100g rice & peas, 1 cup cucumber & tomato salad

289 cal

Dinner: Shrimp& cucumber salad!

- 100g shrimp, 50g cucumber, sliced onion, cilantro, chili vinegar (w a tsp of honey, and a few drops of sesame oil)

Bibigo steamed dumplings w a few drops of Sichuan chili oil

383 cal

Total: 672 calories

Fooood diary

Breakfast: black coffee

Lunch:

Turkey, ¼ cup mashed potatoes, ¼ cup of corn, 1tbps butter

537 cal

Snack :

Iced Matcha latte

120 cal

Dinner:

Bibigo steamed dumplings, Sichuan chili oil, and hoisin sauce.

303 cal

Total: 960 calories :)

I feel better today! Weighed 158 today, too!

Fooood Diary

Breakfast: black coffee

Lunch: Burger!

2 slices of multi grain bread

76g 80% lean beef burger

Lettuce, tomato, onion

1 tbsp hoisin sauce

1 tsp sriracha

528 cal

Dinner: I was still full so I didn’t eat dinner but I had 4 oz of rum and 1 lime with seltzer lol

240 cal

Total: 768 calories

I weighed myself and noticed i’m 158 which is wild but I’ll keep going. My goal is still 155 by the end of the month but if I lose a little more I won’t complain. I feel like I look the same as I did when I was 174 a few months ago which is…annoying lol. I lost 15 pounds and I look the same :| I probably won’t notice too much until I’m around 150

Foood diary

Breakfast

Spinach and feta omelet and a sausage

Lunch

2 slices of pizza , two cocktails

Dinner

4 cauliflower bites, some fries, a cocktail and 2 beers

Its seems like a binge day but i def held back a lot despite being w friends and family all day. I felt like i ate way more but now seeing it written down its not a crazy as it seemed lmfao. The alcohol is a lot but i wanted to have a good time lol. Gna try to work out asap tmrw morning and restrict until 3pm ish

Idk if i binged today or not like i think i def ate below my maintenance cAlories but im so full bc i waited until 8pm to have a full meal

Fooood diary 6.17.21

No breakfast

Lunch! I took a hunk baguette and then I sliced it into thin pieces, put it in the toaster for two minutes and then I spread a little bit of ricotta a drizzle of olive oil, some roasted red peppers, and salt and pepper

Dinner!

I had 2 hot dogs cut into octopi, iceberg lettuce, some tomato with a drizzle of ranch

I finished the night with a matcha latte(120c) :)

Total: 923 calories

Dinner with my ride or die was a big pile of tofu chow mein!

The leftovers from this will be tomorrow’s lunch too, which saves me so much time!

Food and Calories

•  Small bowl of meat with a slice of bread (Cultural dish, Homemade, don’t know the calories but if I had to guess about 320?)
  
•  Some cranberry juice (60 cal)
  
•  2 sips of coffee with a bit of milk and sugar in it (Maybe 20 cals lol)

TOTAL: Approx 330-500 calories

Exercise

• Emi Wong’s 15 minute leg slimming work out (Youtube)
• Cleaned my yard?
• Walked up and down the stairs a couple times, not sure if that counts as anything.

Extras

• I took some vitamins and drank a couple glasses of water so that’s fun 
  

Let me know if you guys want progress pictures every week or so, I’ll for sure gross y’all out by how fat and ugly my ass is LMAOO but yeah let me know.

26/01/21

todays meals + had one slice of bread :/

[ 5km ‍♀️ ]

What i ate today

BREAKFAST:

• a latte ( cow milk: 45 kcal + coffee: 0 kcal + sugar: 16 kcal )

• a chocolate bar ( 86 kcal )

TOTAL: 147 kcal

DINNER:

( i don’t have any pics )

• 7 chicken nuggets ( 238 kcal )

• a vanilla yogurt ( 160 kcal )

TOTAL: 398 kcal

TOTAL OF THE DAY: 545 kcal

I forgot to log the past two days so, on Wednesday I had a small bowl of cinnamon toast crunch and a splash of milk for 203 calories and then, I had tuna for supper for 154 calories and then, half a cup of ice cream for dessert 160 calories and then today, or I guess it’s yesterday now lol, I binged on mostly cinnamon toast crunch and oatmeal cookies with Pb and it came to around 2690 cals. Today my moms making me go out for supper so, I’m gonna try to find the least calorific thing on the menu cause the last two days I ate so shitty lol and then, the next two days after that I’m gonna try to fast.

Guys I did not forget, I know it’s been a while but I’ve been going under major changes in my life. It started with my dog dying, me getting a promotion as manager, losing my friends and loved ones, going full time to college while working a full time “part time” job as manager at a major grocery store, the pandemic hitting, and finally getting some freedom from people being near me(social anxiety). Suddenly people started to come back and I went into psychosis, could function at my job but had mental breakdowns to the point they were going to fire me if I didn’t get help. Met with a therapist who threw me into multiple psych wards, deemed me a danger to myself and others, had a whole group of mental health professionals try and tackle my issues with intensive out patient. I started to gain weight, hate my body, take medication, lose my thoughts, get detained by police at my job because my therapist deemed me a threat to myself and others again and again and again. Lost my position as manager, they threw me back into the store where I hated, gave me a new job there which was alright but they didn’t understand I was so desperate to leave there because I had stalkers.

Once again, I was harassed by my therapist because I’m atheist and she told me I was condemning myself to hell. She made me cry constantly because I do not love myself and have more love for others in need than “pitiful”old me. Finally had enough of her bullshit, got in touch with some old acquaintances and thought everything was good. Finally got my drivers license and a car. Ended up getting in multiple accidents with parked cars cause my therapist would talk to my psychiatrist since they used to work together and had me drugged up the ass without having any warnings on the labels saying “do not operate vehicles once taken”. Had a boyfriend who treated l like shit and raped me after constantly asking him to pull out because it hurt and telling him I didn’t want to do it anymore. Grew more and more suicidal to the point I told him to get the fuck off of me and broke up with him the same day because I was just a cumdumpster and a cab to him. My ex-fiance came back into my life and we remained friends but it was always on and off. A “friend” then sexually assaulted me multiple times while I was still heavily medicated. Got sent to the psych ward again and finally got a great therapist who’s a criminal psychologist and can deal with my homicidal ideation and not deem me as a threat because he knows I would never act upon it. Got a different job, and they fired me because I wanted to go back to school and work fewer days which they agreed to but suddenly changed.

Changed my major from nutrition to mortuary science, went back into school, And was struggling to pay bills, feed my companion animals, and pay for my medication and appointments. Now I have a steady job as a caregiver, only have two clients but they adore me and I adore them. Able to pay for my stuff again and lost 25 pounds but still struggle with my body dysmorphia. I got rid of the people who hurt me and now I’m lucky enough to have 3 people I consider friends. Now I’m almost done with my prerequisite for MS and no one is abusing me but my parents still. I’m not happy, I’ll probably never be, but right now I’m in a decent spot. Sorry for the wait, this will be completed. I’m not too sure if I will do a voice-over tier list but I will still definitely do the tier list. For those who need stuff right now here’s the hookup. Please eat and stay safe

~daily entry~

•july 2nd 2021•

today was better than yesterday. Wouldn’t even hv ate today if my mom didn’t make me stay downstairs with her. lost my control and ate :/

i think it’s okay tho bc i had a semi-healthy dinner with lots of protein. it also filled me up a lot which feels disgusting but ik i’ll still weigh less in the morning. i moved some furniture today and i’m sure that burned a lot of cals. disappointed that i ate bc i wasn’t even hungry.

~what i ate~

• few bites of steak
• 4 small grilled mushrooms w/ cheese
• banana baby puffs

total calories: <400