#anafoods

MAYDAY MAYDAY

my family is going going to the beach this weekend (not to swim or anything it’s too cold) and my mom was saying how we’re gonna try a few restaurants and i’m so scared i’m gonna gain weight from this $hit

so ur telling me normal ppl don’t compulsively weigh themselves everytime they go to the bathroom ?

ok so i’ve lost 5 pounds by restricting and eating abt 400-500 calls a day

and i hv more motivation cuz i have a doctors appointment on the 24th so my mom is gonna see how much i way and i’m so scared

she’s gonna fat shame me i know it

i ate and then had a small binge and i’m so pissed at myself

i’ll weigh myself tmr morning to see if i gained

but i don’t really know if will bc my total for today was 1330

UGH i’ve been restricting a lot but hit a plateau so i’m taking today and eating about 500-600 cal to give my metabolism a boost

so i ate a whole bowl or strawberries and some goldfish

i’ll probably eat more later but i already feel fatter :/

~daily entry~

•july 2nd 2021•

today was better than yesterday. Wouldn’t even hv ate today if my mom didn’t make me stay downstairs with her. lost my control and ate :/

i think it’s okay tho bc i had a semi-healthy dinner with lots of protein. it also filled me up a lot which feels disgusting but ik i’ll still weigh less in the morning. i moved some furniture today and i’m sure that burned a lot of cals. disappointed that i ate bc i wasn’t even hungry.

~what i ate~

• few bites of steak
• 4 small grilled mushrooms w/ cheese
• banana baby puffs

total calories: <400