78g grilled chicken, 126g of broccoli, 113 g of roasted potato, 1 tsp olive oil used and ½ tsp of hoisin for dipping 378 cal
Snack:
1 sachet of gold kili matcha latte (on ice, mixed w water) and 1 tbps of peanut butter with my daily vitamins. 215 cal
Dinner:
2 scoops cookies & cream protein powder 280 cal
Total: 873 calories
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I did a bunch of push ups, legs work outs, and finished off w intense cardio for 20 min. I live in a basement so I can’t only do so much bc the ceiling is apt 4 inches above my head lol
I thought I’d add some protein powder bc I think was getting light headed and hungry at night from not having enough protein in my diet. So far so good. I’ve been under 1000 daily cal for a week now n so far I feel good! Watching Korean diet vlogs has been so so so helpful lol bc american diet videos are…depressing lmao. I love how they include stuff they love along w low cal recipes so it never seems too too extreme. And they show their real portions which tend to be quite small. I can only eat so many salads and smoothies b4 I have a mental break lmao
my friend is recovered and keeps trying to get me to talk about my ed with my parents/ therapist but I just fucking can’t. I can’t face the mere idea I would no longer have this thing that I can turn to. my life will be shitty and there would be nothing I could do about it
When people ask me why I don’t like shopping, I tell them it’s because it bores me, but the truth is that when I go into a store, I’m excited to see all those dresses and skirts, but then when I see my reflection, I remember that my body doesn’t look the way I would like it to and that probably none of those clothes will look good on me.
Those thoughts make me want to cry and I get frustrated, I leave the store and come home with empty hands and an empty stomach I don’t want to fill.
Does anyone else have a scene playing in you head that goes like this: you constantly wear loose clothes so no one can see your body or how skinny you get and then one time you wear something that reveals your body and BOOM you’re tiny as hell and people didn’t expect you to look like that but now they’re jealous
don’t you hate when your ED causes you to drink more caffeine to suppress your appetite which causes your anxiety to get worse which makes your ED get worse to cope with the anxiety so you drink more caffeine to suppress your appetite and your anxiety gets worse because of the caffeine and it just goes on like that
