#ana blog
heyy so my main account is @cherry-flavoured-poison<3
cause I just realised that all my mutuals probably don’t realise I followed them back :(
GUYS I DID IT, I actually fucking did it, I wanted to reach my goal weight by Christmas and I did it!!!!<<<<33333
Aaaahhhhh I just needed to tell someone <3
I just want my bellybutton to be like
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Instead of
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Yanno
I just had a panic attack (and was literally sobbing uncontrollably on the kitchen floor til my parents found me) cause I had planned to have soup and boiled eggs for dinner and I couldn’t find the right spoon and the eggshells didn’t peel off smoothly enough…. Like…Umm wtf…..it’s not that deep babes xo
*starts my period*
ed brain-
…… :(
rational brain-
you sick fuck
my mum just hugged me and said ‘I can feel your ribs… I shouldn’t be able to feel your ribs’ which made me happy until I realised there’s such a double standard for me and my sister like my mum would never say that to her and she’s skinnier than me but it’s because she’s always been skinny so they think it’s normal and healthy for her but I’ve always been fat so they think it’s unnatural and unhealthy for me (like yes I know I’ve lost weight in an unhealthy way but it makes me feel like I’ll always be seen as fat by the people who know me)
*trying to open up about my ed*
‘So do you just like not eat’
me: ‘obviously I eat’
‘Oh that’s good then, I’m glad it’s not serious’
I DONT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MYSELF AROUND FOOD
someone lock me up?
i feel like i just want to be really sickly skinny to prove a point
i feel like that isnt normal
i am NOT gonna binge today
losing weight uve already lost before is so draining
not knowing wether you didnt get your period because you dont eat or because your pregnant is a really tough situation
someone tell me to stop eating skittles pls
its crazy how much my mindset and mentality changes once i start binging i stg
do i eat or just go to sleep?
lol i ate and purged idk why im saying lol cause im the opposite of funny kill me now
do i eat or just go to sleep?
watching mukbangs>>>>actually eating
why does my friend telling me he wants me to put on weight cause ive lost too much make me want to loose more
he also told me ive lost my but idc he shouldnt be looking anyways
the amount of time i spend thinking about food is just fat.
todays the first day this week that i haven’t binged and have stayed in my calories
praise the lord✋
