Have y'all ever had a London Fog?

As in the drink, not the literal fog of london. It’s super good, here’s the low cal version I like to make:

ingredients for about 2 cups:

• 1-2 bags of earl grey tea (black tea works well too) - 0cal
• ½ cup of your preferred milk (I use unsweetened almond - 15cal)
• sugar free vanilla syrup to taste - 0cal
• driedlavender - 0cal

instructions:

1. Place your tea bag(s) and lavender into a cup. I don’t usually measure how much lavender I use, but it’s probably a little under 1 tablespoon.
2. Pour in your boiling water and brew your tea. I like to use 2 bags of earl grey tea, and i like to brew about 1.5 cups. I usually brew my tea for about 3-5 minutes, but you can leave your tea bags in for longer or shorter to change how strong the tea is.
3. Remove your tea bag(s) and lavender. If the lavender was lose in your cup you may want to strain it out.
4. Add your milk, and sweeten to taste with the vanilla syrup.
5. Enjoy!

if you don’t have a vanilla syrup, you can just use sugar (or any sweetener) and vanilla extract. Just be careful when adding the vanilla because the extract is very strong!

You can skip the lavender without ruining the drink, I know it’s not an herb that everybody has.

Let me put you all on pigly.com, it’s a weight loss calculator AND it tells you how many cals your gonna need to eat a day to maintain your current weight and goal weight!

It’s helped me a lot because my biggest fear is not knowing how much I need to eat to maintain my goal weights, but now I know!

you just plug in some current stats, your goal weight, and when you want to reach it. The website will tell you what you’d need to eat to get there! no warnings or blocks if you would need to eat less than 1,000 cals.

here’s a link: pigly.com

(while you can use ft/in or cm for your height, your weight is measured in lbs and I didn’t find a way to change that. just a heads up)

when counting my calories should i count liquid calories too ?

the fact that some people can eat three meals a day without having a panic attack is so weird to me

MAYDAY MAYDAY

my family is going going to the beach this weekend (not to swim or anything it’s too cold) and my mom was saying how we’re gonna try a few restaurants and i’m so scared i’m gonna gain weight from this $hit

so ur telling me normal ppl don’t compulsively weigh themselves everytime they go to the bathroom ?

ok so i’ve lost 5 pounds by restricting and eating abt 400-500 calls a day

and i hv more motivation cuz i have a doctors appointment on the 24th so my mom is gonna see how much i way and i’m so scared

she’s gonna fat shame me i know it

~daily entry~

•july 2nd 2021•

today was better than yesterday. Wouldn’t even hv ate today if my mom didn’t make me stay downstairs with her. lost my control and ate :/

i think it’s okay tho bc i had a semi-healthy dinner with lots of protein. it also filled me up a lot which feels disgusting but ik i’ll still weigh less in the morning. i moved some furniture today and i’m sure that burned a lot of cals. disappointed that i ate bc i wasn’t even hungry.

~what i ate~

• few bites of steak
• 4 small grilled mushrooms w/ cheese
• banana baby puffs

total calories: <400

my ana buddy’s account disappeared:(( @nadwit where are you

3.11.21

~ 35 oz water

figured if i post my log now i cant eat for the rest of the night…

see this is why i need followers. anytime i think about eating i think “oh but my followers would be so disappointed” and then i dont eat

so hang around, it helps:)

My teacher: for our quarter final you will write a 8-10 minute speech of an interest or hobby

My interest and hobby: Depression music and scrolling through ED Tumblr

Me: HOW THE FU-

My mental illnesses: give up

So my mom is doing like a two week fast with a break in between for Christmas dinner. Which means my dad is going to be in charge of dinner, which means getting food delivered to eat and not eating together at the kitchen table. This is my chance to skip dinner as much as I please, and secretly fast with my mom.

I don’t think normal people will ever truly understand the millions of thoughts that run through your mind and the agonizing pain of deciding whether to eat or not. The amount of questions and calculations that I can’t stop:

What’s the portion size? Can I cut it down? How many calories is it? How many calories is my limit? How many calories have I had today? How many left in my daily limit? How many calories have I burned today already? How many more will I have to? How many miles do I have to run to burn that? Do I really want it? Really need it? What did I eat yesterday? How many calories? What about the days before? What am I going to eat tomorrow? Is mom cooking dinner? What she going to cook? How many calories? Or are we going out? Am I able to fast tomorrow? How long? At what time will I finish this meal? How much do I weight today? What’s the difference between last week? How many pounds to go until I reach my goal weight? How many days left until my selected date to reach it? What about my waist? Will it go up an inch? How much will I gain?…and on…and on.

It’s never fucking ending. Even after you’ve already taken a bite.

I’m so happy. So this morning when I woke up my collarbones were more prominent than usual, and I had less back fat. Stepped on the scale just now, 135.00. I’ve hit my GW2 and my pre-quarantine weight. I’ve officially lost the 22 pounds I gained!

Tried on my favorite pair of jeans that I’ve had since 8th grade(Size 4, AE mom jeans). They’re still way to tight, but at least I can zip them up now, I couldn’t before, so it’s at least progress . 15 pounds to go before they fit right, but I’ll weigh less than that when I hit my UGW. Can’t wait until they’re perfectly loose.

Does crying burn calories? Because otherwise, this shit is overrated.

We’re all going to die anyways, so I’ve come to the conclusion that I’d rather die skinny than fat.

Anyone else feeling like absolute shit right now? Like, can it get any worse?

Never knew how much I missed touching my collarbones until I could feel them again, and I never want to go back to being so disgusting that I couldn’t.

Anyone else feel sick to their stomach over the election. I’m low key terrified.

Why can’t I just take all the Halloween candy in my house and burn it? Can I just throw everything else in my pantry and fridge in the fire while I’m at it? It wouldn’t be a threat anymore.

You know what I just want to say to people sometimes?

It doesn’t matter if people say I’m gaining weight or losing weight, eating too much or too little, either way it triggers me really bad. So please mind your own fucking business and don’t comment on my weight or what I’m eating. Thanks. Have a nice day.

Also, parents please don’t say negative comments about your children’s weight or how they look, I’m sure you don’t want to be a reason for your child’s eating disorder because whether you believe it or not, it can affect them.

Day 16-30 lmao

I just decided to finish this.

16- Well my whole life, but seriously this last time was early September when I went back to in person school.

17- The rational part of my brain knows I do, but I sometimes feel like I’m faking it and don’t deserve to be validated.

18- Icecream and cheeseburgers

19- The last time I ate fast food is probably last week

20- fasting

21- US women’s 8-10/medium

22- My lowest weight is 126. Back in February I started ED tendencies and lost 10 pounds in a short period of time. Then when quarantine started I was really depressed and gave up. I ended up gaining over 30 pounds.

23- Yes

24- I am against pro eating disorders because it can be very harmful. I am not pro and my blog is for my own mental sanity. I only use those tags because their popular.

25- No, I haven’t, but I’ve tried, and was unsuccessful.

26- Proving the world wrong.

27- I just tell myself I’m in control. Food doesn’t control me. I control it. I try to remove myself from the situation.

28- of course I want a thigh gap. I don’t want to feel my fat thighs smushing together.

29- Beauty is in the eye of the behold. And I believe everyone’s body is beautiful.

30- 10 facts:

• I hate bananas

• I love Harry Potter(I’m a slytherin)

• I am an INFJ

• My favorite color is lilac

• My favorite numbers are 7 & 11

• I hate my name

• My favorite candy is Twizzlers

• I love to sing and write

• Minecraft, Avatat the Last Airbender, and Doctor Who was my childhood.

• I want to be Intetnal Medicine doctor.

So my ex-boyfriend texted me out of the blue a little while back, we hadn’t talked in months. Anyways we chill now and friends. But he wants to hang out. I don’t want to bc Im so embarrassed about my weight since I gained since I last saw him. I would never get back together with him for various reasons so it has nothing to do with that. It just gives my so much anxiety but I want to hang out.

My mom deadass just said “You only hate me because I’m just like you and you hate yourself.”

I’m just gonna leave it at that.

Just a tip(and I totallllyyy don’t know this from personal experience): Don’t stand up on you bed and then proceed to jump off of it when you’re fasting. It might not be a pleasant experience.

You know what, fuck Corona. Like I know I’m being selfish for whining when it’s actually affecting people’s lives, but if quarantine never happened I’d probably be fine right now. I never would of gained like 40 pounds, or started developing and ed as a result. Now I’m in a hole I can’t get out of. I used to be thin and happy. Now I’m fat and broken.