heyy so my main account is @cherry-flavoured-poison<3

cause I just realised that all my mutuals probably don’t realise I followed them back :(

GUYS I DID IT, I actually fucking did it, I wanted to reach my goal weight by Christmas and I did it!!!!<<<<33333

Aaaahhhhh I just needed to tell someone <3

I just want my bellybutton to be like

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Instead of

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Yanno

I just had a panic attack (and was literally sobbing uncontrollably on the kitchen floor til my parents found me) cause I had planned to have soup and boiled eggs for dinner and I couldn’t find the right spoon and the eggshells didn’t peel off smoothly enough…. Like…Umm wtf…..it’s not that deep babes xo

my mum just hugged me and said ‘I can feel your ribs… I shouldn’t be able to feel your ribs’ which made me happy until I realised there’s such a double standard for me and my sister like my mum would never say that to her and she’s skinnier than me but it’s because she’s always been skinny so they think it’s normal and healthy for her but I’ve always been fat so they think it’s unnatural and unhealthy for me (like yes I know I’ve lost weight in an unhealthy way but it makes me feel like I’ll always be seen as fat by the people who know me)

*trying to open up about my ed*

‘So do you just like not eat’

me: ‘obviously I eat’

‘Oh that’s good then, I’m glad it’s not serious’

Thank god for those diet pills man. I barely ate anything during Thanksgiving!! All I had was like to small pieces of ham and a couple spoonfulls of cream corn then I went to work and probably burned most if now all the cals!!

I’m also starting adhd meds that r suppose to make me lose helllllla weight so ya cant wait for that~

500 followers?!?!? Oh god ok here we go…

I am not pro shit!

I am surprised by how many people are following me and I just hope everyone here sees me as relatable and just trying to cope. To all of my followers I’m so sorry for the shit we gotta go through but I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YALL! If yall wanna dm and rant about binging hella ya I’ll rant with you! If u wanna tell me your thinking/going through recovery TELL ME!! I’ll hype you the fuck up!! I am not here to promote ed shit but I am here to make sure no one goes through it alone.

Lemon macaroons are SO good. The ones I have are 45 cal each and it is soo worth it

My fav fav fav thinspo is the ones where they’re so skinny that their jeans don’t fit their waist I want this so bad.

panera bread broccoli cheddar soup is abt 240 cals per cup which isn’t bad so that’s a good option if you have to eat something there !

02/19/21

i get braces today so i’m probably gonna fast for at least 48 hours and my mom won’t even question it!

wow so i’m back

boy has it been a long time…. anyways i ain’t gonna talk abt why i’m back LMFAO

i hate myself

~daily entry~

•july 2nd 2021•

today was better than yesterday. Wouldn’t even hv ate today if my mom didn’t make me stay downstairs with her. lost my control and ate :/

i think it’s okay tho bc i had a semi-healthy dinner with lots of protein. it also filled me up a lot which feels disgusting but ik i’ll still weigh less in the morning. i moved some furniture today and i’m sure that burned a lot of cals. disappointed that i ate bc i wasn’t even hungry.

~what i ate~

• few bites of steak
• 4 small grilled mushrooms w/ cheese
• banana baby puffs

total calories: <400

hey guys ! sorry i have been so absent… but i am back and worse than ever ! anyways… to keep me on track i’m going to do daily entry’s and all that. i feel like it keeps me focused and i do better lol

holy sh*t it’s been so long… i’m back to 156 and i’m going to the fucking beach in 6 days… if i fast and restrict HEAVY until then how much weight do y’all think i could loose….

GW2 REACHED !!

as of this morning i weighed in at 149 !! yeehaw !!!

new GW3 is 140 pounds

hopefully i can get to 140 soon so i can be ready for hot whether

YUHH

IM .6 POUNDS FROM MY SECOND GOAL WEIGHT ⁉️

omg i’ve been doing so good lately i’m so proud of myself

cw: 154.6

i gained a few pounds last week and got to 157 again so i’m really glad that i’m back down after a few days of fast and restriction.

i kinda have the urge to binge and i’m so scared i’m gonna fuck everything up

help lol

day 3 of fast

sorry i didn’t post when i started my fast lol it was kinda accidental

but anyways yeah this is the longest i’ve ever lasted so hopefully i can finish today and make it a FULL three days

wish me luck

tbh, i think cup of noodles is becoming a new safe food, it’s only 290 cals AND it’s really filling for me. it also satisfies my craving for salty food and junk food (even tho it is kinda junk food lolz)

155.6 pounds today :/

it’s been 6 days and i’ve only lost about 2 pounds. i guess that’s good with easter and and stuff but i am starting to get really anxious about summer.

my mom told me to pick out bathing suits and she told me to pick out some bikinis that i like… i’m so scared. i really need to get myself under control and loose at least 20 pounds before i have to wear a bathing suit.

WEIGH INNNN

IM 157 WHICH IS MY LOWEST WEIGHTTTT

FUCK YESSSS

FINALLY REACHED THE 150s!!!

i lost two pounds in a day from fasting so i’m gonna try to fast again today, or as long as i can last

i’m officially past my first goal weight!!!

y’all i been slacking

i only gained .4 pounds cuz i was still watching what i ate but just not as good

soooo i’m still only 1.8 pounds away from my first goal weight and i’m ready to get back on track and stop being fat :))

no way !!!

i’m only 1.2 pounds away from my first goalweight!

omg i’m so excited to get into the 150s !!!!

sorry i’ve been inactive :/

my mom is on my ass about grades and it’s been so overwhelming. AND my friend called me a fat ass today

it’s almost spring and i’m still a fat bitch