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some shitty ED memes <3

Purged again, the guilt just follows me.

I feel like I’m never gonna be able to escape my body and mind, they all work against me somehow, and idk what to do. At times all I want to be is happy, but my mind is clouded by food, i can’t stop the revolving inner monologue about calories and I’m so sick of it. I just want to be carefree and normal.

My boyfriend thinks I’m cheating because I close my apps quickly around him. When in reality I’m just worried he’s going to see me logging my calories and/or looking at thinspo…

If anyone needed motivation to drink water

21.01.21 update ✨

Fasting today :)

When I weighed myself this morning I was 134 lbs and omg I’m more than halfway between my start weight and my goal weight!

I made a meme

ED tumblr is a cult and I am proud to be a member /s ✨

R/edanonymemes

18.01.21 update ✨

Probably ate well over 3k calories this weekend, my boyfriend made a comment to me about how he’s worried I have an eating disorder so I ate everything in the house to compensate.

I feel like such a failure.

I’m huge.

Love getting cute texts from my boyfriend

Jan 15 body check

Today was the first time I saw my boyfriend since he has to quarantine for Covid.

I lost 15 pounds in those two weeks and I thought he wouldn’t notice but he’s called me tiny like 6 times and he told me I look skinny

I ate normally today because I didn’t want him to be sus to I’ll just have to work it off when he’s sleeping or something

r/edanonymemes

10.01.21 update

Breakfast: fast

Lunch: fast

Dinner: 2 sushi rolls (≈500cals?)

Broke a 30 hr fast with sushi cause my bf wanted to go get dinner.

Purged what I could 45 mins later when I had dropped him off and was heading home.

Exercise:

2 hrs of light cycling: 600 cals

1 and ½ hours of walk/run with my dog: 300cals

Idk my real net bc I purged but let’s just say,

✨Total: -400cals✨

It’s impossible to imagine myself as thin as these models in my thinspos :(

09.01.21 update

Fasted all day and exercised by stationary cycling for and hour and a half, burned about 700 cals :)

Total intake: -700cals

Curious as to what y’all think about Eugenia Cooney?

Went out to dinner with my bf to break a 30 hour fast and after I dropped him off at his house I pulled over and threw up everything I could.

My eyes are swollen and puffy now, and I still feel guilty for eating.

My bf sent me this and idk how to feel. He doesn’t know ab my ed.

My fav fav fav thinspo is the ones where they’re so skinny that their jeans don’t fit their waist I want this so bad.

MAYDAY MAYDAY

my family is going going to the beach this weekend (not to swim or anything it’s too cold) and my mom was saying how we’re gonna try a few restaurants and i’m so scared i’m gonna gain weight from this $hit

so ur telling me normal ppl don’t compulsively weigh themselves everytime they go to the bathroom ?

ok so i’ve lost 5 pounds by restricting and eating abt 400-500 calls a day

and i hv more motivation cuz i have a doctors appointment on the 24th so my mom is gonna see how much i way and i’m so scared

she’s gonna fat shame me i know it